On the outskirts of the capital, in a shabby thatched cottage, a six-year-old girl walked silently into the snow while rubbing her red hands.
Qiu Yusheng, wearing linen clothes patched one after another, also got out of it and shouted anxiously.
"Yangyang, where are you going?"
Xue Yang turned his head and said expressionlessly.
"What else can I do? I'll go find some food and come back."
Qiu Yusheng gritted his teeth, pursed his lips, and finally returned to the thatched cottage with his fists clenched.
"It's all because I, a useless mother, can't even feed and clothe my children."
Listening to the voice coming from behind, Xue Yang curled his lips.
I regret being here now. What did I do back then
A weak woman, a weak woman with no strength to tie a chicken, can't even support herself, let alone take care of a child
Xue Yang has never understood why her mother didn't even accept the things her grandparents sent her, just for the so-called integrity, the so-called man, and the so-called love
If you can't even have enough food and clothing, what's the use of love
Xue Yang disagreed a hundred times with his mother's behavior. But what can she do? She can only obey her mother.
Although she couldn't understand what her mother did no matter what, it was undeniable that her mother really loved her, and she really loved her mother.
Stomping his feet, feeling the bone-chilling cold wind around him, Xue Yang's heart felt as cold as the twelfth lunar month of winter.
At such a young age, what can she do? Apart from going to the city to beg for food, she may have no choice but to sell herself.
After finally running to the city, Xue Yang found a place to sit down and imitated other beggars in showing off their pity.
One morning passed, she looked at the few coins in her hand, bought a multi-grain steamed bun without hesitation, and ate it while walking.
Slowly arriving under the eaves of a restaurant, Xue Yang was about to continue walking when he suddenly heard a familiar name coming from inside.
Xue Gui, isn't this the righteous, suave, dedicated, versatile father that your mother said
Thinking like this, Xue Yang immediately stopped and curled up into a ball, biting the steamed bun in small mouthfuls while listening to the sounds inside quietly.
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Today we talk about the new favorite of the imperial court, General Xue Gui, who makes us envious and jealous.
It is said that six years ago, General Xue Gui surrendered to the army with his weapons and became a small soldier.
...Victories in countless wars finally made General Xue what he is today.
Of course, these are not the focus. The focus is the group of confidante around General Xue.
Cute and cute... graceful and luxurious... eccentric... with clear love...
I heard that General Xue Gui had only returned to Beijing for half a year, but he had received special treatment from a princess, and might even become a guest of honor in the clan mansion.
What, don’t you know what the ceremonial guests of the clan’s mansion are? Hahahaha, it’s actually what the folks call a county horse.
Volume 2 of Ouyang Xiu's "Guitian Lu": "The official system has been abolished for a long time. Nowadays, there are many erroneous names. Although the scholars and officials all follow the customs, they don't think it's strange. As the princess is a princess, her husband must worship the Prince Consort, so he is called the Prince Consort. Daughter of the clan. A person who is granted the title of county lord calls his husband a county horse, and a person who is the county lord is called a county horse. I don’t know what the meaning is."
What does this passage mean? This means that Jun Ma is actually not an orthodox title, but is actually a guest of honour.
Okay, without further ado, let’s continue talking about the life and legendary experiences of General Xue Gui.
It is said that one winter six years ago...
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Xue Yang listened stupidly, and the unfinished multigrain steamed bun in his hand fell to the ground silently.
When a beggar on the side saw this scene, he rushed over quickly, trying to grab the multi-grain steamed bun with saliva still in it.
Xue Yang reacted immediately. He no longer cared about what he just heard, and started fighting with the beggar by waving his small body.
After a dozen breaths, the dark beggar retreated, cursing, and ran away.
Xue Yang, who had a bruised nose and swollen face, coughed violently, picked up the multi-grain steamed bun that had become dirty and cold because it fell on the snow, and carefully held it in his arms.
She walked forward slowly, and when the steamed buns became warm, she took the steamed buns out of her arms and continued to eat them in small bites to fill her shrinking belly.
After a day of begging, Xue Yang bought something cheap, plentiful, but not very tasty, and returned home.
When Qiu Yusheng saw his daughter, he quickly lit up the fire and talked about thoughtful words to warm up Xue Yang, who was cold all over.
After giving the food to Qiu Yusheng, Xue Yang seemed to mention something unconsciously. Half a year ago, a general named Xue Gui returned to the imperial court. Now he is at home in the imperial court. It is said that he will soon be the guest of honor in the clan mansion.
When Qiu Yusheng heard this, he was stunned and asked for more information.
Xue Yang is just a child, how can he know more? After all the news was told, Qiu Yusheng seemed to have lost his energy and spirit, and the whole person fell silent.
As the firelight flickered, the tears in the corners of Qiu Yusheng's eyes fell one by one like broken pearls. At the same time, all the expectations in her heart were like a flame without firewood, extinguished bit by bit, and finally turned into ashes.
Talking about being a pair for life, holding hands with your son and growing old together, and only envying mandarin ducks but not immortals, these are all lies.
After a cup of tea, the tears in Qiu Yusheng's eyes ran away and he began to forcefully smile. Still hugging Xue Yang who was sitting beside him, he murmured to himself.
"Yangyang, just wait, mother will not let you live like this for the rest of your life. You are the general's daughter, and you deserve to be admired by everyone."
Three days later, Xue Yang looked at the huge house in front of him and fell into silence.
It was her lifelong dream to have fine wine and jade liquid, fine clothes and fine food. But after she realized it, she was not as happy as she had imagined.
My mother has changed, my father is not the father I imagined, and my beautiful aunts all look glamorous, but in fact they are like evil ghosts.
A certain aunt gave birth prematurely, and she didn’t know who caused it. Maybe everyone has taken action, maybe some people just ignore it.
Xue Yang felt a deep chill as he looked at his mother who was secretly smiling happily and holding on to her handkerchief.
What kind of place is such a big house, and why can it make the originally innocent daughter's home become so filthy
Conspiracy, frame-up, calculation, abortion, all kinds of tricks are used.
What makes her even more incomprehensible is why, in the hearts of her father and many outsiders, the wives and concubines of their family are in harmony and the sisters love each other
Three months later, Xue Yang became more and more silent. She was unwilling to say a word unless necessary.
On this sunny day, Qiu Yusheng suddenly rushed in regardless of his appearance, crying and shouting.
"Yangyang, it's my mother who's sorry for you. It's all my mother's fault."
When Qiu Yusheng was almost done crying, Xue Yang finally spoke and asked.
"what's going on?"
Qiu Yusheng sobbed and told the story intermittently.
It turns out that Xue Gui, the father, has arranged a marriage for his daughter Xue Yang and will be leaving home this time next year.
Although Ding's family is extremely wealthy and powerful, However, that was an old man in his forties. In the past, he could only be a stepwife, and he had to be a concubine to his dead wife. If he dies in the future, he will not be able to be buried beside his husband, nor can they be buried together.
After Xue Yang listened silently, he lowered his eyes even more silently. Is this kind of life really the life she wants? She was only six years old, so her whole life was decided so easily
Another month later, Xue Yang wrote a line of words using his unskilled technique and quietly placed it under Qiu Yusheng's pillow. Then, she took off her rich clothes, avoided the sight of one person after another, walked through the corridors in an orderly manner, and finally got into a dog hole and walked out of the house that she had not left for months.
It’s such a big house, it looks very glamorous, doesn’t it
However, a woman's life is just walking from one house to another, and finally disappears like a rotten leaf where no one can see it.
Xue Yang didn't want to live such a life, she wanted to escape, far away. From then on, her name was Qiu Yang, not Xue Yang.
During these days in the big house, she missed the life she had a few months ago extremely. Although she didn't have enough to eat or warm clothes, she had a freedom that many women couldn't have.
At night, Qiu Yusheng searched for a long time but could not find any trace of his daughter. Until she saw a note under the pillow, and finally cried so hard that she couldn't help herself.
-Mom, I’m leaving. When I come back, I will take you with me.
After Xue Gui heard the news of his daughter's disappearance, he frowned heavily. Without his legitimate daughter, how could he make alliances with others
"Now that you've left, never come back. My Xue family's daughter had a cold and is already dead."
After saying these cruel words, Xue Gui ignored Qiu Yusheng who was crying like a tearful person behind him, turned around and left with his sleeves rolled up.
After feeling sad, Qiu Yusheng touched his belly and thought silently:
No matter what, she would give birth to a legitimate son and keep the family business. Only when Yang Yang comes back in the future will he have a place to stay.
If she couldn't give birth, then she would not get it, and she would rather ruin it all so that no one could get it.
"Xue Gui, don't blame me. It was you who betrayed me first."
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A month later, the little girl who changed her name to Qiu Yang bit the dirty bun in her mouth with despair in her eyes.
The world is so big, why is there no place for her
No matter where she was, why couldn't she get a moment of freedom
Could it be that women in the entire world are destined to be reduced to dust
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