A few seconds later—
F: [Downstairs.]
It had been half an hour since Yunli went upstairs. She didn't reply to the message, so she pulled on her slippers and walked downstairs.
Fu Shize was still at the original place. When he heard the footsteps, he raised his eyes and their eyes met.
She slowly moved in front of him.
The two of them stood under the tree. She lowered her head and noticed that Fu Shize was holding two bottles of chocolate milk, which was the brand she drank most.
He opened the straw for her in a natural manner: "I just went shopping in the supermarket."
Yunli subconsciously took it and realized that the milk was warm and the packaging was wet. He didn't know where he found the hot water for soaking.
"How did you heat it?" Yunli held the milk. It was better to drink it hot, but every time, she was too lazy to heat it herself.
Fu Shize remembers it every time.
"I found a restaurant across the street and ordered some soup." Fu Shize looked at the entrance of the community and said, "I asked them to give me boiling water."
It was a familiar sweet taste that she hadn't had in a year.
"that… "
Yunli leaned next to him, shook her palms, and mustered up the courage to ask him: "Are you waiting for me in the gym today?"
Fu Shize: "Yeah."
He turned his head and thought for a long time. When he sent Yunli downstairs, he had already planned to go back to bed. When I passed by the store, I saw chocolate milk at the door.
Just like everything was related to her, he walked in unconsciously.
Playing with the two cartons of milk in his hands, he kept thinking about when to speak. Before tonight, he was still hesitant in every way, but when the two of them stayed with each other in silence for so long on the rooftop.
He just felt that there should be no more hesitation for a moment, and he didn't want to wait for a moment anymore.
Just as Yun Li was about to continue speaking, Fu Shize's eyes returned to her face, and he paused for several seconds, as if he had made up his mind: "Li Li."
He said slowly, word by word: "Can we get back together?"
Yunli hadn't spoken out the words she had been brewing for a long time. She didn't expect Fu Shize to be so straightforward.
After staring at him blankly for a while, Yunli was brought back from her thoughts by the chirping of cicadas above her head.
In the darkness, Yunli could hear each other's breathing. She squeezed her palms uncontrollably and asked him, "Can I ask something?"
Before she spoke, she wanted to clarify one thing.
In the memory, all the details point to Fu Shize really liking her. During the days when she was wandering alone in Cambridge, she corroborated this point countless times in her memories.
This was the only thing she had never figured out.
Yunli mentioned what happened when we broke up: "When Yunye was sick, you didn't reply to my message for two or three days."
"I didn't tell the truth last time." Fu Shize was silent for a while, his eyes darkened, "I just had a gastric perforation operation that day. Before that, I had a high fever. I woke up in the hospital."
"I don't want you to worry. I want to leave the hospital and come back to Xifu."
I never thought this was the reason. Yunli even wanted to ask Fu Zhengchu if it was because they broke up and he was sad that he became so seriously ill.
Yunli still clearly remembers that she was in the hospital at that time, under the dazzling white light, she ignored the dozen or so calls he made, she broke down emotionally, and blurted out the breakup when she couldn't bear it.
She remembered that she didn't go to Xifu because of Fu Shize, and she felt that Fu Shize didn't like her that much.
It hadn't occurred to her that he might be bad too.
Yunli felt a lump in her throat: "Then when I proposed breaking up, why didn't you tell me..."
"You gave this to me." Fu Shize took out the origami moon from his wallet. He often took it out and looked at it, but there were already some pieces in the corners.
-Seeing you is like seeing the moon.
Under the light, his face was thin and lonely, with tired gray shadows around his eyes.
"But when you see me, I am no longer the moon."
"At that time, I was not qualified to retain him."
So he went back to graduate school and wanted to change back to the person she liked before.
This is what he can and is willing to do for her.
For Fu Shize, before those two years appeared, he had no idea that his life could become such a mess.
Fu Shize himself didn't care about academic qualifications and degrees, but he was not qualified to ask Yunli to be with him who was so depressed.
Yun Yongchang's objection was not unreasonable. His daughter was actively studying, and he hoped that she could find a comparable person. Or at least, a person who lives seriously.
Fu Shi took out Team Unique's moon-shaped badge from his pocket and handed it to her. In the darkness, Yunli could feel his uneasiness.
"I'm back to my original self."
Yunli looked at the badge blankly, her eyes astringent.
She has not forgotten that after Yun Yongchang arrived in Nanwu, the relationship between the two became intense. She did not forget that after he arrived in Qili Xiangdu, his first reaction was to hold her in his arms. Then the memories entered the stinging stage. The two looked at each other stiffly, and the atmosphere was so heavy and suffocating.
- "You want me to go back to school and change back to my old self?"
-"right."
-"I see."
So he agreed to break up and returned to school alone to fulfill the promise he made at that time.
This is a reason Yunli has never thought about.
She didn't think it would be good if Fu Shize changed back. She never thought that those feelings of inferiority and sensitivity that she placed on herself would also appear on Fu Chize.
"Do you think I broke up with you because of what my dad said? Did you agree to break up because of this?" Yun Li murmured, she lowered her eyes and opened her mouth.
"I have never told you that I have a low self-esteem when I am with you. So I always worry about gains and losses. If you don't do anything or say anything, I feel that you don't like me that much."
For so long, Yunli has always found these words difficult to say.
"I couldn't contact you at that time. I thought you didn't want to be with me because of my dad." Yunli said softly: "Then Yunye was undergoing surgery, and I wanted you to be by my side."
"Yin Yunyi came by plane at that time and was sitting in the corridor of the hospital waiting for Yun Ye to finish the operation. After I saw it, I felt very broken."
"I didn't know you were sick. I just thought... you don't like me very much."
"After we broke up, you didn't come to me, so I thought maybe you always wanted to break up." Her thoughts went back to the countless days and nights before she went abroad. She kept looking at her phone, thinking that maybe Fu Shize would come to her. of.
"Later, I went to communicate. In fact, it was not like I told you last time. I didn't live that well abroad. I didn't know how to socialize and my spoken language was not good. The landlord of the first house I rented at that time wanted to extort money."
"I called the police, but my English was not good and I couldn't speak. I didn't pay much in the end, but the landlord made it very unpleasant. I didn't know who I could talk to at the time."
"I was living there alone, and then I remembered many details of our time together, and then I remembered that you actually like me very much."
"I originally wanted to find you, but I don't think I'm good enough."
Up until this point, Yunli had controlled her tone to be calm.
After a year and a half, she had been stubborn for so long, and finally said those words at this moment - "I don't want to break up."
"I was just speaking out of anger, but I really never thought about separation from you." Yun Li choked with sobs.
"I regretted it for a long time."
"But I'm so worried. With my personality, after finding you, we get back together, and because of my personality, the two of us will be separated."
Her last sentence was in a weak voice: "This year, I have worked hard to change. I have worked hard to socialize, integrate with other people, and learn to communicate. I have changed for the better."
"I've worked hard and I don't want to be separated again."
Fu Shi closed his eyes and pulled her into his arms.
"Lili."
Fu Shi thought that the breakup she initiated would not be that harmful to her. He thought she wouldn't be that sad.
But she has been alone outside for more than a year. He watches her live broadcast, but even if she is unhappy, she still puts on a smile and chats with her fans.
He didn't dare to think that she was inherently introverted and was forced to report to the police in a foreign country. After reporting to the police, she could only be scolded by others.
He didn't dare to think that it was obviously not her problem, but she was forcing herself to do various things to alleviate her guilt.
It would be nice if he asked more.
But at that time, he didn't even have the courage to ask more questions.
"I'm sorry, if I had taken the initiative to tell you these things at that time... instead of just thinking about it..." Yunli has not shed tears for more than a year, forcing herself to be strong in everything she encounters.
But at this moment, endless guilt engulfed her, her eyes were red and her voice was trembling.
"We will never be separated."
They wouldn't be apart for a year and a half, the two of them healing alone.
If she hadn't been so impulsive and inconsistent, if she had listened to Xu Qingsong's words, if she and others had asked more about Fu Shize instead of stubbornly believing that he didn't like her, neither of them would have As for being so hurt.
Fu Shi didn't have to spend that month of cold nights alone while sick, and she didn't have to go back to Western University of Science and Technology alone, just because she said she wanted him to change back to his previous appearance.
She never thought that her impulsive behavior would make the two of them have a hard time in the past year and a half.
"Lili." Fu Shize wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, "I don't blame you."
In countless dark and trembling nights, he never blamed her.
When the two were together, his feelings for Yunli were simple and passionate, and Yunli's feelings for him were equally sincere and pure.
That kind of beauty would not make Fu Shize blame this relationship and her in the relationship.
Fu Shi kissed her lips gently.
Like countless times before, Fu Shi leaned close to her right ear and told her solemnly and confidently word for word.
"Lili."
"We will never be separated again."
Yunli could clearly hear the cicadas chirping incessantly at night, as well as his words. She heard the promise in his words, like gentle waves pushing her to the beach. When she looked up, what she saw was the familiar emotion in his eyes.
That gloomy year and a half has disappeared.