In the confined and narrow space, the sound was infinitely amplified by the rebound of the four walls, and even the slightest sob could not escape the human ear.
Ye Qin didn't want to cry. He held back his tears at his mother's funeral, he didn't cry when he had nowhere to go to enter the entertainment industry, he didn't cry when he was bullied, he didn't cry when he talked about the past with his friends. It was really uncomfortable, and the tears swirled in my eyes before swallowing them back, so I could deceive myself and others as if nothing happened.
He is no longer a child, and he knows that crying will not solve any problems, it will only make people think that he is cowardly and bully, and he can be thrown into the dirt with just a finger. He wants to survive, wants to be strong, and wants Cheng Feichi to see his stable and reliable side.
The words of darkness alone were not enough to make him shed tears. What he was afraid of was being hated by Cheng Feichi, afraid that he would never be able to get close to him again. They were too far apart, the body distance was less than two meters, but there seemed to be a gully between them, life and death were no longer important in front of this long distance.
Tears flowed down uncontrollably, Ye Qin was really terrified. He clenched his fists hard, nails embedded in his palms, not letting his upper and lower teeth collide and tremble: "The first, first time, it was my manager who took me there to say hello to some bosses I hadn't seen before. I don't know... I don't know you will Come."
Cheng Feichi didn't make a sound to stop him, so he continued talking.
"The second time, in the hospital, the tailbone was really injured, and plasters and plasters didn't work, so I asked for leave to see a doctor. I still keep the pictures I took, and I can show them to you."
"The third time, on the mountain, I went to visit my mother's grave the next morning. I didn't, I didn't expect to get lost, and I didn't expect to get through when I called you. The hotel has been booked a long time ago. If you don't believe me, I can give you Look at the order record."
"The fourth time, Tang Chong lied to me that you were drunk there, and I didn't realize I was cheated until I passed by. The fifth time, it was still Tang Chong's trick... He has a little bit of trouble with me."
In the process of narrating one by one, Ye Qin slowly let go.
He was afraid of the dark, but the dark environment gave him courage. Not being able to see each other's faces, he can pretend that face and dignity don't exist.
Anyway, it's not the first time he's been so disrespectful in front of Cheng Feichi. It's better to just break the jar and finish what he wants to say, than to hesitate and drag his feet.
"This time, I'm here to record a program. I heard that you might be here, so I asked my assistant to send the clothes over." Finally talking about the current situation, Ye Qin felt both powerless and relaxed, "Take this elevator It’s because there are fans downstairs, I didn’t… didn’t play…”
After struggling for a long time, I still couldn't say "Love Game". Hearing the still steady breathing by his ear, Ye Qin lowered his shoulders in frustration and said, "I promise, this must... must be the last time."
For some reason, the word "last time" touched a sensitive nerve in Cheng Feichi's brain, and his fingers hanging by his side moved, as if his only reaction after hearing the words.
The staff who repaired the elevator arrived in no time.
The elevator was stuck slightly above the middle of the seventh and eighth floors, and the person who responded to them threw a rescue rope from the eighth floor.
Cheng Feichi wanted to send Ye Qin up first, but Ye Qin shook his head and stepped back, looking down at the ground: "You...you go up first."
Standing under the light source, he started stuttering again.
Cheng Feichi had no choice but to go up first, then squatted down and reached out to pull him. Ye Qin grabbed the rope and didn't dare to move. In the end, he was really scared, so he raised his hand to hold Cheng Feichi's hand. After climbing up with his strength, he immediately let go, and didn't dare to stay for a second.
His nose was red and he looked terribly frozen, his hands were also cold, and his face was mottled and criss-crossed with tears. The bath towel wrapped around his body fell off when the elevator descended at a high speed, and now he was only wearing a wet T-shirt and slacks, which were tightly attached to his body, making him appear to have a slender waist and protruding shoulder blades on his back superior. Except for his height, everything else is so thin that he doesn't look like a twenty-three-year-old grown man.
Several staff members were explaining to Cheng Feichi the cause of the elevator failure. Ye Qin got a rough idea. It turned out that Cheng Feichi was here to inspect the work. The leader encountered such a thing in the elevator, no wonder they were so frightened.
At this moment, Cheng Feichi's face was very ugly, and Ye Qin guessed that besides the elevator accident, there should be a reason for his nonsense in the elevator just now. He seized the gap in the conversation and interjected in a low voice: "Excuse me, then I... I'll go first."
Unable to think of any action to match this sentence, Ye Qin bowed habitually, then turned his head and ran away.
The mobile phone was covered with damp in his pocket, and it took a long time to unlock it. Ye Qin called Xiaoyun while walking, and turned a corner from the side door to the outside. Just as he was drenched in the rain, he bumped into a group of people holding the word "Congratulations". The girl with the lights.
The leading girl let out a groan, and led the group of people behind to hula la and ran this way. Ye Qin scolded He Hansong 10,000 times in his heart, and looked around anxiously, looking for a place to hide. Seeing the safety exit light not far away, I was about to go there, but suddenly someone grabbed my arm from behind.
Ye Qin thought he was in an ambush, and was about to struggle, when he turned to face Cheng Feichi, his tense muscles immediately lost their strength.
Cheng Feichi had the same idea as Ye Qin, and led him into the stairwell that usually only the cleaning staff would enter, down to the parking lot on the basement level, through the winding corridors, and came to an elevator where no one was waiting.
Ye Qin was in the shadow of the elevator at the moment, he shrank his neck and took a step back, saying, "I'll just go to the stairwell and wait. They didn't come to look for me, they left in a while."
After hearing what he said, Cheng Feichi held the hand that had slipped onto his wrist and said, "This is a special elevator, nothing will happen."
Thinking about it carefully, there is no direct connection between "special elevator" and "it will be fine", but Ye Qin easily accepted this logic, let out a blank "Oh", and followed Cheng Feichi to the elevator that went directly to the top floor.
The top floor of the hotel is a private venue that is not open to the public. The aisle is very quiet, and you can hardly hear the sound when you step on the carpet. There was no number on the door of the suite, and the door was locked with a fingerprint. After Cheng Feichi went in first, Ye Qin stood at the door with his hands behind his back, hesitating not to go in.
In a place where no one was watching, he secretly rubbed his right hand around the skin on his left wrist where the temperature was higher than elsewhere: "My feet are dirty... can I take off my shoes?"
Cheng Feichi turned to look at him, a look of surprise flashed in his eyes. After a pause, he said, "Come in directly without taking off your shoes."
This penthouse suite obviously belongs to Cheng Feichi's private area, and the decoration is different from the other rooms in the hotel. It is simple and clean in gray and white tones.
The place where the TV is placed in the living room has been changed to a bookshelf on the entire wall. There is a mug on the table in the dining room. There is only one set of towels, slippers, and toothbrushes in the bathroom. There are traces of life everywhere. From this, it can be inferred that Cheng Feichi often lives in here.
Just as Ye Qin hung up the call to report to his assistant, there was a knock on the bathroom door. Cheng Feichi didn't come in, just passed the toiletries in through the crack of the door, and told him through the door: "Hot water on the left, cold water on the right."
Yeqin stood in front of the mirror unpacking new slippers, and occasionally looked up to see himself with crumpled clothes and messy hair, his beating heart gradually slowed down and returned to normal frequency.
Every kind-hearted person would probably feel pity for such a miserable appearance, like saving a dog in the water.
After taking a hot bath, Ye Qin felt warm and revived. He was afraid that Cheng Feichi wouldn't be able to wait too long after washing, and his hair would come out without wiping. He saw a glass of water and two cold capsules on the table, and heard the movement from the kitchen, so he settled down.
Although the cup is disposable, there is no lollipop as a reward for obediently finishing the medicine.
The air conditioner in the room was turned on too high, coupled with tension and restraint, I broke out in a thin sweat after sitting for a while. Ye Qin passed the dining room on the pretext of temperature, and sneaked a look into the kitchen. Cheng Feichi stood in front of the stove with his back to him, his shirt cuff buttons unbuttoned, revealing a smooth forearm.
Looking at his back, Ye Qin recalled in a daze the time when they lived together in Jiayuan Community. At that time, Cheng Feichi was standing in the kitchen cooking like this, and when he heard footsteps, he would turn his head and smile at him.
He endured and endured, so he didn't rush forward to hug this long-lost figure like before.
He was afraid of scaring people away, so he would never come back.
I am even more afraid that I will be greedy for warmth and never want to let go.
Cheng Feichi didn't like eating out before, and he still doesn't like it now.
Two bowls of egg noodles were placed on the table. Seeing that Ye Qin was eating slowly, he asked, "Isn't it suitable? I'll call room service for you."
It's lunch time, and the kitchen of the star hotel offers all kinds of delicacies, and nothing is better than this simple bowl of noodles.
"It fits well, very well." Ye Qin hurriedly said, "It's just a little... hot."
He is not good at lying, his eyes wandered around and couldn't find a place, he stiffly picked up two noodles, moved his lips and squeezed them into his mouth bit by bit, as if he was really afraid of being hot.
When Cheng Feichi finished eating, Ye Qin had eaten less than a third of it. Seeing him get up, he put down his chopsticks and stood up too.
"Put it on the table if you can't finish eating." Cheng Feichi went to wash his hands, and explained while putting on his coat, "Take the special elevator to the basement floor, turn left and right in the corridor, then turn right again, and go straight up the stairs to the back door. You can get a taxi by the side.”
Ye Qin knew that he was leaving, and the time for a meal was too short, so he didn't have time to say anything.
He wanted to ask Cheng Feichi if he had seen the note stuffed in his suit pocket. He wanted to ask how you have lived the past five years. How are your hands? He also wanted to ask if you still hate me. Can you calm down if you are beaten and scolded, even if it's just a little sesame seed.
Ye Qin followed him like a tail, flustered and hesitant to speak, which made Cheng Feichi think of something. He took out his wallet from the inside pocket of his coat, and took out a few hundred yuan notes: "It should be enough to go to Cangquan Mountain."
Raising and lowering his hand, Ye Qin struggled repeatedly between taking it and not taking it. It seems very worthless to take it, and if he doesn't take it, he doesn't know what to use to establish contact with Cheng Feichi in the future.
Seeing that he could not make up his mind, Cheng Feichi put the money on the cabinet in the entrance, turned around and wanted to leave.
A hand grabbed the hem of his clothes from behind.
This time it was probably the courage given by the bowl of noodles, Ye Qin said anxiously: "What I said is true, what I said in the elevator... I didn't lie to you."
I won't lie to you again, never, ever, ever again.
He knew that there was still a long way to go before he could be forgiven, but he just didn't want to add another layer of inextricable misunderstanding to this already riddled relationship.
The wall clock in the living room ticked away, as if hope was lost every second. Counting to twenty silently in his heart, Ye Qin thought it was over, curled up his fingers, and slowly retracted them.
As expected, but still feel sad.
When he counted to thirty, Cheng Feichi, who was facing the door, moved his body. He turned his head slightly, his gaze drooped, and fell on Yeqin's ring-wearing hand.
Ye Qin heard him respond in a low voice: "En."