When Yunli returned to the coffee shop, several people were in a stalemate.
A minute ago, Qu Mingxin was already eager to see Yunli again. She rarely had this kind of experience of being criticized in person, and she couldn't accept that she wasn't liked by others here.
Fu Shize: "They are leaving."
Yunli felt it was sudden, but she could also guess that something happened while she was away: "Then I'll see them off."
Arriving at the door of the store, Qu Mingxin reluctantly took Yunli's arm and said, "Yunli, I didn't want to talk about this at first, but your friends don't seem to welcome us."
Yunli said alertly: "What do you mean?"
"I just had a few chats with them, and your colleague has a very bad temper."
Fu Shize has a bad temper
This was the first time Yunli heard this comment.
"What did you talk about?"
"It's nothing. As for you being made to stand before, I was just..."
The words "forbidden to stand" evoked Yunli's most sensitive memories of high school. She interrupted Qu Mingxin, "Did you tell them that I can't hear in my left ear?"
Qu Mingxin opened her mouth, but when she saw Yun Li straightened her face, she was no longer so confident: "I didn't expect that they didn't know. Besides, we have been classmates for so many years. I just wanted them to be nicer to you."
Yunli just felt unreasonable.
When she was a child, she was not afraid to tell others about this matter. She never knew that she had this problem. From her perspective, she thought everyone was the same as her.
All were deaf in their left ears.
It's all just decoration.
It was not until later, when the young child uttered words such as "deaf", "disabled" and "deformed", that she realized that she was indeed different from others.
She made a conscious effort not to mention it to anyone, but the news spread like wildfire throughout high school.
In the beginning, or to this day, she felt a little inferior because of this.
I also got emotional and couldn't help but ask, why her.
But what's even more confusing is why something that is not her fault is being used back and forth to attack her.
The grievances buried in the memory were intertwined with the current anger. I thought that after so many years, she would not be the same as before. Why is it still affecting her life again until now
"I don't think it's good for me to say things that embarrassed me in the past in front of my friends." Yunli looked at her, "I used to be too timid to contradict you. I thought I could just make do with it and get through it. ”
"That doesn't seem to be the case now." Yunli pushed her hand away and said coldly: "Please don't contact me again in the future."
After finishing speaking, he closed the door directly regardless of Qu Mingxin's expression.
Behind the door, Yunli took a long time to calm down. She finally felt proud. Unexpectedly, taking this step was not as difficult as she imagined.
…
In the coffee shop, Fu Zhengchu covered the book: "Uncle, were you angry just now?"
Fu Shize: "No."
Just now, when Fu Zhengchu heard Qu Mingxin talk about Yun Li's past, he felt that she was very pitiful. It wasn't until Fu Shize said those words that he realized what she was doing.
It seems like it is.
If it were him, he wouldn't tell others these things.
"Actually, I never found out that Sister Lili couldn't hear in one ear..." Fu Zhengchu racked his brains to recall his daily interactions with Yunli, but he remembered other things: "Uncle, did you know from the beginning? Every time we used to When you go out, you are always on Sister Lili’s right side.”
Fu Shize: "..."
Fu Zhengchu: "Even now, you are also on the right."
He wanted to further delve into Fu Chize's motives, but when he saw Yun Li walking this way, Fu Zhengchu stopped the conversation. Not knowing how to hide his thoughts, he hurriedly took a book from the side and pretended to read it.
Within a few seconds, she couldn't help but said: "Fu Zhengchu, you held the book backwards."
"Ah, eh." Fu Zhengchu quickly sat up straight: "I must have fallen asleep!"
Yunli: "..."
Yunli knew the reason for Fu Zhengchu's abnormality, and felt that she should say something. After much thought, she couldn't formulate the words, so she had to continue reading quietly.
After a few people casually ordered some light snacks in the cafe, they moved to seats with sofa chairs. Fu Shi, with his eyes drooping, asked Fu Zhengchu for a peaked cap, put it on and then slept in the sofa chair.
Seeing this, the other two people quietly turned over the books.
The exam was about to take place, but Yunli was absent-minded, thinking about what Qu Mingxin had just said—Fu Shize was irritable.
I know this is an exaggeration, but I can imagine that Fu Shi stood up for her.
After this idea came up, Yunli's mind was filled with imagining him getting angry for her, but after thinking about several possibilities, none of them suited his character.
It would have been nice if I was here just now.
I tried to concentrate on writing some formulas on the scratch paper, but it took me a long time to draw, but I ended up drawing a full moon on the paper.
Looking to the side, Fu Shi was nestled in the corner of the sofa, his thin lips pursed, his body trembling slightly, and his back tense, as if he was having a nightmare.
His brows were furrowed tightly, and his breathing became irregular, as if he was struggling.
It seemed that he shouldn't be allowed to have nightmares.
Yunli reached out to shake his shoulders, but Fu Shize suddenly grabbed her wrist and pressed her hand on the side of his leg.
“…”
Yunli tried to retract her hand, but the hand holding her didn't move at all. His breathing suddenly became much calmer, his brows relaxed, and he only held her wrist tightly.
Inexplicably, I thought of a baby sucking a pacifier.
This action made her unable to read the book, so she took out her phone, opened the chat interface with Fu Chize, typed a few words word by word, and deleted them one by one.
[Are you pretending to sleep?]
[Our actions are somewhat ambiguous.]
[You took my hand.]
[You took the initiative.]
[Can you be responsible?]
…
[It’s been five minutes.]
Fu Shize let go of her when he was about to wake up. Withdrawing her hand, Yunli realized that her wrist had turned purple from being held down by him.
Fu Zhengchu asked in a very strange tone: "Uncle, did you sleep well?"
Not sure what was going on with his tone, Fu Shize just raised his sleepy eyes and ignored him.
The three of them finished their review before dinner. Yunli returned home and slumped on the sofa, looking at the light through her fingers. Further down, there were shallow marks on her wrists.
Because she held hands, she felt like her relationship was progressing rapidly.
Why the hell do you eat her tofu all day long
And irresponsible.
Yunli depressedly opened WeChat and sent a message to Deng Chuqi.
Yunli: [Today is also a day when you can’t get what you want.]
Deng Chuqi replied instantly: [? ? ? Have you confessed?]
Yunli resisted the urge to tell her that she was being eaten: [No. Wouldn't that scare people away?]
Deng Chuqi: [Then why did you ask for it?]
Yunli: [I beg silently in my heart.]
Yunli waited for a while with her cell phone, but saw no reply from Deng Chuqi. When she swiped back to Station E, she saw that the candid photo post during the day had already received 200,000 likes. She simply replied and then switched to the chat window with Fu Shize.
The content is still stuck on last Halloween.
She asked: [I’m going to the Science and Technology City now!]
He should: [Yeah.]
Yunli: [As for the dynamic promotion of EAW today, are you free on Monday night?]
Both exams were on Monday during the day, and the winter semester courses happened to be adjusted, so the internship time was changed.
Fu Shize replied, still with a simple "hmm" word.
Looking forward, she almost sent a few messages and he responded to one, and the total number of messages did not exceed twenty. After looking back and forth for a while, Yunli changed the note to 'wife', which she found much more pleasing to the eye.
She flipped back to the original message and deleted the two middle ones.
Yunli: [/be my wife/]
Wife: [Hmm]
…
The night before the exam, Yunli stayed up all night. Not only did she brush several sets of papers, but she also made a matcha towel roll overnight. She carefully put it into a box and tied it with a bow with a blue ribbon.
After the exam, I went back to catch up on my sleep. Before I left for my appointment, it started to rain heavily. Yunli changed into a waterproof windbreaker, put the camera in a waterproof bag, and then arrived at EAW with an umbrella.
The employees had already gotten off work. Yunli waited at the door for a while. After a few minutes, the light rain turned into heavy rain.
She lowered her head and looked at the time. It was still ten minutes before the time they agreed. She stood at the window and drew circles on the spot with her shoes for a long time. Yunli opened her umbrella again and walked towards the fire exit entering the company.
Large drops of rain beat against the umbrella. Yunli saw Fu Shize standing at the door of the fire escape through the rain curtain. As she expected, he did not bring an umbrella.
As soon as she entered the canopy area, she immediately closed her umbrella and patted the rain on her body with her hands. She was already wet all over, and the ends of her hair were stained with water.
His eyes darkened, and he lowered his head and glanced at what she was holding: "Come to pick me up?"
Yunli was embarrassed to admit it directly and said softly: "I waited there for a long time, but you didn't come."
"Give me the umbrella." Fu Shize took the umbrella and opened it without asking.
The space of the single umbrella was cramped and could barely accommodate two people, so Yunli carried her camera bag to her chest.
The sound of rain was amplified many times in her right ear, and the rain curtain blocked her sight. Among all the touches, there was only the presence of another person.
The rain dripped down the umbrella ribs and hit the other half of Fu Shize's body. Yunli felt a little guilty: "My umbrella is too small, why don't you hold it alone."
Fu Shize didn't take this unrealistic idea to heart, but still lowered his head and asked her, "What about you?"
The girl, who was so small that she almost seemed to be huddled in his arms, quickly put on her hat and said, "My clothes are waterproof."
Fu Shize: "..."
Fortunately, the journey was not far. After arriving at the experience center, Fu Shi swiped his card to open the door and turned on the switch. He went to the storage room to get a towel and handed it to Yun Li.
Embarrassed to wipe it in front of him, Yunli turned around and gently wiped the wet part of her hair with a towel.
Yunli set up the camera and reflector and started shooting project by project according to the process set at the beginning.
The last project was to use VR glasses to play a horror game. For the effect of the show, Yunli decided to play it herself. After Fu Shi put on her glasses, he guided her to open the book "Seeing Ghosts When You Wake Up".
As soon as she entered the game, she entered the bathroom under the blood-red light. Yunli's whole body tensed up and she moved slowly inside. There were several rooms inside. After groping through them one by one, a miserable ghostly scream suddenly rang in her ears.
Yunli can't hear in her left ear, so she can't locate the source of sounds like ordinary people.
To her, all sounds came from the right.
She subconsciously felt that the ghost was on the right, so she took a step back to the left in fear, but ran directly into a hug. When she looked up, she saw a face of complete defeat.
Before Yunli screamed, Fu Shize took off her VR glasses.
She was still in shock, and her vision returned to the real world, but the soft touch behind her reminded her of the scene just now. She turned back with lingering fear, only to find -
She was in Fu Shize's arms.
He was holding the VR glasses with one hand, and the other hand was lightly touching her back shoulder to prevent her from falling.
“…”
"I did not do it on purpose."
She suddenly reacted, took two steps forward, and broke away from the embrace behind her.
Yunli's face felt hot, and she had taken advantage of Fu Shize again. She touched her cheeks with the back of her hands to confirm that the temperature had dropped before turning around.
Fu Shi lowered his eyes, turned off the VR glasses in his hand, adjusted the telescopic rope to normal size, and checked up and down.
He repeated this action several times.
Then he raised his eyes and looked at Yunli.
"you like me?"
His eyes are clean.
Yunli was stunned in place.
The first reaction was to deny it, but when the words reached his throat, no sound came out.
There were many nights when she couldn't sleep well and when she opened her eyes, she could vaguely see the figure of another person.
Yunli has never avoided this feeling, this kind of sweet, bitter and astringent experience, from the first love to the last adoration.
Wanting to be a part of his past.
Want to be a part of his present.
I want to be involved in his future.
Dense feelings were growing in her heart, and the seeds had already sprouted out of the ground. The cowardly woman tried to suppress and forget them, but she seemed to fight back and grew more and more in this world.
It turns out that in one person's eyes, there can really be only the figure of another person.
Yunli clenched her palms and looked at him: "I'm chasing you, can't I?"
Fu Shize was silent for a long time.
Or maybe just a few seconds.
Yunli felt that the seconds seemed like years, and her palms were sweating a lot, and she couldn't help but tremble slightly.
He lowered his eyes.
It was the same tone as that night of rejection.
"Feel sorry."
With every clear word he spoke, Yunli's momentary tense emotions also dissipated.
Yunli heard the rain stopped.
He also heard every word he said.
—"Maybe my behavior caused you to misunderstand."
- "I have no intention of falling in love."