Tao Huainan said that he is not objective, which is already very euphemistic.
In fact, ever since seeing Chi Cheng this time, Tao Huainan's mind and heart have been in chaos. What has changed and how much has changed, he can't concentrate on measuring these.
He couldn't help but want to get closer, but he didn't dare to get too close.
After all, Tao Huainan bought the steamed stuffed bun from that old shop. He got up earlier the next day, tapped his blind stick and walked three streets. There are few people and vehicles on the streets in the early morning, and the sky is not yet bright, and the sound of the blind cane tapping the ground is a bit crisp. Tao Huainan was carrying about a hundred buns in one hand. He couldn't use a blind stick in his left hand, so he couldn't change hands. The plastic bag made deep scratches on his hand.
Tao Xiaodong frowned when he saw it, and said to him, "You won't call me? I'll go with you."
"It's okay," Tao Huainan asked him to quickly take a bag, "I ate one while walking, it's really delicious haha."
The child laughed foolishly, Tao Xiaodong took all the buns away, and rubbed his fingers, which turned red.
Tao Huainan lost his relaxation yesterday after a day. He pushed his brother's back and urged him, "You go and send Brother Ku and the others there."
"Why don't you go by yourself?" Tao Xiaodong turned around and asked him.
"It's so stupid to carry so many buns, I don't want to go," Tao Huainan pressed his forehead against his brother, pushing him forward like a baby, "You go, brother."
Tao Xiaodong took one from his pocket, took a bite, and said as he walked, "Look at how useless you are."
Tao Huainan didn't refute, he just laughed.
Tao Xiaodong went in by himself, but Tao Huainan did not follow. When he got up this morning, Chi Cheng had already left. The courage and magnanimity that he was frightened yesterday were like a flash in the pan, and disappeared with the end of yesterday.
On the same day, they still transferred to the next aid point, which was in a prefecture-level city in a neighboring province. This time, the time was short, only two days. The time was set in advance and it was not easy to change it, but the temporary surgeries scheduled by Tang Suoyan had not been completed yet. A group of people and cars left first, and the rest of their group left at night.
Tao Xiaodong must wait to be together at night, let Tao Huainan follow Chicheng and the others to go first, and say to Chicheng, "Xiaonan will follow you, it will take midnight to finish the work here."
With his bag on his back, Chi Cheng turned his head and said to Guo Yiming, "You two go first, I'll go with my brother."
"Okay," Guo Yiming said, "I'll call you if I need anything."
Tao Huainan carried his bag and stood beside them quietly, about two steps away from Chi Cheng. A caterpillar landed on his shoulder at some point, but Tao Huainan couldn't see it. The bug was about to climb up his collar, so Tao Xiaodong picked up a small stone and dusted it off.
Tao Huainan asked, "What's wrong?"
Blind people can't perceive these things, and they can't see bugs falling on them. Once when he was a child, he was frightened by insects. The caterpillars crawled along his hair and onto his ears. The place where they crawled was stinging and painful, which made the little blind man cry for a while. Since then, he has been afraid of insects. Tao Huainan stretched out his hand and stroked it, and asked, "A bug?"
Before Tao Xiaodong could answer, he said again, "It's all right."
Tao Xiaodong and Chi Cheng both looked at him, Tao Huainan really didn't think there was anything wrong, bugs are nothing to grown boys.
It was really midnight when we left, and there were more than a dozen people on the last bus, and everyone was very tired except the driver. The driver caught up on his sleep during the day and is now full of energy.
There were quite a few seats in the car, and Tao Huainan was the last one to get on.
He wanted to sit next to Chi Cheng, but there were many vacant seats. When passing by Chi Cheng, Chi Cheng was standing and putting away the bag. He didn't look this way, and didn't make a sound. Tao Huainan hesitated for a while, but continued to walk back.
Chi Cheng sat down on the seat, Tao Xiaodong sat in front of Chi Cheng, and Tao Huainan sat behind him.
The car hadn't been driven yet, and there were dim lights in the car. Tang Suoyan held Tao Xiaodong's wrist, gently rubbing his wrist bones when others could not see, conveying his existence silently.
Tao Huainan frowned slightly, still regretting the step he took just now. People always regret and repent for their lack of bravery in the previous step.
After the car started, Chi Cheng put his wristband on his chest, leaned against the back of the seat and closed his eyes. When someone sat down gently beside him, Chi Cheng opened his eyes and took a look.
Tao Huainan didn't know if he was asleep, and he didn't make a sound, and he didn't dare to touch him.
Chi Cheng didn't move, Tao Huainan thought he was asleep.
Tao Huainan slowly relaxed his straight shoulders, and after a while he moved and leaned in. As if he finally felt satisfied, he closed his eyes comfortably.
Chi Cheng kept staring at him, Tao Huainan was unprepared, and after a while, he adjusted his seat back a bit, then leaned over and carefully adjusted Chi Cheng's seat, so that he could sleep more comfortably.
He kept making some rustling noises, appearing fragile and unsteady on the night train.
When everything was finally done, he also stopped, and quietly moved towards Chi Cheng's side, his nose would touch Chi Cheng's side face and ears, leaving a little distance.
He seems to be feeling, closing his eyes obsessively indulging in a most familiar environment, quietly perceiving.
The driver drove the car very smoothly, Tao Huainan sometimes leaned on the back of his seat and closed his eyes for a while, and sometimes couldn't help but move closer to the side in attachment.
He thought that no one knew about his entanglement and tossing in the middle of the night, but he didn't know that his embarrassing obsession and uncontrollable self-control were all in the eyes of others.
Tao Huainan didn't sleep during the whole journey, he changed his posture back and forth like that the whole time, enjoying himself silently. It wasn't until he got out of the car that he pretended to lean back on the seat and closed his eyes, pretending to be a mature sleeper.
When Brother Tang called him up, Chi Cheng had already stood up.
Tao Huainan seemed to have just woken up, and asked softly, "Are you there?"
Tang Suoyan held Tao Xiaodong with the other hand, and said to Tao Huainan, "Get out of the car later and be careful."
Tao Huainan moved to the side and touched Chi Cheng's leg.
Chi Cheng walked in front of him, Tao Huainan grabbed a piece of Chi Cheng's schoolbag when he got off the bus.
Tao Huainan hid his little secret and pondered it for two days. In the past two days, he and Chi Cheng hadn't had any positive communication, and each of them had a room here, and they didn't live together anymore.
Fan Guo often came to him, and they even added WeChat. Tao Huainan followed his circle of friends from the beginning to the end, but there were only a few of them, because they were only set to be displayed for one month.
His own is very honest, nothing has been set. There are two circles of friends, one is "Hey" and the other is "Me and Xiaochi".
"Back then you looked so young hahahaha," Fan Guo squatted next to Tao Huainan, looking at the photos Tao Huainan had posted in Moments, "Brother Chi also looked younger than now."
Tao Huainan said "Yeah": "It was only the first year of high school at that time."
"It's been seven or eight years," Fan Guo looked at Tao Huainan's smile as he sat on the ice, and asked, "Did Brother Chi take the picture?"
Tao Huainan said yes, and said: "I don't know if the filming is good or not, I can't see it, and he doesn't like it if I ask him to film it."
"It's good, it looks happy," Fan Guo asked him, "Why haven't I heard you call him?"
Talking about the photos carefully, Tao Huainan never thought that he would suddenly ask this question.
"Hey, I always thought that you two were the kind... the kind of two brothers who just look down on each other when two children in a family compete for favor or something, so you never contacted each other. I only know that Brother Xiaodong often looks for him. "Fan Guo quit the circle of friends, locked the screen and picked it up, squatting there and shaking, "I don't see this in the photo, isn't this very close?"
Tao Huainan couldn't answer, so he just nodded.
"Then why didn't you get in touch?" Fan Guo didn't know if he was too naive, the child was full of stupidity with a high IQ from head to toe, "We asked, but he didn't say anything."
Tao Huainan was also squatting, with the blind stick beside him. He touched the bottom of the blind stick with his fingers and said, "It's because of me."
"What's wrong with you?" Fan Guo asked curiously.
Tao Huainan pointed to his eyes, and smiled slightly: "Because I can't see, my elder brothers are spoiled by me."
They squatted in a shady place behind the building, and the hot afternoon sun could not come in, so they didn't feel hot. Tao Huainan spoke slowly: "Children who are used to growing up are always self-willed and will make people sad the most. They have spoiled me."
"Don't make trouble hahaha," Fan Guo was tired from squatting, stood up and stomped his feet, and also pulled Tao Huainan up, "You don't look like that kind of child, and the other way around."
Tao Huainan stood up, then bent down to pick up the blind stick, picked it up and said, "Reverse?"
"That's right, Brother Chi has a bad temper." Fan Guo still had that familiar tone when he spoke, "The boss has been angry with him several times, and he can't stand him."
Tao Huainan smiled and shook his head: "Not the other way around, I'm the one who irritates people."
"Then why don't you coax him?" Fan Guo asked him, "You are angry and you don't coax him?"
I have to admit that his words are both stupid and sharp. Tao Huainan lost his temper when asked, thought for a while, and finally said softly: "It's late."
Fanguo's time for the wind is over, and he has to go back to work. After waving to Tao Huainan, remembering that he couldn't see, he ran and said, "I'll talk to you tonight, I have to go back!"
Said that the chat at night could not be completed, they are really busy. Tao Huainan failed to run into Chi Cheng a few times in the next few days, and Tao Huainan felt belatedly that Chi Cheng had become a little colder towards him since he changed trains that night.
However, this may also be an illusion in their hearts, and they were not enthusiastic about it in the first place.
Tao Huainan went to his brother's room at night, and Chi Cheng happened to be there too.
"What are you talking about?" Tao Huainan didn't expect Chi Cheng to be there, and asked with a smile in surprise.
"It was said that a doctor downstairs just said that he wanted to introduce someone to Xiao Chi." Tao Xiaodong waited to take a bath with his upper body bare, and rummaged through Tang Suoyan's suitcase for a change of clothes. .”
When Tao Xiaodong talked about this, he still took it as a funny thing: "Ask me if I agree or not, and I will tell you what I disagree with, and I don't care."
It took two seconds for Tao Huainan to say "Ah". Realizing that this was wrong, he smiled again.
"I pushed your WeChat to him?" Tao Xiaodong looked at Chi Cheng with a smile, and was still teasing his younger brother when he was old, "Do you know him?"
Chi Cheng didn't care much and said, "Let's talk about it, this time is busy."
"Then we'll talk after you're done." Tao Xiaodong glanced at Tao Huainan who was sitting on the edge of the bed, and threw him a lip balm. "I'll put it on for you. Wipe your lips. I think they're cracked during the day."
Tao Huainan caught it but couldn't hold it firmly, and the lipstick rolled to the ground. Blind people are most afraid of dropping things, especially small things that can roll.
He squatted down and touched back and forth, but couldn't touch it. Later I stopped touching it, and turned around and said, "I can't find it, so go find it!"
Tao Xiaodong said, "Let my little brother help you."
When Tao Huainan was clingy when he was young, Tao Xiaodong often sent him to his younger brother. Whenever he yelled, he would reply, "Let my younger brother help me out." Tao Huainan smiled and coaxed him to beg him.
It is more difficult to open a sentence now than anything else, and it is not appropriate to say anything after I lose my position.
Tao Huainan licked his lips and asked, "Brother... did you see it?"
Chi Cheng walked over there to help him pick it up, put it in his hand, and said to Tao Xiaodong, "I'm going back to sleep, brother."
"Go back and rest early."
"Then I'll go back too," Tao Huainan stood up after Chi Cheng, "I'm going to bed too."
"Go."
The two walked back and forth in the corridor, and Tao Huainan had to make the sound of the blind stick "duk duk" every time he took a step, which made his footsteps sound a little chaotic and anxious.
"Good night, little brother." Tao Huainan said before Chi Cheng opened the door.