77.
After the words fell, Ye Qin suddenly raised his arm to catch Cheng Feichi's hand that was about to be withdrawn.
After catching it, he was at a loss. His hands were small, and he could barely wrap half of Cheng Feichi's clenched hand. Even so, he was still unwilling to let go.
He breathed short and fast, as if he understood what he said just now, but he didn't seem to be able to fully understand it. All he can do now is to grab the speaker first and let him wait for him.
Ye Qin didn't use much strength, and the person caught by him could break free with just a flick of his wrist. However, Cheng Feichi didn't do that. He stood there quietly, letting Ye Qin pull him, calming every restless factor with his reassuring temperature and steady pulse.
After repeated confirmation, he chewed and digested the words just now and penetrated into the cerebral cortex. Ye Qin subconsciously let go of his hand and shrank back, but Cheng Feichi grabbed it first.
He easily pinched Ye Qin's entire hand and asked, "Is there anything else I don't know?"
Ye Qin's heart beat like a drum, neither sitting nor standing up, bit his lip, shook his head, and said stubbornly: "No."
The corners of his eyes were red, as if he had been bullied by someone.
Cheng Feichi was not in a hurry at this moment, and before letting go, he scraped the back of his hand with his thumb: "We'll talk about it later."
Until the evening, Yeqin still felt as if he was in a cloud, and suddenly he thought he was dreaming, and suddenly a voice said in his ear, "It's true, he forgave you."
Even though his mind was in a trance and his thoughts were restless, he could still faintly sense that the "later" that Cheng Feichi said had already begun.
Perhaps earlier, when Cheng Feichi found this place, stood at the door and questioned why he didn't mean what he said, their "later" was slowly opening the door to him.
Even if Cheng Feichi didn't say it clearly, even if he felt that he didn't do anything.
Before it was dark, Cheng Feichi was about to go shopping, and Ye Qin picked up his crutches and was about to follow. Seeing his uneasy and jittery appearance, Cheng Feichi couldn't bear to tell him to stay at home to rest, and the two of them walked out the door one by one.
There is a large chain supermarket nearby, and most of the previous dishes were bought here. Ye Qin was weak and strong, and pushed the shopping cart with one hand on crutches and the other hand. Pushing felt strenuous, so he simply put away the crutches and supported the shopping cart with one foot on the ground, and he would be able to stand still.
Cheng Feichi saw that he was much more comfortable than walking on crutches, so he let him go, walked ahead to buy goods, and looked back from time to time to see if he was following.
This move was obviously unnecessary, Ye Qin's eyes were tightly glued to Cheng Feichi's body, he was not happy to be far away, and followed closely every step, for fear that he would run away in the blink of an eye.
Cheng Feichi slowed down his pace so that Ye Qin could keep up with him, while still having enough time to observe the things he put in the shopping cart, and had time to add a few things he wanted to buy.
Like new mugs, and men's slippers in size 45.
Yeqin is better at living than before, and he knows how to compare prices when buying a pack of toothpicks. However, his meticulous planning is an acquired habit forced by life. It is not rooted in his heart since he was a child, and no one taught him. It is a bit superficial when it is implemented in life.
For example, Cheng Feichi picked up a basket of eggs worth 29.8 yuan and put them into the shopping cart. Ye Qin picked it up to look, and found that the one on the shelf next to him was more than 3 yuan cheaper, and planned to replace it on his own initiative.
Cheng Feichi suffered from an occupational disease, turned around and held two baskets of eggs in his hand, and asked him to count the number of eggs on both sides.
Yeqin bit his finger and counted several times, and found that the latter was packed in a square basket that seemed to have a large capacity, but in fact it contained five eggs less than the former. He was exhausted and stammered, "It's still you, you, you, you." Come on, I'll just push the cart."
Unexpectedly, Cheng Feichi finally chose the basket Ye Qin took, and put the other basket back. Facing Yeqin's puzzled eyes, he said, "The number is not the only consideration. The basket you selected is relatively large."
Ye Qin, who got down the steps, was even more embarrassed, and the tips of his ears were red with embarrassment.
This point is the time when the supermarket has the largest passenger flow, and the queues of more than a dozen checkout counters have all lined up in front of the shelves. Cheng Feichi was afraid that Ye Qin would be tired from standing for a long time, so he asked him to sit and wait at the exit.
Ye Qin couldn't sit still, the line moved forward half a meter, and he came back from the entrance again, saying that he forgot to take something, and asked Cheng Feichi to wait for him here.
Cheng Feichi couldn't walk away with a full shopping cart here, and he couldn't help feeling a little worried when he saw Ye Qin's bouncing back disappearing into the crowd.
Just quit the team and put the shopping cart in the corner to follow, when someone shouted: "Teacher Cheng!"
Following the prestige, a boy in a khaki jacket walked over quickly, stared at him to confirm again and again, and said happily, "Mr. Cheng, it's really you."
The boy is Wei Jiaqi, a student Cheng Feichi once taught when he was a tutor.
Having not been called "teacher" for a long time, Cheng Feichi was dazed for a moment, then smiled and said, "Student Wei, long time no see."
After exchanging pleasantries, the two chatted for a while, and learned that Wei Jiaqi is now studying at a well-known university in the capital, and Cheng Feichi was happy that his years of hard work finally paid off.
Wei Jiaqi still remembered the past, and felt guilty for the fact that his mother often made things difficult for Cheng Feichi at that time. After exchanging numbers, she said that she would definitely visit him some other day, thanking him for teaching her good study habits, and saying that she could be admitted to the ideal school with him. There is an inseparable relationship.
Cheng Feichi said that he used money to do things at that time, and told him not to think of himself as great. Wei Jiaqi said with a smile: "How can there be someone who takes money to do things and extends the class time every time, and still finds time to give lectures at noon?"
When meeting old friends, we can’t help but talk about certain vivid scenes. When it comes to occupying a table in the school cafeteria and giving lectures, which caused countless eyes from the cleaning aunt, both of them laughed.
After finishing speaking, Wei Jiaqi sighed, and said, "At first, I wanted to aim at Teacher Cheng and go to the same university as you to be your junior student. I didn't expect you to choose to go abroad in the end."
Back then, people around him thought that Cheng Feichi would go to university in China, but his move to go abroad without saying hello was really sudden, and it is inevitable to feel sad when talking about the past.
However, Cheng Feichi still grasped the key point: "How do you know that I have gone abroad?"
He remembered that he was in a hurry, and his student status was transferred out in a hurry. Even the head teacher didn't know where he was going. How did Wei Jiaqi, who was promoted to another school in high school, know his whereabouts
"It was he who told me, the senior named Ye from No. 6 Middle School." Wei Jiaqi said, "He came to me and asked me if I had contacted you recently."
When Cheng Feichi asked when, Wei Jiaqi thought about it: "Two or three months after the start of the junior high school semester, he should be in the third year of high school at that time? He came to my classroom and said, Mr. Cheng, you have gone abroad, and asked me if I have your contact Way, I only have your mobile phone number in China, and I couldn’t get through for a long time, so he left me a phone number and told him to notify him immediately if there is any news about you.”
Wei Jiaqi took out her mobile phone as she spoke, and found a number labeled "Senior Ye": "Here, that's it. I didn't delete it when I changed my mobile phone. He sent text messages every once in a while to ask if there was any news about you. I received it." I must be very happy with the phone call... Otherwise, it's Mr. Cheng, why don't you call him? Give him a surprise."
On the way back from the supermarket, Ye Qin insisted on sharing the weight, carrying the plastic bag containing the vegetables, and on the outside was the red packet of dried chilies that he rushed into the supermarket to get.
For dinner, he made two beets and two spicy dishes, and Ye Qin picked up a few slices of pepper noodles and swallowed them without changing his expression. Only then did Cheng Feichi believe that he could really eat spicy food, and he wasn't bragging.
On the contrary, his expression changed when the fruit was eaten after eating, because Cheng Feichi told him that he had to go back to S City tomorrow.
"Tomorrow, September 1st, I promised Yi Hui that I would send him to school."
Ye Qin said, "Okay, go get busy", but he was very entangled in his heart. Different from before, now the reluctance is more intense, and it contains some unspeakable fear and panic.
Waking up the next morning, Yeqin stared at the ceiling for several minutes, until the cell phone vibrated by his pillow brought his soul, which had been flying somewhere, back to reality.
It was a text message from Cheng Feichi: [Boarding the plane]
There were only three words, but they somehow calmed him down. Ye Qin closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, got up, washed and ate breakfast, and while he was drying his clothes on the balcony, he received another text message from Cheng Feichi: [arrived]
Ye Qin didn't quite understand the purpose of his sending these text messages, so he replied with his mobile phone in his arms:[Have you arrived at school yet?]
Two minutes later, Cheng Feichi replied: [Well, the national flag is being raised]
The school was already far away from Ye Qin. He looked up at the sky and imagined the scene. The cool wind in early autumn scattered the clouds, and a few rays of soft sunlight fell on him. Ye Qin's thoughts drifted further and further away.
As if entering a parallel world, in that world, he and Cheng Feichi were admitted to the same university. During the entrance ceremony, the two stood in a corner of the back row where no one noticed, holding hands, cuddling in each other's ears and saying things like " The teacher who was speaking was like the teaching director of No. 6 Middle School," "Which cafeteria should I go to for breakfast later?" "You look so good today" and other whispers.
If possible, he would rather go back to the past, to a time when none of this had happened.
Cheng Feichi had been away for two days, finally returned to the capital, and was called away to host a meeting at the new company.
If it wasn't for keeping in touch with text messages, Ye Qin would have thought that he was having another illusory daydream.
Most of the time in the day, he finds things to do for himself, watching movies, reading scripts, or walking around the house with the help of the wall as a leg rehabilitation, but in the remaining few hours, he still can't find anything Cheng Feichi accepted his real feelings.
Maybe it was too hasty.
It takes time for everything to recover. They have been separated for so long. Cheng Feichi must have met many outstanding people in the past five years. It takes time to digest.
Moreover, acceptance is not the same as forgiveness.
Although they have gradually passed on their regrets and guilt to him in their daily life, neither of them has talked openly and honestly about what happened back then.
It was a quiet river flowing between the two of them, and if it could not be evacuated, it could only wait for it to evaporate with the air over time, leaving an uneven gully in the end.
78.
Later, Yeqin decided to go to a class reunion, and the day before the reunion, he rummaged through boxes and cabinets to find clothes.
After these few days of recuperation, Yeqin was able to walk with a limp on tiptoe with his left foot, and the doctor told him to take two steps to avoid muscle atrophy, rest when he felt tired, and avoid excessive fatigue.
Cheng Feichi came to check his leg injury last night, put his palm on the wound and felt it, and stipulated that he could only walk for 20 minutes a day. After dinner, he stayed for a while and then left. Ye Qin didn't even have time to say what he wanted him to stay.
It's really hard to say, the place is so small, there is not even a big bed, if you let him stay overnight, where will he sleep? Do you sleep on a lower bunk that is 1.2 meters wide
After packing up the clothes to be worn tomorrow, Ye Qin prepared to take a shower first. Cheng Feichi will come over in the evening, so I can spare half an hour in the bath, so I can stay with him a little longer and talk a few more words.
Halfway through the shower, Yeqin came out wrapped in a bath towel to check. The water from the kitchen faucet was flowing smoothly, which was obviously not a problem with the tap water pipes.
He casually put on a piece of clothing and went downstairs to ask the landlord to fix it. Because the landlord had an unpleasant quarrel with him last time, he found various reasons to evade it, saying that the shower was clogged because they were sloppy and didn't clean it frequently, and he asked him to find a way to fix it.
Thinking that Cheng Feichi would be here soon, Ye Qin gave up arguing with him, found a wrench and screwed it on himself, twisted it casually a couple of times, the shower sprayed two streams of water for a short while and then stopped cooking, all the water was sprinkled on him, and the His new long-sleeved T-shirt was completely wet.
Afraid of what to come, just now he was too busy to look at his phone, and now he saw Cheng Feichi sent a text message half an hour ago saying he would be there soon, Ye Qin put down his phone and just wiped his face when there was a knock on the door.
Changing into clean clothes couldn't cover up his embarrassment, Cheng Feichi waited at the door for a long time, when he saw Ye Qin with wet hair, he immediately frowned and asked, "What's wrong?"
"A small situation." Ye Qin pointed to the bathroom, "The shower is not working."
Cheng Feichi went into the bathroom, fiddled with the switch a few times, and seeing that the water did not come out, he rolled up his sleeves and tried to fix it.
He is nearly ten centimeters taller than Yeqin, and he can touch the water pipe connected to the shower with a slight lift of his hand. Yeqin looked at him looking up and studying seriously, his jaw line was tight, and the protruding Adam's apple on his neck was like The heart that had been hanging around for a long time because of his absence finally found its place, and returned to its place flutteringly.
As soon as he was fascinated, he ignored something.
When he suddenly remembered something and was about to remind Cheng Feichi to be careful, it was already too late, and there was only a "hey" in time, and a wave of water spewed out from the shower, facing Cheng Feichi's chest, soaking his upper body in an instant.
When the two returned to the living room, Ye Qin brought him a dry towel, raised his head and saw his white shirt close to his chest, and lowered his head in fright.
After a while, I couldn't help sneaking a glance.
Cheng Feichi was tall and slender, and the wet shirt perfectly outlined the contours of his upper body. He could even see the undulating muscle lines when he raised his arms to wipe his head. Dry and dry, he turned around and picked up the water on the table and drank it upside down.
Here he was still ashamed of his hooligan mentality, while Cheng Feichi, who had been calm from the beginning to the end, picked up his coat and wanted to leave.
"I'm going back to the hotel first. The leftovers from yesterday are in the refrigerator. You can make do with it. You may be late tomorrow if you have work..."
Before he finished speaking, he was hugged by a person from behind.
"Don't... don't leave today." Ye Qin tightened his arms, and rubbed his freshly dried face against Cheng Feichi's wet shirt nonchalantly, "Don't leave, stay here, okay?"
Cheng Feichi was still holding the jacket in his hand, and was staggered half a step forward by his sudden pounce. Only after recovering did he realize how fast he was rushing over, how could his legs withstand such a toss .
Throwing the coat on the nearby cabinet, Cheng Feichi put his hand on Ye Qin's arm: "Let go first, your legs..."
Ye Qin shook his head fiercely, and his arms became tighter: "Don't go, just promise me not to go first."
Cheng Feichi didn't know what was wrong with him, and was afraid that his leg might be the root cause of the disease, so he had no choice but to agree: "Okay, I won't go."
Hearing the affirmative answer, Yeqin broke his promise.
He still didn't let go, his breath sprayed on the wet fabric, and a continuous mist of water evaporated, but because he was holding this reassuring body, he finally found in the mist and looking at flowers these days. The source of uneasiness also ignited twelve points of courage.
"I, I know, I know you are so good, you can be so good to anyone." Ye Qin said impatiently, his voice hoarse, "But I still, still want to be with you, since you are, still willing to accept According to me, let’s make up, or forget the past and start again, can you choose one? I’ll listen to you.”
Ye Qin spoke very fast, and his mind went blank for a moment after he finished speaking, and suddenly remembered what he hadn't said, his fingers clenched tightly, and the breath on his back gradually became hot: "I'm sorry, brother, I like you, brother, I love you!" really like you… "
The opportunity didn't come easily, and he still confided his heart, but because he couldn't see Cheng Feichi's expression, he didn't know what kind of turmoil his heart caused because of these stumbling words.
It seemed to recall something he had forgotten deep in his memory, and it seemed to suppress all the remorse and unwillingness in his heart.
He had chosen to compromise and accept on the day he rushed to the capital, and he had confirmed from other people that what happened back then was not exactly what he thought, but he really let go of it in the last second.
In the past, he was not as open-minded and calm as he seemed on the surface. His poor background and class-unequal love all stimulated his overly sensitive self-esteem on the road of growth, and made him hate the so-called deception.
It also blocked his eyes that could have glimpsed the truth.
Cheng Feichi broke Ye Qin's hand holding him, and turned to face him. When he avoided him, he chased after him. When he lowered his head, he pinched his chin to force him to look up.
Ye Qin's eyes were full of tears, and Cheng Feichi looked straight at him, panicked and had nowhere to hide. In the blink of an eye, a tear overflowed from the corner of his eye, slid down the side of his face to his chin, and was wiped away by his dry fingers.
"Why are you crying?" Cheng Feichi asked him.
Ye Qin shook his head. He could only shake his head, he didn't know why he was crying, presumably it was the accumulated emotions from when he was re-accepted before, and he finally found an outlet to vent.
He is not afraid at all now, even if Cheng Feichi does not respond, he is not afraid anymore. He said what he should and could say, and then let the other party choose.
But his heart was still trembling uncontrollably, tears fell down, and soon wet Cheng Feichi's palm.
"Don't cry." Cheng Feichi said.
Ye Qin nodded desperately, sucking his nose and biting his lips to hold back tears. He didn't know why Cheng Feichi told him not to cry, and he didn't know how pitiful and seductive he looked now.
When he realized what Cheng Feichi's darkened eyes meant, the black shadow suddenly magnified in front of him, Cheng Feichi held his chin to make him look up, and kissed his lips.
When his head was not sober, or when he was bold after drinking, Ye Qin hadn't thought about what the first kiss after the two reunited would be like. He was almost sure that this kiss would be shamelessly and proactively approached by him, even if Cheng Feichi responded calmly and restrainedly, he rubbed gently like every time before, gentle and long.
Instead of being like this now, after bumping and rubbing fiercely, the scorching lips that came over sucked his tear-stained lower lip, and after a brief separation, they rolled up again, prying open the lips and teeth with his tongue, as if eager to He ate and ate, accompanied by chaotic and noisy snorting, the degree of force could even be described as rough.
It seemed that he had endured it for a long time, longer than all the possibilities Yeqin had imagined combined.
The intertwined sound of water spread around his ears, and the situation was completely controlled by one person. Ye Qin had difficulty even responding, and stopped crying after a while, only a few unbearable breaths escaped from his throat in time. His mind was also in chaos, except that he knew that the one kissing him was the elder brother whom he kept shouting just now, he couldn't think of anything else, and he had no time to think about it.
When they parted, Ye Qin's whole body was crisp and soft, as if he had died once, lying on Cheng Feichi's chest, greedily breathing in the fresh air, and regaining his sanity that had been scattered in the sky.
There was still a little salty taste of tears in his mouth, mixed with the smell of the other party, which made him nostalgic. After taking a breath, he followed the source of the breath and raised his head.
There was nowhere to avoid the line of sight, and it went straight into his deep eyes.
For a moment, both of them were stunned.
After a long time, Cheng Feichi raised his hand first, stroked Ye Qin's eyelashes with fine drops of water, belatedly remembered to explain something, let this crying little guy put his heart in his stomach, and held back After a long time, two words popped out: "No."
Since he understood Ye Qin's fear and anxiety, he tried to express it actively in various ways, whether it was sending text messages or visiting the door directly. I feel restless.
Ye Qin was tickled by his touch, blinked his eyes, and before he could ask, he heard Cheng Feichi add solemnly: "I can't be so good to everyone, only you."
Breathing suddenly stagnated, Ye Qin stared at him with wide eyes, for fear of missing the slightest change in expression.
Cheng Feichi also looked back at him.
Cheng Feichi wasn't sure how much his thoughts could be conveyed to the other party. He only knew that Ye Qin's sincerity had been exposed in broad daylight and surrounded him tightly.
Bravery is for him, cowardice is also for him.
He should have shredded the lingering inconsistency, and cleared away the false and real pictures and misunderstandings that blocked his vision.
He should have seen those loving eyes long ago.
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It's been a long time, sorry for the lateness. If you don’t update in the future, you will ask for leave on Weibo (@余甜酲). Not surprisingly, the next chapter will give away a few thousand words, thank you everyone.