Tao Huainan cried bitterly for no reason, and then said a few crazy words for no reason.
Maybe it can't be said that there is no reason, but it is always crazy.
Chi Cheng was driven mad by him, and a low-pressure circle was formed around Chi Cheng in the family, and the circle was full of ferocious hostility.
This level of conflict can't be reconciled by brother, Chi Cheng's temper Tao Xiaodong also knows that this time he can't be kind. Tao Huainan was also abnormally not afraid of him, with an ugly pale complexion and a silent persistence.
"The exam is over, why don't you two go out to play?" Tao Xiaodong stood at the door of Tao Huainan, one foot in the door and one foot outside, looking at both sides, "Brother will lead you? Or should you go alone?"
No one can talk to him, the only person in this family who can reply to him now is his own brother.
Tao Xiaodong stood there and said a few words, but no one said anything, and finally Tao Xiaodong turned to look at Tang Suoyan.
"Lead me there, I want to go out to play." Tang Suoyan washed his hands and came out, came over and pushed Tao Xiaodong's back to push him away.
Being a doctor doesn't have free time. Since Tang Suoyan returned to China, he really hasn't gone out to play much, and his time is almost taken up by work.
"You don't have time," Tao Xiaodong said, "If you have time, I will take you out to play every day."
Tang Suo said, "It doesn't matter, just go out and play."
Tao Xiaodong couldn't stand Tang Suoyan cheating on him the most, he was so stalked that his heart melted, and he couldn't be a good brother anymore. Regardless of the conflict between the two younger brothers, he went to the kitchen with Brother Renyan to cook together.
Tao Huainan was determined to let Chi Cheng go this time, no matter how angry Chi Cheng was, Tao Huainan never changed his mind.
This is a state that has never happened between them. The two are evenly matched against something. Tao Huainan doesn't listen to anyone, he just wants Chi Cheng to go. Chi Cheng didn't say a word to him, completely ignored him, and didn't even give him a look.
Tao Huainan still locked himself up from time to time, refusing to communicate. When it is not locked, sometimes he will take the initiative to talk to Chi Cheng, but Chi Cheng will not respond to him, Chi Cheng treats him as a transparent person, and does not bother to give him half a look.
Seeing that Tao Huainan began to become anxious, his whole body became more and more restless. He stays up all night with his eyes open and drinks a lot of coffee when his brother isn't home.
The classmates were all flying around and playing, and the two of them could hardly get in touch. Chi Cheng answered the phone twice, telling the two of them to go out and Chi Cheng said he couldn't go, and his mood didn't sound very good. Ji Nan guessed that it was because he had failed the exam, so he didn't know how to call again.
The status of the two people is different from that of the candidates who just graduated. Others are birds out of the cage, but they are still in the cage. Chi Cheng was like an angry trapped animal, while Tao Huainan felt more like a blind dog lingering on its last breath.
Such a dog should not be alive. Wherever he is, there is a cage.
Tao Huainan lost weight quickly, and his already thin figure looked even thinner now, and the inside of his wide pajamas was empty. Tao Xiaodong was a little unsteady. Tao Huainan had never been like this before. He hadn't had any trouble with Tao Huainan in the past twenty years, so he wouldn't have such a stubborn and hard-working character.
Tao Huainan was sitting in the room with his head buried in his knees. Tao Xiaodong walked in by himself and locked the door behind his back.
Tao Huainan didn't move or look up.
"Baby." Tao Xiaodong sat down next to him, put his hand on his neck, and called him.
Tao Huainan was bored there, and called "Brother" hoarsely.
"What's wrong with you?" Tao Xiaodong's voice was very peaceful, as if he was chatting normally, "What's on your mind? Tell me."
Tao Huainan said, "I want Brother Ku to go."
"Why do you have to let him go?" Tao Xiaodong gently rubbed his fingers on his neck, and then stroked down to touch his back, "It's not like I'm leaving now, I haven't paid for it, and I haven't filled out my volunteers."
Tao Huainan didn't raise his head all the time, and kept himself stuck in it. After a while, he said, "He won't... If he doesn't leave, he won't wait until then."
His voice was so hoarse that only half of his voice could come out, and some words were simply silent, so he had to guess and listen before and after contacting. Tao Xiaodong was silent for a few minutes, and didn't speak for a few minutes, just touching him back and forth.
Tao Huainan gradually trembled under his palm, indistinctly.
"Brother, help me..." Tao Huainan's shoulders were shaking under Tao Xiaodong's hands, "Don't let Brother Ku stay."
"You have to let me know the reason." Tao Xiaodong's voice was a little serious, and he gently poked the tendon of Tao Huainan's neck with his fingers, and said to him, "He is your little brother, he is my brother, and this is his home. His home Right here, aren't you fooling around by letting him go?"
Tao Huainan trembled even more, seeing that his whole body was shaking uncontrollably.
He was crying silently.
"Anything can be discussed. There are only these few people in our family, and we can talk about everything." Tao Xiaodong's voice was stern, which he hadn't seen for a long time. The tone of his speech was like when he was correcting Tao Huainan's wrong behavior when he was a child. He said, "You can't be whatever you think. Brother Ku has thoughts, so what you think may not be right."
Tao Huainan was speechless, what he said was right.
"You two have grown up so much, you can decide everything yourself, but Brother Fan will support whatever you can." Tao Xiaodong leaned against the wall, and slowly reasoned with Tao Huainan, "If Brother Ku wants to stay, we will also support him here." It’s not that there are no good schools. There are several double first-class schools. They are not as good as the top two or three, but they are not far behind. If you want to leave, my brother is more supportive. I thought it would be good for you two to be tied together, but now I feel It's good for you two to live separately for a while."
"All of these things have to be considered and discussed together, you can't decide on your own." Tao Xiaodong told him, "Don't be too horny, Brother Ku will make you lose your temper."
Tao Huainan didn't raise his head from the beginning to the end, and later changed to the posture of wrapping his face in his arms. He knew every word he said was true.
Tao Huainan didn't respond to Tao Xiaodong's many words, and finally he could only say a few words in a hoarse voice, weak and hopeless: "...Brother, I'm afraid."
"What are you afraid of? Baby," Tao Xiaodong said, rubbing his hair, "tell me what you are afraid of."
Tao Huainan didn't say what he was afraid of until the end.
This is the second time he said he was afraid, once with my brother, once with my brother.
Tao Xiaodong told him so much, but he couldn't persuade Tao Huainan.
He still either shrank in the room and did not go out, or let Chi Cheng go.
He drank strong tea and coffee like an addiction, filling his mouth cup by cup. There was no color on his face, and his face looked a little scary from staying up without sleep.
Chi Cheng doesn't talk to him, sometimes Tao Huainan doesn't even know where Chi Cheng is. A blind man who can only rely on his ears to find someone, as long as Chi Cheng keeps silent, Tao Huainan will never be found.
It just rained outside yesterday, and today is a sunny day.
Sunny days in summer are always hot, and the windows seem to be open everywhere, but there is no wind to get in, and the room is stuffy and suffocating. Tao Huainan stood by the window for a while, but there was not even cicadas singing outside.
He made himself another cup of strong tea, and just drank half of it, when Chi Cheng snatched the cup away, and the cup flew out of his hands, and fell on the door with Chi Cheng's strength.
The sound of porcelain shattering rang several times. Tao Huainan was indeed not afraid of him anymore, and such a sudden movement and sound did not startle him.
Tao Huainan went to the bathroom to get a rag and a water basin, then squatted down silently to tidy up.
He had to touch them tentatively with his hands and pick them up when he touched them.
Chi Cheng leaned against the dining table and looked at him. It is natural for Tao Huainan to do these things. He has learned everything in his third year of high school, he can serve Chi Cheng comfortably, and he can do many things without being dazed or embarrassed.
Tao Huainan picked up the big pieces and put them in the basin, and wrapped the small pieces in a pile with a rag. He stood up and pulled out a few pieces of paper, pinching them bit by bit.
Chi Cheng watched him clean up, and called him, "Tao Huainan."
Tao Huainan replied: "Yes."
Chi Cheng's voice was indifferent, and he calmly said to Tao Huainan, "Don't do it."
Tao Huainan stood with a basin in one hand and a rag in the other. He tilted his head in Chi Cheng's direction and said, "I don't want to do it either."
"Think about it, if I really leave, I will never come back." Chi Cheng leaned back on the dining table with both hands, stared at Tao Huainan with red eyes, and said calmly, "If you have made up your mind, tell me .”
Tao Huainan stood where he was, silent. The inside of his lip was bitten so badly that it bled, and the blood spread out in his mouth with a slightly fishy and salty taste. He said, "I...don't think about it."
Chi Cheng still stared at him, Tao Huainan said, "You go."
Chi Cheng closed his eyes, his fingers turning white from digging at the edge of the table.
"I want to get away from you and live on my own, but you're annoying me to death." Tao Huainan licked the place where he had bitten him, and continued, "I've had enough."
Chi Cheng couldn't catch his breath, and began to cough violently.
Tao Huainan's hands were shaking so much that he couldn't hold the basin, so he bent down and put the basin on the ground, went to get a cup, poured water, and put it in Chi Cheng's hand.
As soon as the cup was in his hand, Chi Cheng smashed it.
The fragments broke on the ground and bounced in all directions, a small piece fell on Tao Huainan's arm, and the sharp pain made Tao Huainan's eyelids quiver.
Tao Huainan put his arms on his body, hiding the place inconspicuously.
"I wish time would go backwards, but it doesn't listen to me." Tao Huainan stood in front of Chi Cheng, fixed his gaze on Chi Cheng's face, even though he couldn't see anything, "Then let's all move forward." ,hope… "
Tao Huainan paused for a few seconds, and then said: "I hope my little brother will not worry about the future, fly high, and never meet the next me."
Chi Cheng was coughing all the time, he bent down so much that he leaned on his knees, choking so hard that he couldn't breathe.
Tao Huainan stood beside him and gently carried him on his back. His palms were cold, and he could feel his bones piercing through his clothes.
Chi Cheng couldn't stand up straight for a long time, and then he stopped coughing and kept his head down for a long time.