After Wen Jialuo left, Xia Bang smiled and said, "You all said that she didn't eat much, but didn't she eat well today?"
Wen Baohua also smiled. In fact, she had been smiling since she went to the hospital to confirm her pregnancy. She said, "Yes, Jialuo was supposed to go to work today, but she rushed back after receiving my call. This aunt is not in vain." Wen Yu sighed that if the young aunt saw her daughter cooking soup and rice, she would be so jealous of the baby.
Xu Shiqi sat by the side, basking in the winter sun, listening to the words intermittently. She raised her hand to block the sun, and the light slipped through her fingers. When she removed her hand, she seemed to see the interweaving of red, orange, blue, indigo, green, yellow, and purple, forming a brilliant and dazzling web. She gathered her fingers together, and the web broke, leaving only air in her palm. She put her hand down and looked at the pots of aloe vera on the balcony. She thought that this thing was easy to grow and could also beautify her skin. Should she grow a few pots at home to cultivate her sentiments
Wen Baohua noticed Xu Shiqi's quietness, so he sat down next to her and asked her quietly how she felt.
Xu Shiqi smiled and said, "Don't worry about it. Give birth to the baby soon. I'm waiting to be your godmother."
Wen Baohua's face glowed more and more. Seeing that she was indeed normal, he moved away to talk to someone else.
After sitting like this for about half an hour, Xu Shiqi's cell phone rang.
She glanced at the phone, then calmly got up and went to the small living room to answer it.
"Hello?"
"I'm Wen Jialuo."
Xu Shiqi didn't say anything.
"Can you come out for a while?"
Xu Shiqi was stunned: "...Where are you?"
"At the gate of my sister's neighborhood."
"Ah?" Xu Shiqi's face was full of black lines. How did you drive at a snail's pace to just get outside the community? Alas, it seems that there is no way to avoid it. Xu Shiqi returned to the balcony, found an excuse to say goodbye, and left.
Wen Jialuo's car was indeed parked at the entrance of the community. Xu Shiqi opened the door and got in. When she lowered her head, she saw the girl looking at her with her head tilted.
Xu Shiqi fastened his seat belt: "Didn't you say you were going back to work?"
"It's out anyway." Wen Jialuo said lazily.
Xu Shiqi thought for a moment and said, "Don't get on the highway."
Wen Jialuo pursed her lips: "No."
The car started and the interior became quiet for a moment. It was not the first time that he sat in this car, but it was more awkward than ever before. Xu Shiqi was reflecting on whether what he said was appropriate, and finally concluded that he was the reason why he was so cautious in the first place.
Unexpectedly, Wen Jialuo drove to Yanjiang Park. There are large green areas and forests of trees here. Even in the deep winter, the green is a little lighter, but they are still well maintained. Because the weather is really good today and the temperature is also high, many adults bring their children to play on the green land. Xu Shiqi and Wen Jialuo walked through it, without looking sideways, and both of them walked towards the guardrail on the grass side in tacit understanding. There is a small pavilion built at every distance of the guardrail. Standing at that height facing the river that runs through the city, looking out over the river, it is quite artistic.
Xu Shiqi felt a little hot from walking, so she took off her coat. She happened to be wearing a black sweater today, and standing next to Wen Jialuo, she looked like the Black and White Impermanence. There was some wind in the pavilion, blowing her hair, and she gathered it up, and saw Wen Jialuo looking at her.
"What's wrong?"
"It's windy, you'd better put on some clothes."
Xu Shiqi calmed himself down. Although he wanted to ignore this sentence, he put on his coat in order not to embarrass himself.
There are tall buildings on the other side of the river, and a huge billboard that is clearly visible from this side, with tempting, poetic words written on it, waiting for you to willingly take money out of your pocket; there is a cargo ship moving slowly on the river, and there seem to be a few children on the deck, enjoying the sunshine and joy, running and jumping happily; this pavilion seems to be specially designed for people in love, small and exquisite, and the painting on the top of the pavilion looks like Xixiang Ji, or maybe the Legend of the White Snake...
His gaze moved from far to near, finally landing on the girl next to him. Xu Shiqi thought helplessly, what on earth do you want me to do here? I'm too familiar with this city.
Wen Jialuo seemed to have looked around the world before turning around to look at her. He seemed to have thought for a long time before the words finally came out of his mouth: "Are you okay?"
Xu Shiqi couldn't help but want to laugh, because Wen Jialuo looked very nervous, and if that happened, he might not even be able to think normally. Although the wind by the river was very good and the vast sky and earth were very comfortable, Xu Shiqi didn't want to be passive anymore.
"I know you want to ask me something. It's okay. Just ask."
Wen Jialuo frowned: "I just want to ask you, why did you fall ill after you went back that day?"
"Don't you know that?" Xu Shiqi subconsciously emphasized, "I know you know."
"So..." Wen Jialuo said slowly, "Is it really because of that phone call?"
Xu Shiqi felt his breathing stagnate for a moment.
In fact, until this moment, she still had a little fantasy. A kind of contradictory psychology of "although I know it is like this, I still hope it is better like that." She never took the initiative to mention that phone call. As long as Wen Jialuo didn't mention it, then she would still think that there are other endless possibilities. Unfortunately, it was still in vain.
"Yes, that phone call..." Xu Shiqi murmured, looking down. He was actually not far from the river, but he had the illusion of weightlessness.
"I thought I had called the wrong number at first," Wen Jialuo began, "She... said a lot. But when I was about to hang up, the other end called your name."
"It's nothing, actually." Wen Jialuo looked at her with a pure look without any pressure and a tone that was as harmless as possible. "Everyone has the right to make their own choice."
Xu Shiqi was silent for a moment. In fact, she should have thought that Wen Jialuo wanted to comfort her. In fact, it was good that the girl didn't look at her like a monster. So she smiled and said, "Thank you."
Wen Jialuo kept looking at her while speaking, not missing any of her changes, and then asked tentatively: "She... is your lover?"
Xu Shiqi was stunned, and suddenly wanted to say yes, and then it would have nothing to do with the girl. This is the best way, and it can also make her not be greedy at all. But she looked at Wen Jia's pure eyes, and the tenderness she had never seen before, like a cautious touch, afraid of hurting her nerves by accident. The soothing eyes of "Although you and I are different, we are still the same after all" made Xu Shiqi unable to say such words. Although we love different types, we are both cute, but I don't love Zhang Ya.
Wen Jialuo seemed a little surprised by Xu Shiqi's denial, so she remained silent for a long time. She seemed to be completely unable to handle this situation. She filtered every word repeatedly in her mind, and then selected the one that she thought was non-toxic and had no side effects.
"Actually, I know it's nothing." Seeing her walking on thin ice, Xu Shiqi felt a little guilty. She patted the girl's shoulder and said, "You have a crush on my senior brother, and I like the same sex. The only difference is the name."
Wen Jialuo seemed to freeze, and Xu Shiqi withdrew his hand without leaving a trace. She thought this girl was really nice, thinking that she was hurt and sick after the phone call, so she cared about her so much. But some things are instinctive, and it's okay to keep a certain distance, but once it breaks through, there will be a direct reaction. Xu Shiqi pretended to look at the scenery and walked a step away from her, then smiled and said, "Hey, why didn't I realize that this place is so good before."
"I rarely come here either." Wen Jialuo stared at her, "Are you really okay?"
Xu Shiqi leaned against the railing, squinted his eyes and swayed his body for a while, still looking at her impatiently: "What are you uncomfortable with? Are you disgusted because you know that I am such a person, or do you feel uncomfortable thinking that I am like a thorn? I have said that it is nothing, what else do you want from me?"
Wen Jialuo pursed her lips again, walked up to Xu Shiqi, stretched out a finger and gently poked her shoulder.
Xu Shiqi felt puzzled and frowned and asked, "What are you doing?"
"I can hear the sound of your heart collapsing." Wen Jialuo said lightly.
Xu Shiqi hugged her head. She didn't know how other people would handle such a situation, she only knew that she had no other options. Her calm appearance made the girl unbelievable, but once she got excited, it was like she was exposed and the girl could see through her at a glance. She didn't want to be seen through. No matter what situation she was in, it was important to protect herself.
After organizing his thoughts, Xu Shiqi began to say: "Jia Luo, it's just like what you said. You keep your brother in your heart and treasure him. This is your choice. My choice is different from yours, but it is also after several years of careful consideration. We are all responsible for our own choices, no matter what we face, right? So I am fine. Even if I am a little hurt, I will try my best to make myself fine. But I don't like the woman who called, and I fell ill just because I was unwell. These have nothing to do with you, so why should you take any responsibility? So you really don't have to do this. If you do this, I will feel burdened. Do you understand?"
Wen Jialuo listened quietly. It was just like the first time she heard Xu Shiqi speak. The voice kept ringing in her ears, and with the sunshine and breeze, it was like a top-notch delicious meal, so primal that it made her mouth water. Wen Jialuo hadn't felt this way for a long time. She found herself very hungry, so hungry that her stomach was rumbling and her heart was scratching. The result of her mind being led by her stomach was that she only caught the end of the sentence in the end, so she frowned and asked, "Will you feel burdened to meet me?"
Feeling really defeated, Xu Shiqi said harshly: "If you don't look at the weak like that, I will feel relieved."
"You are a weak person," Wen Jialuo glanced over, "You were just sick."
Xu Shiqi was discouraged. After a moment of silence, he stretched out his foot and kicked her: "Hey, why didn't you ask me in time that night?"
Wen Jialuo's tone became more and more hesitant: "... So I thought it was because I didn't mention it in time that something happened again..."
"No, that woman was drunk." Xu Shiqi smiled.
"Hey," Wen Jialuo looked at Jiang Shui and asked her, "Do you have someone you like?"
Xu Shiqi looked at her. Maybe it was because of his guidance that she no longer spoke in a particularly uncomfortable tone, but... was it necessary to ask so casually
"No." Xu Shiqi said affirmatively with his fist clenched.
Wen Jialuo turned to look at her. The wind blew, ruffling her hair. Her eyes were hidden in the fluttering hairline. She felt a little itchy, so she tucked it behind her ear. She turned her head back to look at Jiang Shuichangliu: "Is that so..."
What is this? Xu Shiqi thought that it was enough to say this. This girl accidentally became the only person who knew his secret, and she happened to be the one he had a crush on. But none of this mattered. Wen Jialuo would never know about the latter. Whether intentionally or unintentionally, Xu Shiqi would not let her know.
The two looked at the river for a while, and perhaps they got bored, so they walked to the other side at the same time. Facing this side was a large lawn, with many children playing and having fun. Their innocent voices were like small snacks with sugar in them, sweet but not too greasy. Wen Jialuo felt that his stomach was probably regurgitating acid from hunger, and he felt a little nauseous.
Seeing Wen Jialuo staring at the children, Xu Shiqi couldn't help but ask her, "Do you like children?"
Wen Jialuo uttered a light "hmm", and it was unclear whether it was a confirmation or a denial.
"Will you regret seeing them?" Xu Shiqi asked softly.
"What?" Wen Jialuo turned his head, a little confused in his eyes.
Xu Shiqi thought she looked a little slow, which she didn't seem to have before, as she was obviously very eloquent. It seemed that the discovery of her sexual orientation had stimulated her greatly: "You decided to keep your secret love and live alone for the rest of your life, so you won't have a family or children. You may not feel it when you are alone, but what about now? Or after Baohua has a baby?"
"What about you? Will you choose to get married?" Wen Jialuo asked and then answered herself, "Who said that there is a kind of family called DINK in this world, and there is also a concept called celibacy?" She suddenly became aggressive, "Didn't you say that you are walking the same path as me, so don't laugh at me when I am only 50 steps away?"
Xu Shiqi felt a little depressed. What does it mean to shoot oneself in the foot? This is bloody evidence. She had to pretend to be cheerful and said, "Maybe in the future I will meet someone I love, someone I love so much that I will give up everything. At that time, at least I will have a companion, and it is not impossible to adopt a child."
Wen Jialuo turned her head and looked at her quietly. At this moment, her eyes were talking, as changeable as that night. She finally asked calmly: "Then why are you vying to be the baby's godmother? I can't tell at all that you are just joking."
Xu Shiqi felt his fingers were frozen. What was the sadness in her eyes? Was she feeling sad for him? He was just concerned about her problem, but why did she start to analyze himself so sharply
"But if you can really achieve that perfection," Wen Jialuo continued softly, "I will congratulate you." She stared at the children in the distance in a daze for a long time, and then said, "Maybe you are right. Persisting for a few years does not mean you can persist for a lifetime. No one can predict when... who you will meet. Maybe one day... I will give up my idea, maybe... there will be no such day."
"Maybe it's good to have it." Xu Shiqi reluctantly responded, thinking that at least he had gained something today, that is, the girl seemed to have been realizing something from her own experience. "I can't choose to love like most people, but you can. I think if you can change your mind a little, your mother and the others will be very happy."
"Probably." Wen Jialuo paused and ended the topic, "Let's go."
Wen Jialuo sent Xu Shiqi to the store. The two of them were able to chat all the way in the car, focusing on how Wen Baohua found out that she was pregnant.
It was not until Wen Jialuo left that Xu Shiqi remembered that he should ask Zhang Ya what she said on the phone. But then he thought about it and gave up. After all, she had said something that made her discover her sexual orientation. Anyway, the result was already like this, so there was no need to calculate the process.
Finally, Xu Shiqi let out a long sigh, thinking that those topics were like a page of paper that had been turned over and would never be turned over again.