Chi Cheng later cleared his throat, which sounded a little nasal, and gave the driver his address.
He was still leaning there, never turning back.
Tao Huainan sat up later, their hands were still held together, Tao Huainan raised his hand, and kissed the back of Chi Cheng's hand lightly. Chi Cheng didn't open his eyes, Tao Huainan held his hand and pressed it against his face.
Tao Huainan was almost dragged upstairs by Chi Cheng, stumbled and staggered, almost fell on the stairs. Chi Cheng didn't give him a chance to fall, he held his elbow the whole time, and when he opened the door, Chi Cheng's hand turning the key didn't visibly shake.
Tao Huainan didn't wear his coat all the way down from the car, Chi Cheng pinched him with one hand and carried the coat with the other, slightly messy footsteps passed through the neighborhood in the middle of the night, with Chi Cheng's sharpness and Tao Huainan's panic.
As soon as the door opened, Chi Cheng directly threw Tao Huainan onto the sofa.
Tao Huainan knocked his head on the back of the sofa when he fell, and before he could sit upright, he heard Chi Cheng say, "Sit here and wait for me."
"Where are you going?" Tao Huainan grabbed his hand in a panic: "Brother, why are you going?"
Chi Cheng pulled his hand away, and only said coldly: "Wait."
After he finished speaking, he turned around and left. As soon as the door was closed, he went out and turned on the light in the living room before leaving.
Tao Huainan didn't know where he had gone, and felt a little flustered.
There is no need to say a lot of things between them, and there is no need to explain every word. When Tao Huainan said "I'm deaf", he didn't even need to mention everything that followed, it was unnecessary. All things can be connected together, and a clear line can be formed in the mind instantly.
Tao Huainan didn't know what Chi Cheng was thinking during that period of silence. But Chi Cheng must hate him more now than before, that's for sure.
Chi Cheng was thinking about something, but in fact he didn't think about many things.
In the silence, there was only one image in his mind, that was that year when Tao Huainan was crying and hugging him, screaming and saying, "Brother, I'm scared". When the car was circling aimlessly on the street, Chi Cheng thought about Tao Huainan at that time over and over again in his mind.
At that time, he was thinner than now, and he only held bones in his arms.
He hugged his neck and broke down crying.
Brother, I'm afraid.
The undispelled alcohol made my head ache like swinging a hammer, but the picture of Chi Cheng was still as clear as if it was right in front of my eyes, as if I could hug the hysterical boy back then with just a stretch of my hand.
Brother, I'm afraid.
When Chi Cheng came back, his body was covered with cold air, he entered the door and threw the key to the side, and closed the door with his backhand. His movements were heavy, and he sounded anxious and fierce.
When Tao Huainan heard him come back, he called out "brother", and stretched out his arms towards him, wanting to hug him.
Chi Cheng didn't hug him, and threw his coat beside him. Wrapped in the cold, he pulled Tao Huainan off the sofa.
Tao Huainan was taken aback by his movements, so Chi Cheng carried Tao Huainan's clothes from the back of his back, carried him from the living room to their bedroom, and threw him directly on the bed. Tao Huainan knocked his knee on the side of the bed, and the pain instantly spread to his brain, and Chi Cheng smashed it right after him.
Chi Cheng pushed Tao Huainan down on the bed, and went up to bite his ear. His breath suddenly sprayed on the sensitive skin around the ear, carrying the coolness that Chi Cheng brought back from the outside.
The numbness spread rapidly starting from that side of the ear, and the nerves transmitted the numb itching, from behind the ear to the waist and eyes.
Tao Huainan's breathing gradually became rapid, and his eyelashes trembled like a pair of frightened little wings.
"Tao Huainan." In Chi Cheng's voice, there was a series of unsteady breathing after a series of movements, and they rushed into his ears together, "You didn't want to live at that time."
This is not even an interrogative sentence. Chi Cheng's sentence is very neat when it is written. The end of the ending is accompanied by the end of one breath and the beginning of the next breath. A blow to my nerves.
"I didn't..." Tao Huainan's neck was still pinned by Chi Cheng, his face was buried on the bed and he couldn't lift it up. Tao Huainan immediately explained, "I want to live."
Without even hesitating, Chi Cheng put his finger on the tendon of Tao Huainan's neck and poked it hard. It hurt so much, with a slight blunt sound coming from his flesh and blood, Chi Cheng simply said: "Lie."
"I really didn't..." Tao Huainan wanted to turn his head to look at Chi Cheng, but he couldn't turn his head, and he couldn't see. He put his upper body on his arms and thought about it, but he couldn't resist Chi Cheng's strength, "I'm just afraid."
"Afraid of what?" Chi Cheng stared at him from above and asked.
Tao Huainan was silent for a few seconds, with his forehead resting on the sheet, and finally whispered, "I'm afraid I can't hear you."
"Can't hear you," Chi Cheng's voice was even cold, "What about after that?"
Tao Huainan stopped talking, and his invisible eyes were glowing red at the moment. That's why he can't let Chi Cheng know, Chi Cheng is too smart. He doesn't need an explanation, and he doesn't know how to listen, Chi Cheng can understand everything by himself.
"You're going to die after that." Chi Cheng seemed to want to pinch Tao Huainan's neck, and exposed it without hesitation, "Let me go before I die."
This is the boy Chi Cheng has loved since he was a child. His love for him is instinctive and engraved on his bones. As long as Tao Huainan is within his control, there is no possibility of danger at all. Just like when his emotions were out of control just now, but Chicheng didn't even ask the driver to pull over for a while, he didn't even spend half a minute to buy something, leaving Tao Huainan alone in the taxi in the middle of the night, Chicheng would never .
The boy who was still afraid of him falling while holding it in his hand thought about dying.
Chi Cheng bites every word "death" very lightly, that word is like a knife on his bleeding wound, as if saying it lightly can reduce the pain a bit.
Tao Huainan has nothing to say now, all embellishments and cover-ups are meaningless, the roots have been dug out from the soil by Chi Cheng, and they are all exposed under Chi Cheng's eyes.
Chi Cheng picked up his neck, and moved his cold hands underneath, clasping Tao Huainan's neck and jawbone, forcing him to raise his head high, and whispering in his ear: "Are you Do you think that if I leave, I won't hate you?"
Tao Huainan's Adam's apple was pressed against by Chi Cheng's hand, unable to speak. His face was flushed, he raised his hand to cover Chi Cheng's, and patted it lightly.
Chi Cheng didn't want to listen to him at all, nor did he really want to hear his answer. Tao Huainan felt for a moment that he was really going to die, when Chi Cheng let go of him and straightened up, Tao Huainan immediately raised his hand to hug Chi Cheng while coughing.
The redness on his face hadn't faded yet, Tao Huainan coughed until his voice became hoarse, hugged Chi Cheng and touched his back, and said in a hoarse voice: "It was all my fault... I was too timid at that time."
Chi Cheng pulled his arm away from him, and said coldly, "I don't blame you."
It's a joke for a good person to become deaf and blind and live a life of optimism and hope. At that time he wanted to die, it was not his fault.
Chi Cheng stood by the bed, ripped off his T-shirt, was naked from the upper body, and looked down at Tao Huainan.
"Who do you belong to, Tao Huainan." Chi Cheng asked him.
Tao Huainan immediately replied, "Your."
Chi Cheng nodded, went to the window sill and took the remote control to turn on the air conditioner. After a beep, the windshield of the old air conditioner made a slow creaking sound after being activated. After Chi Cheng adjusted the temperature, he turned around and walked back to the bed, dragged Tao Huainan over by his ankles, and grabbed the waist of his trousers.
"I've never been willing to let you hurt." Chi Cheng threw away Tao Huainan's pants, then went to take off his sweater, "I used to want to do nothing when you hurt and cry, just hug you."
There was still a shirt inside, Tao Huainan obediently unbuttoned it himself, Chi Cheng kissed him on the mouth, hugged him and said: "Now you can let go and cry, today I will make you hurt."
Chi Cheng is surrounded by many emotions, all of which are so strong that they can swallow him up. This sentence is like a key, releasing all the bloodthirsty dark sides in Chi Cheng's body, at this moment his aggressiveness and his animal desire have all been unlocked.
Before Tao Huainan finished taking off his shirt, Chi Cheng pinched him by the waist and turned him in a different direction, Tao Huainan was buttoned up on the bed again.
Chi Cheng pushed his shirt up, and bit Tao Huainan's thin white back, biting his bones through the thin flesh.
A low hum escaped from Tao Huainan's throat unconsciously. Chi Cheng bit the place where he was afraid of ticklish, but he bit hard. The pain overwhelmed the itch, mixed with the stimulation of the cold air. The skin is covered with a whole layer of small bumps.
Chi Cheng tore off a cover and wrapped it around his fingers, oiled his hands, and directly poked in without giving Tao Huainan any buffer time.
The strong discomfort made Tao Huainan uncontrollably "hmm". He had tried to relax himself, but he still couldn't resist the resistance of his body.
In fact, it's not that they haven't done it at all, they have been intimate since they were so young.
Tao Huainan wanted to finish it with Chi Cheng more than once, but the young man was still nervous and afraid of pain, so Chi Cheng stopped doing it every time he cried out for pain. Once he got dizzy several times, Tao Huainan let Chi Cheng in, and Chi Cheng held him in his arms and touched him with his hands.
Chi Cheng's fierce appearance is always the most gentle, every time his fingers are covered with condoms, he is afraid that his nails will hurt the softness in his body.
There were tears in the corners of Tao Huainan's eyes, even though he was experiencing discomfort and pain now, and he didn't have any pleasure in his body transmitted to his brain, he still became hard uncontrollably.
Chi Cheng was touching him, playing with him.
This was enough to drive Tao Huainan crazy.
Fingers curled up, nails scratching the sheets. Chi Cheng's jeans rubbed against Tao Huainan's legs, and Tao Huainan said impatiently: "I'm going to... cum, little brother."
Chi Cheng glanced at him in surprise, he knew best if Tao Huainan had entered the state, the back was still dry, obviously not to the point where Tao Huainan could ejaculate.
He put his other arm around Tao Huainan's waist and picked him up a little bit. The bed sheet in front of Tao Huainan had already created a small circle of water. Twice, another two drops of clear liquid were dripped, and a long thread was torn between the sheet and the bed sheet.
"What are you doing?" Chi Cheng bit his ear hard, "What are you showing off?"
Following his bite and these words, Tao Huainan frowned and snorted, followed by another uncontrollable jump.
"I... haven't touched myself." Tao Huainan was not embarrassed, he had nothing to hide in front of Chi Cheng, his eyes were red with impatience, "I love you." Chi Cheng was stimulated by his love , holding Tao Huainan's neck until his lips were stained with Tao Huainan's blood.
"Where haven't you touched?" Chi Cheng's eyes were covered with red spots, and he asked bitingly, "Didn't you touch the back?"
"Front." Tao Huainan closed his eyes and confessed honestly, "I have never masturbated before."
"Why," Chi Cheng held the front of his hand, scraped the tip with his thumb, wiped away the slippery mucus, and stared at his side face.
Panting like a dehydrated fish, Tao Huainan frowned and replied, "I have to be yours, if it's not you... no."
Chi Cheng suddenly closed his eyes, held Tao Huainan from the root to the top, and stroked the top with his fingers one by one. Tao Huainan raised his neck and let out a long "ah", semen began to flow out regularly.
He continued to shoot for more than ten seconds without Chi Cheng touching him at all.
The last time Tao Huainan almost ejaculated as soon as Chi Cheng touched him, Chi Cheng thought he was in love with the kiss. Now he said that he had never masturbated in the past few years, because it was not Chi Cheng.
Tao Huainan ejaculated the whole time under Chi Cheng's nose, showing Chi Cheng his naked desire without any cover. The shirt on the upper body was still worn awkwardly, and the front cloth was stained with semen.
"Should I come back?" Chi Cheng held him in his arms and asked in a low voice.
Tao Huainan was still panting, and stuck to Chi Cheng's face with attachment: "Sometimes I dream... I dreamed that you kissed me, hugged me, and when I woke up, I ejaculated."
"How old are you?" Chi Cheng bit his chin and asked, "You still have nocturnal emission at such an age?"
"I miss you so much..." Tao Huainan knelt on the bed and said, "If you can't stand it, then dream."
Tao Huainan is very obedient, he is so obedient that no one would want him to cry.
But the current Chi Cheng is not, the more obedient Tao Huainan is now, the more he loves Chi Cheng, the more he hates Chi Cheng. Now I don't want to hug him and kiss him, I just want to bite someone and make him bleed.
Chi Cheng changed his cover, got his hands full of oil, and re-entered Tao Huainan.
This time Tao Huainan turned his face forward, and Chi Cheng didn't let him lie on his stomach again. Tao Huainan's legs were stretched apart, bent and supported on both sides.
Chi Cheng stretched and bit him while not being gentle, Tao Huainan's upper body was almost bitten all over by him, with bite marks all over his body.
"I can live well after you die, right?" Chi Cheng pressed on his point and asked.
Tao Huainan was finally able to hug him in the current posture, Tao Huainan was so confused that he couldn't speak a complete sentence, he said intermittently: "I'm... well, I won't die...
"What if?" Chi Cheng had already fallen into a crazy corner, biting Tao Huainan's Adam's apple and asking him.
Tao Huainan hugged his waist and opened himself up: "I'm just fine... There are no ifs."
When Chi Cheng actually entered, he didn't wear a condom. He squeezed into Tao Huainan's body inch by inch, apart from lubrication, there was nothing between them.
"Does it hurt?" Chi Cheng stared intently at Tao Huainan's face and asked.
Tao Huainan took a deep breath and said "it doesn't hurt".
"Bear the pain too." Chi Cheng said condescendingly.
Tao Huainan opened his mouth and moaned in a low voice, calling him "little brother" and "little dog".
"You shouldn't drive me away before you want to die." Chi Cheng squeezed in completely, completely wrapped by Tao Huainan's tenderness and fiery warmth, and they finally belonged to each other completely.
There were tears in the corners of Tao Huainan's eyes, the pain was not as good as the great satisfaction in his heart, now he just wanted Chi Cheng to bite him harder.
Chi Cheng pinched his waist and hit him hard, piercing him hard: "You should kill me first."
Chi Cheng's eyes were reddened, and his reason had been squeezed away by this absolute aggression and possession. Chi Cheng is now a beast, hatred and desire occupy all his thoughts.
They did it countless times that night, copulating like animals in heat.
Tao Huainan's leg was in severe pain, as if it was about to be torn apart.
The muddy mess between his legs, Tao Huainan seemed to want to shoot all the things he hadn't ejaculated in the past five years.
Chi Cheng bites him like crazy and fucks him.
However, no matter what he did, Tao Huainan would always cooperate and tolerate him gently. Chi Cheng's sharpness and paranoia are well received, and he is soft everywhere.
"Don't be sad..." Tao Huainan's voice was already very hoarse, and his whole body hurt, he stretched his arms to hug Chi Cheng, "I was wrong."
Chi Cheng rubbed Tao Huainan's wet eyes with his fingertips: "Are you going to leave me a message when you die?"
Tao Huainan kissed his arm: "Don't think about it... I won't die."
"Brother will call me and say that Tao Huainan is dead, right?" Chi Cheng got up and put his hand on Tao Huainan's heart, feeling his flustered beating heartbeat.
Tao Huainan lightly shook his head: "No, I'm fine, don't... be afraid." "How did you die?" A drop of sweat fell from under Chi Cheng's eyebrows and fell through his eyelashes, "Jumping off a building? Like a boy playing a saxophone Same?"
"I was wrong..." Tao Huainan was so distressed that he almost broke, "Stop thinking about it, puppy."
"Still taking medicine? Cut your wrists?" Chi Cheng was buried in Tao Huainan's body without moving, his fingers trembling as he touched Tao Huainan's pale face, "Have you ever thought about it?"
"I never thought about it," Tao Huainan said tears rolled down his eyes, he didn't know how to calm down Chi Cheng's current emotions, he turned towards Chi Cheng hoarsely, "Cold..."
Tao Huainan was sweating all over his body, as if he had been fished out of the water, Chi Cheng pulled the quilt to cover him.
There was really nothing to shoot, the front was sore and sore. Tao Huainan's lower body seemed to be out of touch with his body. Sweat, body fluid, foam from lubricant rubbing, and white semen ejaculated mixed into a dirty piece, sticking between them. His legs were too heavy to lift, he needed Chi Cheng to hold his knees to not fall down limply, they were spasmodically shaking in Chi Cheng's hands.
After each intense stimulation, Tao Huainan would straighten his back and moan in a low voice.
They have both gone crazy and want to die on each other.
Take and take, give and take.
There began to be more cloudy liquid on the bed, Tao Huainan murmured coldly with absent-minded eyes, and asked Chi Cheng to hug him.
Chi Cheng pushed against him again and shot into him, Tao Huainan screamed with his mouth open, but he couldn't yell because his throat was too hoarse.
This room in the old house once again witnessed their deep-seated entanglement and strong love and hatred.
This is the place Tao Huainan is most attached to, his nest.
But this time Tao Huainan almost died here.
Before falling completely into a coma, Tao Huainan murmured, "Don't be sad...brother."
Chi Cheng has already gone crazy.
Tao Huainan wanted to raise his hand to touch his face, but he couldn't raise his arm. He licked his chapped lips, his nose was full of fishy smell and blood, and Chi Cheng's unstoppable breath was in his ears. .
"I can't hold it anymore, I can't open my eyes..." Tao Huainan could only touch Chi Cheng's hand, he scratched Chi Cheng's wrist tremblingly, coaxing with some distress, "Don't be sad... I'll hug you when I wake up tomorrow." You, little... dog."
Tao Huainan completely fell asleep.
In the nest where he relied most on trust, in the arms where he wanted to stay most, all the tense nerves were relaxed, and he sent himself out completely.
Thinking about things in his heart, he couldn't sleep well. Although Tao Huainan was almost shattered, he couldn't sleep through the night, and he woke up soon.
When he opened his eyes, Chi Cheng touched his eyes, and Tao Huainan closed them again.
This has been repeated many times, and every time he opens his eyes, he will touch him. Tao Huainan wants to speak, but his consciousness is not clear enough for him to speak.
In intermittent dreams, he saw many people.
This kind of "seeing" is just "seeing" for him, and there is no picture. In the dream, Chi Cheng has been holding his hand, kissing his palm, and biting his fingers.
They all turned into children, Tao Huainan hugged Chi Cheng, put his chin on his shoulder, and asked innocently: "Let's grow up soon, okay?"
Chi Cheng shook his head, and said with a rustic tone with his cold face, "Don't grow up."