Brother lifted his ass and left without looking back. There was an electronic "beep" sound after the door was closed, and the room was completely silent after the electric current sound ended.
"Shall I... help you wash your clothes?" Tao Huainan asked again, stuttering, "I'll help you... hold water, and won't... touch you."
Chi Cheng sat on the edge of the bed, sitting casually with his legs apart, with one hand on his lap behind his back. He looked at Tao Huainan, and Tao Huainan looked at him seriously in front of him, waiting for his reply.
Chi Cheng didn't reply, he stood up directly and went into the bathroom.
Tao Huainan stood there for two seconds, a little unresponsive, and then followed.
"Wait a while," Tao Huainan turned around and went out again, "You better tie your hands first, so you don't get caught in the water."
Tao Huainan came in with the plastic bag dropped by his brother before, leaned his blind stick against the door, and walked in by groping for the wall. He stood in front of Chi Cheng, lowered his head and tied plastic bags on Chi Cheng's hands. The plastic clattered and rattled, making people anxious.
Chi Cheng didn't wear his shirt, but now he unbuttoned his trousers with his good hand. Tao Huainan subconsciously reached out to help him take it off, but Chi Cheng had already finished taking it off by himself, so he threw his trousers outside.
The plastic bag was tightly tied, Chi Cheng pushed Tao Huainan out with that arm, and boiled the water himself.
Even though he took two steps back, the water still splashed a little when it fell.
In fact, one hand does not delay taking a shower, and Chi Cheng doesn't need him for anything. Tao Huainan also realized that he was useless, but he didn't feel relieved to go out, fearing that Chi Cheng would be inconvenient. And... He was already standing here, and it seemed strange to go out now, as if he came in just to tie his hands.
He came in in the name of helping someone take a bath, but ended up listening in on the whole process.
When Chi Cheng was washing his hair, Tao Huainan asked, "Shall I wash it for you?"
Chi Cheng said "no need". His hair doesn't need to be washed much, just stroke it twice and it's done.
While applying the bath lotion, Tao Huainan asked again, "Shall I come?"
"No need." Chi Cheng replied to him with the same sentence.
Tao Huainan then leaned against the wall, not daring to reach out blindly. Hearing the sound of water splashing on the plastic bag, Tao Huainan frowned and said "Hey" and said, "Hands...don't touch the water."
Chi Cheng has finished washing and turned off the water.
He took a bath towel from the shelf next to him, and Tao Huainan came over with a towel, gently wiped the water off Chi Cheng's arm, and then untied the plastic bag.
"Did you get wet?" Tao Huainan cleared his throat, raised his head and asked Chi Cheng.
Tao Huainan was standing against the wall just now, his face was splashed with little drops of water, reflecting the light under the lamp, like little shiny spots.
His face and neck were a little red, and although he was trying very hard to behave normally, he looked natural.
— But the thin sports shorts worn in summer can't hide the secret at all.
He also knew that he couldn't hide Chi Cheng, so he didn't try to cover up anything in vain. He could only try his best to ignore his strangeness, so as not to make the atmosphere awkward.
Chi Cheng rubbed the water on his body casually with a bath towel, and wiped his face perfunctorily.
Tao Huainan touched his gauze-bound hand, it wasn't wet, just damp.
After wiping, Chi Cheng threw the towel on the sink, and walked out. Tao Huainan followed behind clutching a towel, Chi Cheng took a pair of underwear and put it on and sat down. Tao Huainan stood beside him, helping him wipe his head and neck.
After Chi Cheng took a shower, he never remembered to wipe his neck, shoulders and back. In the past, when the two of them took a bath together, Tao Huainan would wipe his neck and back for him when he wiped himself.
The two of them didn't speak, Chi Cheng's cell phone kept getting messages, he looked down, Tao Huainan gently wiped him with water.
"Brother?" Tao Huainan asked, calling him.
Chi Cheng didn't raise his head, he hummed in response.
"Are you going back to Beijing directly from here?" Tao Huainan asked.
Chi Cheng seemed to respond casually to the news: "What are you doing?"
"Are you going home?" Tao Huainan asked hesitantly, "Do you have... time?"
Chi Cheng raised his eyelids and glanced at him, Tao Huainan added: "If you're not busy, you can go home and stay for a few days before... go back."
He was very hesitant to say this, and he didn't dare to open his mouth.
Tao Huainan knew about Chicheng's temper, and knew the consequences of saying this, but seeing that this time was about to end, if he didn't say it, he would have no chance.
Chi Cheng said lightly, "Busy."
"Then... when will you be free?" The water had already been wiped dry, and Tao Huainan continued to pat him back and forth, pretending that he hadn't finished wiping, and continued to ask, "Can I come back this year for Chinese New Year..."
"Let's talk about it." Chi Cheng didn't seem to want to talk about this, and his tone was not lukewarm. He stood up, found a pair of pants and put them on.
Tao Huainan had nothing left to wipe, and he had no reason to stay.
But he didn't finish his sentence, and if he didn't say it this time, he really didn't know when he could speak again, so he still stood by and didn't leave. Chi Cheng said, "Go back to sleep."
Tao Huainan licked his lips and called out "brother" again.
There were three steps between Chi Cheng and him, looking at him: "Say."
In fact, Tao Huainan came here in a hurry today because he was worried about Chi Cheng's hand. What I want to say is that I am impulsive now, I have not prepared in advance, and I have not prepared a draft. So it was time for him to speak now, but he was still flustered.
"I have never apologized to you properly. There are some things I should say, and I still owe you."
Since I'm not ready and my mind is in a mess, I'll cut to the chase and start with what I really want to say.
He looked in Chi Cheng's direction and said, "It was my mistake to let you go like that at the beginning."
"I was very extreme at the time, and I only cared about my horns. I wanted you to go, and I didn't care about anything other than letting you go." Tao Huainan unconsciously squeezed the towel with the back of his hand, and said one sentence at a time, "You took care of me growing up, yes Hello, I have been with me for so many years... It seems that I was stabbed in the end, and those years of time and companionship have become a... joke."
"I messed up many, many things. I don't have a younger brother, and my brother also lost a younger brother." Tao Huainan's eyes were red, but he kept his voice down to sound calm, "Actually, I blame me in my heart." Yes, just look at me poorly, look at me weak, and those who look more pitiful are always easy to forgive. But I... have never forgiven, my giving up made everything that used to lose value, become ugly, and become worthless .”
Tao Huainan's hand was about to squeeze the towel into water, and it became difficult for him to breathe. In fact, he hadn't said these words at all. He said many, many, many times on the phone, but never sent it.
Chi Cheng listened to him in silence, his jaw stretched into a line, no expression could be seen on his face, but he kept looking at him.
"If I didn't know you were coming this time, I probably wouldn't have come. I wouldn't have approached you so as not to annoy you. But people are always greedy. After seeing you, I can't stay the same... I always Can't help it."
Tao Huainan paused for a few seconds, took two deep breaths, and then continued: "I don't know what to say. I messed up my words. I just want to seriously apologize to you."
"I'm sorry brother, I made you sad."
There may be a lot more that should be said, Tao Huainan was too flustered to remember.
Chi Cheng listened to his words completely, and never responded. His silence is like scrutiny, judging Tao Huainan's language and expression with his eyes.
Finally Chi Cheng finally opened his mouth.
"Do you remember what I said at that time?" Chi Cheng leaned against the edge of the table and asked him.
Tao Huainan said, "I remember everything you said."
"I said I will never go back after I leave, and I will never forgive." Chi Cheng said.
Tao Huainan's eyelashes trembled, and he lowered his eyes and said, "I remember, you don't have to..."
"But forget it." Chi Cheng interrupted him, and said in a deep voice, "As my brother said, I can't keep in touch with you forever, and I can't give up my brotherhood for so many years just because of one thing. Wipe it off."
Chi Cheng scratched the wooden table back and forth with his thumb on the edge of the table, looked at Tao Huainan and said, "Anyway, you are my younger brother."
Tao Huainan's own words were messed up, but he understood what Chi Cheng said.
When I was talking just now, I kept holding back from crying, fearing that I would not be able to speak well, but now I couldn't hold it back, and I lowered my head and burst into tears on the floor.
"So Tao Huainan," Chi Cheng's hand was swollen and hot after holding it for a long time, he glanced at it, and continued, "If what you want to say is this, I accept your apology. Go home and go home, you don't have to hide for fear of being annoyed by me, I said forget it, just forget it, it's over."
Tao Huainan was still crying silently, he nodded his head to show that he understood.
"Go back and go to bed early." Chi Cheng said.
Tao Huainan said "Okay" and then "Good night, little brother".
He fumbled for his blind stick, but he leaned against the bathroom door just now. When I got to a similar position and couldn't feel it, Chi Cheng said, "Two steps forward."
Tao Huainan followed his words and got the blind stick.
Before opening the door, Chi Cheng called "Tao Huainan" again.
Tao Huainan turned his head and responded with a hoarse voice.
"The premise of what I just said is that you are my younger brother." Chi Cheng stared at him, emphasizing, "I will forgive you only because you are my younger brother."
Tao Huainan said softly "Yes".
"You said you hoped that I would have a good life and a lover." Chi Cheng laughed, "Thank you."
The doctors who came back late all came back, and the corridor became noisy, and the voices of the doctors outside could be heard through the door.
"Since you want to be a good brother to me," Chi Cheng's gaze almost nailed Tao Huainan to the wall. He has not changed, even though he is half raising his eyebrows at the moment, he can still feel his fierceness, "then don't Respond to me at every turn."
Tao Huainan choked for breath, his whole body was exposed, naked and exposed to the air.
"Don't kiss me secretly, don't be hard on me," Chi Cheng said, "Don't act like you love me."
Chi Cheng laughed again, which sounded like sarcasm and self-mockery: "Without such a younger brother, I wouldn't be able to be such a brother."
Tao Huainan blushed, clutched his blind stick tightly, and stood there in a state of embarrassment.
"I've been waiting for you to say something for the past few days. It's fine to say this today." Chi Cheng sat back on the bed, put his hand on his lap, and rubbed his wrist with the other hand .
"If you want to be a younger brother, control yourself." Chi Cheng withdrew his gaze, lowered his eyes, and said calmly, "If you still think about other things in your heart, then what I just said doesn't count. I can't possibly forgive you."