Ethan held Samuel's corpse, which had turned cold a little bit, and his heart was filled with empty pain.
One less, someone important to him.
The connection between him and the world is getting less and less, and those ties are broken one by one, making him feel that his whole person is light and airy, as if he is in a dream.
The sound of burning fire, the sound of explosions, the crawling sound of humanoid insects approaching, the crawling sound of flesh rubbing against the ground, and the screams of the benefactors running away, all became meaningless echoes in his ears, as if they were separated from him. Wearing a thick layer of cotton, he couldn't get his attention.
He felt very sad.
He didn't even know what Samuel had entered the forbidden city for. Although they were friends, he knew almost nothing about Samuel.
He never asked Samuel any questions, never asked about his life as a child, never asked about his boxing experience, never asked him what music he liked to listen to, never asked who he admired the most. Likewise, Samuel didn't ask him. It seems to be some kind of unwritten rule in the forbidden city that people don't get to know each other, they don't become friends like ordinary people outside the city, as if they were afraid to connect the life inside the city with the outside. And Ethan always felt that it was impolite to ask about personal privacy, and they would always have a chance to get to know each other.
As a result, despite their mutual support in the city, despite their life and death together, and their despair and pain together, he ended up ignorant of him.
Ethan gently placed Samuel on the ground, the crowd running around him, the hot air blowing the hair on his forehead. He closed Samuel's eyes tenderly and wiped the dirt from his cheeks pitifully. This Omega was strong all his life, unwilling to bow his head to anyone, and unwilling to yield to fate. No Alpha has ever ruled his destiny, and no one has ever seen the despair and vulnerability in him. Even Ethan didn't see it. So he didn't find Samuel's heart eroded by hatred and pain, didn't see his soul shattering little by little.
Ethan leaned down and placed a kiss on Samuel's forehead. Then slowly stand up. He saw little Alpha snuggling gently with some kind of nostalgia, his body in a circle, surrounding Samuel's body in the middle, protecting him like a city wall. Ethan didn't know whether it was the male giant worm's natural desire to protect the giant worm queen who was about to be born from the corpse, or whether it was Schneider's soul, which continued in the worm's body, lovingly and sadly caring for his former lover.
Tanithel looked at him from the misty smoke, placing a hand on his shoulder. Ethan grabbed the hand and murmured, "I'm the only one left."
Tanisel didn't speak, the hand on his shoulder tightened slightly.
When Chen Zeng died, the thousand or so people who had been scattered in the first place fell apart in an instant. They rushed into the ruins of the city like headless flies, into the black tide of humanoids. Others froze in despair, chanting prayers for God's forgiveness. Ethan watched all this and felt very tired. Now in this universe, except for Tanisel, there is nothing he misses.
He turned around and left the city in a daze. Behind him, little Rafal let out a long cry, as if saying goodbye to him. He is about to go underground with the newly born queen and create their new kingdom inside the earth.
Countless humanoids were squirming beside him and Tanisel, as if they were floating in a black ocean, unknowingly being rushed to the unknown shore. He came to a high sand dune, under his feet, countless bloated black insects were pilgrimage to him, the sky was dark clouds low, only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.
Ethan looked at this barren planet and the countless squirming and neighing insects under his feet, suddenly not knowing where he was.
"Come with me," said Tanisel. "I have a ship. Let's get out of here and go to Armonia."
Armonia Star, the far away paradise that does not ask about the red dust.
Can he really go? Can you really forget what happened here and go with Taniser? He turned his head, green eyes with a hint of hesitation. The priest raised his hand and stretched over his shoulder, put his palm on the back of his head and gently rubbed his forehead, leaning forward slightly and pressing his forehead against his forehead, "Let the Earth Alliance and the God of Entropy get out, we can live there together. ."
Is it really possible
Can you really be happy
"But... I'm a monster..." Ethan closed his eyes, his voice trembling.
"Monsters are only relative. In my opinion, they are the monsters."
Ethan didn't ask who they were referring to, but the remark made him almost want to laugh and cry.
He finally nodded, "Okay, let's go."
Taniser's spaceship is parked not far away, a long-distance spaceship that looks a little worn out, and it seems that it will be scrapped after a few more curvature flights. He followed the priest in, watching the priest set the course on the console, listening to the unsettling shudder of the spaceship, and then roaring into the sky. The earth gradually moved away in the projection, and gradually turned into a beautiful blue gem. Then they entered the sleeping chamber together, and the priest kissed him on the forehead and said to him: See you in a year. Then slowly closed the hatch and started the hibernation program.
A year in hibernation was a snap, and when Ethan was awakened by the master, he wasn't even sure if he had just fallen asleep or had just woken up. He woke up a little bit by the gentle voice of the master, and a robotic arm massaged his limbs that had not been used for a year, which made him sigh comfortably. He put on his bathrobe and saw that the sleeping chamber next door was empty. An ominous fear made him suddenly cold, and he fell into a panic. He didn't even have time to put on his shoes, and ran out of the sleeping chamber with bare feet.
He yelled Tanisel's name in the empty hallway, his heart beating wildly in his chest. He didn't know how helpless he looked, and he didn't look like the man who was feared by the entire Earth Alliance. His hands and feet were cold and trembling, and he looked from room to room until he entered the lounge and heard a familiar voice, "Ethan? What's the matter with you?"
When he turned his head, he saw that Tanisel seemed to have just taken a shower, with a bath towel around his neck and a cup of coffee in his hand.
Ethan suddenly realized the whole cycle from death to rebirth. He rushed over, hugged the priest, and even nearly knocked the coffee cup off. The priest hurriedly stabilized his body and looked at Ethan who suddenly embraced with such enthusiasm. But then he seemed to understand what was coming, and gently rubbed Ethan's hair, "Okay, I'm not here."
Ethan smelled the scent on his body, waiting for his reluctant heartbeat to finally calm down. But his body was still shaking, and he didn't know if it was because of the cold. He forced himself to let go of the priest, but Tanethel would not let him go. "Why are you shaking? Is it because of the cold?" He seemed to want to warm Ethan with his body temperature, the tight touch made Ethan sigh contentedly.
"I'm fine," Ethan whispered.
Tanissell let him go, then took off the robe he was wearing and put it over Ethan's shoulders, and said to him, "Do you feel any discomfort?"
Ethan shook his head.
"hungry?"
"I... don't seem to feel hungry anymore... "
"Aren't you hungry, or do you want to eat raw meat?"
"… "
"It doesn't matter, I already guessed it, so I prepared some in the boat." Tanisel shrugged nonchalantly, and then suddenly acted gracefully and walked towards Ethan with one hand in front and the other behind. "Then, charming Mr. Eldridge, may I have dinner with you?"
Ethan couldn't help laughing and snorted. He couldn't remember the last time he laughed like this.
The next few days were the happiest days of Ethan's life.
There are only two of them in the spaceship. They are like couples who just fell in love, cooking together, watching movies together, and snuggling together to watch the vast starry sky outside. He told the priest about his childhood experiences, took the memory of being locked in a closet by his father as a joke, and hummed to him his mother's favorite tune. Tanithel would hug him tightly from behind, chin on his shoulder, listening intently, occasionally stroking his arm sympathetically.
The spacecraft landed on the ferry of Armonia. It was a very pristine and beautiful planet, strikingly similar to the Earth when it was young. There is lush vegetation everywhere, and the sea is still an unpolluted indigo blue. People there are still using vehicles that require wheels, and strange-looking animals often appear in the forest by the roadside.
Tanithel took him to the sea, where there was a hut with a red roof. In the distance, the blue sea of peacocks rolled with plain white skirts, and seagulls soared and chirped in the sky. On the sea level in the distance, a huge red sun is slowly sinking, and the purple clouds are rolling in the sky, like veils scattered all over the sky, it is really beautiful.
Ethan stood in front of the hut in a daze.
"This is our new home." Tanisel said with a smile, "Do you like it?"
Ethan didn't move, as if stunned. After a long time, he finally murmured, "I like..."
Tanissell stepped forward first and opened the snow-white door. He looked back at Ethan, smiling like a sunset, "Come on."
But Ethan shook his head.
Tanisel was stunned, "What's wrong?"
Ethan looked at him with a lost look, as if he had lost his soul.
Tanisel frowned slightly, "You don't like it?"
"I like it..." Ethan's voice was filled with despair for some reason, "but... it's not true..."
Tanissell's expression became a little stiff at that moment. He blinked in confusion, looking at Ethan.
"You know, when I was a child, I once fantasized about having a house. This house was built by the sea, just like this one, with red roofs and white walls."
Tanithel was even more confused. "Wouldn't that be nice?"
"It's all what I wanted...I imagined...but..." Ethan closed his eyes in pain and despair. "There are no seagulls on Armonia."
After this sentence, suddenly, all the voices between heaven and earth disappeared.
In front of him, Tanisel suddenly stopped moving. He seemed to have really turned into a doll, looking at him with a dull look.
Then, everything starts to melt.
Tanithal, his Tanithal, melted before him like a wax figure, melting into a puddle of indistinguishable flesh. And that house, which seemed to be built with frost, suddenly collapsed.
Everything between heaven and earth has become as false as a movie set. Ethan was struggling to breathe. He covered his throat with his hands, struggling to hold his breath.
How could it be, how could it be, so many days, those vivid times of snuggling with each other, those carefree chats and laughs, are obviously so real.
He turned around and saw it.
In the misty fog, huge and ugly monsters seemed to fill the whole world. Where it should have been the head, an extremely terrifying and ugly red tentacle was waving in the sky.
Nyarlathotep, whom he had been looking for for a long time, finally appeared.
"My stupid child." Some ancient and sinister voice echoed in his head. "Don't you like the dreams I weave for you?"
Everything in this hallucination was what he had dreamed about before. It is composed of wishes buried in his subconscious. Everything he saw was in his own mind, and he actually spent a year in his own mind.
At this moment, Ethan has been hit too hard. There is no more cruel thing in the world to first make your dreams come true, let you experience happiness, and then tell you that everything is not really cruel. He lost the courage to fight with his so-called 'biological father',
He slumped to the ground, with black tears streaming down his face, "Why...why is this..."
"I wanted to make it easier for you, wouldn't it be better to stay here with your loved ones forever?" the voice asked, "why have to struggle?"
"Why... I've already planned to promise you... Why!!!!" Ethan roared reluctantly. He wanted to release the tentacles behind him, but found that he couldn't move.
The voice said in his mind, "Silly boy, do you think it's ok as long as you promise? You still have hope in your heart, and under such circumstances, let the core of the universe come, and your spirit will be torn to shreds. The demise of the world will be extremely painful. So, I wanted to weave a beautiful dream for you, so that your spirit can dormant here forever and live the life you dream of. You can be with the people you want, and at the same time , the core of the universe will take over your body."
The tone that seemed to be disappointed with his own child turned Ethan's original despair into flames of anger. He struggled to stand up and shouted at the huge ancient god, "You bastard!!! You took Tanisel!!! You give him back!!!"
The Fuxing Chaos on the opposite side was silent, as if he hadn't heard his cry.
Ethan clenched his fists tightly and said word by word, "As long as you let him come back, I am willing to accept the core of the universe!!!"
A sigh came from the distant sky.
A sigh that traverses time and space.
"My poor boy. Tanithel is not in my hands. He has disappeared from the universe, and there is nothing I can do. Your only chance to see him again is after Azathoth. Only then, You can no longer perceive his presence."
Ethan was stunned, but he refused to believe it. He knew that Nyarlathotep was the god of deceit, and he did not believe his words.
"You lied to me! I saw it! I saw those hands taking Tanisel away!!!!"
"If I really have him in my hands, is it still necessary to use these illusions to deceive you?" The giant's figure gradually disappeared, but his regretful voice was still trembling.
"My child, you rejected the path of hope I gave you. Now there is only one path left to go. You have nothing to worry about in this world. What's the point of living like this?"
As the voice faded, Ethan opened his eyes.
He was still standing on the sand dunes, and at his feet, countless bloated black insects were admiring him, the dark clouds were low in the sky, and only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.
Time has not passed.
He turned his head, and there was no Taniser behind him.
There will be no Tanithel again.
He finally had nothing left.
The author has something to say:
I finally finished my homework temporarily, I hope this week's homework will not be too sick...
So it will be finished in about 10,000 words~ Thank you to the little angels who have always supported me. Although this article is very cold, I don’t feel cold at all because of you. I offer my heart again~~~