"If you don't want to stay here, you can go back to your room." Chi Cheng's voice was not so angry, but it just sounded a little cold, "Can't you keep your mouth shut?"
"Shut up, shut up," Fan Guo threw the wrapped paper into the trash can below, "It's still mysterious about that."
Tao Huainan leaned on the ladder and the ladder, and what Fan Guo said just now was still wandering in his mind.
When Chi Cheng got drunk, he said that he had sex with someone and kissed him.
Standing there, Tao Huainan thought of many scenes.
Thinking of them hugging and kissing together, Chi Cheng hugged him and supported him when he was walking, he lowered his head to kiss Chi Cheng's forehead. Thinking of Chi Cheng washing things in pajama pants after taking a shower, Tao Huainan hugged him from behind, raised Chi Cheng's arms around him, pulled Tao Huainan in front of him and put him between himself and the sink, bowed his head and kissed him on the mouth.
The teenagers have never formally talked about love, and they seem to disdain to deliberately break through the clear line between brothers and lovers, but everyone knows clearly that there is love under the deep-rooted intimacy.
"Eat," Chi Cheng stood up and said, "I'm hungry."
"Okay, I'll fix it later when I get back." Guo Yiming saved the program, and Fan Guo was about to fall off the bed.
Only then did Tao Huainan realize that he wanted to go to the bathroom when he got down, so he groped for it. Guo Yiming said to Fan Guo: "Don't talk nonsense."
Fan Guo smiled, put on his shoes and went back to his dormitory to put on his coat.
Chicheng and Guo Yiming were in a hurry, so they didn't go out to eat, and ate in the cafeteria. Chi Cheng ordered a meal for Tao Huainan, and went over with a plate in one hand, one of which was served in a bowl.
Tao Huainan said, "Thank you brother."
Chi Cheng stuffed the spoon into his hand, Guo Yiming sat down and asked Chi Cheng, "When will Brother Chi leave tomorrow?"
"Morning," Chi Cheng said while eating, "get up and go."
"Then the two of us will work overtime tonight, and we'll be done." Guo Yiming said.
Chi Cheng said "hmm".
Tao Huainan stopped moving his hand next to him, and asked, "Where are you going, little brother?"
Chi Cheng didn't speak, Guo Yiming answered for him: "Brother Chi will go back with you."
"I don't need it," Tao Huainan frowned, "I'll just go back by myself, I really don't need you to follow along."
Chi Cheng also frowned and ignored him.
Tao Huainan took a step back and said, "Will you take me to the station?"
Chi Cheng asked him: "Are you still eating?"
"I'll eat," Tao Huainan replied before speaking, "You're busy, don't waste your time sending me off."
"I said I sent you off?" Chi Cheng ran out of patience, lowered his head to eat, "I can't go home?"
"Yes, yes, I want you to come back." Tao Huainan whispered to him, "I'll pick you up when you're on vacation, okay?"
"Wow, your brother is so sweet." Fan Guo just came over with a plate, just when he heard Tao Huainan's words, "Come to pick him up."
Tao Huainan frowned, Fan Guo asked: "What's the matter?"
Guo Yiming said, "Huainan said he won't let Brother Chi send it off."
"Give it off," Fan Guo waved his hand indifferently, "he has nothing to do in the future, so he can go home directly."
Tao Huainan can't insist on what Chi Cheng has decided, and it won't work. It didn't work before, now it doesn't.
At night, he lay on Chi Cheng's bed, listening to Guo Yiming and Chi Cheng working underneath. Tao Huainan was still worried about Chi Cheng's sending him off, so he wouldn't be able to come here in the future.
Tao Huainan didn't make a sound at all, Chi Cheng raised his head and glanced up, Guo Yiming silently asked what was wrong, Chi Cheng shook his head, Guo Yiming smiled and said nothing.
Tao Huainan slept on Chicheng's bed that night, and Guo Yiming and Chicheng sat below until after two o'clock.
In the middle, Tao Huainan wanted to go to the bathroom, so he groped and sat on the side, calling "brother".
Chi Cheng came over and hugged him down.
"Is it cold?" Chi Cheng asked him when he came out after washing his hands.
"It's not cold, your bed is quite warm," Tao Huainan asked softly, "When will you be able to rest?"
Chi Cheng said "soon".
Later, Chi Cheng slept on his roommate's bed, and Tao Huainan didn't fall asleep. He heard Guo Yiming ask in a low voice, "Are you sleeping on my bed? I'm sleeping on Xiaoxiao's bed."
"Forget it, your bed is full of biscuit crumbs." Chi Cheng rolled over on the opposite bed.
Before going to bed, Guo Yiming went to Tao Huainan to have a look, and saw that he was sleeping soundly with his eyes closed, and said to Chi Cheng, "Brother Chi, are you being too aggressive towards Huainan? He seems to be quite afraid of you."
"Him?" Chi Cheng had already laid down, and said, "He's not afraid of anyone."
"Why am I not afraid?" Tao Huainan said suddenly, startling Guo Yiming, Tao Huainan smiled and said, "I am most afraid of you."
"Forget it." Chi Cheng wasn't surprised at all, he didn't even open his eyes, "What were you afraid of?"
Early the next morning, Tao Huainan heard the sound of Chi Cheng getting out of bed, and sat up by himself.
Chi Cheng carried him down, and Tao Huainan put his arm on his shoulder. When I woke up, I was still warm with the undissipated heat from the blanket.
There was no communication between the two, Tao Huainan followed Chi Cheng to wash and wash his hair, and wiped his hair with Chi Cheng's towel.
Tao Huainan had been wearing his clothes for the third day, and he didn't say anything, feeling disgusted in his heart.
"Brother, give me a change of clothes, will you?" Tao Huainan asked in a low voice next to Chi Cheng.
Chi Cheng said, "It's on the chair."
Tao Huainan was happy, he changed into Chi Cheng's clothes and trousers, rolled up his own and put it in a pocket, at first he wanted to carry it back, but after thinking about it, he took it out again and went to wash it.
"No time," Chi Cheng took it out of his hand and put it aside, "Put on your coat, let's go."
Tao Huainan went to Beijing by himself while his elder brother was not up, not only came back by himself, but also brought his younger brother back. Xiaodong drove to pick him up in person. He didn't even go to the store that day. He went to the hospital to deliver soup to Suoyan and waited in the parking lot of the station.
Chi Cheng just came back after changing trains on Friday, and it's only Monday, and he's back again.
The past few days have been too dramatic, Tao Huainan came out of the station clutching Chicheng's schoolbag, Tao Xiaodong still couldn't help laughing strangely when he saw them, thinking that this bastard can still make a fuss now.
When the elder brother hugged the other with one arm, he took the two younger brothers back.
Tao Huainan had class in the afternoon, so Tao Xiaodong sent him to school directly, and led Chi Cheng to have dinner first.
"How many days can I stay this time? Do I still need to go back from years ago?" Xiaodong asked.
Chi Cheng said: "I have to go back, I can stay for three days, there are still things to do later."
"Three days is enough," Xiaodong said, "Where do you want to live? Our original home is still at Brother Tang's."
"Brother Tang." Chi Cheng sat on the passenger seat, looking out the window, "it's convenient."
Xiaodong looked at him and said with a smile, "It's not inconvenient, we have everything in our house, so we can live anywhere."
Chi Cheng still shook his head, but did not return to the old house in the end.
Chi Cheng never mentioned the old house, nor did he say he wanted to go back and have a look. That is the place where he lived for more than ten years, but now he doesn't mention it at all.
Tang Ge’s house has three bedrooms, but one room has been converted into a study room, so there are only two rooms with beds.
Tao Xiaodong asked: "Do you two live at night?"
Chi Cheng said, "I sleep on the sofa."
"Why do you sleep on the sofa?" Tao Xiaodong laughed, "Why are you so shabby."
Chi Cheng said "nothing".
Tao Huainan took a taxi back after class, and Tang Suoyan also came back by himself. Xiaodong asked a friend to bring food over, but didn't want to go out to eat.
Chicheng hasn't come back for more than five years. Although he has never lost contact with his brother, Xiaodong still feels dazed when he looks at him. Children grow up so fast, so fast.
Except for Tang Suoyan, the three brothers all drank, but they didn't drink much, just being mean.
Tao Xiaodong said: "There are not so many five years in life, you guys."
The two younger ones didn't speak, and Tao Xiaodong said, "In another five years or so, you two will be thirty."
The word "thirty" sounds very mature, but in Tao Xiaodong's heart, both of them are still children: "If you two are still awkward at thirty, then this life will really be like this .”
"What's the matter?" Xiaodong sighed, "In the past, both of you had to be regarded as half-outsiders. What kind of deep hatred has caused the current situation."
Chi Cheng leaned on the back of the chair, bowed his head and remained silent.
When the three of them talked, Tang Suoyan didn't participate much, he just poured tea and so on for Qieqie fruit, and from time to time, he helped to say a few words along Tao Xiaodong's words.
"When I was young, I always felt that I couldn't get over something if I buried it in my heart. A nail stuck there would hurt day and night." Xiaodong looked at the two of them and said, "Actually, it's just rivalry, rivalry with others, rivalry with yourself. When everything is over, and the missed ones can't come back, and the time can't go back, think about how important it is? What do you gain if you win?"
People in their twenties and forties naturally have different moods, and their life stages have not reached such an open-minded process. In their twenties, they are already stuck at this point, and Xiaodong also understands.
"Don't talk about more bros," Xiaodong waved his hands and smiled, "It's annoying to talk too much."
Maybe it was because of Tao Xiaodong's words, or maybe it was because Brother Tang didn't get a quilt at all, so Chi Cheng couldn't sleep on the sofa in the end.
I haven't been back for five years, and it's outrageous to let me sleep on the sofa when I come back.
The 1.8-meter bed is enough for two boys. It sounds hypocritical for a pair of brothers to have one of them deliberately go out to sleep on the sofa.
They were all drunk and sleepy.
Tao Huainan clings to the wall, leaving more room for Chi Cheng.
Chi Cheng closed his eyes and said, "There's no need to hide like that, I'll go out if you feel uncomfortable."
"I'm not uncomfortable!" Tao Huainan said quickly, "I'm afraid you'll be annoying..."
While talking, he moved away, his pajamas touched Chi Cheng's arm, and he stepped back consciously: "I didn't hide."
"Sleep with you." Chi Cheng turned over and turned his back to him.
Tao Huainan wanted to get closer, but he was afraid that he would appear too pushy, so he hesitated for a long time, and called "little brother".
Chi Cheng responded by throwing a sound from his throat.
"Can I be next to you?" Tao Huainan asked softly, "Next to your arm."
Chi Cheng said, "I can't."
Tao Huainan heard the "can't", but wrapped his arms around Chi Cheng gently.
Chi Cheng didn't make any obvious movements, he didn't move, he just opened his eyes with his back to Tao Huainan.
Tao Huainan pressed his face against Chi Cheng's back, his breath could penetrate Chi Cheng's back through his clothes. He didn't say anything, just hugged him like this for a few seconds. Tao Huainan's body was very hot, and the chest against Chi Cheng's back carried a sincere temperature.
On a cold winter night, there are street lights outside, snow and wind. A pair of puppies who had snuggled together quietly stuck together for a moment, and soon separated again.