Suffering from a high fever, Fu Shi went back to Jiangnanyuan and slept for two days. He kept seeing Yunli while half asleep and half awake.
Fu Shi woke up from the pain. His abdomen was in his chest, like a knife cutting him. There was dense sweat on his forehead. In front of him was the snow-white ceiling and white light tubes of the hospital ward.
Two days of fasting due to coma, two years of irregular eating and drinking paid off in one night.
Fu Dongsheng saw that he was awake and quickly stood up: "Don't move, just lie down."
Fu Shize frowned: "What's going on?"
"Stomach perforation. It's not a big problem. Your parents have arranged for you to have an operation in the afternoon." Fu Dongsheng comforted him, "Don't be afraid, son. It's a minor operation. Just sleep and you'll be fine."
“…”
Fu Shize's head was heavy: "Is the funeral over?"
Fu Dongsheng nodded and comforted him: "It's normal to be sad. The old man is old and we have to accept this. I showed the photo of Lili and Lili you sent me before. I showed it to my grandma. The old man should have no regrets. "
Fu Shize was silent for a while and asked, "What time is it now?"
Fu Dongsheng glanced at his watch: "One o'clock in the afternoon."
He vaguely remembered that it was early in the morning before he collapsed, and Fu Shi asked, "What's the date today?"
"No. 26."
—Two days passed.
No contact with Yunli for two days.
Fu Shize's lips turned pale and he asked him, "Where is my cell phone?"
"Son, can you treat the disease first..."
"cell phone."
Fu Dongsheng reluctantly rummaged in the bag next to him and took out his mobile phone. It takes ten seconds to start up.
While waiting, Fu Shize's fingers dug into his abdomen.
After turning on the phone, he immediately switched to the chat interface with Yunli.
Yesterday morning's message.
Yunli: [My brother is sick. I am going back to Xifu now. Can you go back with me?]
No new information.
"Dad, let's do the surgery later." Fu Shi pursed his lips and tried to get up.
When he straightened his body, the severe pain made his whole body curl up again. His body fell to the side, and the bottle was pulled to the ground and exploded into pieces.
-
It rained heavily in Nanwu in the past two days, and the dark clouds made people breathless. Yunli stayed at home, doing questions she couldn't understand.
The school year at Nanjing Polytechnic has started. There are more classes this semester and they are more difficult. She couldn't keep up with the classes in the first week.
It would be much better if Fu Shize was here.
Yunli was tired from doing the questions and stared at the empty seat next to her, dazed for a while.
During the two days of rain, Yunli did not receive any WeChat messages or phone calls from Fu Shize. She took the initiative to send a few messages, but Fu Shize did not reply.
She felt uncomfortable, but she also felt it was normal.
It's like, this is how everything should go.
Fu Shize didn't come to see her, probably because he wanted to break up.
She didn't know what it was like for a relationship to come to an end, after all, she hadn't tried it.
She didn't take the initiative to find him either.
She seemed a little tired too.
Yunli sniffed and continued to do the questions. She worked hard to maintain a normal life, as if she could deceive herself that everything was fine.
When Yang Fang called her, Yunli was racking his brains to wrestle with a question.
Yang Fang's tone was a little anxious: "Your brother started to have a high fever last night, thirty-nine degrees, and he hasn't recovered even after taking medicine."
She has a soft temper and doesn't know how to deal with problems. Hearing this tone, Yunli didn't take it too seriously. She herself would have a fever every one or two years: "He can still have such a fever at his age. Go to the hospital quickly and get some fluids to reduce the fever."
"I was so burned that I couldn't speak clearly, so I kept counting and mumbling one by one." Yang Fang's tone was anxious, "I asked your father to come back quickly, I can't stand up to your brother."
Yun Li comforted her with a few words, and Yun Yongchang arrived home.
Yunli hung up the phone and put down the pen in her hand. Her thoughts stopped, and she recalled the previous phone calls, where Yun Ye frowned and said she wasn't feeling well.
Within half an hour, Yun Yongchang sent a text message: [Go home]
Two simple words, no explanation, more like no time to explain.
Yunli trembled involuntarily, stood up from the chair, held her breath and opened the booking software with trembling hands. After pressing the wrong button several times, she booked the nearest flight.
The loading time is slow and every step of the ticket booking process seems to be infinitely drawn out.
Yunli took her ID card and went out without taking any other belongings. The cold wind did not bring her back any sense.
No matter what conflicts the two had before, Yunli still hoped that Fu Shize would be by her side when something big like this happened.
Yunli called Fu Shize several times in succession, but no one answered. She hurriedly edited a message and sent it, then took a taxi to Nanwu Airport.
Unspeakable fear enveloped Yunli's heart.
Although she knew she should be rational now, various terrifying possibilities kept flashing through her mind, and scenes of Yunye talking to her kept appearing.
Until he got on the plane, Fu Shize didn't reply to the message.
When the plane just landed, Yunli had already reconnected to the Internet. When she saw Yun Yongchang's text message, Yunli's mind went blank.
[Signed critical illness notice.]
[Come here slowly, don't be anxious, we are in the emergency room of People's Hospital now.]
When Yunli arrived at the hospital, Yunye had already been transferred to the inpatient department. The hospital only allowed one person to stay in the bed. Yang Fang cried so hard that the hospital made an exception and let Yun Yongchang and Yang Fang stay inside.
Yun Yongchang came out and told Yun Li that it was cholecystitis that turned into acute pancreatitis, and urgent surgery was scheduled for tomorrow evening. Yang Fang still couldn't accept the reality and refused to come out.
Yunli sat in the corridor of the hospital, staring blankly at the people walking back and forth. The tears that continued to well up in her eyes made her vision blurred. She had an unreal feeling. She always felt that Yunye should still be in school now, not a patient lying inside.
She suddenly remembered that Yun Ye had told her.
Yun Ye said something was wrong with him.
She didn't care.
She could obviously have discovered it earlier.
In the past, every time she felt slightly uncomfortable, Yunye would drag her to the hospital.
A great sense of guilt and helplessness came over her.
At lunch time, Yun Li went downstairs to buy a lunch box and gave it to Yun Yongchang and Yang Fang. Yun Yongchang looked ten years older, his eyes were red: "Go home and stay there. Come back for the surgery tomorrow."
"Dad, I understand. If anything happens, call me."
"Yes." Yun Yongchang responded and returned to the ward.
Yunye's room door can be seen from the door of the inpatient department. Yunli imagined that Yunye would suddenly get better, walk out on her own, and would unceremoniously dislike her depressed face.
However, they are all the shadows of strangers.
Yunli couldn't help but search the Internet for this disease. When she saw that the mortality rate was 10%, she collapsed and fell on her knees. She didn't dare to imagine the worst case scenario, and she didn't dare to go home, fearing that Yunye's condition would worsen in the middle of the night and she wouldn't even be able to see him for the last time.
I never thought that Yun Ye would be involved with the word death.
I huddled in the hospital corridor and slept all night.
Worried about missing the message, she kept the sound on her phone.
It's not cold in Xifu, but the temperature of about ten degrees at night is still uncomfortable. When Yunli woke up in the middle of the night, she looked at the bright lights and there was no one around.
She opened the chat interface between herself and Fu Chize.
Suddenly, Yunli was very sad. The two had been in a cold war for so long, and their relationship was on the verge of breaking up. But now, she really desperately hopes that Fu Shize can be by her side.
Early the next morning, Yin Yucheng called Yunli. She didn't want to answer the phone, but the other party persisted and made several calls.
After the call was connected, it was Yin Yunyi who spoke: "Sister, Yunye used to send me a text message every day, but he hasn't sent it to me in the past two days, and I can't contact him. I want to ask, what's going on with Yunye recently? ?”
Yunli was silent.
Silence often means bad news.
"Can you tell me?" Yin Yunyi's voice was filled with tears, "Sister, we agreed to meet during the summer vacation. Did something happen to him... "
She lost control of her emotions, and the phone was taken by Yin Yucheng. He asked, "Did something happen?"
Yunli briefly talked about Yunye's situation.
When she woke up in the corridor of the hospital, Yunli realized that she had been asleep for a while. Yin Yucheng sent himself a WeChat message. They flew to Xifu at two o'clock in the afternoon.
When the two arrived, Yin Yunyi's eyes were red and swollen from crying. Yunli rubbed her head absentmindedly as she read Yunye's name.
Yunli sat on the chair in the corner speechlessly.
Yin Yucheng walked to her and knelt down in front of her, and reassured her: "Don't worry too much. Acute pancreatitis is a very common disease. If you get her to the doctor in time, the operation will go smoothly."
Yun Li didn't listen to his words, she whispered: "You stay with Yun Yi. I want to stay by myself."
Yin Yucheng didn't say anything more, put a bottle of water for her, and sat back next to Yin Yunyi.
Yun Ye's operation went on as scheduled, and Yun Li received a message from Fu Shize during the operation.
[Lili, I have something to do here. I will see you in a few days.]
Yunli felt a tight thread in her heart, waiting for the operation to end.
The operation went smoothly, and Yun Yeren was still awake, but the doctor said that his life was out of danger, and Yun Li breathed a sigh of relief.
Visits could only be made during the day the next day. Yin Yunyi was unwilling to spend the night in a hotel and insisted on waiting here in the hospital.
Yunli sat on the chair.
Looking to the side, Yin Yunyi rested her head on Yin Yucheng's lap. The little girl felt cold, so she shrank up and covered herself with Yin Yucheng's coat.
Yunli asked nonchalantly: "Yunyi is coming here. Does uncle and aunt know about it?"
"How is that possible?" Yin Yucheng touched his head, "She has been crying in front of me for a long time. I feel sorry for my sister. I told my parents that I would take her to a B&B."
"Since I was little, Yunyi has been pampered. I didn't expect that your brother would endure such hardships now." Yin Yucheng glanced at the iron chair.
She and Yun Ye are not even a couple, they just have a crush on each other.
The tight thread broke, and Yunli collapsed. She got up and walked to the end of the corridor, which was a stairwell.
There was no light inside, so she walked in. Fu Shize called her more than a dozen times that night. She watched Yun Ye's surgery, but she didn't receive any of them.
Yunli called him back.
The call came through immediately, and it was a long-lost voice that made her feel extremely unfamiliar: "LiLi."
His voice was very soft and seemed to have little strength.
Why, he couldn't come to her directly like Yin Yunyi.
Why, all this time, he couldn't like her more.
Her eyes were wet, and the long-standing resentment was trying to find a breaking point. She was full of dissatisfaction, sadness and pain and wanted to let him know.
But in the end she said nothing.
She wasn't going to point fingers.
She only said one sentence -
"let's break up."
“…”
There was a long silence on the other side of the phone.
Every word hit Fu Shize hard through the phone.
It seemed to be Yunli's misunderstanding. There was a slight tremor in his voice, and Fu Shi asked her, "Is it because I didn't come to find you?"
Yunli said hard-heartedly: "There is this reason, but there are also other reasons."
“…”
It was quiet except for the occasional noise from the wind.
Yunli thought he would ask further questions.
But for a long time, there was only an inaudible sound—
"good."
Old and new conflicts accumulated together, and Yun Li spoke without hesitation, but she never thought that Fu Shize would directly agree.
Yunli hung up the phone dumbly.
She walked back to the corridor, and Yin Yunyi woke up, sobbing and saying that she had a nightmare.
Yunli also felt like she was having a long, long nightmare.
Yin Yucheng glanced at Yun Li and handed her his scarf: "You should also rest for a while."
Yunli shook her head.
She had a sleepless night.
When she was startled by footsteps in the corridor in the middle of the night, she reacted belatedly.
She and Fu Shize broke up.
…
Yun Ye woke up early in the morning. He had almost no memory of the entire process from the onset of illness to the operation, and looked at his position in confusion.
When Yin Yunyi came in to visit, her eyes were still red. Yunye pretended to be relaxed and focused entirely on the postcard he received last time.
Seeing that Yunye was still energetic, Yunli relaxed a little.
He still needed to stay in the hospital for a week. Yin Yucheng and Yin Yunyi returned to Nanwu, and Yunli came to stay with him.
Yun Ye was young and recovered quickly. After two days, he asked Yang Fang to bring over the exercise book at home to do the questions. Yun Li was speechless: "You can't have a good rest."
Yun Ye and she disliked each other: "I want to get admitted to Western University of Science and Technology, so don't bother me."
Yunli looked at him: "Don't get sick again."
Yun Ye had already heard about the dangers of the process, and lowered his eyes and said, "I understand."
-
When the boy was doing the questions, Yunli would hold his chin and be lost in thought, unconsciously thinking about Fu Shize in Nanwu.
When Yunli returned with the porridge sent by Yang Fang, Yunye was trying to get out of bed.
Yunli pressed him against his chest and said, "Wait."
"Damn, I'm going to get hemorrhoids." Yun Ye said dissatisfied, looked up and saw Yun Li's haggard appearance, and closed his mouth again.
Yunli opened the lunch box and found porridge, still piping hot.
She scooped up a spoonful, blew it and passed it to Yunye's lips.
"..." Yunye stepped back in disgust, "Yunli, you are my sister, not my mother. I drink it myself."
Yunli had endured it for a few days. Seeing how good his face looked, she knocked him on the head mercilessly and started talking again.
"Yunli." Yunye interrupted her, "When will you return to Nanwu?"
"what?"
"It's so noisy. Go talk to your brother-in-law. I need a quiet environment to recover." As soon as Yunye said this, Yunli's face turned pale. He was stunned for a moment and asked, "What's wrong with you?"
Yunli pretended not to care and said, "I broke up with your brother-in-law... ex-brother-in-law." She forced a smile and said, "It's not a big deal, just take care of yourself."
"Oh." Yunye took a while to react, "Breaking up? Who mentioned it?"
Yunli: "I mentioned it..."
"Oh." Yun Ye tapped his spoon in the lunch box a few times. After a while, he asked in disbelief: "Didn't you chase me for seven years?"
"How can we count the past? Chasing someone means chasing someone, breaking up means breaking up. These are two different things."
"Why did you break up?" Yun Ye looked confused, "Isn't my brother-in-law very kind to you?"
He added: "It's good for me, too."
“…”
"Don't worry about it." Yunli said impatiently, "He doesn't like me that much. The problem between us is not just a day or two."
When she said this, her chest felt as if she had been punched hard. She lowered her voice and tried to convince herself with red eyes: "It's normal for feelings to come and go."
She raised her eyes to look at Yun Ye, controlling her expression to be calm, and wiping the tears that had flowed uncontrollably on her cheeks with the back of her hand: "It's normal, right?"
time is too short.
It was so short that she still felt that her emotions had not been digested half yet. The pain is still vivid in my mind, as if it happened just yesterday.
Yunye also fell silent.
Yunli is his sister, she has always been strong in front of him, and she has never been weak when protecting him outside. At this time, he didn't know how to comfort him.
He held Yunli's hand like he did when he was a child and comforted her: "Sister, don't be sad."
"You still have me. You and Yin Yunyi are tied for first place."
-
I haven’t been back to Nanwu for a long time, the fish food in the automatic feeder was empty, and several small goldfish also passed away.
The chat history between the two of them stayed on that breakup phone call.
Yunli: [I will go to Jiangnanyuan at two o'clock tomorrow afternoon to pick up my things.]
On the chat interface, it kept saying 'Inputting', but after a few minutes, there was only one word: [Okay.]
When they arrived at Jiangnanyuan, Yunli only took away things that had nothing to do with Fu Shize.
When she left, the balcony was clean, with a lone chair on it, and she left the key on it.
She deleted all contact information related to Fu Shize and deleted their photos together.
The internship at EAW has also ended. Regardless of the deposit, Yunli returned the apartment in Qili Xiangdu.
There are so many memories in this apartment.
When packing her luggage, Yunli noticed the group photo that was stuffed on the sofa a long time ago. In the audience, he looked at her with an unruly look on his face, while she felt awkward.
Inexplicably, she stuffed this photo into her notebook.
The rabbit balloon beside the bed was deflated and hanging flat on the floor.
Thinking back to that Halloween, he pulled her behind him and she seemed to see those eyes again. Yunli's nose felt sour, she took one last look and closed the door.
Deng Chuqi caught up with the last batch of applications and received a master's degree offer from a school in the UK. She went to the UK in advance to work as a research assistant.
This opportunity also reminded Yunli of what his mentor once said.
The overseas exchange procedures went smoothly. After being bridged by her tutor Zhang Tianqi, she will go to a British university for a year.
As always, Yun Yongchang objected and simply ignored her after her persuasion failed.
Yunli stayed in Nanwu until July.
Occasionally when the courier knocks on the door, she will have a momentary delusion.
Maybe he and the others asked about her new place.
Maybe he came to find her.
In mid-July, Yunli rented a house after arriving in the UK.
Deng Chuqi and she are in different cities.
She independently dealt with various strangers in this strange city. She still had fear and resistance in her heart, but she did not retreat.
It is not easy to live in a foreign country, so she often opens live broadcasts to chat with fans.
Fans changed round after round.
Several die-hard fans will appear periodically, including the efe I saw earlier.
By some strange coincidence, Yunli opened efe's homepage. Empty, marking the genderless state.
As time passed, the two gradually became friends, and efe accompanied her through the most difficult period in a foreign country.
A few months later, efe said he would send her a postcard.
She received the postcards one after another, and they were all from Xifu. She could tell at a glance that they were not Fu Shize's handwriting, and he should be in Nanwu.
So is it.
It's been half a year since they broke up.
Yunli felt that she was whimsical.
Yunli goes out early and comes back late, focusing all her energy on her studies and video updates on the E-station.
When she came home from the laboratory that day, Yunli took the lunch box to the microwave to heat it up.
While waiting, Yunli was still reading the viral post from back then.
It has recently returned to the hot list.
It was posted a long time ago, but there are still a steady stream of new comments.
She looked at the boy in the video.
Unknowingly, Yunli also clicked on the reply box.
After hesitating for a long time, I finally made up my mind and began to consider every word before typing the next line.
It's like comforting others and comforting myself.
—Fortunately, I was brave enough to at least meet the moon.