Chi Cheng slammed down the sentence "Impossible to forgive", Tao Huainan stood at the door, wanted to say something, but he couldn't make a sound when he opened his mouth.
Chi Cheng is Chi Cheng after all, he is the most gentle and the most resolute.
Later, Tao Huainan went back to the room by himself. He forgot to take the room card when he came out, and found that he couldn't get in when he went back. So he wiped his face clean and turned around to go to brother's room.
Brother Tang opened the door, saw him, smiled and asked, "Do you want to sleep with Brother tonight?"
"I don't want to sleep with him. He squeezes me." Tao Huainan walked in and said, "I forgot my key card. It's too far to go downstairs to the front desk. Brother Tang, please call downstairs for me."
Tang Suo said to him: "Why do you have a problem with your brother?"
Tao Huainan said "Hey" twice, sat by the bed and waited. Tao Xiaodong came out of the bathroom, with his upper body bare, and asked him while wiping his hair, "What are you doing here?"
"I didn't bring the key card." Tao Huainan said.
"Brother Ku took a bath?" Tao Xiaodong really didn't look like a good brother, and even teased his brother, "Did you wash it?"
"He washed it himself." Tao Huainan thought about what happened just now, thought about Chi Cheng's words and his own embarrassment, and sat there and said in a muffled voice, "I'll just stand and listen."
"Aren't your hands wet?" Tao Xiaodong stood beside him, "I'll check it out later."
"No, it didn't touch the water." Tao Huainan said.
Tang Suoyan called the front desk and asked him to come over and open the door. Tao Huainan then went back to the door of his room to wait, Tao Xiaodong came out with him, and stayed in Chicheng's room for a while.
Chi Cheng is now more talkative than before, and he can chat with his brother every day. After all, when he grows up, he is not as quiet as he was when he was a child. Xiaodong just put down his things and left to make room for the two of them, but looking at Tao Huainan's small appearance, and walking around Chicheng's place, he saw that the two of them were not talking.
Xiaodong didn't say anything, but thought in his heart, you two are really struggling.
The two of them have been at odds for so many years, Xiaodong is caught in the middle, and it is quite difficult to be the elder brother. He has not been able to bring Chicheng back even once after flying to Beijing. It is hopeless to expect them to resolve their conflicts by themselves.
Tao Huainan went back to the room, and when the door closed, he stood against the door for a while.
The rain outside has not stopped, the storm has been raging, and it has not stopped, making people feel uneasy. Tao Huainan was no longer afraid of rain, nor would he be startled by sudden thunder, but rain never made him feel comfortable.
Chi Cheng's words kept turning in his mind, pondering over and over again. This is the most time Chi Cheng has said to him since they met again, and Tao Huainan wants to hide everything he said.
The rain came at an untimely time, and the trip could have ended smoothly, but because of the heavy rain, a lot of work became difficult, and the return plane could not take off on time.
Chicheng and the others had nothing to do on the last day. They were supposed to go to the airport this afternoon, but the plane was delayed, and the three of them were stuck here and couldn't go back.
I don't know when it will rain, and the wind has been strong. I don't know where there is a problem with the line outside. The hotel's network is broken, and I can't do anything that needs to use the network. The signal on the mobile phone is barely two bars.
"The boss is going to fly again next week. If he doesn't make a decision before he leaves, he will have to wait until he comes back next month, and everything will be cold by then." Fan Guo sat on the window sill shaking his legs, his heels knocking back and forth on the wall , "I want projects, I want money."
"Didn't you just take the money?" Guo Yiming was leaning on the bed to send a WeChat message to someone, and it took a long time to send one because of poor signal.
"I still want it," Fan Guo said "ah", "I want a lot of money, I want to be a rich man."
When he said "rich man", the other two brothers in the room laughed. Fan Guo dreamed of becoming a rich man, so his WeChat name was "Monopoly".
"What do you want money for?" Guo Yiming asked.
Fanguo's parents are both civil servants, and the family can't be said to be nervous, but they are just ordinary people, and he hasn't done anything wrong. But this kid has been thinking of ways to make money since he was in college, and he always wants to be a rich man.
"I want to buy a house, I want to buy a car," Fan Guo tapped his fingers on the window sill, "I want to buy a villa for my parents."
Guo Yiming still smiled and advised him: "Don't worry."
Guo Yiming has a good temper, but he doesn't like to talk. He is a typical good-tempered man in science and engineering. He didn't talk much to Chi Cheng, if they were the only ones around, they wouldn't talk much all afternoon.
Fan Guo is the exact opposite of him, talkative, and sometimes a little headstrong. Among the people he was familiar with at school, Fanguo got along best with him, because Guo Yiming could tolerate him, and everyone else was angry with him. Chi Cheng is like everyone else, he has a stubborn temper, but he doesn't get angry with others, because he doesn't really care about anything.
Fan Guo groaned and groaned in the room. In the morning, the boss told him that the boss would only call Chi Cheng if he didn't call him, and got angry at him.
When the knock on the door sounded, Fan Guo jumped off the window sill to open the door.
Tao Huainan stood at the door, Fan Guo said "Hi" and said hello, "Brother is here."
"I'm not a little brother," Tao Huainan emphasized again helplessly, "you can call me something else."
"Then aren't you brother Chi and younger brother? You're older than me, so I can only call you brother," Fan Guo said with a smile, "Then I'll call you Nan Nan."
Tao Huainan said: "Anything is fine, as long as you don't call me brother, I don't like it."
"Why not?" Fan Guo closed the door behind him and sat on the window sill again, "Don't you also call Chi Ge?"
After these few days, Tao Huainan has gotten to know him well, so he didn't make up anything else, just smiled and said, "It's because I call him that, so every time you call me that, I always feel like I'm calling him."
This is Chi Cheng's room, and Tao Huainan came to look for him. But Chicheng didn't speak, and Fanguo was too good at talking, so after Tao Huainan came, he didn't say a word to Chicheng, but chatted with Fanguo for a long time.
The two of you said a sentence to me, and what they said was irrelevant nonsense.
Chi Cheng lay sideways casually on the bed, leaning on his head with his arms, and closed his eyes.
Tao Huainan glanced at him from time to time, then turned back to answer questions.
"Why do you keep looking at Brother Chi?" Fan Guo said, "You can't see."
"Hey, your mouth," Guo Yiming said, "you have to think before you speak."
Tao Huainan waved his hands with a smile and said, "It's okay."
Chi Cheng opened his eyes and took a look. Tao Huainan didn't know if he was asleep, so he asked, "Brother, are you asleep?"
"It's really hard to see," Fan Guo said with a smile, "his eyes are open."
"Ah..." Tao Huainan could only smile again, "I thought I fell asleep."
Tao Huainan sat in their room for half an afternoon, and then Chi Cheng really fell asleep, and Guo Yiming fell asleep as well, leaving only Fan Guo still talking vigorously.
Tao Huainan couldn't stay with him anymore, he sighed in his heart, stood up and said, "I'm going back first, why don't you sleep for a while?"
"You sleep too? You can sleep during the day, I never sleep during the day."
Tao Huainan touched the remote control, fixed the air outlet of the air conditioner at the top, and prevented it from blowing back and forth, then said goodbye to Fan Guo, and went back to his room.
What Tao Huainan wanted to say to Chi Cheng didn't come to fruition, Chi Cheng didn't make a sound from the beginning to the end, and there was always someone else in the room. Tao Huainan lay on his bed, burying his face in the pillow.
As soon as he closed his eyes, he knew Chi Cheng's words so well that he could memorize them by heart, and every time he thought about them, his heart clenched and ached.
Chi Cheng said "brother", this word sounds close, but it is the farthest word between the two of them.
There are many layers of relationships tied to them, and "brother" is the furthest layer. It would have been so much easier if they had been just brothers all this time.
The little brother didn't give him a way, tore up all his fig leafs, didn't give him a bit of dignity, and put all his out-of-control, greed, and desires in the air. Tao Huainan was like a pool of bones with rotten flesh hanging on it, which would burn as soon as it was exposed to the sun, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe.
Tao Huainan's cell phone was tightly attached to his ear, playing an audio track over and over again. He wanted to get closer to the voice, wanted to... hug him.
Chi Cheng and the others booked train tickets for the early morning of the next day. They had to take the train to another city first, and then reversed the train. I really can't afford to wait for the plane. It's raining endlessly. If we continue to wait like this, the project over there will be really cool.
Tao Huainan didn't have any chance to be alone with Chi Cheng anymore. After the network was repaired, the three of them were busy all the time, playing the video research plan, and the people on the video side kept getting angry.
Fan Guo repeatedly said, "I will return tomorrow."
Tao Huainan came several times, and he could hear the voices inside from the door. The inside was so busy that he didn't knock on the door to disturb him.
Tao Huainan couldn't fall asleep that night, and it was raining outside, making the people in the quiet room even more lonely.
Xiaodong got up very early to send Chicheng and the others to the train station. I took the car keys in advance yesterday, and I have to send them away when I come together today.
Chi Cheng went back and didn't know when we would see each other again. Tao Xiaodong said, "I will have an exhibition in Beijing in October."
"I may not be in Beijing in October," Chi Cheng said with a smile on his brother's shoulders, "I will be away for two months."
"Then I don't care, anyway, you have to go home during the Chinese New Year." Tao Xiaodong put his things in the trunk and said to him, "If you don't go home, I will make trouble."
Chi Cheng got into the passenger seat, didn't speak, just smiled.
It is early in summer, and it is already very bright outside at five o'clock. There is a cool, comfortable temperature in the air.
Fan Guo hasn't woken up too much. They didn't go to bed until after two o'clock last night. Now they closed their eyes and fell asleep as soon as they got in the car.
The blind cane was knocked on the steps, and the sound of "bang bang" sounded in the distance. Someone came out of the building and walked down the steps towards them. Walking a little anxiously, I heard the car starting up and shouting "Xiaodong".
Through the car window, I couldn't hear the sound of the cane hitting the ground, nor could I hear him calling "Xiaodong".
Tao Huainan fumbled for the phone from his pocket and called his brother.
The phone has not been connected yet, Chi Cheng said "wait a while".
"What's wrong?" Tao Xiaodong asked.
Chi Cheng lifted his chin that way, and Tao Xiaodong saw his brother walking towards this side while making a phone call. The phone rang, Tao Xiaodong picked it up, and heard Tao Huainan say: "Wait for me, don't open it yet!"
The child was panting, Tao Xiaodong said: "No, please slow down, don't worry."
Tao Huainan ran over and walked to the side of the car. Tao Xiaodong asked him, "What's wrong?"
"I want to talk to my little brother." Tao Huainan was still panting, "Can you come down first, little brother?"
Tao Xiaodong glanced at Chi Cheng, Chi Cheng opened the door and got out of the car.
Tao Huainan pulled him a few steps to the side, seeing that he was about to hit the car next to him, Chi Cheng grabbed his elbow and pulled him forward.
Tao Huainan followed his direction and moved again.
The parking lot at this time is very empty and very quiet. Tao Huainan was still out of breath, they were standing in the middle of the two passenger cars, this was simply a perfect place for whispering.
"I fell asleep..." He took a deep breath, adjusted his breathing, and said to Chi Cheng's direction in front of him, "I waited and waited for a long time last night, and I fell asleep when it dawned. I almost didn't have time to see you off."
Chi Cheng looked at him and said "Yes".
Tao Huainan's unsteady breathing was not caused by running just now, he was also a little nervous.
"Brother, I want to ask a question..." Tao Huainan took another step forward, raised his face, and asked in front of Chi Cheng in a voice that only the two of them could hear, "Have you... have you been in a... relationship now?"
Chi Cheng raised his eyebrows lightly, and looked down at him.
Tao Huainan was waiting for him, the trembling of his eyelashes expressed his panic.
"Yes... Xiang," Tao Huainan said these words with too much difficulty, he almost leaned against Chi Cheng, and asked in a breathy voice, "Is there any now?"
Chi Cheng still didn't speak, just scanned his face with his eyes.
Tao Huainan didn't sleep much all night, and now his face looks a little haggard, but his brows and eyes are full of energy.
"What are you doing?" Chi Cheng looked at him and said.
"I listened to what you said, and I've been thinking about this for the past few days." Tao Huainan gripped his blind stick tightly and said every sentence, "I really... can't hold myself back, I might... I can't be one in front of you Dutiful brother."
Chi Cheng's eyebrows gradually furrowed.
"so?"
"So are you in a relationship now?" Tao Huainan asked again persistently.
Chi Cheng didn't want to answer his question, so he remained silent. He answered without making a sound, Tao Huainan let out a long breath, his voice trembling: "If you didn't talk about it..."
"It doesn't matter to you whether I talk about it or not, Tao Huainan." Chi Cheng interrupted him, and said slowly, "You are my younger brother, so I forgive you. If you weren't my younger brother, I wouldn't have anything to say to you. .”
Tao Huainan closed his eyes, and the hand holding the blind stick trembled unconsciously.
He didn't care what Chi Cheng said, and insisted on finishing his words: "You...don't forgive me."
Chi Cheng looked at him for a few seconds, and asked, "Do you recognize me and break up with you?"
"Yes, I admit it." Tao Huainan nodded and said, "I didn't want you to forgive me."
After he finished speaking, only the sound of each other's breathing remained in the small space.
"Then I can't understand you anymore." Chi Cheng said after a while, "I have assumed that there is a tacit understanding between us in the past few years, so I don't need to emphasize what I said to you."
Tao Huainan had made enough preparations to say these words, so no matter what Chi Cheng said now, he could listen to them.
"Now I would rather not be my younger brother than forgive me. I don't understand." Chi Cheng touched the chapped skin on his lips, and continued, "If I don't mean it, I'm wrong. Anything else?"
Tao Huainan didn't raise his head, Chi Cheng leaned down slightly, leaning on his leg with his uninjured hand, and looked closely at Tao Huainan's face.
"You..." Chi Cheng asked him softly, "You still love me?"
Tao Huainan knew that Chi Cheng was right in front of him, he opened his eyes to see, but still couldn't see clearly.
"I-"
"I'm sorry." Just as Tao Huainan opened his mouth, Chi Cheng cut off his words. He stood up straight and said, "You don't need to forgive what you said. From now on, we will continue like this. Listen to you."
After Chi Cheng finished speaking, he turned and left, the car door closed with a "bang", Tao Huainan stood where he was, and only sighed softly after a long time.