His heart suddenly stopped beating for a beat, Yi Hui's eyes widened, he flew forward in the dizzying vibration, and reached out to stop it.
But it was too late. Zhou Jinheng estimated the distance and knew that Yi Hui would not be able to run in front of him in such a short time. In the steaming heat, he watched as the transparent water column spewed and fell in waves. Time seemed to be slowed down and stretched infinitely, so detailed that every wisp of white mist was clearly visible.
However, the level of pain was far from what was expected.
Yi Hui shoved the table off, and the legs of the table made a harsh sound on the ground. When people are in a hurry, they will explode with great potential, and the dining table that has not been moved since moving in is pushed to the side of the wall by him.
Zhou Jinheng shook his body under the impact, and the water rushing out of the mouth of the pot deviates from the direction. It was originally in the center of the palm, but now it can only slide across the palm and the wrist. The hot water splashed on the ground and splashed a few drops on the slippers. instep.
Yi Hui rushed along the corner of the table, took the pot from his hand while Zhou Jinheng was stunned, and his hand was shaking when he put it back on the table. After putting it down for a while, he picked it up again, for fear of being robbed by Zhou Jinheng again. He went into the kitchen and poured out the water in the pot before returning to the original place, panting, "What are you doing crazy?"
Fear is followed by anger. Yi Hui couldn't calm down, thinking that if his reaction was a little slower just now, Zhou Jinheng's hand might have been crippled, his scalp tightened, and the air he inhaled in his lungs pierced his throat like a knife.
No one knows better than him what a scald feels like. His parents were affected by his body and skin, and Yi Hui regretted not knowing self-love like he did in his previous life. He couldn't understand the practice of hurting himself.
What's more, Zhou Jinheng is an actor, and he should cherish his god-given appearance. If he spoils it casually, it will only make people feel naive and even despised.
There is also a layer of buried anger that Yi Hui is reluctant to examine in detail.
He told himself that no matter who he sees like this, he can't be completely indifferent, let alone stand by.
Zhou Jinheng stood there motionless and did not speak. Yi Hui grabbed his scalded hand and pulled it under the sink to rinse it. He was relieved to see the blisters on the side of his hand near the wrist bone.
No damage to the subcutaneous tissue, just apply the ointment, and if you are lucky, there will be no scars left.
Previously, my aunt bought a tube of scald cream when purchasing commonly used medicines, and now it just came in handy. Yi Hui found a needle and repeatedly disinfected it with an alcohol cotton swab. Before stabbing, he looked up at Zhou Jinheng. He was still standing stupidly. All his strength seemed to have been exhausted just now. God, I don't know what to think.
He didn't exert any strength in his hands, and let Yi Hui handle it, as if he would not dodge even if it was a poisonous needle.
Facing Zhou Jinheng like this, Yi Hui couldn't let it out even if he was angry. After popping the blisters, he began to apply the medicine, realizing that the whole series of movements was too skilled, and he felt that there were still some things to say.
"Aren't you an actor? How can you film like this?" Yi Hui tried to put himself in the position of a stranger, "Even if you want to make amends... you shouldn't use this method."
With the gauze wrapped around his palm, Zhou Jinheng finally reacted.
"There is only this way," he whispered. "There is only this way."
Yi Hui paused for a moment, then continued to help him bandage as if he had never heard of it.
After wrapping up, make sure that the gauze is tightly tied. Yi Hui, who often goes to the hospital to take care of her mother recently, habitually asks "Does it hurt?", and then she slams on the brakes when she exits the two words.
Zhou Jinheng still heard it, but without answering, he asked, "How about you, does it hurt?"
All I used tonight was the second person, pressing step by step, and I had given up covering up. Yi Hui was calm on the surface, but inside, he was desperately closing the door that kept the memories of his previous life.
In this life, he accidentally lost his defense. He remembered that he was trapped on the mountain in the heavy rain last year. Zhou Jinheng carefully treated his wound, asked him if it hurt, and he could pinch him if he said it hurt.
What's the use of pinching him? The pain on his body will not be relieved by this, and the scars will not be removed by this.
This made Yi Hui feel something similar to right and wrong. He was stunned for a moment, and just as he was about to turn to leave, Zhou Jinheng quickly grabbed his hand that was released for less than a second.
He used the injured hand. Yi Hui was afraid of touching his wound, so he didn't dare to move. He widened his eyes and said, "You let go... Next time you do this again, I won't save you again."
"Don't save me, don't save me anymore." Zhou Jinheng raised Yi Hui's hand to his chin, nodding and rubbing the back of his smooth hand with his lips.
In his last life, he was burnt here, and the pits were uneven, which was the evidence that he despised the little fool, and it was also the reason why the little fool hated him. He never dreamed that in this life his little fool would still not want him to get hurt, but would still save him and bandage his wounds patiently.
Urgent, hurried, moved, remorseful, remorse... Countless emotions converged into rivers and seas, raging in his heart, making Zhou Jinheng's heart beating so loudly that he could hardly breathe.
He stretched out his arms and took Yi Hui into his arms. Before Yi Hui struggled, he said, "Just let me hug for a while... The agreement didn't say that hugs are not allowed."
I don't know if I was stunned by the second half of the sentence, the person in my arms gradually quieted down. Zhou Jinheng closed his eyes, clasped Yi Hui's hand with the injured hand, and wrapped the other hand around his waist, exerting a little force, as if to engrave the feeling of this moment, and as if he was conveying it through the closeness of his body. what.
The continuous stinging pain of the wound runs along the arm to the heart. If this is the feeling of empathy, Zhou Jinheng thought, all the suffering in the future will be borne by me.
This is what he owes Yi Hui, and it is the only way to get relief.
He will love him and protect him, even if he is never forgiven, even holding him like this is an extravagant hope.
Once again, I read Zhou Jinheng's negative news on Weibo. Yi Hui was sitting on the bus and felt a little used to it. He also believed Jiang Yimang's words, "Not all the hot searches are bought, the main thing is to see enough. Not enough red".
After all, even an extra piece of gauze on his hand can be searched. The saying of "self-injury and eyeball" is outdated. Everyone's brains are wide-open to suspect that he has provoked the underworld. He is either injured here or sees blood there all day long, otherwise he has committed a crime. Which side is too old. There is no evidence for the former, and the latter is a fantasy. The marketing account that is keen to tell the stars' fortunes has become a popular comment. Many fans follow the trend and think it makes sense. Aite Zhou Jinheng asked him to worship Buddha to exorcise evil spirits.
This reminded Yi Hui of the old fortune-teller she met on the roadside last time, and also said that Zhou Jinheng would suffer a great disaster.
Zhou Jinheng himself didn't believe it, he could tell by the relaxed expression on his face like a joke at the time. Compared with this invisible and intangible speculation, Yi Hui felt that the psychological state was more important.
He called Dr. Liu. Before leaving the town, his current course of treatment was not over yet. Dr. Liu judged his condition to be able to live independently, so he could call him anytime if he had any problems.
Dr. Liu, who received the call, was a little surprised. He was even more surprised to hear him consulting other people's psychological problems. Yi Hui said embarrassedly, "I really don't know who to ask, so I take the liberty to disturb you."
"Don't bother." Dr. Liu on the other end said, "Seeing that you are recovering well, it's too late for me to be happy."
Yi Hui withheld his name and gave a general description of Zhou Jinheng's situation. Dr. Liu thought for a moment and said, "Self-mutilation is often to cut off the source of confidence loss, relieve anxiety and pain, or swear by anger, or to find some other kind of pleasure... If I have to use theoretical analysis, I think this gentleman tends to the first one."
Yi Hui hurriedly asked, "Then will he do this kind of thing again in the future?"
Dr. Liu said: "Don't be nervous, what I just said is just a theory. From your description, this gentleman has never done anything like this before, which means that this is an abnormal phenomenon formed under high pressure... Like a spring, Bund Too tight and it will break one day."
Yi Hui panicked even more: "Then what should I do? What medicine can I take to treat it?"
"Drugs can only play an auxiliary role. Just like I prescribed several kinds of medicines to calm the mind back then, in fact, the effect of medicines is very small. The reason why you think it is effective is because you think about it yourself. I am willing to take the first step.”
Yi Hui couldn't help feeling a little dazed when he heard this.
Dr. Liu dutifully answered questions: "After my analysis, the self-harm behavior of the gentleman you mentioned is likely to be caused by two situations, one is desperate, the other is self-punishment, or it may be both. If you have to intervene, the solution is simple. One is to tell him that you forgive him, not only with your words, but also with your actions, telling him that "it's all over, don't torture yourself again". "
This means that we must face the past directly, and can no longer passively escape. Yi Hui took a deep breath: "Is there any other way?"
"Yes, you can ignore him, regardless of his life or death, and let him despair to the end. The result may be to get rid of it completely and regain a new life, or it may sink deeper and deeper into the quagmire of remorse, until the dawn can never be seen again."
The car stopped at the foot of the mountain. Originally, he only planned to find a quiet place halfway up the mountain to sketch. Yi Hui followed the crowd and crawled. For no reason, he had the idea of going to the temple on the top of the mountain to have a look.
It is said that there are temples on every mountain, some have been in existence from ancient times to the present, and some have been newly built in recent years to attract tourists. Yi Hui had no way of knowing what kind of temple this mountain belonged to. He only felt that from a distance, it was no different from other temples, filled with incense and peaceful and serene.
Yi Hui followed the team and bought three incense sticks at the door. There were many people on the mountain on weekends, and he was a little shy among a group of middle-aged and elderly people. He stood in the team low-key with his head down, and was teased around by a few good aunts and aunts.
I don't know how many times I waved my hand to answer that I wasn't looking for marriage, and finally got him. Putting the incense into the huge incense burner, and then walking into the temple to pray for blessings, Yi Hui knelt on the futon, raised his head and looked at the Buddha statue with kindly brows and kind-hearted eyes.
God's will is unpredictable, and it is human beings. Asking for God's blessing is like taking tranquilizers. It is more about seeking inner peace.
But his mind was in a mess, and there were too many things that required him to think and decide, each of which involved a lot, and the relationship was very important, and even the appearance of gods could not help him.
So he didn't ask for anything, knocked three times, and was about to stand up to give his seat to the person behind when a surprise "Hui Hui" suddenly came from beside him, and then he was tapped on the shoulder and turned back to face Ye Qin's beautiful smiley.
"I didn't expect to meet you here, do you believe in Buddhism?" In the vegetarian restaurant in the temple, Ye Qin took a bite of a vegetarian dumpling, frowned, and then placed a jujube cake in front of Yi Hui "This should be sweet, please try it."
Yi Hui shook his head: "I was just passing by and put on the incense stick by the way." After thinking about it, he politely asked, "You... I mean you, believe in Buddhism?"
"Don't you, yours, you have more points, I'm the same age as you." Halfway through thinking of something, Ye Qin changed his voice, "I mean you look as big as my brother, you should be about the same age as me. ."
Yi Hui let out a "hmm" and lowered his head in a guilty conscience.
Ye Qin forced Yi Hui to come to the restaurant, saying that once he was born and cooked twice, he would drink tea for the first time and eat for the second time, and wait until the third meeting to make good friends. Yi Hui remembered that his sister-in-law used to be cheerful and lively, and hearing him say that just felt kind, not strange.
Ye Qin said while eating with difficulty: "Your brother... I said that my brother's brother is the one you saw last time. He said that vegetarian meals in this restaurant can also produce the aroma of meat. I really believe it, tsk. , the fragrance is fragrant, and the essence is still tofu and vegetable leaves, only he can't eat it stupidly."
This was the first time Yi Hui heard his sister-in-law complain about his brother, and he pursed his lips and smiled. On the opposite side, Ye Qin tapped the bowl with a spoon, and pretended to give a serious warning: "Don't tell him, or I won't take you out to play in the future."
Yi Hui wanted to tell him, "My brother said that because he didn't want you to be picky eaters", but because of his status, he finally held back and didn't say it.
He could hear that Ye Qin still had doubts about his identity, and from time to time he tried his words. He should have braced himself and tried to avoid topics related to the past to avoid revealing the truth, but somehow, he didn't want to bother about it anymore.
The words "desperate" and "self-punishment" were circling back and forth in his mind. It had been two hours since the phone call, and he still didn't understand how a small person could have such a big impact on the people around him
It was so big that it seemed that his life and death were in his own hands. If he squeezed it tighter, he could live, and if he loosened it, he might die.
Yi Hui was absent-minded, and chatted with Ye Qin casually. When asked where Cheng Feichi went, Ye Qin said dissatisfiedly: "I'm busy with work, so I'm going to bring me over and leave me alone. It's a loss that I took a month off, and I ended up wandering around in the S city alone."
Yi Hui said, "Wait bro... When he is done, he will definitely take you to play."
Ye Qin raised his eyebrows and smiled: "That's true, he has never lied to me."
A word "liar" poked a certain string in Yi Hui's heart without warning.
Yi Hui has simple interpersonal relationships and lacks emotional experience. At this moment, he most needs someone to guide him, and his sister-in-law Ye Qin, who has communicated with him a lot in the past, has become the best target.
After three rounds of tea, the two became more and more acquainted. While chatting endlessly about life, Yi Hui asked at the right time, "If someone you are very close to deceives you... will you forgive me?"
Ye Qin was stunned for a moment, put down his chopsticks and rested his cheek with one hand. After thinking about it, he said with some embarrassment, "What should I do, he didn't lie to me, I lied to him."
Yi Hui only knew that his brother and sister-in-law, who were now glued together, had been separated for five years. Time is precious to him, five months is a long time, five years... He can't imagine it at all.
Ye Qin's frankness also surprised him secretly. He thought that his brother and sister-in-law were separated because of some unavoidable reasons, but he didn't expect it was also because of deception.
Maybe time has passed, and the unbearable past can finally be put down, Ye Qin said with a smile: "I'm sorry I can't help you, you have to ask him."
As soon as he finished speaking, the phone on the table rang.
Ye Qin did not avoid others and answered directly by pressing the speakerphone. Cheng Feichi's low and steady voice came from the other end of the phone. Ye Qin said that when he was eating with his younger brother, Cheng Feichi immediately knew who it was, and greeted Yi Hui on the phone: "Eat more, vegetarian food won't take up your stomach, you can go down the mountain and find a restaurant to eat."
The elder brother still treated him as kindly as before. Yi Hui felt warm when he heard it, and answered in a low voice. Ye Qin answered the phone and said dissatisfiedly: "Are we pigs in your eyes? Immediately after one meal, the next meal?"
Cheng Feichi smiled on the other end of the phone and said, "It's a rare opportunity, why don't you two go to Disney together again."
Ye Qin unconsciously showed a coquettish demeanor, and pouted, "Forget it, let's wait until you're done with your work. It's agreed that the three of us will go together, and it won't work without one."
Before hanging up, Ye Qin turned around and said something while covering the phone. Yi Hui heard it. It was a sweet and greasy sentence "Bye bye brother".
Turning around and clearing his throat, he sat upright and continued the conversation just now.
"Actually, you don't need to ask, he has already forgiven me." Ye Qin said, the smile that had just been suppressed reappeared on the corners of his mouth, "Otherwise I wouldn't be sitting here eating this plate of peculiar vegetarian dumplings with you now. Well, maybe he's hiding where he's crying."
Yi Hui heard it in a fog.
cry? why cry? Like Zhou Jinheng, because of regret, because of pain
How could such a good sister-in-law do something wrong
"Most people in this world are good people in the traditional sense, but people make mistakes." Ye Qin said, raising his chin, "Only he is different, even a big liar like me can be forgiven, he is The best and the best."
Ye Qin used several "mosts", seeing that Yi Hui was even more confused, he leaned closer and blinked, half seductively and half threateningly: "So hurry up and recognize him, if you don't recognize him again... He is my brother. !"