At night, Yan Chuyan guarded the vacant room alone. Jiang Ruan and Jennifer slept in the guest room together. The two sisters were lying on the bed and whispering under the same quilt.
"Jennifer, I'm really happy that you can come to me." Jiang Ruan stretched out his hand and hooked Jennifer's hand, with a smile on the corners of his eyes and eyebrows.
Jennifer also laughed and said: "Sorry, I made you sad last time, A Ruan, don't be angry with me, I just didn't turn my mind, so some... my mind is rusty. ."
A smile flashed across Jiang Ruan's eyes, and he reached out and touched Jennifer's head, and said, "It's rusty, and it needs to be taken care of."
The surrounding lights were all turned off, Jiang Ruan didn't speak again after saying that, and Jennifer was quiet for a while, and only the sound of each other's breathing was left around.
After I don’t know how long, Jennifer suddenly said: "A Ruan, you are very sad, right?"
With just such a sentence, Jiang Ruan understood her meaning in an instant. Her expression and movements were stiff for a moment, and she was silent for a while before she said: "What did you say? Sadness is of course sad, but she will come out. Yes, I'm already walking out full."
"Then why are you still going to the nursery?" Jennifer turned and looked at Jiang Ruan. When she came out of the bathroom in the afternoon, she met Yan Chuyan. Hearing this, she felt a little palpitating.
Jiang Ruan obviously didn't come out, but he has been trying to accommodate them in order not to worry them.
Jennifer started to feel sad whenever he thought of this.
After hesitating for a while, Jiang Ruan put his hand on Jennifer's belly and said, "Because I am thinking about whether there is anything I can give to my baby."
She smiled at the corner of her mouth, and said, "Jennifer, my child is gone. Then I can only count on your child to give me a glimmer of hope in the future."
She whispered: "When you give birth to the baby, let him call me godmother, okay?"
Her movements are so gentle, as if a loving mother is watching a child, her eyes are full of tenderness, because there is no light, and the environment is dim, so Jennifer could not see the sadness and sadness in her eyes.
Jennifer opened her mouth to say something, but Jiang Ruan said, "Go to sleep, I'm a little tired."
This is obviously avoiding the topic. Jennifer sighed and didn't say much. Since she didn't want to mention it, she wouldn't be able to ask any more.
Time passed by, and Yan Chuyan, who was sleeping in the master bedroom alone, was a little confused, and got up directly wrapped in a robe, trying to carry Jiang Ruan back, but when he went out, he saw the diagonally opposite one. Baby room.
He paused, and inexplicably remembered the situation where Jiang Ruan was hiding in the baby room by himself. After a while, he stepped over, opened the door of the baby room, turned on the light, and looked inside. Everything is carefully prepared by him and Jiang Ruan.
And everything that Elder Yan and Mrs. Yan prepared.
Because he was afraid that Jiang Ruan would bring back sad memories, Yan Chuyan did not allow Mr. Yan and Mrs. Yan to visit Jiang Ruan. He only told them about the situation and hoped that they would wait until Jiang Ruan got better. But he never thought about himself. , Jiang Ruan's lost child is also his child.
His heart would be painful, uncomfortable, and unbearable, but he was abrupt and endured it with a stern face.
Jiang Ruan can still cry, but he can't, because he is the pillar of the family, he needs to comfort Jiang Ruan, but he himself does not need to be comforted.
Yan Chuyan walked over, raised his hand and picked up a car and a doll. The doll was his choice and the car was Jiang Ruan's choice.
He still remembered that when they were buying these things, he said that he hoped that Jiang Ruan would have a daughter so that he could please him like Jiang Ruan, while Jiang Ruan hoped that he would have a son so that the child could be more like Yan Chuyan.
This is the expectation of the two of them, but this expectation is gone.
Yan Chuyan’s eyes suddenly turned red. He turned around and sat on the little girl, and began to resist one by one the things they prepared for the children. Maybe Jiang Ruan was right. Such a move was like a scene. Say goodbye to their children with a sense of ritual.
Jennifer was already asleep. After hearing the sound of Jennifer's breathing, Jiang Ruan opened her eyes. Because of the conversations before going to bed, she was a little awake at this moment.
She quietly lifted the quilt and got up, wanting to go to the nursery to take a look. Jennifer was right. She hadn't come out yet. She was still uncomfortable, but what can I do if it is uncomfortable? She can only quietly resolve these emotions alone.
But what she didn't expect was that she saw Yan Chuyan sitting in her arms at the door of the baby room.
Yan Chuyan only turned on a dim light at the head of the bed. He slightly lowered his head to sit on his lips, his eyelashes cast a shadow under his eyelids, and there was a pile of children’s clothes in front of him. , The posture looks very gentle.
Jiang Ruan has never seen him look so gentle. Even when facing himself, it is a kind of unique appetite. Her gentleness, but when Yan Chuyan is facing these children's things, the gentleness that Yan Chuyan shows is Jiang Ruan. Never seen before.
Her eye sockets suddenly turned red, and all the emotions swarmed in an instant, tears fell down with a burst of tears, but she bit her teeth firmly and did not let herself cry. I don’t know how long it took. , She suddenly turned around, sat on the floor at the entrance of the baby room, leaned her back against the wall, and curled up together.
Then he buried his head in his knees, tears soaking through his pajamas.
How could she be so selfish? The moment she saw Yan Chuyan, she deeply realized that she was too selfish.
She only cared about her own sadness and her own pain, but she never thought that it was also A Yan's child. A Yan would also be sad and painful. He also lost a child.
But he can only comfort himself all the time, he comes to comfort himself, then who is he going to comfort him
Jiang Ruan actually hates himself at this moment, hates his own unreasonable troubles, hates himself for not knowing anything, hates himself for doing nothing, hates himself for only caring about his feelings, hates himself, and ignores Yan Chuyan.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Jiang Ruan couldn't help muttering, worrying about being heard by Yan Chuyan, so she choked up and tried her best to control her voice, only silent all the time. Tears.
After I don’t know how long, Yan Chuyan got up from the bed and was about to put his clothes on, but suddenly heard a little movement at the door. He was slightly startled, and then quickly walked over, bowed his head and saw it. Jiang Ruan crouched at the door and curled himself up into a ball.