After doing intimate things, it is difficult for people to cool down. Turning faces and denying people is not so common. Ordinary people will get closer to each other after each intimacy.
For the two of them, it is more natural to be close to each other than to deliberately keep a distance, and it is difficult to restrain themselves from pulling away.
Tao Huainan clings to him every day, Chi Cheng can't get away from him at all. They were indeed getting closer, but Chi Cheng also became a lot more silent in this closeness. He often just looked at Tao Huainan, and occasionally touched his face and pinched his ears. When people are silent, do they appear indifferent or sad.
Chi Cheng is not indifferent, his indifference is all feigned.
"Your little brother is back, how do you feel?" Pan Xiaozhuo tapped the back of Tao Huainan's hand with a useless straw.
Tao Huainan laughed immediately, and said, "Meibai, what else can I think."
"I can't tell," Pan Xiaozhuo looked at him, "I think you are quite calm."
Tao Huainan said, "I'm pretending."
Pan Xiaozhuo laughed twice, took a sip of juice, bit the straw and said, "Is your little brother talking to you?"
"Talk to me," Tao Huainan said with his head down, "he's fine."
The little friends met again, and Pan Xiaozhuo finally finished the exam, heaved a sigh of relief, and immediately asked Tao Huainan out for dinner. He said he wanted to eat meat and wanted to improve the food.
Tao Huainan asked him what he wanted to eat yesterday and said he would take him to eat.
Pan Xiaozhuo refused: "I'll take you and I'll treat you."
Tao Huainan asked him with a smile, "Have you finished saving money?"
"It's over," Pan Xiaozhuo replied contentedly, "There's no need to run out of money!"
"You can keep it a secret," Tao Huainan rolled up the noodles on his fork, "I see how long you can keep it a secret."
"It's not necessary to hide it," Pan Xiaozhuo said a little bit without confidence, "I'm just embarrassed."
Tao Huainan didn't ask him any more. In fact, he guessed something in his heart, so Pan Xiaozhuo didn't say anything because he was too embarrassed to say it.
"Do you two sleep in the same room?" Pan Xiaozhuo asked Tao Huainan, turning the subject a bit abruptly.
Tao Huainan nodded: "Sleep."
Pan Xiaozhuo was still thin-skinned and didn't ask further questions. There was a message on Tao Huainan's phone, and it was my brother asking him if he needed to answer it.
Tao Huainan replied: "No need to pick up, take a taxi by yourself."
Pan Xiaozhuo: "Your brother?"
"My brother." Tao Huainan said.
Chi Cheng went out to talk about something today, but was not at home. Tao Huainan told him when he was going out, and Chi Cheng replied "Got it". Now Chi Cheng would simply reply when he sent a message, and they looked more and more like before.
But Tao Huainan knew it was not.
He could understand Chi Cheng's silence.
They were indeed close by instinct, but Chi Cheng couldn't let go of what happened back then, he didn't have that kind of energy. I can't bear it, but I can't help responding, tending to instinctively be nice to Tao Huainan. The more self-conscious people are, the more uncomfortable they are when they are manipulated by habits and emotions, like a puppet of an irresistible emotion.
Tao Huainan knows Chi Cheng so well, how could he not understand.
Pan Xiaozhuo asked, "Are you reconciled?"
Tao Huainan thought for a while, then shook his head slightly: "No."
They kiss now and then, doing what lovers do, but not really lovers.
The gerbera flowers that brother bought for Tang need to be watered and cut every day. Before Tang got off work, Chi Cheng brought the vase after the water change and sat on the balcony to help Tang cut the roots.
Tao Huainan came over and sat next to him, Chi Cheng took a cushion from the shelf next to him and gave it to him, saying, "Don't sit on the floor, it's cold."
Tao Huainan touched his hand.
Chi Cheng put the flowers one by one into the vase, Tao Huainan sat with him, the balcony was colder than the room, Tao Huainan wore cotton socks and stuffed his feet under Chi Cheng's legs.
Chi Cheng raised his leg lightly, leaving him a space.
Tao Huainan suddenly asked in a low voice: "Do you still hate me? Brother."
Chi Cheng paused for a moment, then continued to cut the roots, and said, "Hate."
Tao Huainan rested his head on his arm and closed his eyes.
Love and hate are both real, there is no conflict at all, it's strange how many people there are.
Tao Huainan kissed his arm, and said softly, "You can hate me, but don't be sad."
Chi Cheng took a look at him, and Tao Huainan raised his hand to touch his face: "You can scold me for hurting me, or ignore me, I'll just coax you slowly, don't make yourself sad."
Chi Cheng lowered his eyes to look at the flowers in his hand, but didn't speak.
"When I dream, I always dream that the time goes back to five years ago. In my dream, I always grab you and won't let you go." Tao Huainan said slowly with his eyes closed, "You are still in the dream. My eyes are unwilling to wake up, and I want to sleep for a while, and when I wake up, there will be nothing."
When he said this, Chi Cheng suddenly smiled.
Tao Huainan asked, "Why are you laughing?"
Chi Cheng said, "Nothing."
Even dreams are the same. It's just that every time Chi Cheng wakes up, he wakes up completely, and immediately sits up to end the dream.
"I'm not afraid that you will hate me. It's fine if you don't forgive me." Tao Huainan touched Chi Cheng's pajamas and rubbed them slowly, "I made you hurt too much back then."
Tao Huainan never dared to touch the scar on Chi Cheng's chest, because of that scar, he didn't even dare to hear his heartbeat.
"How good at talking." Chi Cheng finished cutting the flowers, put the vase on the shelf, and lowered his head to tidy up the cut flowers.
Tao Huainan smiled, and said, "Then what should I do, I hate it if I say it or not, if I say more, it's fine if it can relieve your anger."
After packing up, Chi Cheng stood up and went back indoors.
Tao Huainan sat in the same place in a daze, and it became colder after Chi Cheng left the balcony.
"Come in." Chi Cheng called him from inside.
"Here we come." Tao Huainan put the cushion back, went out as well, and closed the balcony door.
Although Chi Cheng said he hated it, but no one else could see it except himself. In the eyes of the two elder brothers, they are fine now, Chi Cheng is gentle and Tao Huainan can coax them.
Now Tao Huainan is like a sunflower, circling around my little brother every day. Both brother and Tang are out of line, and I can't take care of them.
One morning when Tao Huainan's mouth was broken again, Tao Xiaodong looked at the two of them, and after a silence, he called "Brother Bitter".
Chi Cheng looked at him: "What's wrong, bro."
"The two of us owed a chat before, is there such a thing?" Tao Xiaodong didn't speak too formally, as if he only mentioned it casually.
Chi Cheng didn't expect his brother to say this suddenly, he was a little surprised, and said "yes".
"Then find time for our brothers to chat some other day?" Tao Xiaodong smiled and knocked him with his elbow, "I haven't had a chance yet."
Chi Cheng was quiet for a while, and then said "OK".
It's no wonder that Chi Cheng was surprised that he suddenly brought up this issue, this matter was actually Tao Xiaodong's mistake. Tao Huainan's mouth was really not bitten by a puppy, but by himself. The weather was dry in winter, and Tao Huainan's mouth was torn, and he bled from biting the skin himself.
Ke Ke said he wanted to chat with Chi Cheng, but he didn't refuse, so he agreed.
Tao Huainan didn't know what the two of them were chatting about, nor did they know when they made an appointment with Tao Huainan. He asked a little confused: "What secret do you two have to tell others behind your back?"
Tao Xiaodong said, "Tell me about my brothers."
Tao Huainan raised his eyebrows: "Your brother can't listen?"
"No." Tao Xiaodong pushed him to wash up, "Hurry up and finish packing for work."
Tao Huainan went to work for another three days, and Ji Nan finally got everyone together, saying that they would have a get-together on Saturday night. This is the most complete time since graduation. Only two of the high school small group who have settled in other places have not returned yet, and the rest have all returned.
There were major changes and minor changes. Tao Huainan didn't bring a blind cane when he went out that day, and he held Chi Cheng's hand all the time.
Shi Kai came back yesterday, they didn't get together a few days ago and just waited for him, if Brother Kai didn't come back, Ji Nan didn't make any fuss. Shi Kai has not changed much, but he has been in Beijing for a few years, and now he looks more stable.
Ji Nan put her arms around Shi Kai's neck and kept calling "Kai Kai" intimately.
Shi Kai thought he was sticky, so he took off his arm and went to talk to Tao Huainan.
Among these people, Shi Kai and Tao Huainan have known each other for the longest time, and their relationship is somewhat different, and there is also a distance. Tao Huainan was very happy every time he saw him, calling him "Brother Kai".
Shi Kai glanced at the hand that Chi Cheng was holding with him, didn't say anything directly, just smiled "Yo".
Chi Cheng asked when he came back.
Shi Kai said: "Yesterday, I wanted to call you, but I was delayed by something."
Chi Cheng asked him, "Leave after the next year?"
"Let's talk," Shi Kai said, "It's not decided yet."
They had a small get-together in junior year, and they all drank too much at that party, and it took another three years.
It was rare that there were so many people this time, and Ji Nan tossed even more happily.
Tao Huainan thought he was noisy, so he leaned close to Chicheng's ear in disgust, and whispered, "Why doesn't he grow up?"
Ji Nan's eyes were sharp, and he saw the two whispering at a glance, "Hey" and said to Tao Huainan twice: "You two brothers, don't keep sneaking around."
Tao Huainan asked again: "Are you talking about the two of us?"
Chi Cheng said "hmm".
Tao Huainan then sat upright on his chair, peeled a shrimp, and put it on Chicheng's plate after peeling.
His mobile phone was placed on the table, and it was touched twice by his elbow. Now it only touches one side, and it will fall if it is touched again. There was water on the table, Chi Cheng picked it up and put it in his pocket.
Shi Kai watched their little movements, Chi Cheng looked at him, Shi Kai smiled silently.
That year Tao Huainan drank too much, Shi Kai sent him home, patted his head beside him, took a video with his mobile phone in the other hand, and asked, "Little Huainan, do you miss your little brother?"
Tao Huainan was honest and sincere when he was drunk, saying that he missed him every day.
Shi Kai didn't want to be Kai's elder brother for so many years for his children, so he sent the video to Chi Cheng backhandedly.
Tao Huainan didn't know about this for so many years. During the years when he and Chi Cheng cut off contact with each other, Kai once sent his naked heart to Chi Cheng.
Back then, this group of carefree, self-financed buddies from international high schools had also reached the age when they should take care of things. Some people have a good life, and some have a hard time.
When old classmates meet, the relationship is not the same as the later communication, this is the real kiss.
Twenty-four and five-and-a-half-year-olds are mature and immature, but they are not young at all, and they are still so noisy when they get together together.
Alcohol is inevitable, and no one can hide from it.
Chi Cheng drank a lot, he didn't use Tao Huainan to stop him from drinking, he drank the whole thing one by one.
In the crowd, Chi Cheng still seemed a little silent, he was really introverted.
"You two were so good back then, you were growing together, why did you collapse?" Ji Nan couldn't hold back, and asked Chi Cheng, "What's wrong with you in Huainan, you haven't come back all these years?"
If Chi Cheng doesn't talk, he has to drink if he doesn't talk.
His eyes turned red after drinking, and he would smile lightly when anyone asked him anything, and didn't say anything.
"You don't want your brother anymore?" Ji Nan actually didn't understand in his heart these few years, and felt that no matter how angry he was, it was too cruel for Chi Cheng not to go home even once.
Chi Cheng still smiled and drank.
This is the case after drinking, and you can talk about irrelevant things. It's not just the two of them, anyone can talk for a while, and Ji Nan can talk about things abroad for an hour.
He wanted to talk about Chi Cheng again, Tao Huainan raised his glass and said as if joking: "I'll drink it! Don't talk about my little brother anymore, and say I'm in a hurry. You don't know what's going on and don't talk."
"What's the matter? Tell me and listen."
Tao Huainan didn't drink that much wine, but his eyes were a little red. He drank the whole glass of wine and said, "I'm drunk, you can't ask any more questions. Anyway, it's all thanks to me."
"Why are you so protective? Back in high school, you blocked Brother Chi's drinking, but now you won't let him go." Jin Nan came over and rubbed Tao Huainan's head, "Brother Nan is helping you talk, can't you understand?"
"I don't need it," Tao Huainan said, "I'd rather you say me."
"Go back to your place and sit, it's not enough for what you owe." Shi Kai kicked Ji Nan, "Share your flirtatious love history, you don't care what you two do."
Ji Nan grinned and went back.
The focus of attention has finally passed from the two of them, but the few words Ji Nan said just now are still piercing in his heart.
Chi Cheng doesn't like to drink, but he drank some today. Not too drunk, but it was obvious that he had been drinking.
They made noise until one o'clock in the middle of the night, some stayed here directly, and some went home separately.
When Tao Huainan was led downstairs by Chi Cheng, he heard Pan Xiaozhuo's voice downstairs.
"Xiao Zhuo?" Tao Huainan asked in surprise.
Pan Xiaozhuo agreed, and asked, "Are you done?"
"It's over," Tao Huainan asked him, "Why didn't you go up?"
"I heard that you drank too much, see if you need my help to deliver." Pan Xiaozhuo said.
Tao Huainan asked him with a smile: "Are you here to pick up someone? Which drinker do you want to pick up?"
Pan Xiaozhuo didn't say a word, but when Ji Nan's voice behind him remembered, he gave an exaggerated "Yo".
Tao Huainan said, "Here we come."
"Who is this?" Ji Nan was the most annoying person who drank too much, and came to talk to Pan Xiaozhuo.
"What should I call you?" Ji Nan looked back, still smiling handsomely, "You don't have to pay back the money you owe me."
"Who owes you money," Pan Xiaozhuo refused to admit, "no money."
Ji Nan laughed twice, turned around and raised his voice to ask Shi Kai: "Brother Kai, when will Siqian hit my card!"
Shi Kai came over with his coat in his hand, raised his arm directly around the person, put his shoulders on his shoulders and walked out together, and said to Ji Nan, "Don't you have my two thousand?"
"No interest? How long has it been?" Ji Nan asked annoyingly.
Shi Kai tilted his head and said: "Transfer to your WeChat later, if you don't accept me, I will kill you, and I will pay you back if I run out of money."
Tao Huainan couldn't see, but he could almost understand it just by listening. He turned towards Chi Cheng in surprise, and asked, "Who did I, Xiao Zhuo, go with?"
This is different from what he thought.
He could think whatever he wanted, and he couldn't think of Shi Kai's head. In his opinion, Xiao Zhuo and Brother Kai couldn't get in touch at all.
Pan Xiaozhuo took a taxi to pick him up, but the driver didn't leave even at this late hour, he just waited for work at the entrance of the hotel.
Shi Kai waved his hand and said, "I'll be here for the past two days, I'll make an appointment later."
Before Pan Xiaozhuo could turn his head to talk to Tao Huainan, he was taken away by someone.
Tao Huainan was overwhelmed for a long time, and asked Ji Nan, "Isn't it you?"
Ji Nan asked back: "What is not me?"
"Xiao Zhuo!" Tao Huainan said.
Ji Nan immediately "relied": "Why me! What does it have to do with me! Did you forget which movie Brother Nan watched in high school?? My brother is so straight that you can break it, baby!"