Fingertip

While packing up, Xu Shiqi saw the jewelry box that Wen Jialuo gave her.

The pearl necklace was in there now. Wen Jialuo had put the necklace there. She had arranged the necklace into a heart shape. But when Xu Shiqi moved it, the shape disappeared. This was a personal item she had worn for several years. She had originally wanted to give it back to Wen Jialuo, but then she remembered that the girl had mentioned something she wanted to her, but she was half crazy and half stupid at the time and didn't take it seriously.

At that time, I probably couldn't imagine the current situation. Xu Shiqi's heart was still complicated, but some things gradually became clear in those complicated contexts.

When she was picking up her bag and leaving, Wen Baohua insisted on seeing her out, while Wen Jialuo was already waiting for her in the car.

"Please send my classmate home safely." Wen Baohua reminded his cousin.

"You're so long-winded!" Wen Jialuo gave her an impatient look, turned around and showed off her unique Sichuan Opera face-changing skills, and said in a smooth tone, "Fasten your seat belts."

Xu Shiqi avoided the gaze of his classmates, just waved at her, and said to Wen Jialuo: "Just take me home."

After the car drove out, Wen Jialuo said slowly: "I won't take you anywhere."

"Have you kidnapped enough people?" Xu Shiqi turned and glared at her.

Wen Jialuo didn't say anything, but drove for a while and then suddenly stopped.

"What's wrong?" Xu Shiqi looked at her and then looked out the window.

"I asked you to get in the car that time, but you refused." Wen Jialuo turned sideways, staring out the window in a daze, and said quietly, "You don't know how sad I am."

Xu Shiqi was also a little absent-minded. That day, one person was in the car, and the other was on the roadside. They were not far away, but they had two opposite thoughts. And the past was like a huge gap, and those struggles did not escape the girl's sight in the end.

"In fact, you already knew that you and I were the same person at that time," Wen Jialuo said again, "but you just pretended not to know."

"How did you feel when you guessed that I was the same kind as you?"

Xu Shiqi looked at Wen Jialuo, his eyes still complicated: "... I don't know."

"It's the same for me. When I first found out, my mind went blank for a moment." Wen Jialuo smiled. "I was only a little interested in you, but when I found out that you were the same as me, I wondered how you lived. I haven't met other people of the same kind, so I became curious. I thought that interest should be controllable, so I ignored it, but I didn't expect it to grow slowly and then become impossible to ignore." She reached out, hugged Xu Shiqi, and whispered in her ear, "Later, it seemed that I should be glad that you were, so that the distance between us would always be closer, and maybe I wouldn't have to suffer too much; but I also felt that if you weren't, I might have given up long ago. I think I still have the self-control, so I won't let myself be so worried and restless."

"What a contradiction." Xu Shiqi smiled gently, "We just can't get over our own hurdle." The two of them seemed to have completely different feelings about their interest in each other, but they were heading down the same path.

Wen Jialuo stepped back, distanced himself from her, and stared at her deeply: "Is it over now?"

"The bridge is very narrow, and the water is rushing under it." Xu Shiqi said with a smile, "It's not easy to cross, so you have to hold on to me."

So Wen Jialuo held her hand tightly and leaned over.

The body's reaction is actually more direct than the thoughts. After not many kisses, the two have quickly developed a tacit understanding. Their lips meet in the air, kissing each other and then withdrawing slightly, and then entangled again. It's as if they are getting familiar with each other's unique smell at the fastest speed, like animal instinct.

Perhaps this instinct was too strong. Although he was in the car, someone could pass by him at any time. Xu Shiqi retreated step by step, and finally put his hand on the girl's shoulder. At this moment, her lips were bright red. Although her words were calm, fortunately, her slightly hoarse and gentle tone made up for it: "Okay... drive well."

Wen Jialuo didn't say anything, but still held her hand tightly. Sometimes when the feeling came too violently, any self-control was just self-deception. But she had finally held the hand of the woman in front of her, and she didn't want to scare her away with her recklessness. Besides, doing nothing, just sitting together quietly like this, was already a reassuring fact, even a kind of enjoyment. Skin contact is always temporary, and it is impossible for people to be naked and entangled for a lifetime without doing anything.

However, I originally thought that I would be satisfied just by holding hands, but it seems that it is more than that. People are indeed greedy. The more they get, the emptier their hearts feel. They don’t know where the perfection is.

But for now, this is good enough.

After sitting quietly for a while, Wen Jialuo started the car and sent Xu Shiqi home.

This time she didn't ask and just followed him upstairs.

When Xu Shiqi opened the door and carried her bag into the room, she seemed to have sensed it and turned around to see Wen Jialuo staring at her door. The reason she didn't let her in last time was not because there was really a secret inside. It was just to remind herself not to let the girl in too much.

Now such a reminder was no longer necessary. She took a deep breath, opened the door, stood aside with a smile, and then saw the girl's eyes light up, and she rushed in.

In fact, it is a very simple room. The bed, the integrated bookcase and the wall cabinet are the big items that can be seen. The rest can only be described as clean and tidy.

Xu Shiqi has been living in the old house, but Wen Jialuo found that her bed was fully furnished and neatly folded, and even the small plaid blanket on the edge of the bed was laid out neatly, as if waiting for the owner to sit down at any time.

"When I'm not at home, my mother won't let a speck of dust fall in this room." Xu Shiqi said as he opened the closet to put clothes in.

There were several small flower pots on the desk in front of the window, all of which were planted with cacti. Wen Jialuo pressed down gently with her fingertips, and the thorns of the cactus were still very hard. Although this thing probably doesn't need careful care, there is not even a trace of dirt on the flower pot, which makes her feel a little sweet and bitter. She has had people serving her since she was a child, and she basically doesn't need to do anything. But that was done by hired people, who only regarded it as a job, not out of love in their hearts. But when she saw Xu Shiqi's clean and bright room, she could understand how intense and painful the other party's struggle was for her to get close to him.

She has experienced similar torment because she is not often with her parents, and she believes that no one can hurt her parents who treat her so wholeheartedly. Wen Jialuo knows this in her heart, and while she is distressed, she knows that she will not let go.

Xu Shiqi put away her things and turned around to see Wen Jialuo sitting by the bed, head down and silent, even her hair looked a little decadent. She smiled, walked over and squatted in front of the girl, tilted her head and asked, "You still have a few days before you leave, right?"

Wen Jialuo raised his eyes.

"Is there anything urgent you need to do before you leave?" Xu Shiqi hesitated for a moment, "I think..."

"No." The gray in Wen Jialuo's eyes gradually faded, and she said hurriedly, "I'm very free, very free."

Xu Shiqi raised his eyes and smiled: "Then... let's go somewhere to play for two days."

Wen Jialuo held his breath, then laughed too: "Okay, let's go on a date, I'm yours for the next few days."

The girl seemed to be a cold and taciturn person yesterday, but after being honest with him, she became a different person. She opened her heart and was always talkative, and Xu Shiqi also enjoyed these words unconsciously. When her heart was no longer on guard, it became softer. When she first knew the girl's feelings for her, she had shed tears and tasted pain. Now she didn't want to repeat those when she just dared to love. She had made a decision, so she should try to go on well. She still had this determination.

Xu Shiqi took the initiative to suggest that they go out to play, and Wen Jialuo was greatly encouraged. She began to look at the books of the owner of the room with great interest. Surprisingly, this woman actually kept many textbooks from her childhood to adulthood. The beautiful handwriting on them was changing all the time, just like a girl who has changed a lot since she grew up, and finally settled on a slightly elegant handwriting.

"Seventeen?" Wen Jialuo suddenly saw the name on the cover of a book. She stared, "What's your name?"

"Didn't you notice?" Xu Shiqi laughed, "Your cousins have always called me Seventeen. I'm used to it."

Wen Jialuo was speechless. She looked at Xu Shiqi and tentatively called out, "Seventeen?"

Xu Shiqi took the book from her hand: "Actually, the pronunciation is the same, there is no difference."

"Seventeen," Wen Jialuo gestured in the air, "Is it about... this wide?"

Xu Shiqi moved over and stood opposite her. He could smell her breathing and vaguely see himself in her eyes: "Probably... this is the distance between us now."

Wen Jialuo lowered her hands, and Xu Shiqi stood in front of her steadily, not too close, not too far, just like the distance between them before. She really didn't like this kind of distance. As soon as she stretched out her hand, Wen Jialuo pulled Xu Shiqi over, wrapped her arms around him, and held him tightly: "That distance is too wide..."

Xu Shiqi hugged her waist back. Under the fluffy down jacket, it looked so thin that it would break if pinched. This made her feel distressed. She reached out and slowly stroked the smooth down jacket, as if she was stroking the girl's thin wing-like back, and then she could immediately feel the girl's hands hugging her more tightly.

The winter clothes prevented the two from being truly close to each other. Xu Shiqi patted her soothingly, then let go of her hand: "Come, let's discuss where to go these two days."

Because the time was short, they all avoided the city at the same time, just wanting to share these two days quietly by themselves.

After thinking for a while, Wen Jialuo threw away the pen and raised his eyebrows and said, "Oh, by the way, I actually forgot that there is a small villa on a mountain 40 kilometers away from the suburbs. It is specially used by the city to entertain VIPs. There is also a hot spring there, with two hot spring pools of the same size. We used to go there in the past two years, but later we found it too small, so we moved to another place. I'll call and ask what the villa is like now."

The words "mountain" and "hot spring" alone were enough to make Xu Shiqi excited, and she couldn't help but jump for joy. But when she heard the girl call the other party "Secretary Nie" and mentioned the word "Dad", she couldn't help but be stunned.

The Wen family was very nice to her. Since Baohua, she had not considered the family as people from a different world from her. This seemed to make her forget that the girl's family background was actually very unusual. She knew who Wen Jialuo's father was. Occasionally, when watching TV, she would see him inspecting somewhere or holding a big meeting. She thought it was just a simple relationship with her, so she didn't pay too much attention.

But now, the rope of fate has been entangled together. Even if she didn't do anything, the girls would tie each other in knots that couldn't be untied. Xu Shiqi watched Wen Jialuo talking to the secretary calmly. He finally looked like a child of an official family, but this made her feel a little cold in her heart, because the future was suddenly covered with fog and it was hard to breathe.

After Wen Jialuo hung up the phone, she saw Xu Shiqi folding her arms slightly, her lips were slightly pale, so she put her arms around her and complained, "Why don't you install an air conditioner? Are you cold?"

"Your family is powerful, so naturally you have everything." Xu Shiqi opened his mouth, then bit his lower lip, and when he opened his mouth again, he didn't know what to say.

Wen Jialuo narrowed his eyes: "What's wrong?"

Xu Shiqi shook his head and forced a smile: "Just like you, worried about gains and losses."

"Stupid." Wen Jialuo leaned over and kissed her lips, then hugged her, "We will go to the cottage tomorrow. You should pack up tonight and prepare a thicker coat. It will probably be colder in the mountains."

"Got it." Xu Shiqi lay quietly on the soft down jacket, not thinking about anything for a moment.

Wen Jialuo held her in his arms, but his eyes were dim. She turned her head and looked out the window, thinking about what was said on the other end of the phone.

"You two are really in tune with each other. Your father came here for a meeting these few days. He was too tired from work, so he just went to the mountain to rest for a night. Someone will go to clean up today, so I asked them to change all the things and send someone to guard the bottom of the mountain. You and your friends have fun, no one will disturb you."

She didn't even come back to stay at home. Is she really that busy? Wen Jialuo sighed. The call was to one of Dad's secretaries. If that was the case, Dad would soon know that she had taken someone to the mountains to take a hot spring bath. I wonder if he would be interested in knowing who his daughter had brought. Thinking of the father who calmly said that he would support her for the rest of her life, he was actually a man of his word. His way of pampering her was to let her live her own way. Although she was not often around him, the father and daughter were still very close, but due to personality issues, they had to be a little more reserved in expressing themselves.

When she knew what her love would be like, she had considered whether her sexual orientation would affect his career. The so-called love, I am afraid it cannot last long in the dark, and once it sees the sun, she cannot estimate the consequences. At that time, there was actually nothing, but it would be infinitely exaggerated and complicated, so there would be retreat. She made concessions for her family, and was once deeply moved by herself. Her family did not force her about the future, but instead made her decide not to let them be hurt at all because of her sexual orientation.

But all this happened before I met Xu Shiqi.

Wen Jialuo was also glad that before she met Xu Shiqi, she had already walked out of that period of confusion and ignorance and knew what she wanted.