"Let me say it myself!" Zhu Junyang remembered that the emperor's cousin once said that if he wants to embrace a beautiful woman, it is best to be honest with the other party, and there must be no concealment. Because women have small minds, they will remember for a lifetime.
Although his situation is showing signs of improvement now, he doesn't know which direction it will develop in the future. Since she decided to marry Yu Xiaocao as his wife, with the little girl's eccentric spirit, she will sooner or later find some signs of it after getting along day and night, so it's better to be open and honest from the beginning. If the other party can accept it, that's fine; if he can't accept it, then keep the current relationship, at worst he will be single for the rest of his life!
Concubine Jing noticed that he seemed to have made some kind of decision, and she was shocked: it was not easy for her son to meet a woman who was willing to get close to him, even though she was only a little girl at this time, the worst thing would be to wait for her to grow up slowly. It's only three to five years, they can afford to wait.
But the son seemed to want to tell the little grass girl the secret he had kept for eighteen or nineteen years. Who wants to spend their whole life guarding a giant firecracker that is in danger of exploding at any time? In case of an outbreak one day, even life may be lost! ! Yang'er is too foolish, this is the rhythm of pushing Yu Xiaocao farther and farther!
"Yang'er! Have you... thought it over clearly?" Concubine Jing's tone was a little anxious, and there was a slight hesitation in her voice.
Zhu Junyang looked at his concubine mother seriously, nodded slowly, and said, "Concubine mother, I have made it clear. This matter can be concealed for a while, but cannot be concealed forever! Since we have the intention of asking for marriage, we have to show it Enough sincerity! I believe in Xiaocao, she is different from those girls in Beijing, she... is trustworthy!"
Yu Xiaocao looked at the mother and son in confusion, what kind of charade is this? Prince Yang seems to want to tell her something very important, something that even Princess Jing attaches great importance to. Uh... Could it be that Prince Yang was not born to Prince Jing himself? Or does it imply some royal secret? Could she choose not to listen
Concubine Jing glanced at Yu Xiaocao worriedly, sighed softly, and said, "Since you have made up your mind, Concubine Mother will not say anything. Xiaocao, what Yanger will tell you later, if you If you really can't accept it, please don't hurt him. Yang'er has had a hard time these years... As a mother, I beg you to help him keep his secret no matter what, okay?"
"Well... since this secret is so important, I think... I'd better not know it..." Yu Xiaocao said softly.
"No! Master thinks it is necessary for you to know!!" Zhu Junyang felt that if he didn't speak out in one go today, he might not have the courage to confess in the future. He took Yu Xiaocao's wrist and walked towards the deepest part of the garden.
Yu Xiaocao tried to shake her arm, Xiaojun Wang's hand encircled her wrist like a big pliers, the strength would neither make her feel pain nor be thrown away by her. After struggling hard, I found that my strength was comparable to that of the Yangjun King who knew kung fu, just like a little ant trying to shake a big tree. In desperation, had to give up struggling.
"There's no one here, so you can say whatever you want!!" Yu Xiaocao's tone was filled with anger.
Zhu Junyang let go of her wrist, somewhat reluctant to let go of the delicate touch in her palm. He pursed his lips, calmed down his thoughts, looked into Yu Xiaocao's eyes, and said, "When I was five years old, I fell into the water and nearly drowned..."
Yu Xiaocao's eyes widened, and the plots in Zhaidou's novels and various conspiracy theories flashed in her mind. She blinked her big clear eyes twice, and asked carefully, "How did you fall into the water? Where are the people serving you? Did someone push you? What happened afterwards?"
After starting, Zhu Junyang felt that the following words seemed not so difficult to say: "At that time, I was young, I was frightened, and I was sick for a few days. I don't remember what happened at that time. I only know that after I fell into the water, my father The king disposed of a favored concubine!"
"It must be that bitch who wanted to harm you, and your father found out! It's strange, you already have two older brothers, and your father's concubine has no reason to attack you?" According to the plot of Zhai Dou, it shouldn't be Get rid of the heir who will inherit the throne in the future? It's no good killing the youngest son!
Zhu Junyang glared at her, and said: "When I was young, everyone loved flowers and flowers bloomed. My father loved me very much. Every time I went to court or finished my work outside, I would first go to my concubine's yard to sit. , play with me for a while. That bitch thought that the concubine mother was using me as an excuse to lure the king father to her yard... "
"Oh... Don't your father have a special liking for your mother and concubine? Why do you still invite some messy women into the backyard? You men! You always eat what's in the bowl and look at what's in the pot, thinking about hugging Hug right, sit and enjoy the blessings of all people!" Yu Xiaocao curled her lips, showing the expression of "a virtue that every man has".
You little girl, you have only met a few men, you seem to have experienced a lot! Zhu Junyang was blocked by her and didn't know how to continue, so he reprimanded her and said, "Do you still want to listen to Master?"
"Can I choose not to?" Yu Xiaocao said with an expression of "this girl is being forced", "I think, if the prince of the county wants to confide his feelings to others, there must be an excellent woman who strengthens the regiment, lining up Waiting to listen carefully!"
"No!! I just want to tell you alone!! Others don't deserve to know my secrets!!" Zhu Junyang put on a furious face. If it was someone else, he would have been dragged down and beaten up. Facing Yu Xiaocao, he felt catching the hedgehog with his bare hands—the feeling of having no way to do it, and a sense of powerlessness rose from the bottom of his heart.
Yu Xiaocao was stunned, and said weakly: "Okay, tell me, I'm listening!!"
"You... What's your reaction? Is it so unbearable to listen to Master's words?" Zhu Junyang felt an evil fire in his heart, but he couldn't.
Yu Xiaocao rolled her eyes at him, and her tone was a little arrogant: "Then do you want to say it? If you don't say it, I'm leaving!!"
Zhu Junyang took a deep breath, one day he will be pissed off by this annoying little girl! !
He calmed down, and continued: "Since the serious illness that fell into the water that time, I have suddenly become inexplicably able to perceive the emotions of some people. I am especially sensitive to other people's malice."
Yu Xiaocao opened her eyes wide, with a little excitement in her eyes: "Wow! In other words, after going through a difficult time, you gained superpowers! It's also a superpower of perception!! It's so cool!! This is very good !!"
"What the hell!! Other people's malice can affect my emotions and make me lose my mind. For example: those who approach me with ulterior motives to curry favor with me have the lowest degree of resentment. I just feel depressed in my heart. I can bear it. If the other party has malicious intent but does not implement it, this kind of disgust will make me want to get angry. If the other party wants to kill me and my relatives around me, I will lose my mind... "Zhu Junyang looks good He frowned slightly, as if he didn't want to recall how he survived that time!
"You are swayed by emotions, probably because you were too young and had inexplicable fear of changes in yourself. If you were an adult, you shouldn't have such a big reaction. You said you lost your mind, what is it? How far?" Yu Xiaocao was affected by his emotions, suppressed the little excitement in her heart, and carefully analyzed it for him.
Zhu Junyang hesitated for a moment, glanced at Yu Xiaocao, gritted his teeth secretly, and decided to continue talking: "The first time I broke out, it was because the maid who was trusted by my concubine gave her a slow poison. At that time, the overwhelming malice from that girl swept over me and devoured all my reason. I just felt that there was darkness in front of me, and my body seemed to be out of my control. I couldn't see or hear anything, and I didn't know what happened. What. When I was awakened by the anxious scream of the concubine..."
He glanced at Yu Xiaocao again, wondering if what he said next would scare this little girl who listened seriously. After thinking about it, since it has already started, why bother to say half and half
He decided to continue: "When I woke up, that girl was lying dead at my feet. In my hand, I was holding the iron-cut dagger that my father gave me on my fifth birthday. The mother and concubine's big The servant girl... on her head, on her face, on her body... was stabbed to a bloody mess, her legs were broken to the knees, her carotid artery was cut open, and blood flowed all over the place..."
After finishing speaking, he stared at Yu Xiaocao seriously, thinking that he would see expressions of fear, fear or disgust on her face, and he was also mentally prepared to be disgusted.
Unexpectedly, this little girl who was only twelve years old had a serious face, frowning and thinking about something, and finally met his sight, not avoiding or being afraid, and carefully analyzed for him: "Little Junwang, I think you It's a psychological disorder called post-traumatic stress disorder syndrome, which manifests itself as either homicide, suicide or self-harm... "
Where did she hear this sentence? It seems to be seen in the trailer of a certain Qiyi player. It should sound bluffing and professional, right
"You... aren't afraid of me?" Zhu Junyang secretly breathed a sigh of relief. As expected of the person he fell in love with, he was indeed different, and it was worthy of him confessing his secret with all his might.
Yu Xiaocao frowned, looked at him, and asked, "Will you hurt me?"
"Of course not!!" If he could choose, he would rather hurt himself than let her suffer the slightest injury or grievance.
"That's it! What's there to be afraid of?" Yu Xiaocao turned back his delicate white eyes, and her thoughts returned to what he said, "Later, did something like this happen again?"
Zhu Junyang nodded and said: "Yes! And it has happened many times! I feel like there is a devil living in my heart. It will come out from time to time, control my will and body, and make me do some cruel things. In fact, some people may not deserve to die, but when I lost my mind, I killed him... "
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The author hasn't come back yet, the manuscript depositor is very sad...