From this day on, Chi Ku often stared into Tao Huainan's eyes.
Tao Huainan didn't know that other people were staring at him. After all, sight was something he couldn't touch or hear. He was often startled by Chi Ku when he was unprepared, and yelled at him to tell him not to move his eyes.
Tao Huainan was inevitably aggrieved when he was yelled at, and whispered back: "I didn't move..."
Chi Ku said, "Don't turn your eyes around."
"I didn't turn..." Tao Huainan closed his eyes and opened them again, and asked innocently, "Are you turning now?"
"Turn around." Chi Ku frowned, with a fierce expression and a fierce tone, "Look forward, don't move left and right."
Tao Huainan was about to cry: "I can't see it either."
Chi Ku didn't know what to say, they couldn't talk together. Tao Huainan was yelled at by him, apart from being wronged, he was also a little scared, afraid that his eyes would be worse, so he panicked.
Tao Huainan's eyes are big, and the dark kernels of the eyes are almost fully exposed, and it is obvious when the eyeballs move. Chi Ku talked about him a lot at school all week, and Tao Huainan was a little afraid of him afterward.
When I was sleeping, I crawled onto the bed by myself, with my face facing the wall and my back facing the outside, and I no longer clutched the pillow cover.
Chi Ku poked his head over to look at him, grandma told him to lie down and was about to turn off the lights. He didn't move, he just stood there looking at Tao Huainan.
After a while, he stretched out his hand and put it over Tao Huainan's eyes.
Tao Huainan heard him move, but he was not afraid when he was mentally prepared. Afraid of delays and talking about him again, he took the initiative to ask: "...have I transferred again?"
Chi Ku exerted some force on his hand, and Tao Huainan's eyeballs hurt a little from his pressure. He held his wrist and whispered, "It hurts."
"It doesn't hurt if you don't move." Chi Ku could feel his eyeballs still moving under his eyelids, and his brows frowned again.
"What's the matter?" Grandma came over and asked.
Looking around him would make Tao Huainan feel insecure, he shook his head and shook Chi Ku's hand, trying to cover himself with a blanket.
Chiku jumped off his own bed, came to Tao Huainan's bed, pressed the position of Tao Huainan's eyeballs with his thumb and middle finger, and said to him, "Just stop here."
When he pressed it like this, Tao Huainan's eyes hurt when he moved. He began to whimper and cry, and grandma hurriedly asked, "What's wrong with Huainan's eyes?"
Chi Ku said, "It's nothing."
Grandma doesn't like Chiku that much, she talks sarcasticly every day, and adults like soft children. But grandma doesn't hate Chiku, after all, he doesn't have to worry about it, and he doesn't need to take care of him, and it's very sensible to take care of his younger brother every day.
Tao Huainan was about to burst into tears, and was still complaining about the pain.
Chi Ku still didn't take his hand away: "I know how to cry, don't you get it if you don't move?"
When had Tao Huainan been so cruel, he didn't dare to open his eyes, tears rolled down his closed eyes.
The pain is really painful. Being pressed on the eyeball, it hurts every time I move. In this way, Tao Huainan really didn't move, his eyes just stopped under Chi Ku's hand, maintaining a pain-free state.
Crying even if you don't move, and being wronged by others, it's shameful.
Chi Ku saw that he had not moved for a long time, and said without emotion: "Don't cry."
Tao Huainan raised his hand to wipe away his tears: "I won't be with you anymore."
I can't say it's really bad this time, but it's not the kind of joke every time.
Tao Huainan has a long memory this time, and has been ignoring Chiku, and he is afraid that he has no choice but to look for him, and would rather not look for him when he stumbles while walking. Tao Huainan has always been enthusiastic about looking for people to hold hands and talk to people, Chi Ku's personality is cold, now that Tao Huainan can't catch up with them, their sometimes good and sometimes bad relationship is bound to break down.
Chi Ku has such a temper, otherwise he wouldn't have been here for a long time without opening his mouth to speak.
Even Tao Xiaodong could see that the two of them were not doing well, and it was obviously different from the past when they got back this weekend. Tao Huainan pursed his face, put his face on his shoulder and said nothing.
"What's wrong with you two?" Tao Xiaodong asked.
Tao Huainan turned his face on his shoulder and remained silent.
Chi Ku didn't speak, and walked ahead with his schoolbag on his back. Tao Xiaodong stretched out his hand to grab his schoolbag, Chiku looked up at him, Tao Xiaodong asked him again: "Are you two having a fight?"
Chi Ku shook his head.
Tao Huainan didn't hear the sound, and still stuck his face to his brother's body. When he was unhappy, his mouth just pouted a little bit, like a doll with an unhappy expression.
Tao Xiaodong shook his shoulders and teased him: "Are you angry?"
Tao Huainan couldn't be said to be angry, and he didn't mind Chiku talking about him that much, he just said it, he just hated the boredom that often appeared in Chiku's tone. Blind people are sensitive to sound, and equally sensitive to the emotions in other people's voices.
Tao Huainan always knew Chi Ku bothered him. If there are too many times, it will be a little sad, and it will hurt a little self-esteem.
Usually when Tao Xiaodong came to pick him up, Tao Huainan was very happy, so it was rare for him to look so listless.
Tao Xiaodong folded his other hand back and patted him on the head, saying, "Okay, don't lose your temper."
Tao Huainan lay there and muttered, "He pressed my eyes."
"It wasn't intentional." Tao Xiaodong replied casually.
"It was on purpose," Tao Huainan pursed his lips, but still answered, "...because my eyes moved."
When Tao Xiaodong heard this, he straightened his shoulders back: "Let me see?"
Tao Huainan straightened up and looked at his brother, blinked his eyes for him to see, and asked in a low voice, "Can you move now?"
With big eyes facing one direction, Tao Xiaodong rubbed his back: "It's not moving, it's okay."
Seeing his brother, Tao Huainan felt a little wronged, and complained in a low voice: "He pressed my eyeball with his finger, it hurts so much."
Chi Ku glanced back, then turned back again.
Tao Xiaodong laughed a few times, his chest trembled, and said, "Sue the devil."
In the evening, the TV was randomly placed on a children's channel, and cartoons were playing on it. Tao Huainan leaned on the sofa, stroking Grandpa Ten while listening to the sound.
After Tao Xiaodong washed the fruit, he brought over the fruits, and saw that Chi Ku had gone to the balcony by himself, so he called him.
Too late to come.
Tao Xiaodong took an apple and put it in Tao Huainan's hand, letting him eat it by himself. Tao Xiaodong was about to turn around and leave, but when he saw Tao Huainan's face, he stopped and turned back.
"Head up."
Tao Huainan smiled and looked up: "What are you doing?"
Tao Xiaodong supported his head, and gently pressed his thumbs on his eyes. Tao Huainan was used to Chi Kuu's pressing, and once he put his hands on them, he stopped moving.
Tao Xiaodong asked him, "Is your eyes uncomfortable?"
"It's not uncomfortable." Tao Huainan replied in a low voice.
My brother still has the water from washing the fruit just now, which is damp. Tao Huainan didn't feel any pain under his pressure, and even felt a little comfortable.
"Do you know when you move?"
Tao Huainan thought for a while and said, "I don't really know, I know it's moving when I press my hand, but I don't usually know it."
Tao Xiaodong let go of him, and Tao Huainan rolled his eyes again, Tao Xiaodong asked him, "Do you know what happened just now?"
Tao Huainan said, "I know this time."
"You know it in normal times, you just didn't pay attention." Tao Xiaodong pressed his eyes again, and said to him, "Don't move around, it's ugly."
Brother seldom spoke harsh words to him, Tao Huainan was stunned for a moment, and Tao Xiaodong said again: "Move your eyes like a little fool."
These words were not gentle, Tao Huainan subconsciously nodded. Tao Huainan was also afraid when his elder brother became serious, and he was afraid of anyone who became serious.
The two words Tao Xiaodong said made Tao Huainan's heart tremble when he thought about them for many days.
From time to time, he raised his hand and touched his eyeballs with his fingers through the eyelids, trying to see if he moved. He was afraid of being ugly, and also afraid of being like a little fool.
Chi Ku doesn't care about him anymore, I don't know if he really doesn't move or Chi Ku doesn't want to care about him anymore.
Not being able to see the eyes will make many small things troublesome, even such a small thing of not moving the eyes is very difficult for Tao Huainan.
The eye problem has not happened yet, and recently I have added a habit of always touching my eyes.
The teacher mentioned Tao Huainan several times during class.
Tao Huainan is thin-skinned, and it takes him a long time to get over it every time.
Among all these teachers, the English teacher is the most powerful and has the biggest temper. The new English teacher this semester has not yet remembered Tao Huainan's name. When Tao Huainan touched his eyes again, the English teacher threw a chalk tip over and said, "Why do you have such a bad memory?"
Tao Huainan's face burned instantly.
The chalk tip bounced from Tao Huainan's shoulder to Chi Ku's desk, and then to the ground.
Chi Ku kicked it away.
Tao Huainan's face remained hot until the end of get out of class.
Now I don't dare to touch my eyes anymore, I don't know what to do if I want to know if my eyes are rolling or not.
The blind man's eyeballs are not that sensitive, so he can't rely on sight to perceive. Sometimes it's not him who wants to move, but he really doesn't know.
Tao Huainan sat on the seat with his shoulders stiffened, a good boy who was always disappointed when he was criticized.
He's been criticized a lot lately.
When school was over, Chiku stood beside him and waited. Tao Huainan stood up and bumped into him, reaching out to touch him. Chi Ku pulled his wrist, Tao Huainan wanted to call "Chi Ku", but kept his mouth shut.
After a while, I couldn't hold back, and still called out "Chiku".
In the afternoon, Chi Ku kicked that piece of chalk into the aisle, and when he got there, Chi Ku kicked him again.
"What should I do..." Tao Huainan asked in frustration.
Chi Ku said, "It's nothing to do."
Tao Huainan turned towards him and asked carefully, "Am I moving now?"
Chi Kuo looked at him: "No."
Tao Huainan gave a low "Oh".
Before school ended on Friday, Tao Huainan turned his head and lay on Chiku's desk, and said to Chiku, "Don't tell me that the teacher said me..."
Chi Ku said "hmm".
Tao Huainan said, "I'm afraid my brother will be angry."
"Who are you angry with?"
"Me." Tao Huainan lowered his head and moved his head on his chin when speaking, "I'm useless, I don't know anything. If you are angry with me, I'm afraid that my brother will also be angry."
Chi Ku looked at him, opened his mouth, and said in a daze, "I'm not angry."
"You're angry." Tao Huainan said, "I know."
Before Chi Ku could speak, Tao Huainan said again: "I also know that you have never liked me."