Tao Huainan actively cooperates with the doctor and is also working hard to adapt to life.
But everything is not as expected, Tao Huainan is not optimistic and positive can get good results. His condition still did not improve, and the intervals between his silent cycles were even shortening and lengthening.
Once Tao Huainan did not speak for four consecutive days. On the morning of the fifth day, he squatted on one knee in front of his elder brother's leg, slowly put his face on his elder brother's leg, and said in a daze, "...I love you so much, elder brother. "
Tao Xiaodong's eyes were red, he held Tao Huainan's side face, scraped gently with his thumb, his heart was broken.
Tao Xiaodong is a biological brother, Tang Suoyan is a doctor, and it is only a matter of time before Tao Huainan's secret is discovered.
For a few months, Tao Xiaodong put off all work and only spent time with his younger brother every day.
Tao Huainan was holding a cane while being led by his brother. The elder brother will take a step behind him, let him try to walk on his own, and pull him over in time when there are obstacles and dangers. My brother took him for a walk, took him to deliver lunch to Brother Tang, and even took him to class just like that. Send him to his place, then sit at the door or in a corner of the classroom, and take him away after class is over.
Brother is a very handsome brother, many students in the class always peek at him.
During the time when he is not silent, Tao Huainan can talk a lot. Show love to my brother and also chat with Dr. Tong. Tao Huainan was always happy when talking to them, and the brothers also felt relaxed. He also occasionally records himself with his mobile phone, and after recording, he listens to it with headphones, and then deletes it.
Pan Xiaozhuo, who was at the same table in high school, often sent him messages, and Tao Huainan sometimes only replied after two days.
Pan Xiaozhuo was studying library management in a very good school in the province. The poor kid made a mistake in the exam. He didn't take the economics major he applied for, and was transferred to the library management major. After struggling at home for a month, I still didn't repeat it in the end.
Pan Xiaozhuo asked him on WeChat: "Are you okay?"
Tao Huainan didn't return that day, and Pan Xiaozhuo asked again the next day, "Are you okay?"
Tao Huainan replied on the third day: "I'm fine."
Pan Xiaozhuo asked, "Is it better?"
Tao Huainan said, "No, but it's okay, don't worry. Is your roommate talking to you?"
Pan Xiaozhuo replied: "No one cares about me, I'm still a lone ranger, and I guess I'm weird behind my back, so there's nothing I can do about it."
Tao Huainan then smiled and said to him: "You need to make more friends, Xiao Zhuo. You take the initiative to talk to others, otherwise others will think you are too cold."
Pan Xiaozhuo: "Well, let's talk again, I don't know what to say to them."
Sometimes my brother would turn on the speakerphone when calling Chi Cheng, while Tao Huainan sat beside him without making a sound, just listening quietly.
Chicheng is very busy every day, but he still loves to study as before. Chi Cheng didn't take the initiative to call Tao Xiaodong very much, he was not a person who would take the initiative to call, but he would answer every time my brother called him. If it is a person who is not familiar with him, he will feel indifferent when listening to his phone call. Only those close to him know that he is like this.
Chicheng would not mention Tao Huainan, and Tao Huainan would not let his brother mention himself. Every time he heard that his brother was about to talk about him, Tao Huainan would wave his hand at his brother, signaling not to speak.
Chi Cheng loves his brother, he is very warm, Tao Huainan hopes that he can often talk with his brother on the phone.
Tao Huainan's silence became longer and longer, and the cycle was not regular. Sometimes it was normal for many days, but suddenly stopped talking one day.
Tao Huainan and his brother said, "Xiaodong is sorry."
"Don't be sorry, don't say this." Tao Xiaodong put his arms around him and stroked his back vigorously, "Don't say sorry to brother."
"But I was very sorry for you," Tao Huainan spoke slowly, resting his chin on his brother's shoulder, telling him about the past, "When I was a child, I heard people say that I would drag you down for the rest of my life, I was a drag, and I felt a little sad , and secretly cry."
Tao Xiaodong couldn't hear him say this, but he didn't interrupt him.
"When I was young, I thought they were bad, because I felt that I was also very pitiful, and I didn't want to. Why did they say that about me? It's not that I want to be blind. I'm sad and wronged."
"Later, when I grew up a little bit, I didn't feel wronged. I think what they said was actually right. You and my brother were both dragged by me. Although I felt guilty sometimes, I didn't think about it most of the time. How good are the three of us?" Ah, I'll work harder and try not to need your care, it's fine."
"Yes, you didn't drag us." Tao Xiaodong kissed his forehead, "You are the best kid to take with you."
"It's not easy to take it now." Tao Huainan was wearing a sweater, which gave people a warm feeling. He lay on his brother's shoulders, squinted his eyes and smiled, "Look at you now, you can't go anywhere, you have to do work No."
"Brother doesn't want to work, I just want to be with you. Brother Tang doesn't let me work either, it happens that we are together every day, how beautiful." Tao Xiaodong said softly to him.
"Well," Tao Huainan hugged his brother, and said slowly, "If there is a next life, I want to be your brother. Instead, I will take care of you every day, coax you to hug you, and give you all the good things."
Tao Xiaodong closed his eyes hard, and after a few seconds, he said in a hoarse voice: "Let's live this life first, baby, and let's talk about the next life."
On Chi Cheng's birthday, Tao Huainan had a morning class.
My brother went to class with him, and cooked noodles for him in the kitchen when he came back. Brother learned from Chi Cheng's method in the past, the ingredients are still those ingredients, and the order has not changed. Every time Tao Huainan said something delicious with a smile, but it is not the same taste after all.
Brother's cell phone was on the coffee table, and when it rang, Tao Huainan picked it up. The kitchen range hood was whining, but I couldn't hear the bell, nor could I hear Tao Huainan calling him.
Tao Huainan answered for him, and occasionally answered the phone for him.
The voice on the other side of the phone stopped Tao Huainan's movements.
"Did you call me brother? You didn't take your phone."
When Tao Huainan heard that voice, he felt very familiar, as if he had always been there.
"Little..." Tao Huainan paused and said, "Happy birthday, and a healthy and safe new year."
There was a long silence on the phone, Tao Huainan only said this, and went to the kitchen to hand the phone to his brother.
"Are you calling?" Tao Xiaodong saw Tao Huainan handing over the phone, glanced at the screen, then looked at Tao Huainan, put the phone by his ear, and talked to Chi Cheng.
The tone of Chi Cheng's voice was normal, as if there were no fluctuations.
Tao Xiaodong called in the morning to wish Chi Cheng a happy birthday, but when he was cooking noodles, he got distracted, and when he hung up, Tao Huainan reminded him, "I didn't wish him a happy birthday."
Tao Xiaodong said "hey" and said, "I forgot."
Tao Huainan smiled slightly and said, "Then you can make up for it."
Tao Xiaodong said: "Wait a while, I'll put out the noodles first."
"Let's fight now," Tao Huainan smiled, with small arcs in the corners of his eyes and brows, looking very gentle, "Otherwise it seems like you forgot his birthday."
Tao Xiaodong looked back at him, patted his head, and said, "Okay, hit him now."
That night, Tao Huainan had a dream. In the dream, he had Chi Cheng, his elder brother, and his grandpa ten. It was a very good dream. After waking up, Tao Huainan kept smiling, lying on Chicheng's pillow from before, rubbing the side of the pillow with his hands contentedly.
There is no class this morning, so I don't have to get up very early. Tao Huainan sat up and stretched while sighing comfortably. Brother Tang came in to take a look at him before going to work. Tao Huainan said, "Good morning, Brother Tang."
"Are you awake?" Tang Suoyan smiled back at him, "Looks like your hair is messed up."
Tao Huainan stroked his hair and smiled foolishly.
I don't know if it snowed a lot this winter, Tao Huainan can step on the thick snow that creaks every day when he walks on the road, or it's because of the phone call on Chi Cheng's birthday, including Chi Cheng's sentence in the phone It's not what he said to him, but only one person said everything.
It's hard to tell why, but Tao Huainan gradually became more stable. Although there are still repetitions, it is obviously much better than before.
Tao Huainan sent a message to Pan Xiaozhuo on WeChat, saying: "Xiaozhuo, I'm doing fine recently!"
Pan Xiaozhuo replied immediately: "Really? That's great!"
Tao Huainan heard him panting, and asked him, "Why are you running?"
Pan Xiaozhuo returned to him while running: "The roommate didn't tell me that I changed the classroom temporarily. I didn't know until I arrived. It's so far away!"
"You have been excluded again," Tao Huainan said, "It seems that you still haven't established a good relationship with your classmates."
"I tried, but failed!" Pan Xiaozhuo ran into the teaching building, "Let's not talk about Huainan, I'm going to class, I will pick you up to visit my school on weekends?"
Tao Huainan said, "Okay."
In fact, Tao Huainan had nothing to turn to, anyway, he couldn't see it. But he went anyway, and was covered by a thick padded jacket with a hood by his brother, and Pan Xiaozhuo took him away.
My brother finally didn't have to stare at him all the time. From then on, Tao Huainan could go to get out of class by himself, and after class, he would take a taxi back alone. Sometimes his brother would pick him up.
Tao Huainan's classes in the first semester were not good, but fortunately, the first semester was all basic public courses, and there were no professional courses yet. The classmates in the class were very enthusiastic and kind. They gave Tao Huainan a lot of review materials and notes to sort out. After giving it to him, he thought he couldn't see it, and offered to tell him.
Tao Huainan would sincerely say thank you to every classmate who helped him, and would bring gifts to everyone.
The school allowed him to live in the dormitory. Tao Huainan once brought a lot of food to the boys' dormitory in the class to share with everyone. The boys may not have had much contact with the blind community, and they always take care of him very carefully. They don't know how to get along with the blind, and feel that he is very fragile. Someone came over to hold his hand, Tao Huainan waved his hand, raised his blind stick to signal to the other party, and said, "I'll do as long as I have this, thank you."
Someone asked him: "Is it your brother who came to accompany you to class before?"
Tao Huainan nodded and said, "Yes, it's my brother."
"Your brother is so handsome, Bel has temperament, and Fan is upright." The classmate boasted.
Tao Huainan accepted it without humility, saying, "He's a tattoo artist."
"That's so cool, let me tell you." The classmate sat on the upper bunk bed, leaned forward and lowered his head to chat with Tao Huainan.
Tao Huainan was sitting on a chair with his blind cane leaning on one side, drinking the water his classmate gave him.
"Then your brother has been accompanying you to school like this all the time? From childhood to adulthood?" Another classmate who played games said, "Your brother is absolutely wonderful. If I want this brother, I would wake up laughing in my dreams, and my brother will know it." kick me."
Tao Huainan approved first and said, "My brother is really good."
After speaking, he smiled again, holding the cup with one hand and holding the bottom of the cup with the other, gently turning the cup in the palm of his hand: "But it was another brother who grew up with me, just like you said Yes, stay with me all the time."
"You still have a brother? Your three children?" the classmate asked in surprise.
"Yes, there is another brother."
"Is that brother as good as this one? Have you fallen into the fortune pile?" the classmate asked.
Tao Huainan replied without any hesitation, "Of course. He is also the best."