Ethan first became suspicious of Roland two months after the crash.
Aside from the first month of hospitalization, the next month of life was like a dream for Ethan, and when he got home, he could see Roland limping in the kitchen preparing dinner. Although they are all very simple foods, they taste good, not to mention the handwriting of their sweethearts, even dark dishes can be eaten with relish. At night, the two would watch a movie together, and Roland would lie on his lap. From his angle, he could see the other's slender eyelashes occasionally fluttering. He likes to gently stroke Roland's brown hair, which is slightly longer than the average male, likes to touch Roland's rough chin, likes to listen to the smooth snoring sound of the other person after falling asleep, and likes all the small flaws on his body.
Ethan felt that he would never get tired of living like this for the rest of his life.
Then one day, Ethan turned back halfway because he forgot to bring a document. Instead of texting Roland, he opened the door and went home.
After he opened the door, he didn't see Roland who was downstairs drinking coffee and watching the news, so he called out, "Roland?"
Roland's voice came from his study, "I'm here."
Ethan frowned slightly. The door of his study is always closed, and a combination lock is also set. He only left home for half an hour, how did Roland get in
When he walked to the door of the study, Roland just came out and saw him smiling, "Forgot something?"
Ethan asked, "Why are you here?"
Roland shrugged, and said a little embarrassedly, "I saw that you didn't lock the door of the study, so I wanted to go in and see what you were hiding inside. It was so mysterious that it was locked all day long. In the end, I was caught by you."
Ethan raised his eyebrows, "Am I unlocked?"
"No, there is a gap."
Ethan looked at him with a natural expression, not like he was lying.
Ethan nodded, went into the room to get the documents, and checked all the furnishings on his desk carefully. He always put things in fixed places, and deliberately put a hair or a piece of confetti in some inadvertent place. In this way, as long as someone moves his own things, he can know.
But everything was in place, and he didn't keep any important confidential documents at home, and the only time he brought Project Zero home had already deleted the documents in time. He thought he might be overthinking it.
After that, he changed the password on the door, and also changed all the encrypted passwords in the computer. He was more careful, making sure he locked the study door every day before going out and before going to bed.
After two months of such a peaceful life, Roland had also returned to the Energy Bureau to start working again, and Ethan gradually relaxed.
But it didn’t take long for the people who were placed in the Ophiuchus Alliance to contact the intelligence department of the Earth Alliance, saying that a person in the Ophiuchus constellation was likely to be placed in the Earth Alliance to investigate plans on Mars. It is not certain when the person came in or in what department. After receiving the news, the Intelligence Bureau immediately began an investigation of the staff of the relevant government departments, and the first ones who had access to the specific information of Project Zero, including Ethan.
When Ethan heard the wind, he felt a coldness leaking from his heart and lungs, and he immediately remembered the time when Roland came out of his room.
However, he didn't want to believe this speculation, and wondered if he was over-hearted. After get off work, Roland was still waiting for him beside his aircraft, telling an interesting story about a strange researcher in the laboratory. Ethan had been watching Roland quietly when he wasn't aware of it, watching him make coffee with ease, wash dishes by the sink, and listen to him hum while he showered in the bathroom. He couldn't see anything, all he could see was a man he loved.
However, when two investigators from the Intelligence Service secretly summoned him to a separate room to check with him how many times he had logged into the Project Zero intranet, he could finally stop lying to himself. He didn't know when and how Roland cracked the encryption of his identity information, nor did he know where he logged into the intranet. The IP address is obviously modified and does not provide any information. He thought of his study, imagined that after he fell asleep, the man quietly got up, used a glass piece to extract fingerprints on his fingertips, then entered the study and turned on his computer...
So many days and nights, when he thought he was sleeping with his lover, the person beside him was always calculating. This thought made him fall into an ice cave. He looked at the time period when he could not log in to the intranet at all, tried to control the expression on his face, smiled and nodded, "Yes, I did log in during these times."
On the way home he didn't understand why he was lying, why he was helping a spy, why he didn't get him arrested right away. However, what he understood was that the lie he said just now was enough to ruin his reputation.
Maybe I still hold the last ray of hope, maybe I want to listen to that person's explanation and tell myself that all this is not malicious.
Roland was not at home, and Ethan hurried to the apartment the Energy Bureau had prepared for the researchers of the Third Reich, but there was no sign of the other party. His colleagues said he never returned. Ethan's heart was sinking, and the feeling of suffocation made him dizzy. But he can't stop now, he must find Roland.
Even if he knew, it is very likely that Roland had heard the wind and evacuated from the Earth Alliance.
He couldn't find it anywhere, so he had to go home in dejection, but when he opened the door, he suddenly found that Roland was sitting on the sofa in the dark room, looking at him without saying a word.
Ethan took a few steps forward, and just wanted the smart housekeeper to turn on the lighting system, but he heard Roland say, "Don't turn on the lights."
The high-rise neon outside the apartment slanted down from the window, illuminating the profile of the Alpha. His eyebrows are still handsome, but the smile is gone, and the blue eyes are dyed deep purple by the light at this moment, which is too deep to be seen no matter what.
Ethan's Adam's apple slid up and down, he didn't know where to ask, and he was afraid to hear the answer.
"I'm leaving." Roland said actively.
Ethan felt that his heart was twisted hard, and there was a dull pain in his chest. He asked in a slightly trembling voice, "So... your approach to me was planned?"
Roland looked at him faintly and nodded slowly.
Ethan clenched his teeth and asked word by word, "Why me!"
"Because you are the most suitable." Roland's voice was still so charming, but the words he uttered were the most hurtful, "You are dealing with important information from the Energy Bureau, which makes you my first choice for this operation. One of the targets. After a series of investigations, I found that you are the easiest one to break through."
"… easy?"
"First of all, although your family seems to be complete, in fact your mother is focusing on her music theory research and peaceful rights cause, and sometimes ignores you. Your father is rigid and strict, but he is very respected by you. A series of important life decisions made big, including choosing a university and a job, are all following the path your father set for you. Obviously, you are deliberately trying to please him and want to get his approval in exchange for the warmth you lacked since childhood. And although you are serious and quick-witted, you are very simple emotionally. Your first boyfriend was an Omega, but he broke up within a year. The second is a Beta, which also didn't last long, and there was a gap between Several years. It seems that you did not initiate these two breakups, but your indifferent and passive attitude is the main reason for the other party to break up, in other words, you forced them to break up with you.
People your age have so little emotional experience, and you've only had no more than three one-night stands in a few years' window, either you're frigid, or Omega and Beta just can't satisfy you. You yearn for an Alpha as powerful as your father, but you also hope that the other party can give you the warmth your father can't give you, but you are a Beta who can't attract that kind of Alpha. You are just on the surface, but you have no sense of security and self-esteem. As long as I give you what you want, you will be full of flaws. "
Ethan felt his eyes were sore, but he held back his tears. Those words were like sharpened knives, poking at his already numb chest.
He would rather Roland just disappear, at least he can deceive himself, maybe the other party is a little sincere.
Roland stood up and approached him step by step. However, Ethan stepped back unconsciously, like a prey approached by the hunter in the corner.
"Then what are you doing now?" He felt so stupid, why would he lie for him? Why didn't someone send someone to investigate him when he just noticed something strange
It can be seen that the man said nothing wrong.
"Ethan, what I just said was just my first thought. But after getting along these days, I don't have no feelings for you at all. I told you that I like your eyes and push when you're nervous. The posture of your glasses, and the way you pretend to be calm when you're embarrassed. Those words are true." Roland's deep eyes wrapped around him like a heavy night, making him have nowhere to run, "I This time, I want to take you away."
Ethan laughed, "How stupid do you think I am? Go with you? Are you trying to kill me?"
"No! Ethan, maybe I was plotting against you at first, that's my duty, I have to do what I have to do. But now, I can't bear to keep you!" Roland's face was so focused at the moment, but it was dark The uncertain light and shadow made Ethan even more unable to see through him, "If you don't come with me, you will be considered my accomplice. Even if you try to prove that you don't know, they will still deduct more than half of you. the moral value. Do you think you can still live a life by then? Even if you are not deducted from the moral value and thrown into the forbidden city, from now on you can only do the most dirty and dangerous jobs. In such a Where there is no freedom to speak of, what do you have nostalgia for? Go back to the Ophiuchus Alliance with me, or even the Third Reich. I will show you the places of interest and scenery you want to see, and the places you have always wanted to go. the distant planet!"
Ethan knew that Roland's words were terrifying, but they were all true. Even if he can find a way to clear his relationship with Roland, the lie he said today is enough to make him lose everything.
Seeing that Ethan didn't speak, Roland seemed to think that the other party had been persuaded. He stepped forward and hugged Ethan's body gently, but Ethan didn't resist.
"I really like you, come with me..." His words were cut off before he finished speaking, and his body was slightly stiff.
Ethan puts a small hand/gun to his stomach and raises cold, sad eyes in his arms.
"Hehehe, even if you think I'm easy, you shouldn't think I'm an idiot, right?" Ethan wanted to speak in a cold tone, but his voice was unstable. "Take me away? You're just afraid that I'll sue you before you take out the Earth Alliance, so you can't cross the border, right?"
"Ethan, I really want to take you away! You're only going to die here!"
"Who caused that!!!" Ethan shouted, heartbreak written all over his eyes. He finally liked a man so much, and finally waited until the two fell in love, dreaming of wanting to spend a lifetime with him, why is it all a scam? Why should it be him? Ethan then laughed again, a little distorted and a little desperate, "I have recorded everything you just said in a portable capsule, I will kill you first, and then turn in the recording!"
He should have pulled the trigger at this moment, but after all, there was still a moment of hesitation. After all, he had never killed anyone, not to mention the man he liked so much. Such a moment was completely enough for Roland. There was a sharp pain in Ethan's wrist, and the wrist bone was suddenly broken by the other party. The disengaged fingers loosen and the hand/gun falls to the ground. Then he felt kicked first in the stomach, then in the temple. The two consecutive attacks made him go limp all at once, his eyes were black, and his stomach and wrists ached when he moved. He turned over despite the severe pain, but saw that Roland had picked up the small hand/gun and pointed it at him, and there was no warmth in his eyes looking down.
Look, it's another skill that doesn't belong to the Roland he knows.
He suddenly had hallucinations, maybe there are two Roland in this world, and his Roland is not the ruthless man in front of him.
The warmth in Roland's eyes was gone, replaced by unfamiliar indifference. He sighed and said, "You were given a chance to live, but you didn't want it."
Ethan glared at him, exhausting all his hatred, as if hoping that his eyes could turn into swords and slash the man in front of him. In front of the dark muzzle, he felt so illusory, as if he was not facing death. The pain in his heart was colder than death, and he temporarily lost his sense of fear.
"Goodbye, dear." Roland said, raising the gun in his hand.
Ethan closed his eyes like a conditioned reflex, waiting for the momentary pain when his head was shot through by a bullet. What he really felt, however, was that the carotid artery was smashed hard, and the darkness quickly engulfed him.
This was the last time he and Roland met.
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My mother even hand/gun are sensitive words... _(:з)∠)_