I thought that Sheng Minou didn't care about my life or death in the past ten years, after all, his attitude has been so cold that it makes people tremble.
But what if all this is not what it seems
After saying goodbye to Lao Huang, I walked home and went in through the supermarket to buy a pack of cigarettes and a few cans of beer.
Although drinking is harmful to the body, but in such a mood at night, it is really suitable to drink him to get drunk.
Light the tobacco, exhale the acrid smoke, and the memory gradually returns to ten years ago.
I rarely recall what happened that day, but today I can't help thinking about the details again and again.
After two months, Sheng Minou finally answered my call.
I don't know if this is a sign of peace, but I was so happy and excited that I even pinched myself to see if I was dreaming.
"elder brother… "
He answered my phone, and I was ecstatic, but soon began to feel dissatisfied, if it wasn't for the phone. If he stood in front of me in person, I could hug him and act like a baby to him, and tell him my grievances, so that he couldn't push me away no matter what.
"Lu Feng, stop sending those things." Sheng Minou's familiar but indifferent voice came from the other end of the phone.
I clenched my phone tightly and said in a hoarse voice, "Have you watched it all?"
Did he read all those text messages that cared about him and apologized to him, those nagging things that even made me feel stupid
Sheng Minou said: "No, I don't have time to read it, and I don't need those things, so don't send them any more."
He doesn't need my concern, he doesn't need my foolish fawning, he doesn't even... doesn't need me.
Realizing this, I can't help but feel a little frustrated.
"Okay, I won't post."
I bent my waist, lowered my eyes, my spirits faded, the joy of being able to talk with Sheng Minou on the phone, but all turned into bitterness in an instant.
There was a moment of silence: "That's it."
I was startled, straightened my back suddenly, and said anxiously: "Brother, I... I want to see you. Please, let me see you! I don't know how to do anything, I just want to see you and see you pass How are you…”
I haven't been away from him that long since I was born, and I miss him so much.
The phone didn't hang up, but Sheng Minou didn't make another sound.
"See if I'm doing well?" Suddenly, Sheng Minou murmured, as if laughing, "This world doesn't mean anything to me, and it doesn't matter if it's good or not."
"elder brother… "
This world may be meaningless to him, and the people in this world are also dispensable, but he is very important to me, very important.
I want to convey my thoughts to him, I want to tell him how much I value him, but he will definitely not care, maybe he will find me ridiculous.
"Alright. Once you have truly experienced fear, you will never approach the abyss again."
When I came back to my senses, I heard him murmur as if talking to himself.
The meaning of his words was unclear, what fear and what abyss, I didn't understand what he meant, and I was a little confused. But before I could ask again, a piece of great news hit me—he agreed to see me.
"Tomorrow at five o'clock in the afternoon, see you in the ruins." He said, "Don't be late, and don't need to be too early."
The ruins are not far from my home. It is the place where I avoided scolding when I made mistakes when I was a child. Since I can remember, the huge unfinished building has stood there. It seems that it was originally intended to be a commercial building, but for some reason, it suddenly stopped working, and it lasted for many years.
The first time I hid there, the whole family found that I was missing and rushed to look for me everywhere, and even called the homes of my classmates to ask if they had seen me.
My mother was so anxious that she thought I was abducted by human traffickers, but in fact I accidentally fell asleep. When I woke up again, it was already dark, and a beam of flashlights shone directly into my eyes, shining my eyes full of little stars.
"... Lu Feng?" I covered my eyes and heard Sheng Minou's voice coming from behind the white light.
It was so dark and the road was not easy to walk. I really don't know how he found such a place.
Sheng Minou didn't ask me why I was hiding there, and he didn't show any excitement or anger when he found me. He just took my hand and quietly left the ruins with a bunch of flashlights.
When I got home, Sheng Minou called my parents who were still looking for me outside, and I realized that the matter was serious, and I was trembling with fear for a while.
My parents will come back soon, I thought I was going to experience a mixed doubles, I hid behind Sheng Minou and refused to come out. But what I didn't expect was that my mother didn't care, and even my father just said a few words to me, telling me not to run around at every turn next time, and then let me go like that.
When I was a child, I felt that I had escaped a catastrophe, and I was very grateful for it. When I grew up, I realized that the few short hours of my disappearance were nothing to me, but it was like a year to them. Maybe thousands of bad possibilities had been thought of in their minds. So when I appeared in front of them intact, how could they be willing to scold me again.
Hey, this doesn't hit me, no wonder I have such a bold personality when I grow up.
I remember I asked Sheng Minou how he knew I was hiding in the ruins.
He thought about it and said it was intuition.
He had intuition, but I took it as an induction between brothers. When I was frustrated and unhappy in the future, I would always hide there, and he could always find me again and again.
It can be said that it is the secret base of Sheng Minou and me, it has a special meaning, a special existence.
I was naturally happy that Sheng Minou asked me to meet, but I also wondered why he asked me to meet at that place.
I tossed and turned all night, kept thinking about Sheng Minou, excited and anxious, couldn't sleep anymore the next morning, got up and planned to go to the ruins.
That's right, although Sheng Minou made an appointment with me in the afternoon, I couldn't wait to see him and planned to wait there early.
I packed my bags, took bread and water in my backpack, and was ready to go out.
And at this moment, I received a call from a stranger.
I have never seen that group of numbers. It shows that they are local, and they rang for a long time and did not hang up.
I picked it up suspiciously, and it turned out to be Qi Yang on the other end.
"Why do you have my number?" I gripped my phone tightly, sat down on the sofa with my backpack in my hand, and my excitement was completely covered by a dark fire.
Qi Yang didn't answer my question, his tone was full of sympathy and pity, as if he was the elder brother who grew up with me and worried about me a lot.
"I've read all the text messages you sent to Sheng Minou, and he didn't reply to any of them, poor boy."
He poked my painful foot firmly and just right. I have to say that he is really a master of speech and knows the secret of angering others.
"It has nothing to do with you, you don't need to worry about our affairs." I gritted my teeth, secretly hating that if Qi Yang was in front of me, I could spit on his face.
"Did he ask you to meet today?"
I widened my eyes and asked in surprise, "How do you know?"
Many thoughts flashed through my mind in an instant, Sheng Minou just told me about the meeting yesterday, how could Qi Yang know? Could it be... Sheng Minou told him
But even if he said it, why is Qi Yang calling me now? Demonstrating with me to provoke me
"Little poor, if there is anything you don't understand, you can come earlier and I will tell you."
When I heard that he even knew the location, I was confused: "Did Sheng Minou tell you?"
There seemed to be a voice screaming in my heart: "Told him... not only about the text messages, he even told him about our secret base? How could he do that? How could he do that?"
Qi Yang chuckled lightly, his voice pierced through the eardrum, raising a cold discomfort, as if a poisonous snake was spitting out a long letter in my ear.
"Come on, I'll wait for you." After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone.
I gripped the phone tightly, stared at the call history on the screen which was less than five minutes old, took a deep breath, and was about to go out with my backpack.
When I glanced at the switchblade on the coffee table, I paused, thought for a moment, and finally grabbed it and stuffed it into my trouser pocket.
"Where are you going so early?" My mother came out of the house when she heard the noise, her face was sleepy.
I walked out sullenly: "Go out for a while, come back soon."
My mother stood there without moving, and tentatively asked for a long time: "Are you going to find your brother?"
"No." I put on my shoes, looked up and smiled at her, and left.
When I got to the ruins of the unfinished building, I just got in through the gap of the leaked metal baffle when I heard Qi Yang's voice from above my head.
"Here!" He stood at the top and waved his arms towards me.
I pursed my lips and walked upstairs.
The unfinished building was only half built, the concrete structure was poured, and the rest remained unchanged. Residual steel bars and household garbage can be seen everywhere on the ground. Since there are no walls, it is very transparent and bright.
Qi Yang was waiting for me on the top floor.
Unlike what I saw a few times before, he didn't wear glasses that day, and his hair seemed to have been carefully taken care of, and he looked quite energetic. At first glance, I almost didn't recognize him.
"Little poor, I'm glad you're still here."
But as soon as I opened my mouth, I knew that he was still him, that psychopath.
"Tell me, what exactly do you want to do?" I put down my backpack, not getting too close to him vigilantly.
Qi Yang smiled and walked towards me slowly: "Sheng Minou also asked me out today."
I was at a loss for a moment, before I could sort out the meaning of his words, I heard him continue: "He wants me to kill you."
The blood in my whole body seemed to congeal at that moment. It was obviously midsummer, and the cicadas on the treetops downstairs could hear the noise for hundreds of miles, but my hands and feet were uncontrollably cold.
Qi Yang's words are really funny and ridiculous, but it is undeniable that the impact is not small.
After the panic, anger came to my heart.
"Impossible." I went up to him and grabbed his hem, "Stop talking nonsense!"
Qi Yang was still laughing: "Imagine if there is a better way for him to solve the two problems at once? We will both lose, and we both die here, which is the best ending for him."
His words shook me.
"do not talk."
"A monster has no heart. Don't you know how much weight you have in his heart?" Even if I grabbed his collar, he was not afraid, "How could he love you? He doesn't even know what love is." Do not know at all."
"Shut up!"
I slammed my fist hard at Qi Yang's face, he staggered two steps, stabilized his figure, touched the corner of his mouth that was bleeding and bleeding, and smiled even more strangely.
"Your expression is so funny now." He slowly picked up a steel bar from the ground, "I was supposed to hide here, kill you, and then bury you. But I suddenly felt that that was too boring, I What's the point of walking in the abyss alone? I have to pull Sheng Minou into the abyss together."
When you have truly seen fear, you will not go near the abyss.
Sheng Minou's vague words flashed in his mind, did he really want Qi Yang to kill me
"You can let me tie you up, or you can hide here quietly and watch me kill him, or he kills me." Holding the steel bar in his hand, he laughed wildly, "In any case, he will be brought in by me hell."
He's crazy, he's really crazy.
Thinking of this, I rushed over and snatched the steel bar in his hand. We rolled on the ground, dust in our noses and in our eyes.
I couldn't keep my eyes open, but he seized the opportunity to strangle me around my neck with a steel bar, pressing me tightly under him.
My neck was in severe pain, and I was kicking with both feet. Just when my eyes were black and I was about to be out of breath, the strength on my neck suddenly loosened, and Qi Yang loosened his grip on me for no reason.
In the pocket of my trousers, the switchblade that I had brought just in case fell out due to a violent movement, and it happened to be within my reach.
There was a burning pain in my neck, and for the first time I felt that the air was so sweet.
In the panic, the switchblade pierced into the flesh, as if time stood still for a moment, Qi Yang looked down at his side, blood flowed out from the knife edge.
He stood up staggeringly, not caring about the knife wound on his body, the steel bar was raised high, and it was about to fall. I rolled on the spot and narrowly escaped a blow.
But he didn't let me go, he rushed over and wrestled with me again.
"As long as I don't die, I will haunt Sheng Minou for the rest of my life." There was blood between his teeth, and his smile was ferocious, "He will never try to get rid of me, forever!"
I could tell by the look on his face that what he said was true.
He will not let Sheng Minou go, he will lure him into the abyss, never to return to the sun.
"You're dreaming!" I growled, grabbed the knife that had been inserted into his abdomen and pulled it out vigorously. In an instant, warm blood splashed on my hand, making it sticky.
He grunted in pain, clutching his wound and trying to distance himself from me. I caught up with him from behind and stabbed him in the back, all I could think about was not letting him get close to Sheng Minou again.
Blood spattered on his face, Qi Yang let out a scream, and then started laughing wildly.
"You are so poor... He, he will never love you, but you want to do this for him?" He turned around and slammed a stick on my arm.
There was a sharp pain in my wrist, and I could no longer hold the switchblade.
Qi Yang pounced on me again, and I grabbed the steel bar he was attacking with my remaining hand, and the two of them struggled unknowingly to the edge where there was no protective fence.
"Can you protect him for a while, but can you protect him for a lifetime?" He asked.
The sharp top of the steel bar came closer to my eyeballs, I gritted my teeth and forced two words out of my throat.
"I can." With a hard push, I pushed him out.
One second his smirking expression was still reflected in front of my eyes, and the next second, everything happened too fast, just in the blink of an eye, Qi Yang sprained his foot and fell off the edge of the flat.
I subconsciously wanted to catch him, but it was too late.
He disappeared from my eyes, seven or eight floors high, and fell on his back on a piece of gravel. I threw myself on the edge and looked down. His mouth and nose were bleeding, and he didn't die instantly. Instead, he opened his eyes and stared at me for a moment, then slowly closed them.
I slumped to the ground, not knowing what to do next. Suddenly, I heard the phone vibrate and rang. After looking around for a long time, I was sure it was from my backpack.
Wearily moved to the backpack, opened the zipper, and found that it was a text message from Sheng Mingou.
He said, remember to be on time.