Tao Xiaodong went out for a total of two hours. If he knew that so many things would happen in these two hours, he would not be able to go out that day.
Tao Huainan had a high fever for three days and fell into a coma. He also screamed occasionally when he was unconscious, and would cry like he was in a daze. Tao Xiaodong picked him up and patted him on the back.
Tao Huainan was unconscious in the coma, and only knew to cry and call "brother", sometimes desperate, sometimes murmuring, and sometimes obsessed. Tao Xiaodong put his palm on his head and coaxed him softly. The elder brother has broad shoulders and also feels safe, but he is not the younger brother after all.
The child who hasn't woken up doesn't know, how can he have a little brother, he may never have a little brother.
I couldn't control my crying in the dream, but it was okay to wake up. Tao Huainan has not cried since he woke up, nor has he mentioned Chi Cheng. Tao Xiaodong understood him, patted his head, and told him that Brother Ku is in touch, so don't worry.
Tao Huainan nodded blankly, and said, "Thank you brother."
I couldn't make a sound out of my throat, and couldn't make out the words "Thank you brother" several times. He lowered his head and sat with his back slightly arched. The smell in the hospital was not that bad, but Tao Huainan still felt that the overly warm room temperature made his head swell and made him a little sick.
Tao Xiaodong didn't accuse him too much, nor did he ask what happened between him and Chi Cheng.
"I have something on my mind to tell my brother, I will help you make up your mind." Tao Xiaodong sat behind Tao Huainan, supported his back, and talked to him peacefully, "Brother knows that you are sensible, and you have many things on your mind. Brother wants to hear it."
"Whether I'm busy or not, whether I'm with Dr. Tang or not, we won't delay the closeness between us. I do a lot of things for you to be well, otherwise it's meaningless."
Tao Xiaodong put one arm around Tao Huainan, held one of Tao Huainan's wrists, and rubbed the back of his hand like he played with his hands and arms when he was a child.
"There is nothing we can't get through, and looking back in a few years, it will be nothing." Tao Xiaodong hugged his younger brother, and the young man leaned against him. Tao Xiaodong rubbed his hair, squeezed his ears, and said , "Don't be a fool, baby, don't hurt yourself."
Tao Xiaodong didn't finish his sentence, but Tao Huainan understood the last half of what he didn't say. He has always been sensitive and smart, and he knew what Brother wanted to say, "Don't hurt those close to you."
However, damage is inevitable and irreversible.
Tao Huainan turned around and hugged his elder brother, burying his face in his shoulder, he was as light as a child.
"Brother, I'm sorry..." Tao Huainan leaned against his brother's shoulder, said in a pained and sincere hoarse voice, "I don't want...to hurt you."
"Brother knows," Tao Xiaodong rubbed the back of his head, "You love us more than anyone else."
Tao Huainan forcefully closed his blind eyes, unable to speak for a long time.
Chi Cheng's aura was completely lost in the family, no one was indifferent and silent, but their eyes were still on Tao Huainan. Tao Huainan was not as nervous as before, he no longer deliberately controlled himself not to sleep, but he couldn't fall asleep normally.
Tang Suoyan asked him softly if he wanted to talk to his brother.
Tao Huainan knew he was talking about a doctor, but he still shook his head.
He still occasionally refuses to communicate and doesn't speak.
But after closing himself off one time, he took the initiative to come to Tang Suoyan, behind Tao Xiaodong's back, and said in a low voice, "Brother Tang, can you...help me find a doctor?"
Tang Suoyan answered him immediately: "Of course."
Tao Huainan pursed his lips and said in a low voice, "Thank you Brother Tang. I'm sorry...for making you worry."
Tang Suoyan smiled, patted him and said, "Don't be nervous, just chat."
He was led by Tang Suoyan to the doctor. Tao Xiaodong knew about it, but Tao Xiaodong was willing not to follow. Tao Huainan didn't want his brother to know, so Tao Xiaodong pretended not to know.
The doctor's surname is Qi, he is older than Tang Suoyan, and he was a senior with a different major at that time.
When Tao Huainan came last time, he was very uncooperative, his eyes and mouth were tightly closed, and he didn't say a word. This time, the doctor snapped his fingers next to his ear, and the sound was not too loud. Tao Huainan didn't expect it, and after reacting, he took a small step to the side.
The doctor said to Tao Huainan gently, "Go in and sit for a while? Are you nervous?"
Tao Huainan shook his head and said, "No."
The doctor brought him in, and asked Tang to sit down first.
The doctor's hands are generous and warm, and they don't feel oppressive when they are placed on the shoulders. He half pushed Tao Huainan to a sofa and said, "Sit down."
Tao Huainan set up a sofa and sat down, putting his hands on his lap.
"Casual, it's just the two of us here." The doctor poured him a glass of water and put it in Tao Huainan's hand, which to a certain extent gave Tao Huainan something to hold in his hand and eased his bewilderment.
The doctor sat opposite him, said something irrelevant, and his eyes fell on Tao Huainan from time to time.
However, Tao Huainan didn't show any nervousness other than being at a loss when he was alone with strangers in a space at first.
After going around in circles for a while, the doctor finally got to the point.
He leaned on the sofa, looked at Tao Huainan and said, "It's hard work, isn't it?"
Tao Huainan blinked, but remained silent.
The doctor seemed to understand him very well, soothed his nervousness, and said in advance: "I will keep a secret for you for the time being."
Tao Huainan was still a little hesitant, but his unspoken struggle was thoroughly seen by the doctor last time. He smiled and said to Tao Huainan, "Are you scared?"
The tone was very relaxed, and he spoke very relaxedly, as if this was not a big deal, as if he had seen it a lot, he said to Tao Huainan: "It's okay, don't be afraid."
From then on, Tao Huainan would come to the doctor regularly for psychological intervention.
The doctor kept his word, he promised Tao Huainan to keep the secret for him, but he really didn't tell Tang Suoyan about the content of the treatment. Maybe he had a doctor's consideration, which made Tao Huainan really trust him.
Tao Xiaodong asked several times, not because he wanted to pry into Tao Huainan's secrets, but just to know if there was anything special to pay attention to. After all, Tao Xiaodong didn't understand psychology, and he was afraid that something he said accidentally would irritate him.
He also specifically asked if he could mention his little brother in front of Tao Huainan.
The doctor waved his hands and said with a smile: "He is not as fragile as you think, where is he thinking? On the contrary, he is very strong psychologically, much stronger than ordinary people. Usually, you don't have to dare to say this or that, and you don't need to hide anything."
What the doctor said was not very clear, Tao Xiaodong said: "Sometimes he doesn't like to talk, just like before, he closed himself up."
"You can remember him..." The doctor paused here, and changed the original words, "Remember the cycle of this situation. He himself has always remembered it, anyway, you can count it as an observation."
Tao Xiaodong agreed, the doctor and Tang Suoyan are very familiar, and Tao Xiaodong has naturally become familiar with Tang Suoyan after coming here a few times, and the chat is not so lively. Tao Huainan fell asleep, and Tao Xiaodong didn't rush to call him. He sat outside and chatted with the doctor for a while.
The doctor loves to chat, and even asked Shang Suoyan to have dinner with Chen Lin next week. Chen Lin is Tang Suoyan's roommate, and they had a good relationship when they were in school.
Tao Huainan woke up and walked out by himself. Tao Xiaodong reminded him, "Here."
Tao Huainan walked over by himself, and Tao Xiaodong said, "Don't worry, there's nothing left."
"He needs a blind cane, which is too dangerous." The doctor and Tao Xiaodong said.
Tao Xiaodong looked at Tao Huainan who was walking slowly, but didn't reply immediately. Tao Huainan has always disliked the blind cane, and he would feel insecure when walking with the blind stick pointing.
"You can't follow him forever. He will have a lot of time on his own in the future. Now that he is in college, you will follow?" The doctor smiled, "When it's time to let go, don't be reluctant."
Tao Xiaodong also smiled, looked at Tao Huainan and said, "I'm not reluctant."
Tao Huainan took the initiative to pick up the blind stick, but he is not used to it yet, he always stumbles.
No one is holding him all the time, and he has long forgotten how to use the blind cane he learned in the school for the blind when he was a child, so he has to learn it a little bit again.
He used to be blind when he walked on the road. He was always a decent boy, and now he is finally labeled as a blind man. He is not proficient in walking, and sometimes he may stumble on the ground if he fails to get out of obstacles with his blind stick.
He knew that his brother was with him, so he would immediately turn around and say with a comforting smile, "It's okay, it's okay."
The shallow wounds on his arms are almost healed, but the wounds on his body are always hard to get rid of. It usually takes a long time for a small wound to disappear. This time it will take two months to disappear. clean.
Learning to walk with a blind stick, I suffered another broken skin injury on my arms and legs, and my hand bowl was also broken when I fell. Tao Huainan was treated by Brother Tang, and he blew on his wrist habitually.
Tang Suoyan laughed at him: "Like a child."
Tao Huainan also smiled, touched the knee pad that brother Tang had prepared for him, and said softly, "It won't hurt if you blow it on."
Tang Suoyan knew what he was thinking, held his wrist and blew it, and asked, "Does this work?"
"Ah," Tao Huainan nodded, "It works."
When not talking, Tao Huainan would sit on Chicheng's study chair for a whole day.
Sometimes I sit upright, sometimes I squat on a chair and hug my knees.
He's less afraid of going to sleep, but still can't. When I can't fall asleep, I will sit on this chair, and occasionally I will straddle the table with my back against the edge of the table, with my face facing the back of the chair.
He never shy away from mentioning Chi Cheng at home, and his elder brother didn't avoid him either.
Brother has contact with Chi Cheng, Tao Huainan can sometimes hear brother calling him. He will not deliberately go up to listen, nor will he deliberately avoid it.
Brother said that Chi Cheng was admitted, and he mentioned a school. Tao Huainan gave a soft "wow" and said with a smile, "That's great."
Tao Xiaodong touched his head and face, but said nothing.
Tao Huainan went to their local school to study psychology.
The medical school credits were far from enough for him. Tao Xiaodong didn't let him go to the special education college. He submitted the application one by one, and Dr. Qi entrusted his acquaintances to hand it over. In the end, Tao Huainan was allowed to go to school.
Dr. Qi even promised him: "When you come to the medical school, I will take you personally."
Tao Huainan turned towards him in surprise, and shook his head with a wry smile.
"Don't shake your head," Dr. Qi flicked his forehead, "Don't be discouraged, you can't forget our little secret."
"I haven't forgotten, I remember everything." Tao Huainan said seriously.
"That's fine. I will do what I say and you have to do what I say, or I will be doomed." The doctor said.
Tao Huainan tugged at the corner of his mouth, nodded and said, "I will."