When finishing the whole song, Fang Juexia breathed a sigh of relief.
In his concept, when receiving care from others, one must repay, express gratitude, and respond. Pei Tingsong is the only exception. He knows he should respond, but he is afraid to respond. At least this song is an answer.
He was like a lone bee who stumbled and fell into a honeypot, wrapped in sweet honey. He was both delighted and terrified. Emotionally he tasted unprecedented taste, but rationally reminded him of the possibility of drowning. .
Pei Tingsong and He Ziyan's performance immediately followed him, and after singing a song, they didn't even have time to hug. This is their job. Fang Juexia even felt a little guilty. This is the first time that he put his selfishness in his work, expressing his private emotions in front of so many people. This shouldn't have been done, but he just got stuck.
He fell into a spring day he had never seen before, and tried to keep him. But it is very likely that he can't even keep a puddle of snow.
Ling half lay on his shoulder, "It feels like Xiao Pei is a little out of shape."
This performance is not strictly a solo, but it combines the performances of He Ziyan and Pei Tingsong, one as a DJ and the other as a rap.
Lu Yuan also said, "I also think that it will be more explosive in normal times. I can't tell what is wrong today, but I can't see it. It's okay."
Jiang Miao glanced at Fang Juexia, and then at the people in the stands.
"Everyone is tired recently, and it's impossible to be in good condition all the time." Jiang Miao patted Jiuxia's shoulder underneath, "It's good to survive the singing period."
Fang Juexia's eyes looked at the people on the stage like this. He was a little confused, wondering if Pei Tingsong understood his song, so he was a little frustrated. But he doesn't want this. He likes Pei Tingsong's self-confidence and magnanimity. He wants Pei Tingsong to always be like this.
"Thank you He Ziyan and Pei Tingsong, everyone, please give them the warmest applause! Who is next?"
Under the voice of the host, Pei Tingsong stepped off the stage and approached Fang Juexia step by step. To be honest, Fang Juexia was very nervous, he even thought of many embarrassing scenes in his mind. But Pei Tingsong just stood beside him, standing side by side at a distance of about fifteen centimeters. After Ling Yi played, he whispered.
"I'm a little tired, there isn't even a thing to lean on here."
Fang Juexia was puzzled by his sudden statement, and turned her face to look at him. Pei Tingsong also turned his head, "Can I give you a hug?"
This is the case every time. The person who obviously needs to embrace is himself, but Pei Tingsong finds a good excuse and turns his passiveness into an active one. He seemed to be on a fierce offensive, but after the confession, he minimized physical contact as much as possible, unless he asked for his permission. The expression was straightforward and proactive, but the actions gave Fang Juexia enough respect.
That's how Fang Juexia knew that she had nowhere to hide.
Silence is the slow motion of time, which drags everything out and becomes torment every minute. From the first time he confirmed that he liked Fang Juexia, Pei Tingsong had already foreseen the difficulty of this process, just like his adventures in his escaped birth. Isn't he not sure that there is a high probability that he will fail? Of course I know, but there is always a slight chance of success.
Before he waited for the answer, he wanted to say forget it, his head hung down, ready to make room for him to talk to others on his own. But at the next moment, Fang Juexia turned to face him.
"I..." Fang Juexia was a little embarrassed, "I'm too thin, so I shouldn't be comfortable to hold."
Pei Tingsong suddenly came back to life. He saw the cramped expression on Fang Juexia's face, and the arms that could not be stretched out. He felt that he was the happiest person in the world.
With approval, he hugged Fang Juexia, with his chin resting on his shoulder, like a large, contented dog. Fang Juexia likes the feeling that he puts weight on him, and he has a feeling of being relied on and trusted.
"Who says it's uncomfortable, you are lying to me."
Pei Tingsong buried his head and tightened his arms, "It's obviously very comfortable."
Fang Juexia didn't know what to say, but turned to see He Ziyan smiling.
"What's the matter with Xiao Pei? It's so vain after singing a whole song." He Ziyan joked, "When I'm twenty years old, I still act like a baby and hug."
Pei Tingsong did not raise his head, only raised one hand and pointed his middle finger in the direction of He Ziyan.
Fang Juexia raised his hand and touched his back. They communicated with each other in silence, completing with a simple hug. It took him too much courage to sing that song, which made him look directly at the anxiety and anxiety in his heart, but now, his heart seems to have calmed down, and his peace is restored in Pei Tingsong's arms.
When the event of the meet-and-greet was about to end, they went on stage together and sang a very cheerful song from the debut album that was not the main title. They started a forced cute business. Everyone wore hairpins with plush ears. Fang Juexia was rabbit ears, Pei Tingsong was gray wolf ears, and they carried a small basket in their hands. Small gifts, small dolls based on the images of kaleido members, some snacks, and official printed cards of the members’ hand-written lyrics.
As everyone sang and dropped the gifts in the small basket, the scene suddenly became noisy, and the fans in the front row were very excited. In particular, Lu Yuan and Ling Yi ran around the field and shook hands with the fans in the front row close to the stage.
Fang Juexia finished singing her own part, adjusted her headset, and looked at the fans in the back row, so she picked out the soft doll from her little basket, walked to the edge of the stage as much as possible, and threw the little doll far away. They can also get it.
"Ah! Brother Xia!"
"Brother Jue Xia look at me! Here!"
With many hands stretched out from the edge of the stage, Fang Juexia instinctively took a step back, squatted down after throwing the doll, and gently sprinkled the candy in front.
"Brother Jue Xia!!"
"I also want!!"
Pei Tingsong's eyes cannot be separated from Fang Juexia, he walked towards Fang Juexia while singing rap. Coincidentally, the end of this rap happened to be the harmony of the two of them, one high and one low. Fang Juexia's basket has already reached the bottom, but fans are like a group of birds waiting to be fed, even if he turns the basket upside down, they still call his name. Fang Juexia turned her head and saw Pei Tingsong behind, so she wanted to get a little from his basket.
Seeing him squatting on the ground and reaching for him, Pei Tingsong found it terribly cute. But at this moment, he saw Fang Juexia's arm grabbed with both hands, and he yanked down severely, catching him off guard.
It's not like a girl's hand.
Fang Juexia was startled, and her body fell back. Pei Tingsong rushed forward and dragged Fang Juexia behind, but at the same time, the assaulting hand was released and both hands grabbed Pei Tingsong’s elbow. Originally, Pei Tingsong rushed over. At that time, the center of gravity was already forward, and he immediately planted on the stage.
"what!"
"Pei Tingsong fell off!"
"Oh my God!"
There was a commotion in the audience, and Fang Juexia was still in shock. The moment Pei Tingsong fell, his brain exploded with a buzz.
how so…
Without even thinking about it, Fang Juexia jumped off the stage directly, "Get out of the way! Don't step on him." He shielded Pei Tingsong with his body, and was pushed half-kneeled to the ground, the back of his hand propped on the ground in confusion. He was stepped on several times, but he couldn't feel it at all.
He is full of Pei Tingsong.
Security guards came from both ends of the stage to separate the fans who came up. Although the height of this stage is not very high, Pei Tingsong fell down because of external force and hit a lot. Several other members also rushed over at the first time, but they were stopped by the security and staff. Now there is a big problem, and other artists can't have trouble.
Fang Juexia's tinnitus continued, she could not hear anything, as if she had fallen into the deep sea. His eyes were hot and sour uncontrollably, and he whispered the name of Pei Tingsong in the noisy stadium, over and over again.
Obviously, it was him who should fall, not him.
Pei Tingsong did not lose consciousness, he still leaned his head against Fang Juexia's legs, as if to make him not worry. The activity was suspended after the accident, Pei Tingsong was rushed to the hospital for treatment, and all the members followed.
When sitting in the car, Fang Juexia’s hands kept shaking. He saw Pei Tingsong’s forehead and cheekbones bruises, bleeding from the wound, his brows wrinkled tightly, and sweat oozing from his forehead. Just thinking about Fang Juexia It hurts, and a heart hangs in the air, stumbling back and forth.
It would be great if he didn't get close to the stage, if Pei Tingsong didn't reach out and pull him back.
If it was him who fell, Fang Juexia would not be sad.
As if seeing his worry, Pei Tingsong stretched out a hand, shook the hand of Jiaoxia, and pulled out a smiling face.
Seeing his weak smile, Fang Juexia felt even more uncomfortable, with sore nose and sore eyes.
His self-protection mechanism made him learn early not to look at the evaluation of him from the outside world, nor to take it seriously. But now, Fang Juexia actually thought of those anonymous people scolding him, saying that he was a catastrophe, and everyone would become unhappy if he got caught.
According to his logic, this kind of words with loopholes and no scientific basis even has no value in his analysis. It can be seen that Fang Juexia was really afraid of someone else's curse coming true for the first time because of Pei Tingsong's injury.
When he arrived at the hospital, Cheng Qiang answered the phone, his expression became solemn, and he hung up and said to them, "This is not quite right. I thought it was an accident on the stage caused by the fans being too excited, but it doesn't seem to be the case now. I just left. The security guard who was closer reported to their venue supervisor, saying that he saw that the person dragging Xiao Pei was not a fan."
Fang Juexia said immediately, "It's not a girl, she has a lot of strength, and she has a strong attack. It should be a man."
"They're going to adjust the monitoring now. They can definitely find it with a little effort." Cheng Qiang was very angry, and he cursed several times, "Be sure to send this grandson into a squat, deliberately hurt the crime, I will not die. he!"
"Is it a black powder?" Ling Yi guessed.
He Ziyan was a little puzzled, "Tickets for the meeting are not randomly given, they are all drawn from albums. It stands to reason that this chance is not high."
Pei Tingsong was sent for inspection, and they could only wait outside for the results.
Ling Yi was a little scared, "I was also on the edge of the stage just now..."
Fang Juexia didn’t understand that there were so many people at the time, and other members were all around the stage. They only grabbed his hand, and it seemed to be premeditated. The action was quick and accurate. If it hadn’t been for Pei Tingsong to appear at the time, he would fall down now. It is him, if he has other actions in the follow-up, he may be seriously injured.
Is it still Astar
"I feel like I'm here." Fang Juexia explained the situation to Cheng Qiang. After hearing this, Cheng Qiang pondered for a while, "It is very likely that it is also vicious competition. The methods in this circle are very dirty. A little actor I knew before was touched by someone during filming, breaking his leg and breaking his leg. Hand, the prime time for the show was gone, and then it passed away quietly."
Jiang Miao sighed, "I thought it was an illegitimate fan."
"It will appear." Cheng Qiang gave them a vaccination. "You weren't hot enough before, and many things were very simple. Now that they are popular, people and things you encounter will become complicated. All kinds of slanders, traps, and even fanatical fans will not be absent. The company will do its best to protect you, and you must also protect yourself. Learn to keep your distance."
Cheng Qiang's calls were answered one by one. Due to the live broadcast effect, the stage accident quickly fermented on the Internet, and the entry that Pei Tingsong fell off the stage quickly appeared on the hot search. He had to arrange for people to stare at public opinion immediately to avoid being used by others. The Internet is so absurd. Even if you are a victim, you may become a target of public criticism even if you are a victim.
"The company has just completed the transfer of personnel. The security issue is not a trivial matter. We will arrange more than six bodyguards in the future, and each of them will have at least one security officer who personally protects you."
The doctor who was doing the examination opened the door and came out to communicate with Cheng Qiang, “The patient has bruises on his forehead, cheekbones, elbows and knees, and there was a slight concussion after the impact, and he needs to rest. The more troublesome thing is that the patient’s left wrist has a broken carpal bone. , Maybe the palm of the hand touched the ground when he fell, which is more serious and requires a minor operation."
Operation.
Fang Juexia was uncharacteristically calm, "How long will it take to get better? Will it affect my hands in the future?"
"No," the doctor repeated, "it's a minor operation. It just takes about three to four weeks of recovery."
The doctor started to prepare for the operation after having hastily explained. There are very few people in private hospitals, and they wait in a lounge. The accident came in a hurry, and Cheng Qiang suddenly had a lot of work. After repeatedly checking the official blog announcement, he arranged for someone to send it out. After answering a phone call, he stood up and said to the members, "Xiaowen has arrived with the newly arranged security personnel, and he is downstairs. Everyone will go back today and have a good rest. I will have a good rest tomorrow morning. Yunshi.com coordinate, let's postpone it one day later."
Everyone stood up, but Fang Juexia didn't move. He raised his head, "Brother Qiang, I will stay. You still have so many things to deal with, you go back to the company first."
Cheng Qiang was worried, "That won't work, you have to go back and rest now."
"I can't take a good rest now." Fang Juexia looked at him, "Xiao Pei was dragged into the water because he came to rescue me."
Cheng Qiang knows Fang Juexia’s character and knows that he is the kind of kid who likes to take all the responsibilities on him. “I can let you stay, and I will arrange several staff to wait for you outside. If you need help, let them know. . But don’t blame yourself."
Ling Yi couldn't help but said, "Yeah, Juexia, this is not caused by you."
The members all came to comfort him, Fang Juexia smiled, "I know. Go back soon and rest early. I will call you the first time if I have anything to do."
No one can hold him back, Cheng Qiang had to arrange a few people to come over and guard him outside the rest room. After they all left, the room suddenly fell silent.
Fang Juexia sat on the sofa in silence, waiting for the operation to end. The clock in his heart turned round after round, ticking, making him gradually calm down. But be calmer, as long as you close your eyes, the moment Pei Tingsong fell off the stage, the bustling crowd, and the candy sprinkled all over the place.
The objective time may not be long, but in Fang Juexia's heart, it seems that a long time has passed. The door of the lounge was finally opened, and a nurse came to inform, "The patient's operation is over, and it has now been transferred to the single ward."
"Is he okay?" Fang Juexia stood up.
"It's okay, but his hands are now fixed, which may be inconvenient."
Fang Juexia breathed a sigh of relief and followed the nurse to the single ward of the VIP suite. Pei Tingsong lay quietly on the bed, closing his eyes.
"Is he unconscious?"
"No," said the nurse. "The operation only had local anesthesia, but he seemed to be very tired and fell asleep."
Fang Juexia nodded in relief and sat down by the bed.
"The patient may have headaches and tinnitus after waking up. These are the sequelae of a minor concussion. If there are other phenomena, you can call us."
"OK, thanks."
The nurse closed the door, and the room fell silent. Fang Juexia looked at Pei Tingsong who was sleeping, the wound on his face was covered with gauze, and his left wrist was put in a plaster.
He grew up so distressed a person for the first time. Fang Juexia both doubted whether he and Pei Tingsong were fateful. Almost all the large and small injuries he had suffered were caused by him. Thinking that he had acted so coquettishly and asked him to hug him before, suddenly he was injured and lying on the bed.
How painful a fracture should be.
Thinking about it, Fang Juexia's nose became sore. He lay on the edge of the bed, stretched out his hand, and touched the plaster on Pei Tingsong’s wrist. His fingertips slowly moved forward along the plaster, touching the half of the back of his hand exposed under the plaster, his raised phalanx joints, Cover his hand gently.
The fingertips rubbed on the warm skin, unconsciously embedded in his fingers.
The heart aches and tightens densely.
It turns out that he likes this man so much.
The embedded fingertips wanted to retract, but before they had time to retract, they were clamped by the clenched hands, retaining the ten fingers clasping that almost escaped.
Is he awake
Fang Juexia stood up and looked over, and saw that Pei Tingsong was still closing her eyes, but the corners of her mouth were all raised, and she didn't succeed in pretending to be pajamas.
"you're awake."
"No."
Fang Juexia was not in the mood to joking with him, "Are you okay, is there any discomfort? Is the head painful? Do you want to call a doctor?"
"You are so nervous, you don't know how badly I was." Pei Tingsong opened his eyes and smiled at him, "I'm fine, just a little dizzy. I want to sit up."
Fang Juexia helped him adjust the bed so that he could lean on. He clearly had a lot to say, but when he really saw Pei Tingsong woke up, he couldn't say a word. Pei Tingsong just looked at him like this, seeing that he could only lower his eyes, his throat was blocked for a long time, and he said with difficulty, "Tomorrow... I don't have to go to song tomorrow morning, it was delayed for a day."
He regretted it as soon as he uttered it. There was so much to say, why did he pick this sentence? At this time, he was still talking about work, like a fool.
Suddenly heard a chuckle, Pei Tingsong's voice was very gentle, "Did it scare you?"
Fang Juexia raised her eyes, then moved away when she touched his eyes, pursed her lips, and stopped talking.
But Pei Tingsong said to himself, "Guess what? When I just fell asleep, I dreamed that you sang to me again. It was the one you sang during the day. I listened to it again. It was so nice."
As he said, he looked at Fang Juexia, "That song was for me, right?"
Fang Juexia didn't deny it, and Quan took it as acquiescence.
Maybe it's not only for Pei Tingsong, but also for myself.
"Did I scare you?" He asked the question again, only this time, he added the subject.
Fang Juexia is not a person who is used to scrutinizing other people's words, but Pei Tingsong can be replaced by Pei Tingsong, but he can quickly reflect the emotions conveyed in the details.
"No."
Pei Tingsong smiled, "At the beginning, I thought that love and many things are in common. As long as I want it, I can get it. To be honest, I am also afraid that my pursuit will cause trouble to you, and every word is said. When I do, I will entangle again and again and try to make sense of it."
He looked at Fang Juexia, "No way, it's the first time I like someone."
Fang Juexia suddenly felt uncomfortable. Sometimes because of Pei Tingsong's boldness and bravery, he would forget that he was actually a boy younger than himself. The boy took out one of his own hearts and showed it to him without hesitation, but he didn't have the courage to look at it. He just hid in his own shell to calculate the probability of failure.
"I know," Pei Tingsong continued, "I don't seem to be a person who can give people a sense of security. But I hope you understand that my pursuit of this way is because I am such a person, not because of a quick fight. frivolous."
"I have never questioned your sincerity." Fang Juexia lowered his eyes, "never."
"Then look up and look at me."
Fang Juexia raised her head and looked at him.
Pei Tingsong's face was pale, but his pupils were very bright, "Fang Juexia, this world really sucks. Disasters, wars, diseases, turbulence, verbal violence, and the endless harm between people. All this is absurd and at the same time. Fragile. I am a philosophical supporter who rebels through and through, and I am very disdainful of integrating with this society. Yes, the law of survival in this society is convergence. Only by maintaining similar values and behaviors to most people can we live a good life. But I hate it. Such a life."
"I only believe in my ego, I want to break free from all rules to find my ego. So I am arrogant, I am arrogant, I only have myself in my eyes, and the so-called freedom I want to pursue."
"But now, I found that I also had someone who wanted to approach and converge." He looked at Fang Juexia, "It's you. I want to be close to you, want to understand your values, your outlook on life, and want to be gentle and strong like you. People."
Fang Juexia was a little startled, she could only look into his eyes, the light shaking under his eyes.
"But I am not as good as you think."
"You have." Pei Tingsong retorted without hesitation, "You don't even know how good you are. As long as you smile at me, I can refute myself. The world is actually saved. You are so good that you can have one. The rebels gave up resistance."
He held Fang Juexia's hand with his right hand, "You are the first time I am the one who has moved my heart. If you don't feel at all for me, I can also like someone in a dull way like most of the bullies in this world. I can avoid you and just be an ordinary teammate like Ling Yi and others. But you obviously like me too, I can't just let you go."
Pei Tingsong's tone was so determined, so sure that Fang Juexia had no strength to refute at all. He had to admit that what Pei Tingsong said was right. He was afraid. He was afraid that he would plunge into it and only himself would be left. He was afraid that he was really a desperate romantic, just like his mother withered for short-term. The spring lasts for a lifetime.
He was doing the final resistance, "We may not have good results."
"I don't want the result, I want it now." Pei Tingsong squeezed his hand tightly, "All human beings will die, our result is death, so you will give up life? I don't want to be because of the calculated hundred What is the probability of failure to lose what I dream of, I want every moment of heartbeat."
"You just need to tell me, do you like me or not?"
Fang Juexia's sanity once again activated the protection mechanism. He should refuse, he should remain silent, he has countless plans that he can implement to protect himself, and also to protect the last little way back between them.
He does.
But Fang Juexia looked up and looked straight at Pei Tingsong's eyes, stubbornly and persistently like a dead branch about to be broken.
"like."
At the moment of breaking, he retrieved the last bit of vitality that belonged to him.
"Pei Ting Song, I like you."