Yeqin struggled with this question all night.
Cheng Feichi left before ten o'clock, saying that he had booked a hotel nearby, but Ye Qin was not bold enough to stay here overnight, so he obediently sent him to the door.
After leaving the future, Feichi still took the initiative: "I'm going to go to another place tomorrow, and come later."
Ye Qin still didn't quite understand his purpose of telling him his whereabouts, and he only let out a sigh of relief when he returned to the house.
The next morning, I called Liao Yifang according to Zhou Feng's instructions. I had planned a set of excuses, but Liao Yifang preemptively said: "That little girl is his own business, does Ye know?"
Ye Qin regained the fear of being dominated by the class monitor when he was in school, and showed his most sincere acting skills since his debut: "I don't know, what little girl? He went out to make trouble again?"
"That's not true, it's the little girl who said she was your fan last time." Liao Yifang sighed, "Forget it, I'm stupid, I can't even see such a childish trick."
"No, no, that guy Zhou Feng is too cunning." Ye Qin tested his attitude, saw that he was not very angry, and asked, "Squad leader, how did you find out?"
"He took a picture of the gate of our school and posted it on Weibo, with the location."
"Maybe that little girl just passed by?"
"At that time, I was sitting in the reception room, and he was alone at the door."
Ye Qin: "..." He was so stupid that he got all the stolen goods, and he was highly regarded for being cunning.
Since I came here as a lobbyist, I still have to continue to say good things: "He also wants to reconcile with you too much. He rushed to the doctor in a hurry, and his motives are good."
Liao Yifang was silent for a moment, then said "En".
Ye Qin wanted to say something nice for Zhou Feng again, but he interrupted lightly: "Next month, on the 15th, our class reunion, are you coming, classmate Ye?"
Ye Qin knew about this class reunion, his QQ account was still in the class group, and every year at this time, he would receive a special from all members, and occasionally he would enter the group and climb upstairs to take a peek at the screen, but he didn't dare to come out.
After experiencing such earth-shaking family changes and failing to study in university, Ye Qin is very clear about his image in everyone's eyes. He gloats and sees things too often, even if his old classmates are kind-hearted, he can't stand being looked at in a different light.
Perhaps it was the residual pride in his bones that caused the trouble. From being unrestrained and generous, treating guests and giving favors at will, to being inferior and being taken care of by others everywhere, he has not been able to fully adapt to this change so far.
"Forget it." Ye Qin found a reason to refuse, "My legs are still not sharp, so it's inconvenient to go out."
Liao Yifang is thoughtful, so he naturally knows what he is worried about: "Everyone misses you very much, so we just have a meal and chat. In the past few years, we also got together every year. The atmosphere is very good, and it won't embarrass you."
Since entering the entertainment industry, Ye Qin has not had any contact with his former friends. Zhou Feng only gradually contacted him after he retired from the army. It is impossible to say that he does not miss him at all.
Ye Qin scratched his head and didn't talk too much: "Let me think about it for two days, okay?"
Because of his leg injury, Ye Qin didn't take a shower these days.
Yesterday he jumped a long way and was sweating all over. He smelled that his body was about to stink, so he decided to take a shower while Cheng Feichi was away.
The wound should not touch the water, and the preparatory work must be sufficient. Yeqin found a plastic bag and put it on his left leg. Wrapped the wide tape around the seal several times to ensure that no water would enter. He pushed the shower head as far as possible against the wall in the shower room. With the door ajar, he carried a small Stools are placed outside to rest the legs.
However, the ideal is full and the reality is slightly skinny. Yeqin’s imagination of ease and ease did not happen. The shower head in disrepair sprayed water everywhere, splashing outside and making the ground wet and slippery. Slipping but not falling is due to the solid support of the arms.
Yeqin, whose legs and feet are not good recently, often used his arms instead, thought that the biceps should be the first to swell.
He was still thinking about the class reunion, and while rubbing his back with difficulty, he wondered whether he would go or not? When you go, how do you introduce your profession after greeting each other? Need to buy a new suit? Fall clothes are so precious when they first hit the market...why didn't he return that coat to me
Thoughts wandered around the periphery for a few times, and finally circled back to Cheng Feichi. Ye Qin muttered to himself that he said he would come later yesterday, what time is the later? Come to dinner? Can I leave later if I come later
This question didn't bother Ye Qin for too long. He had just finished taking a shower and sat on the sofa to remove the tape from his legs when Cheng Feichi came.
Ye Qin couldn't wait to open the door, and then he realized that he looked weird at the moment, and embarrassedly hid his injured leg, which was still wrapped in a plastic bag, behind his back.
Cheng Feichi glanced at him after entering the door, but said nothing.
Just when Ye Qin thought he would go into the kitchen like before, he took a dry towel out from the bathroom, covered Ye Qin's head without any explanation, and stood behind him to help him wipe it off.
Once upon a time, Yeqin had enjoyed this kind of treatment, and this was not the first time for him. But at this moment, he didn't know what happened, he didn't dare to move while standing, his neck was slightly bent, and his gaze was down, like a primary school student waiting for the teacher to speak.
It was more like a conditioned reflex, because Cheng Feichi would check his homework during the time when they lived together.
He lazily held up the small test paper, and Cheng Feichi wiped his head while reading, his deep voice was sometimes clear and sometimes blurred because of the towel covering his ears: "The third question uses the wrong formula... The seventh question is unclear... Turn over Facing... the last line of English, carefully check which word is misspelled... if you can't find it, copy it back fifty times."
At that time, he complained all day long about Cheng Feichi's ruthless oppression of his boyfriend. Now that he thinks about it, that was the happiest time in his life, and he would be happy to let him do a hundred more quizzes.
Lunch was bone broth and sweet and sour eggplant with leftover vegetable chowder from yesterday.
There is a casserole for stewing soup in the kitchen. Yeqin went out to buy it during the day yesterday. When Cheng Feichi asked, he said that he dug it out of the cupboard, washed it casually and it looked new, and the landlord allowed him to use it.
The purpose of mentioning this is to prove that I usually have a good relationship with the landlord, and to observe Cheng Feichi's reaction to what I saw yesterday. However, Cheng Feichi just nodded and didn't say anything. He soaked the casserole in clean water for a few minutes, and then used it to make soup.
After dinner, Yeqin hid in the room under the pretext of taking a nap.
Everything was fine, Cheng Feichi did not reject his approach, took the initiative to take care of him, did not respond to his abnormal behavior, and even held his hand, these are all good signs.
But he still felt uneasy, especially during the period when he was just separated from his memories, he was uneasy if he didn't get a response, and he was also uneasy when he got a response. It was really like Zhou Feng said, he was doing as badly as before.
Ye Qin turned over on the bed and hung his injured leg on the edge of the bed.
What if I get better? Will Cheng Feichi leave? Go back to S city, and then get married
He remembered what Cheng Xin said, if it doesn't end this year, it will always end next year or the year after. In the past, it was mostly luck that caught him, but now, is he so stupid that he can break his leg while walking
Ye Qin has always been a person who is extremely eager for a sense of security. The actions that hurt Cheng Feichi in the past were one of his ways of probing. Even though it seems naive and nasty now, he at the time felt what he had in Cheng Feichi's heart from these reactions. status.
Even when she tried every means to sleep with him back then, it was to find peace of mind and to stay in his world for a little longer.
It seemed to have become his trademark—proving love and showing it was all so gut-wrenching and gut-wrenching.
Five years later, he still couldn't be as calm and calm as Cheng Feichi. The flames in his heart kept burning. When Cheng Feichi ignored him, he became a little shorter, and when he got a little response, he grew taller. From the beginning to the end, it lasted for a long time.
Ye Qin sat up and stepped on the ground with both feet.
Hiding like this is not the way to go after all, the so-called waiting for the right time is nothing more than procrastinating for the time to let the opportunity slip away again.
He wanted to ask Cheng Feichi, if he was lucky, he would get a few drops of lamp oil, but if he was unlucky, he might get a basin of water.
Since the flame will never go out, there is nothing to fear.
When Cheng Xin called again, Cheng Feichi was cutting fruit in the kitchen.
He didn't intend to pick it up, but thinking about what his grandmother said to him in the morning, he thought about it, turned on the speakerphone and put the phone beside him.
Cheng Xin changed his strategy this time, and cared about his life in the capital like a mother, asking him to wear more clothes and drink more water. After the preparations were enough, he asked him where he was now.
Cheng Feichi replied truthfully, "It's where he lives."
Cheng Xin on the other end of the phone obviously choked, and it took him a long time to say coldly: "He is really good at tricking you into not even wanting your own mother."
Although he knew that Cheng Xin's obsession was deeply rooted and could not be dispelled, Cheng Feichi still felt a sense of powerlessness that could not be reversed. He only told the truth: "He saved you. In such a dangerous situation, he didn't have time to think so much. .”
"What did he say?" Cheng Xin only noticed the first half of the sentence, and jumped up as if being stepped on a painful foot, "I knew he would tell you that this kind of person would do anything to get rid of poverty, and the broken leg is what he used The purpose of this bitter trick is to make you feel bad. Xiaochi, good son, listen to your mother and don't fall for his tricks."
He swallowed the words when he reached his lips, Cheng Feichi knew that Cheng Xin was already insane, and he couldn't listen to anyone, something even grandparents couldn't do, and as a junior, he was even more powerless to dispel her obsession. All he can do now is to fulfill his son's obligations and support her till the end of his life.
After hanging up the meaningless phone call, Cheng Feichi turned around, and what caught his eyes was the back of Ye Qin leaving in a hurry.
He followed to the door of the bedroom, hesitated for a moment, then pushed open the half-covered door and walked in, put down the fruit plate, picked up the crutches that had been kicked to the ground, and stood them up against the wall.
Ye Qin sat on the lower bunk and remained silent, while Cheng Feichi remained silent, standing less than one meter away from the bed.
He remembered that Ye Qin used to be very talkative, and when he was with him, his mouth was never idle, which can be seen from the wechat chat with Zhou Feng yesterday.
Why did it become like this now? Cheng Feichi vaguely knew the reason, but he didn't seem to be very clear. Yeqin in his memory should not be like this.
After all, it was Ye Qin who spoke first, and he was always the one who took the initiative. Perhaps because he knew that the smile on his face was a bit forced, he simply lowered the corners of his mouth: "You... know everything?"
Cheng Feichi nodded: "Yes."
Ye Qin's mood was not as uncomfortable as imagined, it was a bit like being poked a few times by dense needles, emptying the bluff inside, spinning and falling to the ground, a little painful, but also a little relaxed like the rest of his life.
At least there is no need to be tense and hide it nervously. Ye Qin thought, no wonder he came to take care of me, no wonder he didn't mention the ring, while staying here, it was his responsibility and obligation, not any other hurdles that he couldn't get over, and his petty thoughts that he refused to admit.
The two of them are different. Years have made him more cowardly, but Cheng Feichi's integrity has not been polished away.
"Then, then you..." Ye Qin didn't like silence, but he didn't know how to continue after he said two words, he wanted to raise his hand to cover his eyes, and he didn't want Cheng Feichi to see this depressed look a second time, She squeezed the edge of the bed with her hands until her knuckles turned white, and then said, "Auntie was not careful that day, and I happened to be nearby, so I just... By the way."
An ordinary accident, at best, can be regarded as a righteous act. According to the procedure, the family members came to the door to thank him in person, which is the end of the story. He has received enough.
"Do you still have a job? Go back and get busy. I'm fine by myself. I'll be fine in a few days. Now I can walk slowly and slowly."
This sentence was spoken sincerely and against his will. Since the reunion, Yeqin has often put himself in this dilemma. The choice is ultimately in Cheng Feichi's hands, and it doesn't help if he is so entangled that he goes crazy.
Ye Qin, who had figured this out, was unexpectedly calm, but Cheng Feichi, who didn't say a word, felt a little shaken in his eyes like ripples on the surface of a lake.
He said slowly, "Do you think I'm pitying you?"
Ye Qin trembled violently when he heard the word "poor". He subconsciously wanted to deny it. He shook his head, but what he said was what he thought in his heart: "Isn't it, isn't it?"
Cheng Feichi suddenly realized.
Both of them are afraid.
He was afraid of revealing the truth with his own hands again, not only afraid that the other party was serious this time, but even more afraid that he had misunderstood it, and it would end up being another joke. If these are all false, even if you build an iron wall, it will not be able to withstand the second blow.
So he waited passively, no matter in the past or now, he was used to Yeqin's initiative. But Ye Qin was no less afraid than he was, afraid of being rejected, afraid of performing poorly, afraid of not being able to keep even a little response, no matter how much courage he had, it would be exhausted in this tug-of-war.
He and he have changed, and it seems that neither has changed. What he hopes to see is still the brave and enthusiastic little sun in the past. What Yeqin still wants is that he can take a step forward, even if it is only a small step, it can support him to continue to accumulate heat and radiate light.
He is not the only one who is stuck in the same place, now it is time to get rid of the usual passivity and give him and himself an affirmative answer.
Cheng Feichi exhaled slowly, stretched out his right hand, flattened his palm, revealing the winding scar: "Seeing this, will you pity me?"
Ye Qin was stunned. He once took a closer look at the scar while Cheng Feichi was drunk and fell asleep. He also peeked at it several times on weekdays. Every time, there was only one emotion raging in his chest. He shook his head and said dully, "No."
He would only feel pain and heartache, as if the same sharp knife had cut a hole of equal length in his heart, even though it had healed, every time he thought about it, he would feel unbearable pain. Cheng Feichi is absolutely unique in his life. Whoever hurts him is stabbing Ye Qin in the heart, even if the person is Ye Qin himself.
Cheng Feichi curled his fingers and held it, covering the wound, preventing Ye Qin from looking at it again, and preventing him from tearing himself bloody.
"Me too," he said, "I didn't pity you, I was just like you."
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The translation is: Seeing you hurt, I will hurt too.