It was not until lunchtime that the door of the room they were staying in was opened.
Lu Yunchu wiped his numb mouth and said to Ah Yue who came to ask what to eat for lunch: "I just ate it. I'm not hungry."
Ah Yue nodded: "What about your husband?"
"He..." Lu Yunchu blushed strangely, "He should eat too."
Ah Yue understood why, but she didn't think much about it.
It was not until the group started moving that she noticed something fishy between the two of them.
My lips were red and swollen, as if I had been bitten by a mosquito. But where did the mosquitoes come from in this cold winter
The carriage continued on its original route. The cold wind lifted the curtains, making people a little more awake. The interior of the carriage was completely silent, and the atmosphere was strangely stagnant.
Wen Zhan was shy, but he was not a timid person. He had read the script for a while, as he roughly understood what this kind of thing between the two of them meant.
The corners of his mouth curled up, and his eyes were full of sparkling stars. It turned out that she hated the way he looked.
When Lu Yunchu was scratching his thigh awkwardly, a book was suddenly handed to him.
—Thank you for what you did just now.
Thanks
She turned to look at him in confusion.
Wen Zhan then added: “When I get sick again in the future, I will remember the pain.”
This was a bit strange. Lu Yunchu narrowed his eyes, reacted for a while, and said, "You think I was comforting you, right?" Just like what was said in the vulgar plot, sacrificing one's body just to save a poor man and give him a little happy memory.
Wen Zhan looked at her awkwardly and nodded.
His frank gaze made Lu Yunchu dare to look directly at him. She looked away, paused for a moment, and after understanding his thoughts, she was so angry that she gasped: "Who am I in your eyes?"
Wen Zhan didn't understand why she was suddenly angry, and he became at a loss. He lowered his head and reflected on what he had said wrong.
After the intimate contact, it was always the same. His first reaction was to reach out and grab Lu Yunchu's fingertips to apologize.
But Lu Yunchu pushed him away.
Wen Zhan's forehead twitched in pain and he became even more nervous. The relaxation in his brows disappeared completely. He was afraid that if he annoyed her, she would take away his charity.
Since Lu Yunchu didn't let him touch it, he could only take out the small notebook and write.
But the notebook was very thick, and Wen Zhan had written a lot when he was chattering. Now there was only the last page left, so he could only squeeze in the blank space to write, trying to write in large letters: I was wrong.
When Lu Yunchu saw that he was actually apologizing, he became even angrier.
"What's wrong with that!" She suppressed the aggrieved emotion in her head and suddenly reached out to pinch his chin.
His skin was exceptionally smooth, like a peeled egg. Lu Yunchu was originally still angry and had lost control of his strength, but as soon as he touched the skin, his anger immediately subsided. While he was retracting his strength, his thoughts changed: Such tender skin, will it turn red if pinched
She asked: "Do you think I'm a good person?"
Wen Zhan nodded of course.
"Do you think I'm a kindhearted person with nowhere to go? Who is so kind and hates to spread light and love all over the world, to devote myself to the greatness of the saint, and to soothe the pain of others with kisses?"
Wen Zhan didn't understand some of the words she said, but they sounded like good words, so he nodded as a matter of course.
As expected, Lu Yunchu gritted his teeth and whispered, "Bah. I am not a good person. I am a person who wants to save others. I am a selfish person who wants to throw away everything and escape. Where is the selfless dedication?" In the previous two generations, she was not a saint. She never participated in the plot and never saved anyone's life. Even if she knew the direction of the plot, she had no intention of saving people.
Wen Zhan was still looking at her cautiously, and when he heard this, he immediately frowned to show his disapproval. This kind of words made him more uncomfortable than her shaking off his hand just now. He also understood why she belittled himself like this, and he wanted to say something to refute her.
But she suddenly came closer and said viciously: "Do you understand? I take care of you and kiss you, it's out of love."
Wen Zhan's heart suddenly twitched in pain, and his eyes were filled with panic and no emotion... Then how should he deal with it
He was afraid that Lu Yunchu would see his exposed thoughts, so he lowered his eyes to hide them.
She was still asking: "Did you remember?"
Wen Zhan's mind was in a mess. This was a happy event for him, because apart from love, he didn't know what else he could rely on.
He nodded with difficulty to indicate that he remembered.
Lu Yunchu sighed and released the hand that was pinching his chin: "I kissed you only because I wanted to kiss you."
Wen Zhan's brain was still numb, and he looked up subconsciously after hearing the words.
But she was rarely shy for a moment, looked away, and said frankly: "I just think you are very... ahem, attractive like that."
boom-
Wen Zhan's brain exploded.
Tempting, enticing
What are you talking about
She pursed her lips and uttered a few words quickly: "It's tempting because I like you, I think you are gentle and beautiful, so I want to kiss you, do you understand?"
To be honest, Wen Zhan didn't understand. He didn't understand the compliments and the heavy words "like". These words were too beautiful, like a light and beautiful dream. How could they exist in his world now? In this comparison, "tempting" could make him feel more at ease.
How could he care about his appearance? He raised his hand and touched his face. It turned out that his parents gave him a good-looking face.
At this moment, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, raised the corners of his mouth happily, and looked at Lu Yunchu with shining eyes.
How to describe this look? Lu Yunchu felt that his gaze had cast a halo on her, as if all the beauty in the world had hit her, making her dare not move. The emotion contained in it was very precious, and she didn't know what to do.
She softened her tone and took Wen Zhan's hand: "I hope you will take yourself lightly." Maybe at the beginning she was really nice to Wen Zhan because she loved him, but that was charity. How could such a wonderful man deserve love? Later, love turned into pain, and she hated him so much that she wanted to turn the sky upside down to avenge him.
Wen Zhan smiled and nodded, with a timid and passionate look in his eyes. If Lu Yunchu didn't like him saying these words, he wouldn't say them again in the future. It's easy to get love, and he can't destroy it capriciously.
Just as Wen Zhan could understand Lu Yunchu's love, Lu Yunchu could also understand Wen Zhan's inferiority and cowardice.
Lu Yunchu sighed. Maybe it was because the progress was too fast? She thought, they didn't know each other well enough, so they did what only boyfriends and girlfriends could do, which was indeed the best. Although it was a world in a novel, Wen Zhan was an ancient man after all.
This is her fault, she has to take the blame.
She tried to pull Wen Zhan over, but she forgot about the size difference between them and failed.
Well, Lu Yunchu simply moved closer and snuggled into Wen Zhan’s arms.
Wen Zhan's body became stiff, and he instinctively wanted to dodge, but when he heard what she just said, he finally steadied himself and raised his hand to hold her in his arms.
Lu Yunchu leaned comfortably in his arms and whispered, "Let's talk about the past. I still know you well enough."
Wen Zhan was silent and did not respond for a long time.
Lu Yunchu looked up: "What's wrong?"
Wen Zhan is a person who likes to escape, but when facing Lu Yunchu, he always has many things to avoid. He is not afraid of endless suffering, but afraid of the meaning behind the suffering.
If only he were just an ordinary person, without those hilarious twists and turns, the gap between them would be exposed. The more painful the past was, the more ridiculous it was, and the more it proved that his existence was so insignificant. Wen Zhan didn't know where Lu Yunchu came from, but he knew clearly that she and he were the same kind of people. She was real, and he was just a chess piece in the vast layout, a stone in the torrent, a phantom that would break at the slightest poke, how could it be compared with the shining stars
Whenever she was with him, he would feel alive again, but when he turned his head and looked at the waning moon day after day, he would be beaten back to his original state. He was like a character in a play, and even the rustling leaves were whispering, laughing at the absurdity of a dead thing trying to reincarnate.
When Wen Zhan was slow to answer, Lu Yunchu thought he had touched upon his sore spot.
She changed the question: "When did you realize that you were different from other people?" She had always wanted to ask this question, but she had never found the right time.
Wen Zhan had no choice but to write on the small blank space left on the notebook: A long time ago.
"A long time ago?" Lu Yunchu was a little surprised. "How long ago is a long time ago? Half a year? A year?"
Wen Zhan's hand holding the charcoal pencil paused. The muscles on the back of his hand bulged as he exerted force, but he finally wrote: Eight years and fifty-four days.
Lu Yunchu felt the air around her suddenly disappear, causing her to fall into a state of suffocation that was difficult to escape.
Eight years... How long is that, living alone, without any hope or expectation? No wonder he looked so lifeless when she first saw him.
She looked up at Wen Zhan, her eyes involuntarily filled with sadness. In the previous two lives, he never waited for her, woke up alone, and disappeared alone.
Wen Zhan would not be disgusted by her emotions. He understood her look and just touched her head to let her be sad.
Lu Yunchu felt a pang in his heart, and asked softly, "Can I kiss you?"
Wen Zhan didn't understand, but still nodded. Although he thought Lu Yunchu still needed his love, she could do anything for him.
Lu Yunchu raised his head and kissed the corner of his mouth.
"I'm sorry." She knew why she had to apologize.
When Wen Zhan heard her say this, he picked up the notebook and found that it was already full of words. He felt helpless for a moment.
Lu Yunchu spread his hands in front of him: "What are you talking about?"
He wrote on her palm stroke by stroke: "Feel sorry for me, because I have never felt this way before."
Lu Yunchu lowered his hands, and with anger and pain, he raised his hands to wrap around his neck and kissed him fiercely: "I want it."
Wen Zhan was caught off guard and was nearly knocked down by her.
Her lips didn't leave, she said, itchy and tingling: "Open your mouth."
He did so.
The next moment, she brought him to experience the burning pleasure that could melt his chest. He was forced to lower his head, with no escape, and let her tell him the pain in silent words. The strange feeling swept over his body, and he couldn't even breathe, and could only entangle with her awkwardly.
It turned out that the entanglement of lips and teeth would bring such a feeling. The uncontrollable throbbing made his stomach bloated and numb, and the joy squeezed his internal organs, making it difficult for him to breathe but extremely addicted, washing over his joints, soothing all his anxieties, leaving only an emotion called joy that continued to spread.
When she left, he was stunned for a few seconds, then gasped for breath.
There was still a trace of shock in his eyes, which were covered with a layer of shimmering mist, like fireworks through a halo.
Lu Yunchu smiled and said, "Let me emphasize that I am doing this to comfort you because I love you." In order to prevent Wen Zhan from having wild thoughts again.
Wen Zhan lowered his eyes, not knowing what was going on.
After a few seconds, he held her wrist and wrote on her palm: Is it because I looked so attractive just now
Lu Yunchu was speechless. She corrected him, "What are you talking about? You must have misunderstood. I do think you are very attractive, attractive all the time, but I must have kissed you because I like you. I find you attractive because I like you, and it hurts because I like you..." This is very complicated and hard to explain.
Wen Zhan, however, acted as if he hadn't heard anything and continued writing on her palm: What now
Lu Yunchu was stunned for a moment: "What now?"
He raised his eyes, which were filled with awkward exploration, confidence and enthusiasm.
He wrote: Do you still find me attractive now
Lu Yunchu was stunned by his question. She felt that no one could nod in the face of such a look.
Wen Zhan seemed to smile, then reached out and held the back of her head, with very light force, as if he was holding a fragile object.
It was Lu Yunchu who was stupid. She really didn't expect Wen Zhan to do such a thing.
At this moment, she was still a little confused. She didn't understand why Wen Zhan was holding her head, and she even wanted to feel the trembling of his palm.
The next moment, the light in front of her eyes was blocked, and Wen Zhan suddenly bent down and pressed his head against her lips.
Lu Yunchu's eyes widened, shocked by his action. She leaned back subconsciously. His gentle strength was no match for her, and she fell onto the cushion. With his hand supporting her, it didn't hurt.
However, he seemed not to feel the pain in his hand. He followed her closely, supported her side with one hand, and lowered his head to kiss her again.
His chest was broad, covering her tightly, and the whole room was filled with the pleasant scent of medicine from his body.
Love is the best teacher. He learned everything in just one time, and continued to make progress in the entanglement. He held her in his arms and kissed her until she made him dizzy.