Tao Huainan used to be a doted puppy, carefree, innocent and brave.
The two elder brothers propped up a warm and safe nest for him. No matter how turbulent and bumpy the outside world is, Tao Huainan will always be well protected. He is a child who grew up watered by love, and his heart is also full of love.
Every day he loves his two brothers as much as he can, and the two loves are not exactly the same, but both are equally strong.
"What are you thinking about?" Chi Cheng was wearing pajamas, had just finished a set of papers, and glanced at Tao Huainan who was holding a fruit plate and waiting for him to eat.
Tao Huainan asked with a smile, "Are you done? Did you get the answer right?"
Chi Cheng wiped off a small drop of water that splashed on his face with his fingers: "No, what do you think?"
Tao Huainan leaned over and kissed him on the mouth, smiled sweetly, but didn't answer, touched a piece of apple and put it into Chicheng's mouth.
Chi Cheng bit the apple and reached out to pinch his face. Tao Huainan took advantage of the situation to bite his finger, Chi Cheng didn't even try to hide, he just let him bite if bitten by Tao Huainan, and even scratched Tao Huainan's small fang with his thumb.
They are in the third year of high school, and Chi Cheng is one of the school's seed players. The school and the teacher are all pointing at what those top-notch students can get back.
Chi Cheng is like not getting tired, he is smart and self-disciplined. Tao Huainan also tried his best to provide conditions for Chi Cheng to study, rushing to do everything he could do, and not letting Chi Cheng reach out.
In front of Chi Cheng, Tao Huainan is always happy, always smiling, making people feel relaxed when looking at him. But Tao Huainan was not like that all the time. When he was not in front of Chi Cheng, Tao Huainan often did not speak, stuck in his own thoughts and could not get out, such as just now.
Chi Cheng asked him what he was thinking and he didn't say anything, in fact Tao Huainan's heart was heavy and he couldn't breathe.
One evening last week, Tao Huainan left school early, so he went downstairs to Chicheng's classroom to wait for him. The back door of their classroom was never closed. Tao Huainan entered the classroom with ease. Chi Cheng and Shi Kai happened to be sitting in the front row of the back door that week. Tao Huainan sat there with a smile, waiting to see when Chi Cheng would find him. coming.
It's almost time to leave school, and everyone's heart is not calm. The class is chaotic, and they are all chatting among themselves.
Shi Kai was asking Chi Cheng a physics problem, Chi Cheng explained to him for a while, and asked, "Do you understand?"
"Understood," Shi Kai stretched his arms tiredly, "it's so difficult."
"Throw it away as soon as you have to, don't worry about big questions," Chi Cheng told him, "In the end, you have time to think about it later."
Shi Kai smiled and said, "I know, I remember the Great God."
After they were divided into classes, they stayed at the same table. Tao Huainan went to the liberal arts class, and the seat next to Chi Cheng was occupied by Shi Kai, who sat next to Xueba. Seeing soaring.
"Why didn't you go to the physics competition?" Shi Kai asked Chi Cheng, "Thirty points, no more?"
Chi Cheng replied indifferently, "No time."
"Forget it, you don't go to those competitions, you don't add points, what are you thinking?" Shi Kai felt sorry, frowned and said, "I think you did it on purpose."
Chi Cheng said: "I really don't have time, I have to go to other places for the exam, and I have to go to other places for several days."
"Bonus points! Are you taking the test for nothing?" Shi Kai said.
Chi Cheng only said lightly: "It's all directional, I don't need it."
The two of them spoke in a low voice, no one else could hear them, but Tao Huainan had very good ears, so he could hear clearly.
He heard it all from behind, and heard that Chi Cheng didn't go to any competitions, Chi Cheng didn't say these things, Tao Huainan didn't know about these things at all.
I also heard Chi Cheng say that he can't use it.
Tao Huainan gently lay down on the table, burying his face in his arms.
Shi Kai said after a while: "You don't want the extra points from those schools, and others can't grab them. Where are you going to take the test, brother?"
Chi Cheng said, "I'm not going out of the province."
"Why?" Shi Kai asked him, "For Huainan?"
"It's not for anyone, so I don't have that plan. My brother and brother are here." Chi Cheng replied.
"You are afraid that Huainan can't live without brother." Shi Kai still understood, and he knew them both after knowing each other for so long, and sighed, "If you don't leave the province, you really don't need to add points, you have to throw a few Ten, stop learning."
Chi Cheng smiled, and said to him: "Don't mention it in front of him, you'll think about it when you go back."
"Did you see I mentioned it?" Shi Kai put away the book and was about to leave get out of class in a few minutes. "Don't worry."
Before they dismissed get out of class, Tao Huainan quietly left the classroom again, leaning against the wall and waiting. The moon is big outside, and the moonlight is evenly cast down. On the marble window sill, the small sequins in the middle of the stone are reflected brightly, like gentle little stars. Tao Huainan couldn't see this, he lowered his head, standing there a little sad.
The floors of other grades have long been vacant by this time, only the two floors of the third year are still open. When the time came, people came out of the classroom one after another. Chi Cheng and Shi Kai were closest to the back door. When Shi Kai came out, he saw him and flicked his head.
Tao Huainan greeted him and called him "Brother Kai".
Shi Kai left first, Chi Cheng came out and put the back of Tao Huainan's head in his hands, rubbed his hair and took him away.
Ever since he was in the third year of high school, Tao Huainan has been pressing a lot of things in his heart. Chi Cheng didn't want to mention it, and Tao Huainan didn't want to take the initiative to touch it either. A dispute is inevitable, Tao Huainan would rather prolong the peaceful time long enough than affect Chi Cheng's mood before the college entrance examination.
But he was still naive.
The college entrance examination is only a few months away, those competitions have long passed, and there is no chance for extra points.
Chi Cheng was right, he didn't want to go out of the province, if he didn't go out of the province, he really wouldn't use those bonus points. It doesn't matter if Chi Cheng makes mistakes in the exam, as long as he doesn't deliberately miss questions like in the senior high school entrance examination, he is enough for the few schools in this province.
Chicheng didn't want Tao Huainan to know, so Tao Huainan pretended not to know. In the two years after they were divided into classes, they rarely had any conflicts. Tao Huainan had no temper, and Chi Cheng said what. Before the exam, Tao Huainan didn't want to mention anything, anyway, it's meaningless to mention it, if you miss it, it's gone.
Growing up always makes people face many choices, but it is sad no matter how they choose.
There was a day off on the weekend, they got up very late in the morning, Chicheng grabbed Tao Huainan's waist and bit his neck.
Tao Huainan's eyes were red, he tilted his neck up for him to bite, and at the same time kissed Chi Cheng's forehead.
Chi Cheng touched Tao Huainan's eyes with his fingers, and asked him, "Crying?"
At that time, Tao Huainan was the best at talking softly and pretending to be pitiful, saying softly, "It hurts me."
Chi Cheng knew that he said that on purpose, so he followed his will, smiled and kissed his neck, with a little sand in his voice: "Does it still hurt?"
Tao Huainan also laughed, and said softly, "It's better."
After finishing the intimate matters, Chi Cheng helped Tao Huainan to take a bath together. There was still a faint fishy smell in the air after the boy released it, but Tao Huainan was not shy, he just bit Chi Cheng's ear and called "Xiao Chi" over and over again.
At times like this, Tao Huainan occasionally thought, it doesn't matter which choice you choose. Although it is sad, it is not so desperate. As long as you face it well, you can choose whatever you want.
My brother has been on a lot of business trips recently, and he hasn't been back much during this time. It stands to reason that it shouldn't be, the two younger brothers are about to take the college entrance examination, and he hasn't shown up and never come back to send care, it's not like him.
Tao Huainan called him to ask when he would be back, but Xiaodong always said he was busy. Tao Huainan is so sensitive, brother can't hide things from him at all.
I don't know if it was because of worry, or because of some sense of the blood connection between the brothers, Tao Huainan often had dreams during that time, and the dreams were all about Xiaodong's not-so-good things.
Dreaming that he had an accident, dreaming that he was sick, or something worse.
Tao Huainan was woken up by Chi Cheng at night. It is not easy for him to wake up when he is trapped in a nightmare, because his eyes are invisible and he cannot perceive the real world through sight like a normal person. Chi Cheng hugged him and coaxed Tao Huainan to wake up slowly after a long time, his heart was still beating violently, making people flustered.
"Did you dream about brother?" Chi Cheng wiped the sweat off his forehead, patted his back and said, "It's fake."
Tao Huainan leaned his face on his shoulder and said "Mmm".
"Wake up before going back to sleep," Chi Cheng turned on the light so that Tao Huainan's eyes could be illuminated, "otherwise it's a dream again."
Tao Huainan recovered after a while, took a deep breath and let it out, pressed Chi Cheng's hand to let him touch his heart, and said, "I'm scared to death."
Chi Cheng stroked the back of his head and said "it's okay".
Brother and Chi Cheng are both too important to him, and any mistakes in either will be fine. He himself can have an accident or get sick, but they can't.
On the day Brother and Tang came back together, Tao Huainan immediately exposed their pretense of Tai and Ping.
Xiaodong's voice was hoarse, and he had lost so much weight. Tao Huainan touched his face, he was calm on the surface, but his heart was already in turmoil.
Tao Xiaodong is an unbeatable elder brother. If it wasn't for a big event, he wouldn't be able to see it at all. He didn't show up for a while, but he was so emotional that he couldn't even pretend to be in front of his younger brothers.
Well, if you don't get sick and don't get sick, why do you lose so much weight
Xiaodong shaved off all his hair, what disease needs to be shaved
Xiaodong's mouth is tight, and he can't get it out even if he asks. Brother really didn't want him to know, so Tao Huainan stopped asking.
They always don't want him to know anything, brother just wants to hide something from him, and Chi Cheng tells Shi Kai not to mention it in front of him. He is a child who grew up protected and doted on by his elder brothers, afraid that he will be afraid, afraid that he will think too much.
Tao Huainan had no choice but to pretend not to think, to pretend not to know. There are only a few days left in the college entrance examination, and Tao Huainan can understand that he doesn't want to say anything to affect them at this time, and he loves them very much.
But when he heard Xiaodong's mistakenly posted voice in the group, Tao Huainan couldn't pretend anymore.
Xiaodong said that he couldn't do anything else after finishing the work in hand.
He is out of time.
That day Tao Huainan lay on the desk for a whole morning, in a state where his soul was exhausted, his whole body was numb, and his whole body was shaking.
Xiao Zhuo patted him on the back worriedly and asked him, "Are you okay?"
Tao Huainan never moved, Pan Xiaozhuo understood him even though he was worried, and comforted the teacher away for him.
That morning seemed to be missing from Tao Huainan's memory. Afterwards, I couldn't remember how I lived that day or what happened. My brain seemed to automatically delete the memory of that day, and deleted his confusion, intense panic and fear that day.
That day Tao Huainan moved his lips and murmured something to Pan Xiaozhuo.
But his voice was too low, Pan Xiaozhuo couldn't hear him clearly, and Tao Huainan couldn't remember what he said afterwards.