It was already early in the morning when she returned to Wen Jialuo's residence. Xu Shiqi felt helpless that she had appeared here again in the middle of the night. She had never thought that she would come again after she left last time, but surprisingly, she found the entrance to the corridor very accurately. Wen Jialuo smiled and said that she had a good memory. Xu Shiqi naturally would not say that she remembered it because she ran to the wrong place last time.
The room was the same as last time, nothing new to see. After a day of hustle and bustle, Xu Shiqi was already very tired, and all he wanted to do was throw himself on the big bed, roll around a few times, and then fall into a deep sleep.
"Get up and take a shower."
Just as she reached the edge of the bed, she was woken up by a familiar sentence. This time, the owner was very energetic and dragged her into the bathroom.
As soon as Xu Shiqi took off her coat and entered the bathroom, she shivered. The early winter night was already icy cold. She tried her best to look at Wen Jialuo pitifully, hoping that she would show mercy. After taking this bath, she would definitely lose all her sleepiness. She didn't want to turn into a national treasure giant panda.
"Don't even think about getting on my bed if you don't take a shower." Wen Jialuo said stiffly and went to get her pajamas.
Xu Shiqi was stunned. He was originally cold all over, but these words were like a burning wire, burning all the way to his heart and exploding. Xu Shiqi saw his cheeks flushed in the bathroom mirror, and couldn't help rubbing them hard a few times. Really, why did you say it so ambiguously.
Wen Jialuo brought her pajamas over and saw that she was still standing there, so she raised her eyebrows: "What are you doing?"
Xu Shiqi turned his head to look at her. The girl's face showed frank impatience, without any ambiguity at all.
"Got it." After taking the pajamas and sending the person out, Xu Shiqi closed the door and laughed at himself. What was he thinking about? Why was his mind so unclear? He turned on the switch and hot water poured out. The steam slowly filled the bathroom and blurred the colorful grids. As he was washing, he felt that it took a long time. Maybe he was really drunk. But when he came out of the bathroom and was stimulated by the cold air, his mind was really clearer.
Back in the room, the girl had already moved two quilts and placed them on the bed. She sat on the edge of the bed, feeling aggrieved as if her territory was being invaded. She just lowered her head, revealing a part of the back of her neck with clearly visible vertebrae.
"Are you sleeping well?" The girl heard the noise, looked up and asked lazily.
Xu Shiqi tilted his head: "It's hard to say."
The girl was stunned: "What do you mean?"
"Actually, I've never slept in the same bed with anyone, so I don't know." Xu Shiqi wanted to tease her when he saw her like this, so he pretended to be distressed.
"Really?" The girl stared at her, then lowered her head, "... I'm going to take a shower."
"Oh, by the way, your classmate named Kuang Xiaoan called. I answered the phone for you and settled the matter for you."
Xu Shiqi said thank you. It seemed that it was the right decision to escape from the bar. Otherwise, she didn't know how Xiao An would deal with her. She saw Wen Jialuo looked at her after saying this, so she quickly climbed onto the bed. She wrapped herself in the quilt and tried to fall asleep immediately. But after counting sheep and goats, the sheep were frightened and ran away when they heard the faint sound of water coming from the bathroom. With a messy mind, Xu Shiqi thought that it would be better if she slept on the sofa.
Night is always dangerous, and being hungry may be a primitive instinct. She drank some more wine, and in all the versions of novels, movies, official history, and wild legends, it is easy for something to go wrong at this time. She should not do anything impulsively at that time, especially when she is not very opposed to the girl in the same bed.
Xu Shiqi finally decided not to take the risk. She sat up from the bed and jumped down barefoot.
"What are you doing?"
As soon as Wen Jialuo came out, he saw her holding the quilt and shivering.
"I'd better sleep on the sofa."
Wen Jialuo took a few steps forward, snatched the quilt and threw it on the bed: "I didn't say I was uncomfortable, sleep well!"
The action was a bit fierce, and Xu Shiqiu was half thrown onto the bed. Her pajamas had no buttons, but only a long belt tied around the waist. After Xu Shiqiu sat up straight, she found that her thighs were exposed to the air, and she instantly got goose bumps; her chest also filled with coldness, and it was almost half naked. It's not you who are uncomfortable, it's me who is uncomfortable. Xu Shiqiu groaned in her heart, and pulled up her collar with a red face. Her scalp was numb, and she dared not raise her eyes, as if something was pressing on her head. Because of the sudden embarrassment of being caught off guard, and under the inexplicable anger of the girl, she had to give up the safer sofa and quickly lay back. It was only when her head touched the pillow that she thought uncomfortably, what exactly are you uncomfortable about...
The main lights were turned off, leaving only a wall lamp that emitted a faint orange light, like a glowing insect, quietly perched there. Although they were in the same bed, it was actually safer than drawing a 38th parallel. The entire bedroom fell into a gentle night, and Xu Shiqi listened to the breathing sounds not far away, and then he slowly calmed down.
What can I do with two quilts between us? Just treat it as two beds in a hotel, which is also good.
"Hey, why aren't you talking?" The girl suddenly spoke, her voice a little hoarse.
"What?" Xu Shiqi asked softly, feeling that he was about to fall asleep.
"…Sing me a lullaby?"
The sleepyhead was driven away. Xu Shiqi turned her head and saw that the girl was actually talking to her with her back to her. It was really rude: "You are still three years old? Three-year-olds don't have to listen to lullabies."
"What song did you sing today?"
"'Spring Blossoms', what's wrong?" Xu Shiqi resisted the urge to poke her with his finger, "Are you talking to the bedside table
The girl seemed to freeze and turned around slowly.
Xu Shiqi couldn't find the sound for a moment. In the girl's eyes, there was a faint light that was more blurred than the night. The swaying struggle there was very familiar and strange. It was not that she was trying to restrain herself from doing something, but it seemed that she wanted to verify something. But this faint light disappeared in an instant, and turned into a kind of clear and transparent openness after a thorough cleansing.
No longer feeling uncomfortable, the girl finally closed her eyes, whispered good night, and then stopped moving.
Xu Shiqi let herself lie on her side stiffly, her eyes wandering back and forth on the girl's face. Her mind began to become unclear again, and her heart was pounding. She finally remembered a moment when she and Wen Jialuo both avoided looking at Baohua's bath towel when it fell to the ground at Baohua's house.
The world...is not so small.
Xu Shiqi stared at Wen Jialuo's peaceful sleeping face for a long time before he gently asked her:
"Wen Jialuo, is it really because you have a crush on someone that you decided to stay single forever?"
No one answered her. Wen Jialuo seemed to be sleeping very soundly, or perhaps Xu Shiqi's voice was too soft.
That sentence was the last sound of the night. When Xu Shiqi woke up, it was already daybreak. Her head felt a slight cracking pain. She sat there holding her head for a long time before she came back to her senses because of the cold.
"Are you awake?"
Xu Shiqi looked up and saw Wen Jialuo had already put on his coat, looking like he was ready to go out.
"I'm in a hurry to go to work, so you can take care of it yourself and just lock the door before you leave."
Xu Shiqi sat motionless and followed her with his eyes. The night that had just passed would not be completely wiped out by the dawn. She still remembered the doubt in her heart. But now the girl standing in front of her seemed to have no flaws in her body. The little bit of similar aura that leaked out from the vortex of darkness had been completely condensed, just like... another her standing in front of anyone every day.
So familiar.
She didn't ask the girl whether she heard the question she asked yesterday, because at this point, whether her guess was right or wrong, the question was no longer important.
Moreover, this time she trusted her instincts, so she couldn't get any closer. She knew clearly what kind of road she had chosen. This was not the first scenery that appeared on the road, but she believed that she could get through it smoothly as before.
Or, you will become someone else's scenery and be rejected by the roadside...
When Wang Yuan returned to the store, she saw her daughter and immediately asked in surprise: "What's wrong? Why do you look so bad?"
"It's okay. I slept too late last night." Xu Shiqi rubbed his eyebrows.
"Are you having so much fun?" Wang Yuan blinked. "Xiao An even called home last night. You weren't with them? Who were you dating?"
Although he knew that his mother was just asking this out of habit, he didn't know why this time he couldn't control his temper and yelled, "Mom, how many times have I told you, what kind of date are you?"
Wang Yuan was stunned. She had never thought that her daughter, who had always been extremely filial, would one day get angry at her. She immediately looked hurt.
"I'm sorry." Xu Shiqi felt her temples throbbing, and deep fatigue swept over her body. She made that decision because she didn't want to see them get hurt. She leaned over and hugged her mother, "I'm sorry."
"Is there anything that makes you unhappy?" Wang Yuan asked softly.
Xu Shiqi shook his head and was silent for a moment before asking, "Mom, do you want me to be happy?"
Wang Yuan nodded without hesitation: "Of course."
"So what kind of happiness do you want me to have?"
"Like a normal person, without too many storms, just live peacefully." Wang Yuan looked at her face and said truthfully, "Give birth to a daughter like you, and have the same love with my son-in-law as I have with his father-in-law when we grow old."
"Hmm," Xu Shiqi raised his head slightly and thought for a moment, then smiled a gentle smile, "It sounds good."
"Daughter," Wang Yuan suddenly touched Xu Shiqi's face, "What on earth happened to you?"
Xu Shiqi knew what she meant and shook his head: "Nothing, I just had a lot of feelings at the party last night..."
"I see you haven't rested enough, why don't you go back and sleep for a while."
In the end, Xu Shiqi did not go back to sleep, but sat in the store to help. When she checked her phone, she saw a call from Kuang Xiaoan last night, but there was another unfamiliar number in the received phone, and she could not remember who it was. She called Kuang Xiaoan, and the other party first asked her nervously if she was angry, and then laughed and scolded her for daring to leave without saying goodbye, and she must apologize next time she came back. It turned out that Kuang Xiaoan and her boyfriend had already left today.
After hanging up the phone, she turned back and found that the strange number was right next to Kuang Xiaoan, and her heart skipped a beat.
She immediately dialed the number back, and after a long silence on the other end, the caller called her name softly.
"Shi Qi..."
Xu Shiqi's eyes suddenly widened, his fingers unconsciously exerted force, and his voice was tinged with ice and snow: "Zhang Ya?"
Zhang Ya, a woman two years older than her, used to live in the same city and met her in a bar. There is no shortage of people like you in this world if you look for them deliberately. She found someone like you when she was confused about herself. She didn't seduce herself, but she did.
Not all women can become the object of love. No matter how good Zhang Ya is, she can't enter his heart, so Xu Shiqi rejected her proposal for even a tentative relationship. Because Xu Shiqi knew that if you take the first step on some roads, you can't turn back. And Zhang Ya is obviously not good enough for her to take that step, not enough to measure the person she is afraid of hurting, she even thinks that there may be no such person in the world. But in her opinion, this is not a bad thing, people always have to make choices.
Later, her parents called her back because they missed their precious daughter, so she left the city and returned home without saying a word.
I thought the other person smiled and said goodbye before leaving because he had given up.
"I thought I would never hear your voice again. Yesterday..."
"Yesterday?" Xu Shiqi narrowed his eyes and asked subconsciously, "Or early this morning?"
The voice on the other end was intermittent, and then he slowly said: "Does it make any difference? You hung up the phone before I even finished speaking..."
Xu Shiqi propped up his head and asked in a low voice: "I forgot, what did you say?"
"… I want to find you and be with you. Also, I like you very much." There was something strangely dull in Zhang Ya's voice. "Do you believe it?"
"Do you believe it?" Xu Shiqi felt hot and cold all over. She suddenly wanted to laugh, but her heart was squeezed tightly. She was obviously stiff, but she felt relaxed to some extent.
She thought Wen Jialuo had the same instinct as her to find people of the same kind, and she thought the girl had discovered the reason why she was so different last night. It turned out that it was not the case. The girl was hesitant to speak because she accidentally answered Zhang Ya's call, and she must have been frightened...
He was kind enough not to kick her out of bed, a woman who only had lustful thoughts about the same sex. Maybe she was waiting for him to find out about the phone call, but if she didn't find out, Xu Shiqi couldn't think of such a future.
Fortunately, some things have not been discovered. No, fortunately, some feelings are only shallow.
Xu Shiqi was lost in thought. It seemed that the person on the phone was still talking, but she didn't hear anything. After a long time, she came to her senses after hearing the other end call her several times.
"Shi Qi, actually I was drunk last night and I started talking as soon as I picked up the phone. I don't remember what we said. It's just... I suddenly thought of you. You said that although love is important, there are things more important than love... You are different from us."
I could hear the frustration and pain in the other end's voice, but it didn't seem to be because of me: "What's wrong with you?"
"I had a showdown with my family and I've already... lost those things."
Xu Shiqi was stunned and felt a chill in his heart.
"I don't know if your persistence is right. Even if we have a love like this, how long can it last? If it fails in the end, we will really have nothing."
"You have to take care of yourself." Xu Shiqi said softly.
"Well, Shi Qi's voice is indeed a good medicine."
"Take care of yourself." Xu Shiqi said again.
There was a faint sobbing sound over there: "I'm sorry... for disturbing you last night."
After the call, Xu Shiqi sat in silence for a long time. She felt that the world was too cold, without any warmth at all. Something she had never thought of trying before was done by someone else without hesitation, and then all that was left was drunkenness and crying. She became more and more afraid, hugging herself tightly, unable to imagine that there would be such a day. She didn't dare to let go, didn't dare to speak, and just wanted to curl herself up tightly and put herself in a box that no one could see. She was not a lonely and arrogant loner in the only beam of light on the stage, but just one of the tens of millions of people under the dark stage.