Xue Yunfeng finally chose a beautifully shaped crystal cup as a birthday present for Jiang Li. I looked at the price tag on the cup and shook my head, sighing, young people these days have been corrupted...
In order to thank me, Xue Yunfeng planned to help me buy a set of women's clothing, which I couldn't wish for more. Anyway, the money they exploited was collected from the proletariat. Today I will help them spend it on behalf of the proletariat.
I wandered around the women's clothing section, I liked this one, I liked that one too, I was walking around with my head down, thinking as if I couldn't do anything, when I bumped into someone. So I looked up at the other party, and was suddenly stunned.
The other party was not much more shocked than me. He looked at me, his lips trembling, but he couldn't speak.
I stared at him and called out involuntarily: "Dad."
So the person I called "Dad" became even more excited. At this time, his trembling spread from his lips to his whole body, as if he had been electrocuted, and he couldn't even stand still. If I were a person who didn't know him, I would definitely think that he had a sudden heart attack, and he couldn't do it.
He raised his hand tremblingly, as if he wanted to feel if I was real. Confused, I took a step back and looked at him.
So he put down his hands in a lonely way, stared at my face, and murmured: "You are finally willing to call me 'Dad'."
I bowed my head and said nothing. I also don't know what my mood is at the moment. angry? I thought I would be angry, but I really didn't. I didn't even know when my hatred for this person had been replaced by another emotion.
I looked up at him. At this moment, there were many wrinkles on his face, some of which were deep. His temples have turned white, and he is no longer as handsome as before... He is really old, much older than when he left. A sense of melancholy suddenly surged in my heart, and I don't know why.
Seeing this situation, Xue Yunfeng at the side bent slightly towards my father and called "Uncle".
My dad nodded towards Xue Yunfeng, and then continued to look at me, with something unclear flowing in his eyes.
At this time, a middle-aged woman walked up to him, took his hand and asked, "Do you think I look good in this dress?"
He looked at her sideways, and said perfunctorily, "Looks good, looks good."
At this time, the middle-aged woman also found us. She looked us over, then looked at him questioningly.
He let go of her hand and said, "This is a feast."
The woman gave me a friendly nod, and I had no choice but to smile at her and call "Auntie".
The atmosphere was suddenly a little awkward. The middle-aged woman excused herself to change clothes and walked away. I stared at the woman's back, and said to my father: "What's the matter, are you next to a rich woman?"
He smiled wryly: "How can a rich woman like me." Then, he explained, "I just got lucky and made a fortune."
So I don't know what to do.
He suddenly said: "Then, shall we sit in the coffee shop below for a while?"
The tone was full of hope, and I couldn't bear to refuse for a moment... I rarely heard him say such words in my memory.
Xue Yunfeng went back first, so my dad and I sat together in the coffee shop on the first floor of the shopping mall.
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I sat quietly with him in the coffee shop for a quarter of an hour, and he finally spoke: "How are you doing recently?"
I'm alright."
He: "Jiang Li is a good child, cherish it."
"I cherish it, but he doesn't necessarily cherish it." I said, and gave him a meaningful look, believing that he understood what I meant.
So he sighed and said, "Yan, I know you don't want to forgive me, but have you ever thought about what we would be like now if I hadn't divorced your mother?"
I bowed my head and said nothing, this kind of assumption never occurred to me.
"Maybe we will get used to each other, but I have been married to him for nearly 20 years, and we haven't gotten along well. What do you think is the probability that we will be able to accept each other in another ten years?"
I frowned: "Please don't make excuses for your betrayal."
He nodded helplessly, "I know you hate me. Your child's thoughts are too easy to be absolute, and you can't tolerate half of the sand in your eyes." I'm already very relieved to say 'Dad'."
I want to tell him that I don’t hate him anymore. Now he is just a passer-by in my eyes, but when I hear his last sentence, I don’t want to say it. After all, there is a difference between him and a passer-by. If I Call a passer-by "Dad" casually, and that person will definitely treat me as a crazy person. And he would be too excited to speak.
"Yan, I've missed you a lot these years. Do you still remember, in the first few years, I went to see you and brought you your favorite candy, but you pretended not to see me and hid from me. I did have regrets at the time, Regret divorcing your mother. But then I will be lucky to think, will you just be angry with me for a while, and wait for a while? This kind of thought lasted in my heart for several years, and then the way you looked at me It's getting more and more wrong, and I understand that you hate me to the core. I was very sad at the time, but I didn't dare to go to see you, for fear that you would be unhappy when you saw me. "
I felt as if something was pulling me, and I felt uncomfortable. So I said: "You should leave these things about old sesame seeds and rotten millet." I felt uncomfortable.
"No, Yan, I've thought about it. I've been suffering for ten years, and you'll just suffer for a while. Listen to me for a while. Maybe we won't have the chance to chat face to face. Today you promise to sit with me for a while , I was also very surprised, really... You didn't even want to look at me before. In fact, you don't know how much I want to see you, but I am afraid that you will not be happy to see me, so I dare not go to you. It’s really contradictory. Sometimes your mother will send me some pictures of you, don’t you know about this? I guess she dare not tell you. In fact, for a while, I couldn’t figure it out. I didn’t understand why it was me and you who divorced Mom, the two divorced parties can coexist peacefully and turn the fight into friendship, but why does our daughter always have bitter hatred with me. Later, your mother and I, this is "deep love, deep responsibility", you are Because I cared too much... This reason made me happy for days."
"In the past few years, I have always dreamed of you, you at all stages. When you just learned to walk, you held one of my fingers in your whole hand and walked carefully. I took your hand and walked in the district. At that time, every time Uncle Zhang from the neighbor’s house saw us, he would tell me that I was ‘playing with my daughter’... Every time I had this dream, I would always wake up with a smile, which would scare the people around me.”
"And you failed the Chinese test. Every time you are behind your mother's back, let me sign the test paper. You know I don't want to scold you, haha. Your highest Chinese score was 65, right? That time the teacher seemed You also misjudged a question, but you can actually get 67 in the exam. I remember that you almost cried because of the two points, and I bought you ice cream to coax you."
"Do you still remember the love letter that the boy in your class gave you in high school? I saw you accidentally at that time, and I drafted that rejection letter for you... You asked me to throw that boy's love letter Yes, in fact, I have been staying until now... "
I felt that my throat was blocked and my eyes were sore, so I suppressed my voice and said, "Can you stop, it's been so many years..."
"Yan, it's been so many years since I divorced your mother, don't you still remember it? I know you hate me..."
I interrupted him: "I don't hate you anymore."
He looked at me with wide eyes: "What are you?"
I sucked my nose and raised my head to force back my tears: "I don't hate you anymore, really... I want to hate you, but I can't hate you anymore. It's been so many years, and you and my mother are both Live a good life, and no one will live without someone.”
He excitedly called me "banquet" and was speechless.
I continued: "I used to think that it was a heinous thing for a man to leave a woman, but after thinking about it later, it didn't seem so exaggerated. My mother lived more comfortably than you without you, I think If she continued to be with you, she might not be as chic as she is now. And Yu Zifei, at first I thought that without him, I would lose the whole world. But then, I am living a very good life now. Yu Zifei, on the other hand, met me in the same company and left in despair. Jiang Li, I was too extreme, I didn’t believe it at the time, but now that I think about it, it’s true. In fact, I should have let go of this long ago. It's really not a big deal. A person's happiness in life depends on his own attitude towards life, not on other people's opinion of him or loyalty to him."
He nodded and looked at me excitedly: "Yan, you have become much more mature."
I smiled at him, I am finally someone who has matured, let Jiang Li and Wang Kai and his ilk go to hell, my own father is the one who understands me best!
He opened his mouth hesitantly: "Then..."
Me: "Don't worry, you are still my dad, and always will be."
He grabbed my hand in surprise, his eyes brightened.
"The reason why I didn't let you continue just now is because I wanted to cry when you saw those things, really. I thought I could erase all those things in my mind, but in the end, it was impossible. Jiang Li, I can't forget your kindness to me for sixteen years because of one of your mistakes. Now it seems that his is completely correct. My father is my own father. I remember all the kindness you have done to me. Poor parents all over the world , I was ignorant at the beginning and made you sad."
"Yan, Jiang Li has changed you a lot."
I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with a smile, and said, "Come on, he's a little more talkative."
He smiled, and asked earnestly, "Yan, can I treat you to dinner tonight?"
I shook my head: "No, I have to go back and cook for Jiang Li."
He nodded in disappointment and said nothing.
So I said again: "If you don't mind, you can have dinner with us."
Then his eyes lit up again.
I looked at the changing facial expressions of the old man in front of me, and my mood suddenly improved.
It turns out that letting go of the burden in my heart is such a relaxing and comfortable thing.