After taking a seat, Yunli turned to look at Xu Qingsong. The other party didn't seem to have changed much. He was wearing a snug navy blue printed shirt and was leisurely watching the performance on the stage.
Her eyes moved to Fu Shize.
They met again.
She sat up straight and waited for the start.
Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Xu Qingsong leaving the table. Yunli took the initiative and asked Fu Shize: "Will you come back to EAW?"
"I never went back." Fu Shize put his hands on his knees and turned his head: "What's wrong?"
"When I saw Mr. Xu, I remembered that I haven't played VR games for a long time."
Saying this, Yunli remembered that Fu Shize had been by her side in all the VR games she had played so far.
Her heart froze. Fu Shi was silent for a while, then raised his eyelashes and looked at her: "Do you want to go?"
Yunli seemed to hear the meaning of invitation in this sentence. She held her palms and let out a long hum.
After she finished speaking, she stared ahead. As the musicians took their seats and the melodious music sounded in the venue, she heard him respond.
"Then I'll go with you."
Yunli curled her lips, feeling that she was too showy, so she concealed her smile. She secretly thought that rewarding herself after the interview result was the right choice.
Although she had no musical talent, she could not appreciate these beautiful or majestic pieces of music, and even felt sleepy.
But here, Fu Shize would occasionally approach her and tell her the creator and story of each track.
For her, a good performance seems to have become Fu Shize's special performance.
His voice is lazy, but it stands out in the background music, and occasionally a few words are swallowed up by the music.
Yunli unconsciously closed the distance with him, wanting to hear more clearly.
She didn't notice the distance between the two of them, and when she realized it, there was already a warm touch on her ear.
“…”
What did she encounter
As if being electrocuted, Yunli covered her right ear, stepped aside, and turned her head in embarrassment.
Fu Shize also looked confused.
"Did they touch each other somewhere?" Yunli wasn't sure if it was her imagination. The two of them still looked quite far away. She seemed to be making too much of a fuss.
“…”
I feel like I took advantage of him.
Yunli desperately wanted to explain this, and she swallowed: "I couldn't quite hear what you said just now."
With the relationship between the two of them now, Yunli should more or less express some attitude towards it, otherwise it would look like she was harassing her. After struggling for a long time, she turned around and said, "So I got closer."
"It's okay, it seems I kissed you."
“…”
Yunli didn't know how he could say such a thing seriously. After saying this, Fu Shize said calmly: "I'm sorry."
“…”
After this episode, Yunli consciously kept a distance between himself and Fu Shize. But he seemed to have forgotten what had just happened, and leaned close to her right ear again: "It's okay."
Given what just happened, the actions at this moment are much more ambiguous.
Fu Shize had no intention of going back and just said, "I also want you to hear clearly."
In the dimness, Yunli's right ear was already red, and Fu Shi smiled: "Don't worry. I will keep my distance."
These words told Yunli not to worry that the accident just now would happen again.
It was obvious that her ear was pressed against his lips, so she was the one who should keep a distance.
Yunli recalled the feeling and glanced at Fu Shize. He is looking at the stage, his lips are thin and soft, slightly lighter in color, adding the ultimate charm when the light changes.
Her face turned redder and she felt her whole face was filled with heat.
Unable to bear the throbbing in her heart, Yunli left her seat on the excuse of going to the bathroom.
After entering the bathroom, Yunli stared at herself in the mirror, her lipstick fading a little.
Yunli lowered her eyes, washed her hands, and took out the lipstick from her bag.
She paused.
It felt like she was on a date.
No matter what she thought before, she was inevitably attracted to Fu Shize when they met again.
After her wildly beating heart calmed down, Yunli walked out of the bathroom.
Unable to find the way back, she had to walk around the corridor. The corridor and the interior of the museum have distinct styles, simple and elegant. The corridor is empty and its exterior walls are made of transparent glass.
Yunli looked at the dark sky and took out her mobile phone.
Yunli: [Qiqi, I met Fu Shize at a performance.]
Deng Chuqi: [Did you touch it?]
Yunli: [It really happened. And Xu Qingsong, I feel the same as you said.]
Yunli: [It's quite fate.]
Just as she turned around to go back, Xu Qingsong's figure appeared at the corner.
He seemed to be thinking about something and wandered near Yunli before he discovered her existence.
Previously, Xu Qingsong left the table saying he was going to the bathroom, but he came in the opposite direction to the bathroom.
More like wandering around the gym with nothing to do.
Yunli still felt strange why he never came back, and she instantly understood that he was creating opportunities for her and Fu Shize.
Xu Qingsong didn't feel embarrassed when he met Yun Li, and said generously: "Come out for some air?"
"Um."
Even when they were together with Fu Shize, Yunli and Xu Qingsong were not close.
Yunli was like a puppet for a while, then she wanted to go back and stay with Fu Shize.
"I heard that you just came back from abroad?" Xu Qingsong asked, "Are you looking for a job?"
Yunli: "Well, it's basically confirmed."
"How long have you been breaking up?" Xu Qingsong's topic suddenly changed, but he didn't have any intimidating attitude when asking the question.
Yunli didn't react for a moment, and said dullly: "It's been a year and a half."
In fact, Xu Qingsong should know when they broke up.
Xu Qingsong was not the kind of person to make irresponsible remarks. There were some things that Fu Shize didn't tell Yunli, and he didn't intend to tell them in a self-righteous way.
He said casually: "We have been here since four o'clock, waiting for people here."
Yunli was stunned for a moment: "Is that person here?"
Apart from the three of them, there was no one he knew in the venue.
Xu Qingsong looked at her.
She seemed to suddenly understand his hint.
She recalled that the last time she saw Xu Qingsong was when Yunli returned to Nanwu from Xifu. She had already resigned and went to EAW to pack her personal belongings.
At that time, she met Xu Qingsong in the lounge of EAW, and he asked her: "Have you thought about it clearly?"
Yunli thought she was asking about her resignation, so she gave a suitable reason: "Yeah. I want to go back to school to do experiments."
Xu Qingsong took a sip of coffee and added: "About breaking up with Aze."
His deep eyes seemed to contain other meanings.
At that time, she was still reeling from the negative emotions of the breakup, and Fu Shize never contacted her again.
She just hummed.
Xu Qingsong looked at her thoughtfully and didn't ask any more questions.
For a moment, she felt like the whole world knew about their breakup. She didn't want this issue to be brought up again and just wanted to leave as soon as possible.
When she opened the door, Xu Qingsong said - "Aze is an emotional person."
-
After returning to Fu Shize, Yunli didn't mention her encounter with Xu Qingsong. She looked at Fu Shize's profile and thought of her life over the past year or so.
On the day I first arrived in the UK, it rained heavily and the roads were covered with moisture. The architectural styles along the way were very different from those in Xifu and Nanwu.
Arriving in this strange city, Yunli moved into the single room she had reserved in advance.
Someone pulled her into the local Nanwu Alumni Association. The president helped her a lot when Yunli first moved there, and later invited her to a party, but Yunli was too embarrassed to refuse.
There were more than a dozen people at the time, and she was socially awkward and sat in the corner silently. The president tried to integrate her into the group and later invited her to participate in gatherings many times.
Yunli has difficulty establishing friendships with people quickly and is reluctant to go.
After living there for less than a month, something went wrong with the rented house. The landlord insisted that the bathroom in the single room was damaged by Yunli and asked her to compensate her for two thousand pounds. Yunli was anxious to deal with this matter. When it came to money, the originally enthusiastic landlord seemed to be a different person, strong and cold.
Reality poured cold water on Yunli.
She did not tell her family about the incident and later called the police. The landlord relented and only allowed her to pay a small part of the compensation.
Being alone in a city where she could not speak the language, she felt wronged and did not want to be ridiculed by Yun Yongchang. Deng Chuqi was too busy when she first arrived in the laboratory, so she had almost no one to talk to.
Occasionally, she would make her laugh when she talked with her fans, but in fact, she didn't tell them most of the things.
That day, when she was packing her things, she came across a photo with Fu Shize. It was tucked into my notebook at the time and I brought it here accidentally.
She was cutting the fruit in a daze, and accidentally made a large cut on her hand.
He hurriedly found the medical kit and saw a lot of blood. Yunli lowered his eyes and disinfected himself with iodophor, applied medicine, and bandaged himself.
In the next few days, it was very inconvenient for her to cook, wash and take a bath.
While washing the fruit with her right hand, Yunli stared at the water in the sink.
After a long absence, she remembered that her hand was scratched when she fell. Fu Shi, a man with no fingers in the water, followed the recipes one by one and learned how to cook them.
At that time, she only felt happy and never delved into what Fu Chize's behavior meant.
Here, there is no one like him who talks to her right ear every time, no one who pays attention to and takes care of her daily life like him, and no one who will accompany her when something happens to her.
All the details of getting along come to mind.
Yunli realized that Fu Shize might like her very much.
She couldn't deny the loneliness she felt inside, especially every time she thought of Fu Chize.
Perhaps to relieve this loneliness, she began to attend parties infrequently. Gradually, she became friends with several international students.
In an accidental conversation, someone asked her: "Yunli, have you ever been in love?"
Yunli answered truthfully: "We talked about it once."
Several people listened with great interest and pestered Yunli to tell him about the whole love process.
At that time, Yunli hadn't gotten over this relationship yet and didn't want to mention it more. The others were reluctant, so Yunli had no choice but to give an overview of the love process.
In fact, she didn't want to mention it, as if the wound in her heart was being opened repeatedly.
But at that moment, she remembered the past that she had repeatedly tried to ask Fu Shize. She asked vaguely, but she regarded it as a barrier because the other party did not deliver as she expected.
When faced with a similar scene, she was unwilling to mention sad things. I later realized that even as a couple, there are still some things that are difficult to say.
If only she had been more patient.
Her breakup was hotly discussed among them, and several people rushed to express their opinions on love, but most of them spoke from her perspective.
Until at the end, a boy who had just been broken up with said drunkenly: "I think your ex-boyfriend is a bit miserable. After all, he didn't mention breaking up. What's more, he didn't go to bed with you. The cold war was just what you imagined..."
"Why are girls so difficult? After we broke up, your ex asked why, and you still blamed him for breaking up so easily, and you gave up because of it." After the boy finished speaking, he started to cry, "I don't understand it, why did I obviously give it all? It’s a lot, why does she have to say that I don’t like her enough, break up when I say break up, is our relationship so easy to give up?”
The others suppressed him and explained to Yunli that the boy had just fallen out of love and had drunk too much, and told Yunli not to take it to heart. Yunli pursed her lips and said nothing.
The boy sobered up the next day and kept apologizing to Yunli on WeChat: "I really drank too much last night and said nonsense. Don't take it to heart. I'm really sorry."]
[it does not matter.]
In just a moment, Yunli saw clearly the thought that had been escaping for a long time in her heart.
[You are telling the truth.]
She has problems in this relationship.
When they broke up, there were too many repressed emotions. Yunli always felt that there was no hope, so she proposed to separate.
Her mind was racing, but she never thought he would agree.
As if investigating a case, she was always looking for evidence that Fu Shize didn't like her, and regarded Fu Shize's agreement as confirmation that he didn't like her enough.
Then, she gave up on their relationship.
She has a sensitive personality and will over-interpret Fu Shize's behavior.
For a long time afterwards, Yunli forced herself to change the most negative side of her personality. She paid more attention to what she had done rather than caring about other people's evaluations and opinions; she proactively communicated with people around her, Not because of other people's words and deeds.
She felt that by doing this, if one day she really had the chance to see Fu Shize again, she would not hurt him because of her sensitivity.
It's a party again.
The boy who cried and complained about his ex-girlfriend's breakup last time mentioned that he got back together. It was the girl who took the initiative and reflected on her own problems with him.
"Yunli, haven't you considered talking to your ex?"
After the party was over, the boy asked Yunli privately.
Yunli just smiled: "If there is a day when we meet, let's talk about it."
It's not like Yunli has never thought about it. She wants to find him and have a frank talk. If he still likes her, they can continue to be together.
But the reality is that they fell in love once and broke up.
She realized that her personality was too sensitive and humble, making it difficult to maintain a stable relationship. Fu Shi was introverted and unable to break the deadlock.
She didn't want to break up again for the same reason and hurt both parties.
What's more, after such a long time, Fu Shize most likely doesn't like her anymore. She didn't think she could make Fu Shize like her forever.
The two of them have never been in contact with each other, like complete strangers.
Compounding is just two sentences.
Just like when we first started falling in love.
It's hard to maintain a relationship.
Seeing Fu Chize again, Yunli felt that he was living a good life and hoped that he would live a good life.
Both of them are just grains of sand in this world, touching among thousands. It is very common for them to then return to dust.
However, Xu Qingsong told her clearly that Fu Shi was a very emotional person.
So for a year and a half, he never forgot her.
If this was the case, Yunli didn't want to deny her feelings.
She never let go of him either.
-
At the end of the performance, the audience left the stage. Yun Li and Fu Shi arrived at the door, and Xu Qingsong said hello in advance to get ready for the next round.
There was a long line of cars outside the stadium, and cars kept honking their horns.
Yunli opened the taxi app.
Fu Shize glanced at her and asked her, "Shall I take you out? You can't get a taxi here."
Yunli looked outside and saw that the cars on the road were almost motionless. She nodded.
"Wait here for a while." After Fu Shize finished speaking, he planned to go cycling by himself.
Yunli followed him somehow: "I'll go with you."
The little turtle parked at the back of the gymnasium, and taking his car seemed to be a common thing.
Fu Shize unlocked the little turtle, picked up the helmet and played with it, then raised his eyes and asked her: "It's still early, why don't you go for a ride?"
Yunli was not as entangled as usual and said softly: "Okay."
Fu Shi took her to the expanded part of Western University of Science and Technology, where most of the floor had been repaired.
The entire extension area is deserted.
Because of her trust in Fu Shize, Yunli didn't feel scared, she just felt like she had broken into a secret place he often visited.
The little turtle was moving very fast, and the wind kept blowing into her clothes, making her unable to open her eyes. After a few minutes, she stopped in front of an orange building.
"I'll take you somewhere."
After Fu Shize finished speaking, he walked inside. The building had been fully constructed, but it had not yet been put into use.
After taking the elevator to the fourteenth floor, the surroundings were dark and Yunli followed behind him.
Until I reached an empty classroom, the smell of decoration was still lingering in the air. The classroom was connected to a spacious rooftop, and the rooftop door was locked.
Fu Shi opened the window and put a chair for Yun Li: "I'll go over first. You get up from the chair later, and I'll catch you on the other side."
He rolled over and landed smoothly on the ground.
Yunli met his eyes and after a while, she stepped on the chair and slowly stood on the window sill.
The window sill was more than one meter high. She hesitated for a while.
As if he knew her concerns, Fu Shi reached out to her.
Yunli held it, and when she jumped down, he used his other hand to hold her arm.
Land firmly.
In front of her eyes was his chest, and Yunli almost leaned on it. She took a small step back and slowly took her hand back.
The rooftop has more light than the corridor.
The two of them lay on the side railing to let the wind blow. The sky was vast and the bustling city was in the distance.
The evening breeze blew the broken hair on his forehead lightly, and he rested his face on his hands: "I quite like coming here when I am alone."
His eyes were very clean, becoming softer at night.
"There are two of us now." Yunli replied, looking at the scenery in the distance.
For a moment, he didn't respond.
Yunli turned around, and Fu Shize was looking at her. The moment her eyes made contact, she looked back embarrassedly.
There are two people.
Fu Shi looked at Yunli's small face buried in her arms, her eyes reflecting the light and shadow in the distance.
The two of them stayed quietly on the rooftop until the hustle and bustle of the city in the distance turned into silence.
Yunli didn't know why, but every time she and Fu Shize could stay together for so long without doing anything.
After returning downstairs, Yunli took out her mobile phone.
Yunli: "I'll take a taxi and go back directly. You should also go back to the dormitory early to rest."
It was almost ten o'clock now, and she couldn't afford to waste Fu Shize's time too much.
Fu Shi took out his cell phone with her and asked her, "Still living there before?"
Yun Li hummed, and before she placed the order, Fu Shi took a taxi directly. Within a few minutes someone took the order and the driver drove up to them.
Yunli didn't shirk or ask why.
After not resisting her true inner thoughts so much, Yunli felt that everything seemed a little better.
Fu Shize opened the car door, Yunli got in, and turned around to say goodbye.
As soon as he sat upright, he found that Fu Shize had also sat in.
"?"
"Send you back." He glanced at her and said softly.
The two of them were silent all the way.
This is a road that Yunli is very familiar with. Her eyes focused on the signboards, shops, and lights along the way. She could even recall that when she sent Fu Shize from the airport to Western University of Science and Technology two years ago, everything was the same as it is now.
Many times, she drove this road to find Fu Shize.
Now that she had the opportunity to observe this section of road, Yunli realized that she actually liked this section of road.
Because every time she drove through this section of the road, she could see Fu Chize.
She peeked at the person next to her with her peripheral vision. He was sitting quietly. Just like when they were together in the past, they always stayed by her side silently.
The car quickly arrived at the gate of the community, and Fu Shi got out of the car with her, and the two walked quietly downstairs.
Most of the trees planted in Xifu are evergreen trees with luxuriant branches and leaves. Even in autumn, the faint chirping of cicadas can still be heard at night, announcing the change of seasons.
The cicadas were chirping in Yunli's ears, which made her feel extremely uneasy. She raised her head to look at Fu Shize, who was also looking at her.
She whispered: "I'm going up."
Fu Shi nodded.
When Yunli walked to the door, she heard his voice behind her: "Lili."
She paused and turned around. He was in the dark. Yunli could not see his facial features clearly, but she could hear his voice clearly.
"Sweet dreams, Lili."
-
After arriving home, Yang Fang and Yun Yongchang were watching TV, showing an urban emotional film. Yunli heard Yang Fang say that the hero and heroine probably missed each other due to various reasons when they were young, and after experiencing different lives, they both became the most hated people by both parties.
Yunli couldn't help but think of herself.
But since her separation from Fu Shize, Yunli knows that she has never hated him.
Maybe I hate myself a little bit.
She opened the refrigerator, took a bottle of milk, and poured it into the cup. She was thinking about things with Fu Chize, and the exaggerated lines on TV were far away from her ears.
After returning to the room with the milk, Yunli turned off the light and turned on the paper lantern ball. When the star-shaped light and shadow swayed, Yunli recalled what Fu Shize had just said.
"Sweet dreams, Lili."
She thought of her own entanglements, entangled with this and that.
She struggled with whether his behavior meant she didn't like her enough, wondered why he didn't come to see her after the breakup, and whether the two of them would make the same mistakes again because of her personality.
But at this moment, or earlier, when she and he were walking around campus, and when the scent of osmanthus reminded her of their first acquaintance in Nanwu, she had a strong desire to forget the conflicts and troubles between the two of them in the past.
Be with him again.
This idea, even after the impact of the breakup, no matter how much she deceived herself, was still in her heart and never disappeared.
What's more, she knows now that he still has feelings for her.
The changes she has worked hard to make in the past year have taught herself to be brave, confident, and strong, not to shrink and avoid love.
Yunli pulled out the notebook pressed at the bottom of the cabinet, which contained a photo of the two of them. Yunli rubbed it with her hand, remembering that a long time ago on the court, Fu Shi was sitting on her right side.
Just like tonight's companionship.
Yunli sat up suddenly and opened the chat window between herself and Fu Shize. She pursed her lips and entered characters.
He sent the message first.
F: [I want to see you.]