Tao Huainan completely confused about Shi Kai and Pan Xiaozhuo, Ji Nan said: "I didn't talk about it last time, I asked you to come out and get the little glasses."
"That's right," Tao Huainan also said, "You specifically mentioned Xiao Zhuo, I thought you wanted to see him."
"Why did I see him!" Ji Nan sneezed, and said heartlessly, "Let's take it with us to play with! He is also my brother Kai's kid after all, why don't you take care of him!"
Tao Huainan felt dumbfounded now, as if he had been put together.
Chi Cheng drank and didn't want to stand, so he took Tao Huainan's hand and tugged forward, wanting to leave.
Tao Huainan waved his hands to Ji Nan and said, "Goodbye, Brother Nan! Let's talk about it later, we will leave first!"
"Let's go, you two, I'll play with them for a while." Ji Nan raised his arms and said.
In the middle of the night in the twelfth lunar month, the coldness froze the bones. Tao Huainan held Chi Cheng's hand in his pocket, Chi Cheng walked a little heavy after drinking.
A taxi was parked by the side of the road, and the two got in. Tao Huainan reported his home address. The driver in the car didn't turn on the ignition or the air conditioner when he was waiting for work, and it was already freezing.
Tao Huainan was shivering a little from the cold, even his teeth were chattering.
Chi Cheng frowned and looked at him with half-opened eyes, leaned there and asked the driver in front, "Have you turned on the air conditioner?"
"It's on, the water temperature hasn't come up yet, just run for a while!" the driver said.
Tao Huainan thought he was cold, so he unzipped his clothes and was about to take off his clothes.
Chi Cheng stared out his double eyelids again, every time he frowns and stares at others, it is easy to have double eyelids, very fierce. Tao Huainan couldn't see him being aggressive, but felt that Chi Cheng opened his zipper hand.
Tao Huainan didn't understand what he meant, so he took off his coat and covered Chi Cheng. People who drink too much alcohol either burn hot, or their body temperature is higher than that of sweating.
On the clothes, there was the messy smell in the room when we had dinner just now, it was smoke, wine, and mixed with the smell of vegetables. But these unpleasant smells are also mixed with the fragrance of Tao Huainan's body, a very light milky fragrance.
What Tao Huainan hasn't changed all these years is the milk-flavored shower gel, even though he is so old.
This kind of faint milky fragrance can bring people's memories back to a long, long time ago, when there was a lot of smell around me every day.
Some children are born with the smell of milk, and some children only have the smell of rural kang that cannot be washed off.
Chi Cheng buried his nose in the hat worn by Tao Huainan's clothes. The drunken person's breath was thick and heavy, and his breath was filled with the smell of Tao Huainan.
Tao Huainan touched his face, felt his ears were cold, and rubbed his ears lightly, asking him if he felt uncomfortable.
Chi Cheng closed his eyes, covered his body with Tao Huainan's coat, and said, "It's hard."
"Do you want to throw up?" Tao Huainan asked.
Chi Cheng shook his head slowly, but the driver didn't hear the reply, so he hurriedly said, "Don't vomit in my car, tell me in advance if you want to vomit, I'll stop!"
Tao Huainan said "Got it".
After that, no one in the car spoke anymore, and the female announcer on the late-night radio had a soft voice, reciting dry emotional monologues. Chi Cheng closed his eyes as if he was asleep, Tao Huainan sat beside him, holding his hand.
"Tao Huainan..."
When Chi Cheng called him, his voice was too low, the words were in his mouth, almost whispering. But Tao Huainan's ears are good, so he heard it right away.
"Hey, I'm here." Tao Huainan moved a little closer to him, leaning his face close to his mouth: "What's wrong? Are you feeling sick? Want to vomit?"
"Are you cold?" Chi Cheng's voice was still vague and unclear.
"I'm not cold, are you still cold?" Tao Huainan stretched his hand from under the hat and touched Chi Cheng's face again, feeling that it wasn't too cold, he lightly scraped Chi Cheng's face with his thumb.
Chi Cheng nodded slightly, but Tao Huainan could hear the slight sound of his chin rubbing against the fabric.
The hotel is far away from home, even if there are almost no cars on the road at this time, and the driver is running all the way, it is still enough to drive for a while.
The temperature in the car warmed up little by little, the air conditioner finally warmed up a bit, and the dry warm air with the smell of old cars blowing over, it wasn't so cold anymore.
Chi Cheng never took off his clothes, the clothes covered him, and the hat covered half of his face.
"Tao Huainan." Chi Cheng called him again.
"Hey," Tao Huainan responded immediately, "here."
Chi Cheng's voice was already deep, but now that he drank alcohol, it sounded even more deaf.
"Am I being too cruel?"
Tao Huainan didn't expect him to say this, he was stunned for a moment, and then said: "You didn't."
"I really thought about not wanting you anymore, when I just left." Chi Cheng's voice was covered under the hat, the volume was only enough for Tao Huainan to hear clearly, not enough for the driver in front of him to hear.
"Although the time is very short," Chi Cheng would pause before finishing a sentence, and when he spoke the truth slowly, he would appear calm and lonely, "It really happened."
Tao Huainan listened to him in silence, with his palm against the back of Chi Cheng's hand.
"Am I ruthless?" Chi Cheng asked in a low voice, "Tao Huainan?"
Every word he spoke like this broke Tao Huainan's heart. How could he bear Chi Cheng's words like that, Chi Cheng sounded too sad.
Tao Huainan's voice became hoarse, and he replied, "You've never been cruel."
Chi Cheng's hand moved, and Tao Huainan's fingers intertwined, half of their hands were covered under the clothes, and half were not. Chi Cheng's thumb scratched the back of Tao Huainan's hand. The skin on the back of his hand was very slippery. Chi Cheng used to like to play with his hand, and he also liked to pinch the soft flesh on the ball of his finger.
"I couldn't figure it out no matter how much I thought about it, and then I didn't think about it anymore." Chi Cheng's chin lifted under the hat, just now his clothes slipped a little, and he pushed the hat up with his nose to cover it He has half his face.
"Have you called me?" Chi Cheng asked him.
Tao Huainan shook his head and said, "I dare not."
"Except for the one time when the phone broke down, and a few times when it ran out of power... I haven't turned off the phone in five years." Chi Cheng said calmly, "I'm used to charging it. Touch, don't let it consume power."
Tao Huainan's eyes were completely red.
Chi Cheng closed his eyes and asked, "Why did you say that?"
Tao Huainan was speechless, his heart ached so badly that he could hardly even breathe. But Chi Cheng was waiting for his answer, Tao Huainan waited for a few seconds, and said in a hoarse voice, "You... wait for my call?"
Chi Cheng said, "Wrong."
On the contrary, Tao Huainan heaved a sigh of relief, he was very afraid that Chi Cheng had been waiting for him. What he was most afraid of hearing these years was the phrase "Tao Huainan, I hurt", but he kept listening to it these few years. Every time I feel pain, I will turn it out, so that I can make myself more painful.
"I didn't wait, I was afraid that if you hit me, I wouldn't be able to pick it up."
Chi Cheng cleared his throat, and continued: "In case you are in danger and get lost, the only ones you can look for are brother and me. Brother is busy and can't find it, and I can't and I can't find it. I have to let you find it I, Tao Huainan."
Tao Huainan completely lost his voice, turned his face to Chi Cheng's direction, opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything. The brain seemed to be emptied in an instant.
Chi Cheng was still holding his hand, and his fingertips gently rubbed against his tiger's mouth.
"Why didn't you tell me what you think?" Chi Cheng opened his eyes, turned to look at Tao Huainan, and asked, "Why did you abandon me?"
Tao Huainan shook his head vigorously, Chi Cheng's last sentence just hit him right through, and now his hands are shaking from the pain.
"I didn't... give up on you." Tao Huainan arched his back, resting his forehead on his lap, breathing hard.
The driver glanced at them in the rearview mirror and thought that drunk people were sick.
"Could it be that I haven't heard a word from you in this life?" Chi Cheng's throat was a little dry, he frowned and coughed again, "Should I have a reason?"
Tao Huainan shrank there, not intending to hide anything, and said hoarsely: "You will only hate me more after hearing this... I'm sorry, little brother."
"Whether I hate or not is my business." Chi Cheng stared at him and said, "I really miss you, I want to see you smile, I want to treat you well, but this makes me feel that I..."
The sharp word was swallowed in his mouth, and Chi Cheng stopped before he finished speaking.
For so many years, Chicheng has not spoken so many times in a row. He doesn't like to analyze himself. A person who has been wearing armor since he was a child will appear to be emotional when he talks too much, which is very embarrassing.
Today's remarks may be due to alcohol, or it may be that his recent silence is destined to have this explosive questioning.
Tao Huainan was already stuck in a dead corner, the word Chi Cheng swallowed was more painful than slapping him. Chi Cheng Tao Huainan, who was drunk, was overwhelmed, and he was reluctant to say more.
"I was..." Tao Huainan arched his back in a fragile arc, holding Chi Cheng's hand and said, "I can't hear you."
Tao Huainan said almost breathlessly, "I'm deaf."
The driver jerked his head up to look at them in the rearview mirror.
There was a long silence in the carriage, Chi Cheng lowered his head slightly to look at Tao Huainan, kept looking, kept looking.
Tao Huainan's palms were covered with sweat, and the palms held by the two of them gradually became damp and cold.
The hat still covered half of Chi Cheng's face, only his eyes were exposed.
Tao Huainan's coat was Chicheng, and he only had a sweater on, and a shirt was worn inside the sweater. The collar of the shirt was exposed at the bent neck, and a narrow section of the shirt sleeve was exposed at the wrist.
He has always been a decent and delicate boy, cute when he was young, and gentle when he grows up.
Now he was trembling under Chi Cheng's gaze, not daring to raise his head, facing the silence at this moment with a embarrassed posture.
The master driver also knew that now was not the time to stop, and there was no more natural time to take detours than now. It seemed unreasonable for him not to take detours. He turned off the radio, and the car was as quiet as if the passengers were asleep.
The car turned slowly on the dark street.
At first Chi Cheng looked at Tao Huainan, but then he leaned against the back of the chair and closed his eyes. He turned his head and turned his face to the direction of the car window, his Adam's apple rolled up and down slightly, but he didn't say a word.
The headlights of the turning car on the opposite side flickered, and the dazzling lights shot into the car for a moment. At the corner, Chi Cheng's eyes flickered inconspicuously for a moment.