When Tao Xiaodong came out in the morning, he saw Tao Huainan's eyes and let out a "huh" in surprise.
"You cry." Tao Xiaodong was still happy, "Look at whether people laughed at you at school today."
"Why are you making fun of me?" Tao Huainan rubbed his eyelids, "I'll be fine in a while."
Tao Xiaodong didn't ask a word about the quarrel between the two of them last night. He never cared much about the affairs between the two young ones, almost in a free-range state. There are children's ways of getting along and little secrets between children, and adults' meddling sometimes makes simple things more complicated and serious.
It's even more so for these two children, they are too close, sometimes Tao Xiaodong feels that even he can't get in between them.
During this period of time, the two of them have been arguing, and the crying and arguing last night seem to be better now.
Chi Cheng made Tao Huainan noodles in thick cream soup early in the morning, and the whole room wafted that greasy smell.
Tao Xiaodong can't eat this stuff, he's so tired of it, but the cub likes it. Tao Xiaodong asked: "Can I have other food for breakfast? If not, I will go to the store to eat."
Chi Cheng said yes.
There is porridge in the rice cooker, and two eggs are boiled in it by the way. The child with swollen eyes took a spoon and chopsticks and sucked and ate deliciously. The two brothers had white porridge, eggs and pickles.
Tao Huainan asked, "Lean meat porridge?"
"Just ordinary porridge." Chi Cheng said.
"I'll try it." Tao Huainan tilted his head.
Just as Tao Xiaodong was about to push the bowl over, Chi Cheng had already put half a spoonful of porridge into his mouth. Tao Huainan tasted it and said, "It's tasteless."
"What flavor can rice porridge have?" Chi Cheng casually replied, "Eat yours."
"This is porridge made from new rice, it's soft," Tao Huainan commented, "Porridge is delicious when cooked with leftover rice."
"You are quite picky," Tao Xiaodong said to him, "Brother Ku is too used to you."
Tao Huainan smiled, moved his hand to the side of the table, touched Chi Cheng's hand and shook it.
Her eyes were so swollen that her double eyelids disappeared, her eyelids were still red, and she looked pitiful no matter what she did.
Greeting others in the class seems to have the meaning of reluctantly forcing a smile.
"Brother Chi took care of you?" Ji Nan asked him.
Chi Cheng went to the front to wipe the blackboard, but when Ji Nan came and saw that there was no one sitting next to Tao Huainan, he came over on his own initiative.
Tao Huainan heard him sit down, and quickly pushed him: "No, you go, don't sit here with me."
"Oh my god, he kicked me out." Ji Nan turned to look at Shi Kai and said in surprise, "He told me to leave quickly."
"Then why don't you leave quickly?" Shi Kai raised his eyebrows, "Are you still addicted to sitting here?"
"Brother Chi asked me to come yesterday!" Ji Nan was completely baffled, "I was asked to come here yesterday, and let me go quickly today, come and go as soon as you call!"
"I didn't ask you to come yesterday..." Tao Huainan retorted softly, "I didn't want you to sit yesterday either."
"Did you hear that?" Ji Nan turned to Shi Kai again in surprise, "Did you hear what he said? Xiao Huainan should clean up this."
At this moment, the teacher hasn't come yet, the class is full of people doing everything, and Ji Nan doesn't leave, as soon as he sits here, he starts to feel poor. Tao Huainan kept pushing him away, but Ji Nan said, "I won't leave, my ass is stuck here today."
Tao Huainan still has lingering fears after thinking about the quarrel between him and Chi Cheng yesterday.
"Hurry up and go back, the teacher will come later." Tao Huainan patted Chicheng's schoolbag, "This is not your seat either."
Ji Nan didn't like it, and the people around him were happy to hear that he was blind and poor here, and it wasn't until Chi Cheng came over that Ji Nan stood up and went back.
Chi Cheng seldom opened his mouth to say what was on his mind, what he said after the two quarreled while squatting in front of Tao Huainan made Tao Huainan often think in silence for many days afterwards.
He has always been thoughtful, thinking about a lot from one point.
Dilemma seems to be a dilemma that all growing children must face. They have to learn to choose between entanglements, but no matter how they choose, the last thing Tao Huainan wants is to hurt Chi Cheng.
It's not just because he doesn't want to hurt, Tao Huainan wishes to give him everything he has, but he has too little. In this world, apart from his elder brother and Chi Cheng, what Tao Huainan has is probably negative.
The time is calm and long, but it will slowly take away the simple happiness that belongs only to children.
Tao Huainan went to Gansu with his brother this summer.
It was a medical assistance project co-operated by my elder brother and the hospital. My elder brother was the investor, and Dr. Tang, whom Tao Huainan liked so much, was with me.
There are always a lot of people with bad eyes, and there are so many people queuing up to see their eyes every day, but my brother said that there are few patients here, and Dr. Tang also said that this time he is not so tired.
He knew that brother would often do these things, and this was the first time that Tao Huainan was by his side. Brother did these things differently than usual. While Tao Huainan felt unfamiliar, he also made Tao Huainan lament that Xiaodong really gave people a lot of practicality and reliability.
Tao Huainan was sitting at the entrance of the hospital without sunscreen on his face. The sun was so strong that Tao Huainan's mouth was dry. Tao Huainan couldn't understand other people's dialect, and there were always people coming and going around. When Tao Huainan couldn't understand what they said, he seemed to be isolated.
He exists outside of everyone, listening to those anxious or calm tones, speaking those words that he doesn't understand, there is a strange sense of loneliness in the noisy world.
It seems that he has never come out alone with Chi Cheng like this. There will always be Chi Chi in his world, so no matter whether he can understand the surrounding environment or not, he will never feel lonely, there is always someone in his world.
Occasionally, Tao Xiaodong was too busy to take care of him, and would leave Tao Huainan in the hotel. Tao Huainan also didn't want to go out to distract him. If it was daytime, he would just sit in the room and wander around, thinking about many things; if it was nighttime, he would chat with Chicheng.
Chi Cheng sent a video and Tao Huainan picked it up.
"Where's brother?" Chi Cheng asked him over there.
Tao Huainan wore earphones and smiled at the phone: "Brother is out, I miss you."
"Who would believe you?" Chi Cheng said in a flat tone, talking with the earphone cord in his mouth, "Have you eaten yet?"
"I've eaten," Tao Huainan lay on the bed, placing the phone directly under his face, "Why don't you believe me? I was still thinking about you just now."
"You can forget it soon," Chi Cheng looked at Tao Huainan's chin in the camera, the little blind man didn't know that this angle was really ugly, but it didn't make any difference to Chi Cheng, any angle didn't matter, "You just know Say."
Tao Huainan was in a bad state during this period, and there were too many things in his mind every day, so he proposed to come out with his brother himself. Chi Cheng had to go to school, and Tao Huainan didn't want his state to affect him.
He was thinking about one thing, before he left, he thought that he would go back soon anyway, but Tao Huainan regretted it the first night he came out.
"Brother is always in a daze, look, I'm still green here." Tao Huainan whispered to Chi Cheng, and complained vigorously while his brother was away, "Don't tell me if there are steps, and don't tell me if there are stones."
Chi Cheng said, "I can't see it, just keep your head down."
Tao Huainan then moved his face closer to the camera: "How about this?"
"I can't see it either, keep your forehead down, don't touch the phone with the tip of your nose, or push the phone up if you don't."
"Oh, oh," the little blind man pointed his forehead at the phone, "Did you see it? This one hurts."
"I see," Chi Cheng blew on the phone, "It's done."
Tao Huainan was blown through the phone, and when he understood it, he followed up with music: "Are you stupid? You can't blow it."
Chi Cheng asked him, "You're happy to go out?"
"Unhappy." Tao Huainan's expression changed a bit, and he leaned his arms on his face, "Many people came to see their eyes, and many of them couldn't be cured. They will be like me in the future."
"What's wrong with you," Chi Cheng said, "Don't think about it."
"I can't see you, I don't even know what you look like." Tao Huainan put his finger on the phone and gently scratched the screen with the side of his finger, "I can't see brother either."
Chi Cheng stopped talking about this, and asked him something else: "Will you go out by yourself next time?"
Tao Huainan didn't speak at first, then he just smiled with his lips pursed.
Chi Cheng said to him: "You just toss around, you know it hurts when you fall."
Tao Huainan also felt very satisfied when he heard Chi Cheng talking about him through the phone. Coming out this time made him think through a lot of things, and now he really wants to slow down.
It's good to come out with my brother, my brother is very good, Dr. Tang is very good.
But Tao Huainan couldn't live without Chi Cheng.
He blinked in the video, and slowly said to Chi Cheng: "Doctor Tang said that I should go to many places, the world is big. But the world without you is too lonely."
Chi Cheng looked at his face, it was tanned and his lips were cracked. Tao Huainan was not very good at taking care of himself, and made himself a little embarrassed. Chi Cheng said, "Sounds better than anyone else."
Tao Huainan pressed his ear with the hand leaning on his face, wanting to stick the earphone closer, so that it seemed that Chi Cheng was talking in his ear. Tao Huainan said softly, "I miss you."
After a few days of separation, when Tao Huainan came back, he was in the same state as before he left.
Maybe it was because I wanted to run too late, but when I came back, I was like a jubilant bird, and I was especially good at chattering. He hangs on Chi Cheng's body waiting to wash his face, Chi Cheng thinks he is dirty.
Tao Huainan was suspected for several days, and Chi Cheng said that he was a lot darker and not beautiful anymore.
When brother was at home, Tao Huainan was honest, he didn't care if he said he was black, and he didn't talk back. As soon as his brother left for work, Tao Huainan pushed up the trouser legs, exposing his legs, patted them with a smile, and said, "It's still white inside."
He really wanted Chi Cheng to think so badly that they would hide in nobody's house and kiss.
With the air conditioner on, the cat would do very shy things under the quilt, Tao Huainan would raise his head high when Chi Cheng kissed his neck. He will also talk a lot to Chi Cheng with an innocent and honest expression while his mouth is red and moist.
It was a bit inappropriate to speak at such a time, but Tao Huainan spoke seriously. He leaned on Chi Cheng, put his face in his hands, kissed his eyes and the bridge of his nose, and said I really love you.