In the car, Zheng Yueyue asked: "Are you and Mr. Cheng really high school classmates?"
Yeqin: "Yes."
"Isn't he from City S?"
"I used to be from the capital."
"You two went to the same middle school?" Zheng Yueyue still didn't quite believe it, "I heard that Mr. Cheng graduated from a prestigious American school, so I thought he had lived abroad since he was a child."
Ye Qin thought for a while and said, "He was excellent when he was studying in China, and he is not surprised to be admitted to any school."
Song? also curiously came up to gossip. Ye Qin picked what he could say, including that he had won many competition awards in high school, and he was a well-deserved top student.
After hearing this, Zheng Yueyue said suspiciously: "I see that you know him so well, unlike ordinary classmates, he stepped forward to save you just now." Then he persuaded him, "If you have such a capable friend, hurry up and get in touch, don't be stupid." Just pretend not to know each other, and they don't lack a classmate like you who is close to building a relationship."
Ye Qin shook his head and said nothing.
At night, the lights in City S flickered, and the city was like day, but it was cold in his pupils.
He knew that if it was a passerby who had never met in the hotel downstairs just now, Cheng Feichi would also lend a helping hand. That move was not to protect him, but a normal reaction to follow his heart.
That's why Ye Qin felt cold when he heard Cheng Feichi frankly admitted that the two knew each other.
He suddenly remembered that when he first debuted, the company used his family background to hype him up and described him as "the proud son of heaven in the mud".
The real proud son of heaven is Cheng Feichi. He is upright and magnanimous, kind and gentle, he will not bully the weak, and he will not use the methods he used back then to carry out dirty revenge.
He is so different from himself, no matter the huge waves or the abyss, it is impossible to trap him in place.
The shooting in S City lasted for three days.
In the afternoon of the next day, Yeqin's tailbone hurt more than yesterday, and the plaster didn't help. After standing for several hours, I managed to sit down and rest for a while, and stood up again in less than five minutes, and the painful electric current blasted from the bone crevice went straight to the forehead.
Ye Qin's eyes turned pale, and he almost fainted. Zheng Yueyue was afraid that he would have an accident if he was so tough, so she quickly asked him for leave, sent him to the taxi to the hospital, and asked him to buy a bottle of Wanhua oil to rub his forehead.
On the way, Ye Qin was still thinking about whether he would deduct his wages if he missed two clips in the afternoon. When he went to the registration toll office, he was reluctant to sign up for an expert account worth more than ten yuan, so he registered for an ordinary account for five yuan.
The hospitals in S City were as overcrowded as the capital, and Yeqin waited for half an hour at the door of the consultation room before it was Yeqin's turn. The doctor heard that he was injured in the tailbone, and ordered him to take an X-ray without even looking at it.
Ye Qin picked up the mask on the bridge of his nose, thinking that luckily he didn't need to look at it, it would be too embarrassing to take off his pants on the spot.
There was another long queue, and the doctor in the imaging department told him to pick up X-rays from the machine in an hour. Yeqin had nothing to do, and it was uncomfortable to sit and wait, so he simply went back to the consulting room to find a doctor.
The elderly doctor didn't think he was an eyesore, so he chatted with him during the consultation, saying that more and more young people are suffering from spondylosis nowadays, especially those who love beauty like him, who don't even know their bones are frozen. Gotta take it.
Ye Qin looked down at the performance costume he was wearing under the vest, the lower abdomen was almost completely hollowed out from the side of the waist, and the navel was exposed, he raised his head and said to the doctor with a smile: "I need it for my job, I can't help it, just eat. "
The aunt who was seeing a doctor next to her cast a surprised look.
When the time was almost up, Ye Qin closed the front of his vest and took the elevator to the first floor to get the film.
While waiting in line, an ambulance stopped at the door. Doctors, nurses and several family members of the patients surrounded the cart and fought their way through the crowd. People around them also consciously dispersed to the side.
Ye Qin didn't know that his shoelaces were untied, and he stumbled when he stepped back. Fortunately, the person behind him gave him a hand so he wouldn't fall down.
He turned his head and thanked him, but he was stunned as soon as he uttered the word "thank you".
The person who helped him was Cheng Feichi.
Once upon a time, the arrogant Ye Qin thought that if he was not willing to condescend, the worlds of him and Cheng Feichi would never have intersected. Just like the rich who go to high-end restaurants and private clinics, and the civilians who squeeze into roadside stalls and public hospitals, they are not in the same class since birth.
Now that the situation is reversed, he realizes how naive and ridiculous he was when he used money to raise his status.
"Thank you." He still said the most suitable words to resist embarrassment at the moment, and then tightened his clothes to cover the exposed costumes, and asked out of words, "It's such a coincidence, are you here to visit?"
Cheng Feichi wore a simple T-shirt and trousers today, but his sense of distance was no less than when he wore a suit and leather shoes yesterday. He let out a "hmm", glanced at the medical record in Ye Qin's hand, and asked, "Are you sick?"
"Ah? Ah... a small problem. I accidentally knocked my head while skating. I came to prescribe some plaster. The doctor insisted that I take a picture."
Ye Qin didn't know why he had to say such details, obviously the other party was just asking casually. After he finished speaking, he regretted it, and felt like a villain who turned his back on what he said. Yesterday he pretended to say that he didn't know him, and today he was rushing to get close to others.
Cheng Feichi said "um" again, and stopped talking.
Ye Qin lowered his head, not daring to look at him. He stared at the medical record in his hand, and his thoughts suddenly drifted back to the summer vacation six years ago.
At that time, the two were very affectionate, and they had to sleep next to each other at night. I remember one time when he burned his skin because of walking too long under the scorching sun, Cheng Feichi watched over him all night, wiped him with a wet towel to help him relieve the burning sensation, held him in his arms and patted his back, Whispered comforting in his ear: "It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt anymore."
Actually, it didn't hurt much, but he wanted to be coaxed by Cheng Feichi, deliberately pretended to be in pain, and tried every means to get into Cheng Feichi's arms.
Later, Cheng Feichi heard the popular science from somewhere, saying that sunburned skin needs shade and ventilation, and you should never get close to the heat source, so Ye Qin crawled over and pushed people away, pushing them again and again, so ruthless that he almost cried. After being pushed away for the last time, he kicked Cheng Feichi, telling him to go out to sleep and not be an eyesore in front of him.
Cheng Feichi really went out. In less than ten minutes, Yeqin regretted it. He sneaked to the door with bare feet, held the doorknob in his hand, and put his ear on the door panel to listen to the movement outside. Cheng Feichi stood at the door, opened his arms and said with a smile, "Now I can hug you."
He actually used just ten minutes to go to the bathroom and take a cold shower. Even if he knew he might catch a cold, even if he knew his body temperature would rise, he only had five minutes at most for them to hug.
Ye Qin still remembers the feeling of throwing himself into his arms, the word sweet can't describe one ten-thousandth of this full sense of happiness.
But now, the two stood in front of each other, keeping a social distance of one meter. Cheng Feichi neither evaded nor cared too much, as if returning to the previous guard posture.
No, it is an invisible isolation that is stricter than the cordon, as if everything about him has nothing to do with him, and he doesn't want to understand it anymore.
And I owed him too many "thank you" and "sorry", I couldn't bear to say it at the time, but now I lost the position to say it.
After getting the X-ray, Ye Qin said goodbye to Cheng Feichi, turned his head and ran away, ignoring the pain in his tailbone.
Relying on his lack of popularity, he went on a rampage in a big public hospital. When Zhou Feng called, he took off his mask and talked to him.
"I've found him! I've found him! I've found him!"
When Zhou Feng came up, he roared like a bell. Ye Qin thought he pressed the repeat button by mistake, took the phone away, covered his ears and said, "Those who don't know think you are going to be a father."
"I've found everyone, is it still far away to be a father?... Forget it, I'll be an older brother." Zhou Feng was immersed in excitement and couldn't help it, "We were all misled before, thinking that the postcard was sent from H province , he must be in H province, but he is actually in the capital!"
Ye Qin learned from him that Liao Yifang was teaching history in a middle school in the capital, and he couldn't help being surprised: "The class leader had such good grades back then, and he also planned to go abroad. Isn't it too condescending to be a teacher?"
Zhou Feng was silent for a moment when he heard the words, and said: "It's all my fault. It must be because he changed schools before the college entrance examination, which affected his future." After a while, he regained his confidence, "It's okay, I will give him a better life in the future. Please wait I have to forgive you, I will take him to get the certificate, and then you will be our witness."
Not long after the country passed the same-sex marriage law, Zhou Feng vowed to be the first batch of people to eat crabs. Ye Qin reminded him to close the house first, Zhou Feng said indifferently: "I am in love with him, it is reasonable and legal, I have obeyed their orders and joined the army, what can they say?"
Ye Qin still felt something was wrong, and asked him, "Are you sincere this time?"
"Damn." Zhou Feng swears, "You don't think I've been playing around until now, do you?"
"What about Sun Yiran?"
Mentioning the past, Zhou Feng couldn't help feeling guilty: "Yi Ran has a boyfriend who is talking about getting married now, and she is doing well. I talked to her on the phone two days ago, and she said that the past is over, and she still has a boyfriend. Invite us to get together when we have time... I just thought, when I see Yuanyuan, I have to show 200% sincerity, even more sincerity than the oath when I joined the army. Will you forgive me?"
Ye Qin didn't know what to think of, his eyes were in a trance for a moment, and he said, "Not necessarily."
Zhou Feng didn't get the affirmation, and he said angrily: "I haven't seen you for a few years, Aqin, why did you become like this? Can't you encourage me?"
Ye Qin smiled wryly, he couldn't take care of himself, how could he cheer others up.
Zhou Feng sighed suddenly, and when he spoke again, his tone became solemn: "In these years, I look at the endless wilderness and the yellow sand all over the sky, and I think about him the most. When I sleep, I wonder if he is asleep. When I was eating, I wondered if he had eaten. When the company commander spoke on stage, it could be seen that he was speaking under the national flag. Maybe it was because of the background. There are a bunch of rough guys in the army, which one is as sweet as his smile, to me So wholeheartedly okay?"
He laughed at himself while talking, cleared his throat and said: "Then Aqin, you can teach me some experience, I am afraid that seeing his legs trembling and unable to speak, I will make the students in his class laugh at that time. "
Yeqin, who had just met someone he had missed for five years, had the right to speak at this moment.
He looked up at the plain white ceiling of the hospital, pondered for a long time, and tried to convert it into common language as he was afraid that Zhou Feng would not be able to understand: "If you haven't thought about it, don't say a word. And... I have been thinking about it for many years. To tell the truth, don’t be shy, and tell him every word seriously.”
While there is still a chance.
On the day he returned to the capital, Yeqin just received a contract from the crew that auditioned last time.
Zheng Yueyue was so overjoyed that she asked Ye Qin to sign the contract and send it back early in the morning, and then began planning to find an assistant for him. Although it's just an idol drama, not a big production, and the filming in S city only took more than a month, but at least it has the name of the male third, and it's too unpopular for the actors to move in with their own bags.
After a lot of effort, he contacted many parties to appoint the assistant, and then took Ye Qin to the supermarket for big purchases.
Ye Qin participated in the filming of the outdoor sports program for three full days, and went back to the dormitory without taking a break. He yawned and even followed Zheng Yueyue, watching her throw pots, pans and pans and all kinds of daily necessities into the shopping cart without stopping.
"It's not the first time filming, so there's no need to prepare so much."
No matter what Ye Qin said, he debuted for almost five years. He hadn't filmed any serious TV dramas, but he still made a lot of low-budget online dramas and micro movies. He felt that Zheng Yueyue was making a fuss out of a molehill and was too nervous.
"Why don't you need it?" Zheng Yueyue took a few bottles of mosquito repellent toilet water and looked at it in her hands, "You were filming on the mountain in the suburbs of S city, it's inconvenient to take a bath, and you don't know how fierce the mosquitoes are on the mountain, do you? Bitten your skin and tender flesh into a sieve, and when you drink water, it sprays out like a shower."
Ye Qin was frightened by her description, took the initiative to put away the bottles of toilet water, and carried a bottle in his pocket when he went up the mountain the next day.
As the anniversary of his mother Luo Qiuling's death approached, Ye Qin was afraid that he would have to join the group early for filming later and would not have time to go back to the capital, so he wanted to go see it first.
Luo Qiuling was buried in the Luo family's cemetery, which was located in the mountains like her grandfather.
In the past, when I came here, I would take the car to the Luo family's villa on the mountain, and it was only two steps away the next morning. Now that he has no car and no house, Yeqin hiked up the mountain, and booked a single room at a B&B on the mountain with his mobile phone while walking.
With his footsteps, it would be dark when he reached the mountain, so he could only stay overnight and get up tomorrow morning to worship in Muling.
The air quality was bad today, and the mountains were filled with mist. Ye Qin was halfway up the mountain, and when he looked up, he couldn't see the winding mountain road in front of him clearly.
It was already evening, and the occasional passers-by were also going down the mountain. He had the idea of returning to another day and took out his mobile phone to check out the reserved room. However, the refund button did not work. When he turned back, he found that it said "No Refunds for Special Offers".
Ye Qin was reluctant to part with the money, thought for a moment, gritted his teeth, and then climbed up.
Gradually, the floating clouds turned into black mist around the mountains, and the green mountains and green hills also became gloomy and dim after the last ray of light was taken away by the sun.
In the evening when there was only the breeze and the rustling of leaves, Yeqin found himself lost.
He didn't remember when he left the stone path, but he only remembered that this metasequoia forest was not the first time he had seen it. When I passed by last time, there was still sunlight pouring out from between the straight tree trunks, but now there are only dark broken shadows left.
After going around a few more times, Yeqin began to get scared.
Before his breath became short of breath, he pulled out his cell phone to make a call. Zhou Feng and Song Yu couldn't get through on the phone, and Zheng Yueyue was at work, so he asked him to call the police for help.
He dialed the number, and the three numbers "110" stayed on the screen for a long time. He didn't press the dial until the sound of insects started to chirp and the coolness of the mountain night hit his heart.
But Tang Chong called halfway, I don't know if he heard something. Thinking that nothing good would come out of that mouth, Ye Qin pressed the button but didn't answer.
Another gust of wind passed by, he licked his dry lips, slowly cleared the numbers on the screen, and pressed a series of numbers that he knew by heart again.
When Cheng Feichi had just left, he couldn't sleep all night long, nestled in the house in Jiayuan community, and when he heard any disturbance, he thought it was him who came back. He moved the pillow and quilt to the door, and listened to the movement outside the door at any time, from the elevator, from the stairwell, even the sound of the window being blown by the wind, and the sound of the car starting from the downstairs. .
Later, he realized that his state was not normal, he used various methods to force himself to calm down, and kept telling himself that Cheng Feichi went to the United States, and he would come back when he wanted to. He likes my obedient appearance the most, I just need to be good Just wait.
And then what
Later, when his mother left, he was admitted to C University but couldn't continue his studies. He stumbled into the entertainment circle, experienced a life that he never thought of before, and saw many ugliness in the world. The practice of reality made him stronger day by day, as if he had put on a mask for himself and painted thick oil paint on the mask.
But what's the use, isn't it broken into pieces the first time you see him
His so-called strength is built in the air, hollow and has an unstable foundation, so all the bravery and fearlessness come from the weakness of the heart, and it will fall apart as soon as you beat it.
He has never walked out of that demonic barrier, and has been trapped in it to cover his ears and steal his bell, surviving on an ignoble existence.
Five years later, he tried his best to force himself to grow up, but he still lived like this ghost.
In fact, he has not grown up at all, he is still cowardly, selfish, hypocritical, and greedy, and now he is still trying to rely on Cheng Feichi's return to find a reason to regain his strength.
Ye Qin crouched down slowly in the dark, and buried his face in his palms.
There was no one around, at this moment, he didn't want to use a smile to pretend that he didn't care, and he didn't want to use openness to pretend to be calm, and let the fear and panic that had been suppressed since Cheng Feichi reappeared until today be released to his heart's content.
Everything in the world is the source of his fear.
He was afraid of the dark, afraid of being alone, afraid of being manipulated by others, afraid of Cheng Feichi leaving, and even more afraid that Cheng Feichi would stop paying attention to him after he came back.
With cold and trembling hands, he dialed the number. Before he heard the harsh busy tone, Ye Qin choked up with a tear and said, "I...I miss you so much...Brother."