Yunli looked at him: "Why didn't you come to me directly?"
Until he left Nanwu, Yunli held unrealistic expectations deep in his heart.
As long as he can come to her, just because of this extra step of liking, the two of them can put aside their past grudges and move on.
When she was in England, she would remember the details of getting along with each other and tell herself that Fu Shize liked her very much. It's just that after the breakup, he no longer needs her, and it's not that he has to be with her.
Just missed a year and a half.
She would rather that everything goes as she imagined, and she would rather that Fu Shize quickly walked out of this relationship and returned to a normal life.
At least this way, Fu Shize will be better off than what actually happened.
"I told you before." Fu Shize sat up a little straighter, "I want to change back to my previous appearance and come find you again."
He hadn't done it yet and wasn't sure he could do it.
Fu Shize leaned forward, put his hand on her hair, and touched her forehead: "It's just that I don't want to rule out another possibility - you came back to me."
After a long moment of silence, Yunli said softly: "I wish I had gone back to find you."
Yunli felt guilty about this matter. When she thought of Fu Shize's state at that time, she felt breathless.
She also leaned forward a little and held his finger: "Don't you feel sad when you think about what happened during that time?"
Fu Shi said directly: "I won't think about those things." He put his arms around her waist and buried his face in the back of her neck, smelling the sweet smell of shower gel.
Yunli felt his soft lips on her neck, and he whispered softly: "I spend all my free time thinking about you."
Yunli found that her and Fu Shize's emotional states were often on different channels. She was always sad and blamed herself when she mentioned their breakup. And Fu Shi is—
He doesn't seem to think about it at all.
After thinking about it, maybe it just wanders in my head for a while and continues to think about other things.
Therefore, even if she discovered something that she thought was very sad - sending messages in one direction for a year and a half, it seemed like nothing to Fu Shize.
He doesn't seem to care about his own gains and losses at all.
Because of this, in addition to feeling guilty, Yunli also felt distressed.
She said seriously: "Are you really clear now? I liked you when I first met you in Nanwu, and I didn't think about your past."
Yunli wanted him to know that all she liked from beginning to end was just the person in front of her.
"I don't need who you become."
"Yeah." Fu Shize seemed to have listened, and continued to open the notebook. After a long moment, he continued, "But I want to give you a better life."
After returning home, Yunli found several empty express boxes at the door, and she knocked directly on Yunye's door. The door opened a crack, revealing an eye that looked exactly like hers.
Before Yunye could identify the person, Yunli pushed the door open.
Yunli: "What are you doing sneakily?"
This rough action made Yunye no longer need to identify the person coming. He tensed up and stepped back, allowing Yunli to enter.
The room was filled with sweetness, and dried flowers were scattered on the ground in half-shaped shapes. Yunye's mobile phone was opening the confession tutorial on the E station.
Yunli: "..."
Yun Ye was also a little embarrassed, but he still bit the bullet and asked her in a bad tone: "Why are you coming in?"
Yunli sat on his bed and lay down at 90 degrees to the bed. She used her arms to block the light.
Yun Ye kicked her calf: "If you have nothing to do, just go out."
Yunli: "I'll stay for a while and won't disturb you."
Yun Ye glanced at her and saw that she didn't move, so he reluctantly said: "Okay."
Yunye sat back on the floor, turned his phone to silent, and continued playing the confession tutorial. The screen of his mobile phone was small, so he doubled the speed and had to concentrate to recognize the subtitle content.
A minute later, Yunli turned over.
She sighed: "Yunye, I feel so guilty."
Yunye: "..."
Yun Ye: "Can you wait until I finish..." Before he finished speaking, he saw Yun Li staring at him faintly, so he kept silent, covered the phone, and sat cross-legged in front of Yun Li.
"Say it."
Yunli described the breakup and reunion to Yunye from Fu Shize's perspective.
After finishing speaking, she sat on the edge and waited for Yunye to speak.
Yun Ye: "Are you done?"
Yunli: "Yeah."
Yun Ye: "Then get out."
Yunli: "?"
Yun Ye was extremely confused. Yin Yunyi had a quarrel with him before, saying that he was too rational. When she talked to him, his reaction was to propose Plan 1 to Plan N instead of empathizing with her.
Yin Yunyi said that he only needed to listen quietly and resist his instinctive analysis of the problem.
At this moment Yunye had finished listening to Yunli's speech, and Yunli looked at him unhappily.
Between two women with different personalities, Yun Ye had no way out: "What do you want me to say?"
Yunli struggled: "I don't think your brother-in-law should have liked me for so long. I don't seem to have anything good. After knowing that he sent me messages for a year and a half, I feel guilty until now."
Seeing that her attitude was as low as dust, Yun Ye frowned unhappily: "Who told you that?" He said directly without thinking: "You can judge for yourself. In terms of appearance, personality, and education, which one is worse for you?"
Yun Ye added: "Besides, you are quite reasonable in front of your brother-in-law."
Seeing that Yunli was silent, Yunye continued: "Sister, haven't you thought about it? There are people in this world who are like this. After they fall in love with someone, they will not change easily."
Yunye and Fu Shize didn't have many opportunities to come into contact.
But maybe they are all men, and he can quite understand Fu Shize.
In his eyes, he is a very simple person, no matter how he treats things or people.
Yun Ye was convinced: "I think my brother-in-law is such a person."
"Besides, brother-in-law is luckier. The person he met was you, not someone who completely forgot about him after breaking up." Yunye followed her example and lay on the bed, holding his hands behind his head: "Sister, you have already You’ve lost it once. Rather than feeling guilty, shouldn’t your current emotion be one of cherishment?”
Yunli didn't say anything, and suddenly stood up and returned to the room. She sat down and lit the paper ball lantern again.
The emotion of guilt is still there, but it is replaced by a new emotion - cherishment.
-
At eleven o'clock in the evening, Fu Shize had just finished editing Lin Jingran's article, unlocked Xiaogui, and his phone vibrated for a while.
He opened the message and Yunli sent him a message: [Aze.]
Unlike Nanwu, the autumn temperature in Xifu is moderate and the wind is often blowing. Fu Shize's clothes were blown up, so he pressed them down.
Lin Jingran had already ridden to the side, and his voice was accompanied by the huge wind noise: "Brother, the wind is so strong, why don't you leave?"
Fu Shize said briefly: "Let's go first. Send me a message."
"Senior brother, you are so eaten up. Don't look at your phone while riding on the road." Lin Jingran teased him and left first.
When his eyes returned to the phone screen, it was still the same message. Fu Shi sat on the turtle with his legs on the ground and replied with a questioning expression.
Yunli: [I want to reply to the messages from that year and a half.]
Yunli: [Reply once a day.]
Fu Shize thought for a while: [I owe one and a half years, is there any interest?]
Yunli: [What interest do you want?]
Fu Shi lowered his eyes: "Not much."]
He slowly typed: [Two more words every day.]
After sending, Yunli did not respond for a long time.
He slid the phone into his pocket, backed up the car skillfully, rode down a hill, and then walked straight to the downstairs of the dormitory. Fu Shi parked the car and put the keys in his pocket.
The phone vibrated.
He took it out, and the screen showed her face, small and delicate, staring at the camera with full eyes, and the corners of her lips raised slightly. After swiping it open, the chat interface between the two of them was still there when the screen was last turned off.
Yun Lili: [Love you.]
…
Yunli chose the game development position at a subsidiary of Yousheng Technology. After replying to the HR email, Yunli received the friend-adding message early the next morning.
[Hello, I am Zhang Yanxin. Yesterday, HR said that you have decided to come to work here. The team leader plans to invite the new colleagues to dinner. Can you come with me if it is convenient for you?]
The other party pulled Yunli into the group and directly sent the time and address. It was scheduled to be at noon today in a shopping mall near the University of Science and Technology of Western China.
Yunli didn't want to go, but she had already been pulled into the group, which added another obstacle to her refusal. She hesitated for a while and finally replied in the affirmative.
She carefully put on her daily makeup, delivered porridge to Fu Shize, and then drove to the mall.
Yunli arrived at the box early, and there were already six or seven people sitting at the table, including her, who only had two girls. Several people greeted Yunli, and she sat next to the girl and listened to their chat silently.
The time has reached the appointed point.
After a while, a man came belatedly, sat next to her, and greeted her politely.
Yunli responded, and it wasn't until the dinner table became heated that she realized through a few words that the man next to her was the team leader.
The man's name is Zhou You. He looks young, has a square appearance and a calm and steady temperament.
After he briefly introduced himself, he asked the new and old members to introduce themselves clockwise.
Yunli was the first one. She said her name and graduation time without saying anything more.
The rest of the people introduced themselves in a rich way, involving their own interests, hobbies and personalities. The atmosphere in the whole group was lively and relaxed.
It happened to be another boy's turn to speak. He was from the industrial design class of Western University of Science and Technology.
As soon as he finished speaking, the old employee joked: "Then you are still an alumnus of the team leader, and they are both god-level figures."
Yun Li looked at Zhou Yu and he smiled.
Halfway through the meal, most of the new and old employees at the table were already familiar with each other.
Yunli didn't take the initiative to speak, but she didn't choose to play with her phone with her head down at the party to avoid communicating with other people like before.
She sat quietly in the corner and answered other people's questions one by one.
From a simple conversation, I can feel that the employees in the same team are pretty good.
The topic at the dinner table gradually shifted to why we do game development. Zhou Yu, as the leader, took the lead and spoke: "Actually, I was engaged in hardware when I was studying. Later, by chance, I entered the game industry."
He leaned back in his chair, perhaps because something in his pocket was stuck uncomfortably, and he took out his key chain and put it on the table.
Right in front of Yunli, there was a small version of the moon-shaped badge on the keychain. She stared at it and was almost sure it was the Unique team's badge.
Sensing her gaze, Zhou Yu picked up the keychain: "Actually, it has something to do with this. I joined a team as an undergraduate."
As soon as the word "team" came out, everyone on the table started to boo and praise Zhou Yu's prowess.
Zhou Yu waved his hand nonchalantly: "What happened at that time was relatively unforgettable, but the ending was not very good."
When Yunli heard this, her body tensed up.
He shook the key chain: "At first we were involved in drone racing, and then we participated in drone design competitions and won first place in the country. Later we went abroad to compete."
Zhou You was lost in memories, his eyes full of nostalgia: "At that time, our entire team's wish was to win all the trophies. Everyone's prizes in the competition will be guaranteed."
Zhou You's voice paused: "Later, something happened to someone in the team, and the team leader suspended school because of it, and the whole team immediately dispersed." He was a little sentimental, "I was about to graduate at that time, and the job I was looking for during the autumn recruitment was unavailable. From a human-machine giant. After this happened, I felt very uncomfortable, so I found a new job and changed careers."
After Zhou You finished speaking these words, the air became stagnant for a moment.
"That captain suspended school... because of something he did?" Yunli suddenly asked.
Zhou Yu shook his head: "The teammate who had the accident and our captain were brothers who grew up wearing the same pair of underpants. Maybe they can't bear this blow."
"The more you talk, the more biased you are. We are all here to have a party today. I made a bad move and I will punish myself with a drink." Probably feeling that the scene was too solemn, Zhou You smoothed things over by himself, poured a glass of red wine and drank it all in one gulp.
Then, he stared at Yunli, thought about her name, and said with a hearty smile: "Yunli, tell me why you came to this industry."
Yunli came back to her senses, talked about the VR games she played at EAW in a few words, and applied for a position in this direction based on her major.
After the others finished speaking, she got up and went to the bathroom.
The pale white glossy tiles vaguely reflected her figure. Yunli stopped in front of the sink and looked at her own face, which gradually overlapped with Fu Shize's face in her mind.
She had previously thought about the possible reasons why he dropped out of school, such as the pressure of studying for a Ph.D., being tired of studying, and the bad character of his tutor. She even thought about whether he had been bullied because he was so good-looking.
He finally went back, and Yunli stopped asking further.
To be fair, if she dropped out of school, she wouldn't want anyone else to know about it.
Yunli never thought that the deceased Fa Xiao he mentioned was related to his suspension of school.
After washing her hands, Yunli wiped her hands with a paper towel absently. She walked back to the box faster. The dinner party was over and her colleagues left in groups.
Yun Li looked at Zhou Yu's position, but he was no longer there.
She walked slowly back to the car and opened the dinner party.
Being inconvenient at the dinner table, Yunli tried to ask Zhou You privately about what happened that year.
There was no WeChat account marked Zhou Yu in the group, so Yunli could only send a message to Zhang Yanxin who contacted her yesterday.
[Hello, can I ask for the WeChat account of Team Leader Zhou?]
After waiting in the car for a while, the other party did not reply to her.
Yunli drove back.
After waiting at home for a long time, Zhang Yanxin did not reply to her. Yunli called, but the other party didn't answer.
She thought that she didn't seem to offend the other person today.
Yunli called Fu Zhengchu: "Fu Zhengchu, I want to ask you something."
Fu Zhengchu heard her serious tone and couldn't help but feel a little nervous: "Sister Lili, what's wrong?"
"Your brother-in-law has a baby who passed away. Do you know the reason?" Yunlika paused and said, "I don't want to ask your brother-in-law directly."
She was afraid that he might be irritated or hurt by bringing up the subject.
Fu Zhengchu: "My parents told me before that he died unexpectedly, but they didn't tell me the details and asked me not to mention it in front of my uncle."
Yunli was a little confused for a moment: "Then you know that your brother-in-law..."
She didn't ask further because she wasn't sure whether Fu Zhengchu knew about Fu Shize's suspension from school.
Seeing that she didn't speak, Fu Zhengchu guessed her question and answered proactively: "My uncle was not in very good condition before. Sister Lili, you also saw that he didn't like to talk at that time, so he went back to Nanwu and stayed there for a long time. time."
Fu Zhengchu paused for a while and continued: "But my uncle is doing well now. That incident has passed a long time ago. Sister Lili, don't worry too much."
"Okay." After chatting with Fu Zhengchu for a few more words, Yunli hung up the phone.
She wasn't sure if she was being paranoid.
Fu Shize barely kept any secrets in front of Yunli, but he avoided talking about his childhood.
After all, many times, memories are also very hurtful.
At this moment, Yunli recalled his pretended to be relaxed tone and forced smile.
But she felt hurt inside.
He was deeply hurt and completely unwilling to look back on this past event.
She searched online for the awards won by the Unique team and found the names of all the team members in a certain news item.
Fu Shize (captain) Jiang Yuanzhou...
After searching Jiang Yuan and Xifu University of Science and Technology on the Internet, Yunli did not get any more information.
She leaned in front of the computer. She had already agreed with Fu Shize not to meet today, but she still picked up the key and went out.
Seeing the tall figure approaching, the expression on his face was relaxed.
After sitting in the passenger seat, Fu Shize noticed that she was preoccupied and tilted his head: "What's wrong?"
"No." Yunli didn't mention what happened today. Fu Shi glanced at the steering wheel she was holding tightly and pondered for a while, then asked, "Did the meal not go well today?"
Sooner or later, he would know about this. Yunli pretended to be calm and mentioned: "No, the leader of the group I am in seems to be your classmate. He has a small Unique badge on his keychain."
Fu Shize's eyes settled slightly, and after a moment of silence, he asked her, "What's your name?"
Yunli: "Zhou You."