"No" blurted out, and it was weird to say it. After speaking, I felt overwhelmed, and wanted to say something to make up for it, but I opened my mouth but didn't say anything, and finally stood up and walked away with my eyes down.
He left before he finished speaking, normally Chi Cheng would drag him back and say a few more words about him, but he didn't really want to talk about him, so he let him go.
Tao Huainan often engages himself in small emotions like this, and a sensitive child is still sensitive when he grows up. But in the final analysis, he is not too twisted, and he can figure it out on his own within a short time.
Before breaking through Chi Cheng's bottom line to the point where Chi Cheng punished him, he was smooth again, doing what he was supposed to do, listening to class well, and sleeping soundly.
The two younger brothers are quite popular in school now, Chi Cheng is steadily ranked first in the class, and has two fight bonuses in the first year of junior high school, both of them have a star halo, the first in each class They are all equivalent to the face of the class, as long as he doesn't always put on a face and ignore his popularity, he won't be too bad. Not to mention Tao Huainan, the protected animal in the class.
Chicheng usually takes Tao Huainan around the playground a few times after lunch, and it is tiring to sit from morning to night every day. Sometimes when Chi Cheng went to play basketball, Tao Huainan sat on the steps by himself. The weather in September was neither too cold nor too hot, and it was very comfortable to sit in the shade by the playground wearing a hooded sweater.
Someone came over and sat down next to him, his movements and footsteps were soft, with a faint scent of shampoo on his body, he deliberately suppressed a rough voice and said, "Guess who I am—"
Tao Huainan smiled, with his arms still on his knees, his hands resting on his chin, and said, "Sister Xuan."
"It's boring," the little girl flicked her long ponytail. "Sometimes I wonder if you're pretending not to be able to see."
"That's great." Tao Huainan said.
His face was always facing the direction of the basketball court, he couldn't hear Chi Cheng's voice in the messy basketball court, but Tao Huainan liked to catch Chi Cheng's from the chaotic footsteps. Sometimes I feel that what I hear is him, but in fact it is all blind.
"Then what are you looking over there?" The little girl waved her hand in front of Tao Huainan's eyes, but Tao Huainan didn't blink or respond.
"I see my little brother."
"You can't see again."
"He can see me." Tao Huainan blinked his eyes slowly, and spoke slowly. It was a warm autumn noon, and everyone was slow. "He said that my eyes are big. all know."
The little girl was amused by him, and said to him: "So you just pretend to look, and open your eyes so wide on purpose."
"I didn't open it intentionally, but I opened it naturally." Tao Huainan raised his hands in front of his eyes, "It's already this big."
"Show off." The girl took out two lollipops from her pocket, gave one to Tao Huainan, and ate one for herself.
Facing an invisible person, in addition to the pity that comes from the heart unconsciously, you will also feel more secure, and it will be easier to stay with him. Afterwards, they didn't talk anymore, each had a lollipop in their mouths, the girls watched the playground, and Tao Huainan listened to Chi Cheng.
This is the girl sitting at the table behind him now. The seats in the class are adjusted every year, and there are two girls sitting behind him this semester. Tao Huainan has absorbed many little secrets of adolescent girls, those who are embarrassed to tell others, they will be very willing to tell Tao Huainan.
He is like a quiet secret box, calmly accepting many immature thoughts.
When Chi Cheng came over after playing the ball, the girl had already left. Tao Huainan handed him the water, and Chi Cheng unscrewed it and raised his head to drink it.
"Tired?" Tao Huainan asked.
"No." Chi Cheng stretched out his hand to pull him up, "Did you fall asleep just now?"
Tao Huainan burst into laughter: "You really know? I just closed my eyes for a while."
Chi Cheng didn't speak, and put one hand on Tao Huainan's back and gently pushed him forward. He had just finished playing and was running back and forth on the court, and he was still panting completely. Tao Huainan could clearly hear his breathing when he was walking.
Tao Huainan closed his eyes, was pushed by Chi Cheng, and walked slowly with his strength, the rubber lawn was very soft, Tao Huainan stretched out his hand to scratch Chi Cheng's clothes, and his heart softened.
"What are you doing?" Chi Cheng looked at him.
"Just touch," Tao Huainan smiled so much that his eyes rolled down, "Touch you."
Chi Cheng raised his hand to touch the little red mark on Tao Huainan's arm just now when he was lying on his back while sleeping, and said to him, "It's a shame."
Lai Renjing Tao Huainan, he did not lose these three words at all, he is still not independent when he grows up so big, he sticks to his little brother every day. Those children who went to school for the blind can do everything by themselves when they are so old. Tao Huainan lost a lot of independent training for blind people if he didn’t go to school for the blind, but it’s the same for him everywhere. He didn't learn anything in those few years, who made him have a younger brother, and he only knew everything as "slow and slow".
Tao Xiaodong came back early at night, and his elder brother was already at home when they got home from school.
Tao Huainan took a shower before changing into his pajamas, and came out smelling delicious. Tao Xiaodong is a fan, he likes to smell his brother's body, so Tao Huainan's bath liquid at home has always smelled of milk. Chi Cheng is also fascinated by this aspect, he would not let Tao Huainan change it if he used others.
Tao Xiaodong had already finished cooking, and while Tao Huainan was taking a shower, Chicheng cooked another bowl of shrimp noodles by himself. Last night he promised Tao Huainan to cook for him today, Tao Xiaodong said to him, "I don't think it's troublesome for you."
"It's no trouble." Chi Cheng didn't take it seriously, and brought the bowl over and put it in front of Tao Huainan.
Tao Huainan came out of the shower and sat down straight away, leaned his nose close to the table and smelled it, let out a "wow", and carefully reached out to touch the bowl, it was still very hot.
Chi Cheng went to the kitchen to get something else, Tao Xiaodong's phone rang in the room, and he stood up to answer the phone.
Tao Huainan put his hands on his lap and obediently waited for the two of them to come to eat, his nose was filled with the smell of noodles, he loved the noodles that Chi Cheng cooked for him so much.
"Brother Ku, get it for me—" Before Tao Huainan finished speaking, there were several bumps in a row in a panic, and then Tao Huainan exclaimed "ah", and then there was the sound of the bowl breaking.
Tao Xiaodong and Chi Cheng both ran over, while Tao Huainan stood aside in a panic, shaking his hands while pulling on his trousers.
"It's burning?!" Tao Xiaodong asked, and came over to pull Tao Huainan away, preventing him from standing in the middle of the broken bowl, "Brother, take a look."
"It's too hot." The back of Tao Huainan's hands turned red, and his pants were still stained. He was startled and his voice trembled a little. "I didn't touch it, it fell off by itself, it's so hot!"
Chi Cheng didn't say a word, squatted down and pulled off Tao Huainan's trousers, even the trousers and underpants. Tao Huainan was not allowed to wear any slippers, and took him directly to the bathroom to take a shower.
The cold water sprayed on his body made Tao Huainan snort again, and Chiku made him stand in the bathtub. The shower was taken off and the hose was directly used to flush Tao Huainan's legs. The cold water flowed down the legs, and Tao Huainan was frozen by the cold water. shake.
"Does it hurt a lot?" Chi Cheng supported him with one hand, and asked with a frown.
"It doesn't hurt if you flush it with water, it hurts if you don't flush it." Tao Huainan clasped his hand to avoid slipping, and explained in a low voice, "I really didn't touch it..."
The little blind man always blamed himself and felt guilty when he did something wrong and caused trouble to others.
Chi Cheng said, "You're welcome, it's fine."
The noodles have been served for a while, and they must be hot, but they should not be burned. It should be fine to rinse with cold water and deal with them later. But this didn't stop Tao Xiaodong from feeling distressed. Seeing Tao Huainan standing bare-legged in the bathtub flushing, still explaining this, he felt very uncomfortable.
Tao Xiaodong sat on the edge of the bathtub and patted his brother's back lightly: "There is water on the table, it's not bad for you."
Tao Huainan's hand was also hot, so he stretched it out and put it under the water, and Chi Cheng rushed back and forth for him for a long time.
Because he couldn't see, Tao Huainan had been accidentally burned too many times since he was a child, and any accident could happen to him. Chi Cheng is very proficient in dealing with these, whether it is burnt or bumped and wounded, Chi Cheng can handle it for him.
After wiping him carelessly with a bath towel, Chi Cheng half-carried Tao Huainan back. Tao Xiaodong couldn't reach out his hand at all, Chi Cheng didn't raise his head when he wanted to reach out, he just said, "Let me come, bro."
"Does it still hurt?" Chi Cheng put Tao Huainan on the bed, and turned to get the burn ointment.
"It doesn't hurt anymore," Tao Huainan sneezed, and replied honestly, "I just feel a little hot, not as painful as before."
Chi Ku gave an "um" and said, "It's fine."
He was too steady, so Tao Xiaodong simply stopped reaching out and leaned against the wall behind him to watch them. Watching Chi Cheng apply scald ointment methodically on him, watching Tao Huainan raise his hand to lightly touch Chi Cheng's hair out of self-blame and guilt.
It was as if they had grown into half-adults without him noticing.
Tao Huainan really didn't touch that bowl, he was cooking well and was waiting to eat, he touched it once and found it was hot, and then he didn't touch it again. There was water at the bottom of the bowl, and possibly water on the tabletop, and the bowl did slide off by itself.
Who is to blame? Blame Chicheng for cooking noodles for him, or Tao Xiaodong for answering the phone
No one was to blame, in the final analysis, it was because Tao Huainan couldn't see.
Chi Cheng applied medicine to Tao Huainan in the room, while Tao Xiaodong cleaned up the mess around the dining table.
Tao Huainan felt a little uncomfortable, so he stopped talking.
After finishing everything, Chi Cheng touched his chin with the back of his hand and said, "I'll cook another bowl for you."
Tao Huainan shook his head and said, "Don't eat."
"I'll eat." Chi Cheng turned around and went out.
Tao Huainan and Tao Xiaodong ate a bowl of noodles together, and Tao Huainan couldn't finish it after a few mouthfuls. Chi Cheng asked him: "What do you want to eat tomorrow?"
Tao Huainan still shook his head, and said in a low voice, "I don't dare to pick what I give you."
"Look at this little thing," Tao Xiaodong laughed, "Are you acting like a baby on purpose or are you really guilty?"
"I don't know," Tao Huainan thought about it, "maybe a little bit."
Both Chi Cheng and Tao Xiaodong made him laugh, and Tao Xiaodong said, "This is just getting old. If I was young, I would probably be in tears now."
Chi Cheng said "hmm", "It's coming soon."
The two brothers deliberately said to him, it's okay to cry, but there will definitely be a little self-loathing.
At night, Tao Huainan turned over from time to time, unable to fall asleep, always moving slowly.
Chi Cheng ignored him at first, but later said: "Sleep honestly."
Tao Huainan answered for a long time: "Mmm..."
Chi Cheng said again: "Hurry up and go to bed, don't worry if you don't wake up tomorrow morning."
Tao Huainan pursed his lips and said nothing.
What happened during the meal would not make him unable to sleep until now, that would be too exaggerated, not at all. The emotion caused by that incident was enough for Tao Huainan to hate himself for two hours. It was true that he couldn't sleep now, but it was not due to psychological reasons.
The reason for this... is a little hard to say.
Tao Huainan reached into the quilt and pulled his trousers, the most tender and delicate part of the boy felt a slight pain when he touched the fabric.
When the bowl of noodles was spilled, a small piece was also there, and was shaken off by Tao Huainan. Brother and Chi Cheng were both focused on the big patch of red on their legs, and didn't even notice that the lonely and fragile part not far away was also glowing with a less obvious redness.
Tao Huainan turned over again and tugged on his pants again, trying to change his position so that the pants would not touch there.
Still tossing? "Chi Cheng opened his eyes and looked at him, but he could only see the back of Tao Huainan's head.
Tao Huainan closed his eyes, feeling troubled by the pain, and couldn't hold back when he was told, "Just sleep with you... I won't delay your sleep if I turn over."
Chi Cheng didn't speak, just looked at him.
After Tao Huainan finished speaking, he also felt that something was wrong, alas, it was just trouble. It's not that the pain is unbearable, but it's just touching my heart. There is always a nerve reminding me that it hurts a little, and I can't touch my pants yet.
Chi Cheng kept silent, Tao Huainan was a bit hypocritical, but he turned around honestly after a while. Afraid that Chi Cheng would be angry, he couldn't explain why he didn't speak well just now, he opened and closed his mouth several times, and finally gave up on himself and broke the jar, saying, "I'm in pain."
Chi Cheng asked, "Where does it hurt?"
"It's right there!" Tao Huainan covered his face with his arms, and his voice came out muffled, "It's right there."