Tao Huainan put his face against Chi Cheng's heart, and his ear against the scar.
This used to be the position Tao Huainan was most obsessed with, across the skin and sternum, underneath was Chi Cheng's eternally steady heartbeat. That is Tao Huainan's safe nest isolated from the world, it is his homecoming.
It was Tao Huainan's first encounter with this scar, and he would avoid it far away. When he kissed Chi Cheng, he kissed it from his mouth to his collarbone, and then to his lower abdomen, but he didn't touch it once.
Now Tao Huainan is sticking to it, feeling the irregular bulge.
Chi Cheng used to have many scars on his body, on his shoulders, back, calves, and even on the top of his head, all of which were caused by his father when he was young. Later, those scars gradually became lighter, and some even disappeared and could not be seen.
Now there is only this most obvious scar left on his body, a thin and long one on the heart.
Tao Huainan closed his eyes and kissed it, and pressed his lips together for a long time.
The scars of many years have been healed one by one over the long years, and the only one left is given by him.
"Are you willing to do that?" Chi Cheng stroked Tao Huainan's hair, his voice came through his chest, "I'll lock you up and make you mine."
"I'm willing." Tao Huainan leaned on his chest with a serious expression on his face, "Shut me in a room with your breath in it, and wear your clothes for me. I don't need anything else, Just let my brothers see me once in a while, otherwise they will miss me."
"Aren't you afraid?" After Chi Cheng asked, he covered Tao Huainan's ears. In Tao Huainan's world, only the sound of blood flowing between him and Chi Cheng, and Chi Cheng's heartbeat shaking his eardrums remained.
This feeling that the whole world is filled with vibrations of a sound, there is a kind of romance in a desperate situation, which makes Tao Huainan's soul tremble. In this overwhelming siege, Tao Huainan said: "I used to think that kind of world was terrible, sinking every second, sinking to the ground, I wanted to call you to save me, but I couldn't hear you The echo. I don’t know what it is, I don’t know where I am, I’m really scared, every second of that is suffering.”
He covered Chi Cheng's hand and asked him to continue clasping his ears.
"But after you left, I found that as long as I calm down, it's not that scary. I can still feel it. When my brother took me out for a walk, I could feel the wind. When I was at home, I could smell the wind on the balcony of my house." Occasionally passed the lily fragrance.
"Except that I can't hear others talking, it's not that different from usual, just like everyone is silent.
"So there's nothing to be afraid of. If I'm afraid, I'll ask you to hold me."
When Tao Huainan said these things, he didn't force himself at all, he was very satisfied.
The ears are covered, so that Chi Cheng's voice can be mixed with the heartbeat from inside, like an extraterrestrial voice in a boundless world.
"I've been holding you by my side, so you're not afraid anymore?" Chi Cheng asked him.
"Don't be afraid," Tao Huainan said affirmatively, "If you hold me, I will never let you go."
"It will be lonely." Chi Cheng said.
Tao Huainan blinked slowly, and said after a while, "Every day after you left, I was lonely."
Today's Tao Huainan almost said all his thoughts that Chi Cheng hadn't known in the past few years.
As long as it was what Chi Cheng wanted to hear and want to know, Tao Huainan didn't hide a word, he said everything.
What did he think at the beginning, what did he think later, how much he wanted to Chi Cheng in the past five years, the panic and pain of waking up in the dream, the eagerness to return to the dream and let Chi Cheng continue to hold him, put all these They held them naked in front of Chi Cheng.
Chi Cheng hugged him, and Tao Huainan obediently lay on Chi Cheng's body, and when he was hugged, he put his arms around Chi Cheng's neck, and gently kissed Chi Cheng's side face.
"One time when I was drinking, Ji Nan said that you have a date." Tao Huainan turned his face to Chicheng, looking a little sad, "I was lying on the table listening, he kept talking about you, and said that you have a date, I almost cried, I literally shed tears on the spot."
Chi Cheng stroked his back like a small animal, said "Yeah", "Then go home and say that he misses me every day."
Tao Huainan laughed "puchi": "Who knew Brother Kai made a video, I want to know that he is afraid of videos..."
Speaking of this, I paused for a while, and then said: "I will make something more violent."
"What's more fierce?" Chi Cheng asked.
Tao Hainan smiled and said, "I just asked the camera directly, brother, do you have a date? If you don't have a date, can you look at me again? I know I was wrong."
"Forget it," Chi Cheng sneered, "If you have this ability, you will be very successful."
"Why didn't I?" Tao Huainan sat up and put his hands on Chi Cheng's stomach, "The child was trembling and his heart was about to vomit out of fright, didn't he try to get over here, isn't this... naked... hug her Is it gone?"
"Let's think about it." Chi Cheng was indifferent, leaning there and said, "If you dare to go around and bite your tail, you'll think you're pretty strong."
When Tao Huainan said this, he was somewhat hypocritical, he lowered his head and smiled a few times, then lay back on his stomach.
He really didn't dare, not many things. He cut him down with a knife, cutting him off from Chi Cheng, and since then he has no position to do anything, and he is not frank.
"Did you know that I would go there?" Tao Huainan asked shyly, "The time I went to the medical aid with my brother."
Chi Cheng raised his eyebrows: "What do you think?"
"You...know there is me?" Tao Huainan asked a little surprised, "You still go if you know?"
Chi Cheng didn't speak, just looked at him. I cried before, but now my eyes are still a little red, and the tip of my nose is also red, looking pitiful. Chi Cheng pinched his face and rubbed Tao Huainan's face into a mess: "Then what else? Apart from putting on an angry face, what else can I expect from you?"
Tao Huainan was stunned for a moment, thinking about it by himself.
Chi Cheng didn't let him think about it, so he pulled him over and bit his face.
"Now I'm not so useless anymore," Tao Huainan thought for a while, and then said with a smile, "Not only is he not useless anymore, but he's even more powerful. Isn't this what's coming?"
Tao Huainan squinted his eyes and smiled, and kissed Chi Cheng several times "bobobobo" on the mouth: "You continue to watch my performance!"
Chi Cheng leaned back and said "don't look".
"Look!" Tao Huainan continued to post Chi Cheng with a smile while being sloppy, "Look at how I become vigorous!"
Chi Cheng just hugged him and got up straight away, and said indifferently: "I know how to cry, keep your fierceness to yourself."
Tao Huainan was not afraid of being picked up suddenly, with his arms wrapped around him, he asked softly, "What are you going to do?"
Chi Cheng said, "Take another shower."
Tao Huainan had been talking close to Chi Cheng just now, his emotions were up and down, both of them had sweated a lot, and they had to wash again before going to bed to feel comfortable.
The night was full of ups and downs, and the atmosphere now returned to quiet warmth. The reaction was there, the love and the urge were there, but neither of them wanted to have sex. I just want to get close to each other, hug and kiss.
It was tiring to chat like this, I took myself apart, dug out my soul from the hidden shell, and smoothed it out a little bit for those close to me to see. But sooner or later, there must be such an encounter, so that the souls that were originally fused together can be bonded together again.
After taking a shower, Tao Huainan was carried back again. He lay on Chi Cheng's chest, pillowing Chi Cheng's scar.
He was a little sleepy, but after the violent emotional turmoil, his nerves were still in a state of exhaustion and excitement, and he couldn't open his eyes or fall asleep.
"Brother." Tao Huainan murmured to him.
Chi Cheng put his arms around him and said "Yes".
Tao Huainan spoke wearily: "What I said was not to coax you."
Chi Cheng didn't respond, Tao Huainan said again: "I will never let go...don't make things difficult for yourself."
This was the second time he said it today, if it wasn't for this today, maybe Tao Huainan wouldn't have opened himself up and said so much.
He is not afraid that Chi Cheng will not forgive, nor is he afraid that Chi Cheng will hate him, but he is very afraid that Chi Cheng will put all those things on himself.
Chi Cheng should be free.
It was already late at night, and the surroundings were quiet. There was no sound in the corridor or the room next door. In Tao Huainan's invisible world, it seemed that there were only the two of them in the world at this moment.
Chi Cheng kissed his eyes, the temperature of his lips was higher than that of his eyelids, the warm temperature made the red and swollen eyelids a little itchy, Tao Huainan smiled silently.
"Go to sleep." Chi Cheng's voice sounded enormously gentle in the quiet night.
Tao Huainan slept in a sleepless state and didn't have a single dream.
He seemed to be wrapped and supported by gentle sea water, and his whole body floated lightly on the water. He was naked and gently supported by the sea surface sprinkled with sun shards, drifting with the warm sea water.
He can be slowly blown anywhere along the wind, and can calmly fall into a deep sleep, not afraid of getting lost or drowning.
Because it was his boat that was drifting along with him beside him.