Fu Shize's memory went into a brief blank. It was a very distant name. After a moment, he slowly said "hmm".
The atmosphere in the car suddenly changed.
Yun Li glanced at Fu Shize out of the corner of her eye. His expression didn't change much and he said calmly: "He is a very nice person. You should like this job."
It seemed that he was triggered at a certain point, and his mood obviously dropped a lot, but it didn't show on his expression. Yunli looked to both sides, found a dead end in the campus woods, and drove in.
The car stopped at the end.
There are lush evergreen trees on both sides, the wind makes the leaves rustle, and the large green leaves block the sunlight.
Yunli stared at his eyes like a pool of stagnant water, unbuckled her own safety buckle, rushed forward and hugged him tightly.
I want to give him all my power.
Yunli regretted mentioning this matter just now.
Originally, she thought that since she was working in this company, Fu Shize would know that her team leader was Zhou Yu sooner or later.
Instead of hiding it all the time, it would be better to tell it early in the morning.
If he had a problem with it, she would find another job.
Yunli asked directly: "How about I change my job? I haven't rejected some offers yet."
"It's not necessary." Fu Shize lowered his eyes and looked at her, "Zhou You is my friend from a long time ago. He is a good person. You will be very happy working with him."
Zhou Yu was one of Fu Shize's best friends. After Jiang Yuan's accident, Zhou Yu and other teammates contacted him many times.
He didn't reply.
Everyone else understands.
He and Jiang Yuan have been in the same school and in the same class since junior high school, high school, and university. The two entered and exited together, ranked among the best, and had a brotherly relationship.
They all thought he couldn't bear the shock of Jiang Yuan's death.
In fact, it has been a long time.
He realized later that Jiang Yuan had passed away for more than three years.
"I should have told you earlier. You have the right to know." Fu Shize's face turned a little pale. Yunli pursed her lips and shook her head: "You don't need to tell me what happened before. It doesn't matter whether I know or not."
Yunli clasped his fingers.
She hoped he would never think of unhappy things again.
This time, Fu Shize did not remain silent as before.
Maybe it was because he himself had been suffering for a long time.
Maybe he also wanted to grab a glimmer of hope and get out.
"Insomnia is getting worse and worse." Fu Shize said softly.
Because he often dreams about Jiang Yuan recently.
Chen Jinping's birthday is coming, which means Jiang Yuan's birthday is coming too.
More than three years later, Fu Shize still felt that that person should be alive.
Going to Western University of Science and Technology with Jiang Yuan, Fu Shize thought this was the beginning of a young man's dream, and everything developed as expected.
In the second semester of his freshman year, Jiang Yuan proposed to participate in a drone competition, and they formed a team with their roommates.
Several people are young, energetic and outstanding.
When choosing the team name, the word unique came to mind.
That time, after going to the backstreets for a barbecue, Fu Shi looked up at the half-curved moon in the sky and decided on their team emblem.
Without any guidance from the professor, they stayed up all night for a month, often leaving the office in the dark.
But I never felt hard at that time.
They are all teenagers who have just grown up, plus the fifteen-year-old Fu Shize, who is determined to be first in the country.
Slowly watching the drone being set up, the algorithm became more and more perfect, and it flew countless times. When it finally took off staggeringly, several people cheered in the office.
They pushed each other onto the grass.
Fu Shi stood firm and controlled the drone to shuttle through the air, gradually shrinking into a dot. He raised his head and ran with the drone, while others cheered and followed behind him.
They won the first prize.
When the award was announced, Fu Shize wanted to remain calm, but others led him to laugh uncontrollably.
They won more than one first prize.
From the most ordinary competitions all the way to foreign countries.
Participating every year has become a tacit understanding among them.
Until Jiang Yuan committed suicide.
Ever since he was a child, Jiang Yuan has always had a gentle personality, and he often plays the role of a listener among the crowd.
Jiang Yuan never said what he wanted.
But they obviously agreed that they would tell each other everything.
Life was the same for Fu Shize. From childhood to adulthood, he went to school and cram schools in a regular manner. In his free time, he and Jiang Yuan would go out to play or make trouble.
Until I got my Ph.D., my life didn’t change much.
The two of them usually stay in the laboratory separately. When they are tired, they will call each other to hang on the corridor railing to chat, call each other to eat, and get up early and come home late together.
Fu Shize couldn't remember when they started to lose touch.
Shi Xiangzhe focused on cultivating him, and he became busier and busier. When Jiang Yuan called him, he often had no time to pay attention.
He just had that impression. As soon as he finished revising the article and submitted it, he breathed a sigh of relief and called Jiang Yuan to sit down at the coffee shop downstairs.
Fu Shize stayed up for several nights and was extremely tired. He smiled and said, "I finally voted out."
“…”
Jiang Yuan looked at him, without his usual gentle smile. His expression seemed to be at a loss, and he said blankly: "I went to the hospital, and the doctor said I was severely depressed and anxious."
Fu Shize didn't have much idea about these two words. He glanced at Jiang Yuan and said hesitantly: "Shall I check first?"
Jiang Yuan nodded.
The more Fu Shize checked, the more he felt something was wrong.
People like Jiang Yuan always smile when they are with him, and even often enlighten and comfort him, how can he have depression and anxiety.
Fu Shize said rationally: "Did the doctor prescribe medicine?"
"Several kinds have been prescribed." Jiang Yuan took out the medicine box from his bag. Fu Shize was very uncomfortable and put all the medicine back into the box. "It's okay, just listen to the doctor."
Jiang Yuan hummed.
"What happened recently?"
"Nothing happened, maybe because I had to submit the article, I was under a lot of pressure." Jiang Yuan explained.
Fu Shize frowned and asked him as if to confirm, "Is this the truth?"
Jiang Yuan nodded.
"Do you feel uncomfortable?" Fu Shize continued to ask him without doubting his words.
Jiang Yuan finally smiled: "I don't seem to feel anything." Then he came back to his senses and pushed the cake on the table to Fu Shize.
"Hurry up and eat something. Didn't I just submit an article? I want to celebrate with you."
Fu Shize didn't think anything was unusual. After Jiang Yuan was diagnosed, he consciously ate with him every day, and Jiang Yuan still smiled and talked with him all day long.
Until that day Jiang Yuan's mother called him and said that Jiang Yuan cut his wrists in the dormitory.
Fu Shize's mind went blank at that time. He ran downstairs and rode a turtle to the downstairs of his dormitory. Downstairs were police cars and ambulances, surrounded by many students.
There were many people at Jiang Yuan's door, counselors, building directors, security guards, and doctors.
He froze in place, as if his legs didn't belong to him, and moved to the door of the bedroom.
Jiang Yuan was sitting on the bed, his face pale, and the doctor was wrapping gauze on him.
Seeing him, he lowered his eyes indifferently, as if he didn't want any contact at all. Fu Shize walked up to him and said in a very sad tone: "Brother..."
Hearing this call, Jiang Yuan was slightly touched and said bitterly: "I'm sorry."
Due to drowsiness after taking the medicine, Jiang Yuan stopped taking the medicine privately when it was time to submit his article.
This time, the cut on the wrist was not very deep, only a shallow wound, and he was not sent to the hospital.
The school was afraid that something would happen again and asked Jiang Yuan to take a break from school for a while.
Jiang Yuan was unwilling and even said he wanted to cut his wrists again.
His parents begged hard, and Fu Shize also asked Fu Dongsheng and Chen Jinping for help, so that he could continue to go to school.
Jiang Yuan's parents asked Fu Shize to keep an eye on him and take medicine every day.
Jiang Yuan became very negative and rarely smiled anymore.
He would often enter a trance state, and Fu Shi would have to call him several times before he would come back to his senses.
After taking medicine for a period of time, Jiang Yuan will return to normal, and getting along with Fu Shize will be the same as before.
Fu Shize asked him several times about the reason for his depression, but Jiang Yuan always said it was because he was under too much pressure after graduation.
After spending two months staying up late, Fu Shize finished a paper and took the initiative to mention it to Jiang Yuan during dinner: "I have an article over there that has been written and sent to the editor for editing. The magazine in the first district should You can win. The algorithm is your idea. I plan to write your name on it and call your boss on the communication. Professor Shi also agreed."
Jiang Yuan knew that Fu Shize was willing to give him his job.
And put it so tactfully.
He felt ironic in his heart and slowly stopped eating.
When the two of them fell into silence, he raised his eyes and looked at Fu Shize: "Aze, no need."
"I can do it myself." Jiang Yuan smiled: "Don't worry about me, just stay up less late."
At that time, Fu Shize didn't notice the abnormality in his tone, and thought he was caring as usual.
Jiang Yuan's parents only have one child.
During his stay in Nanwu, Fu Shize visited Jiang Yuan's house many times. The two elders treated him like his own son.
Fu Shize would call them every day to tell them about Jiang Yuan's situation.
He did these things not because of his parents' requirements.
Since childhood, Fu Shize would write about having a brother in his compositions and diaries.
Even though there is no blood relationship, Jiang Yuan is already a true relative to him.
He didn't want anything to happen to his brother.
He was also afraid of what would happen to his brother.
At the end of each day, Fu Shize would walk to Jiang Yuan's laboratory and knock on the door.
He always saw the same scene, with Unique's coat hanging on the chair and a drone from their first competition sitting on the table.
Sometimes Fu Shize would go in, and sometimes he would just stand at the door and call out: "Brother."
When Jiang Yuan was in a good mood, he would smile helplessly at him, throw the medicine up, and then catch the water to drink. Looking at his blank palm, he would joke: "I've already taken it~"
When I feel bad, I put it in my mouth silently.
Fu Shize really stared.
Not a single thing was missed.
Jiang Yuan slowly returned to normal, but he would often say negative words to him.
The relationship between the two changed. When he was a child, Jiang Yuan enlightened him. When he grew up, it was he who enlightened Jiang Yuan.
That year, it was Fu Shize's birthday. Jiang Yuan followed his past habit and went to Beishan Fenglin.
Grandma was still alive at that time, and Fu Shi pushed the old man outside in a wheelchair.
Jiang Yuan lit the fireworks stick in the yard and handed it to the old man.
The old man could not hold the fireworks stick firmly in his hand, but he was still very happy. He grinned and spoke intermittently: "Yuan Yuan is a good boy."
Fu Shi didn't pay attention to these words.
It doesn't matter who is better behaved or nicer, him or Jiang Yuan. He has been with Jiang Yuan since he was a child and has never had the idea of comparison. What he prefers is for the two of them to compete together and win awards together.
He felt that Jiang Yuan thought so too.
The last day.
Jiang Yuan knocked on the door of his laboratory.
He was doing experiments at the time, and he opened the door neatly. The other party asked with a smile: "Are you free?"
"We're doing an experiment, come in?" Fu Shize leaned back.
Jiang Yuan hummed and followed him indoors.
"I brought you a cup of milk tea." Jiang Yuan put the milk tea on the table.
Fu Shize stayed up all night for a while working on this project, and just nodded tiredly.
Jiang Yuan leaned against the console and looked at Fu Shize silently.
The whole process of building the robot, adjusting the code, and controlling it was orderly, as if he was born to belong to this place.
Fu Shi stared intently at a small part on the robot and said, "After I adjust it, you can try it."
“…”
Jiang Yuan didn't answer him.
Fu Shize looked up and found that Jiang Yuan had brought the drone on his desk and played with it in his hands.
Jiang Yuan touched the U-shaped letter on the drone and said with a smile: "This is my first time participating in this kind of competition. I never thought I could win first place."
"I can remember when we went on stage to win the award, there were flashing lights in front of my eyes. When I won the award for the first time, it was really the happiest time in my life." Jiang Yuan raised his head: "It was really easy to be satisfied at that time, don't you remember? I remember that the day that crappy plane took off, Zhou You almost jumped out of a tree, and the branches scratched a big hole in his pants when he ran too fast."
"Ask Zhou Yu what he thinks." Fu Shize still remembered those things and couldn't help laughing.
"Zhou Yu is about to graduate. I heard that he got an offer from a drone giant, and the other party gave him a very high salary." Jiang Yuan murmured.
"Yeah." Fu Shize just clicked on the last part and stood up straight, "Now the only ones left in Unique are you and me."
The rest of them have graduated with master's degrees.
Jiang Yuan's expression darkened: "Are you still competing this year?"
"Why don't you lead the team this year?" Fu Shize had a lot of things to do, and he didn't have enough energy or time to be the captain of the team.
"I can't." Jiang Yuan refused, "Without your help during this period, I realized that there is a big gap between my own abilities and others."
He smiled bitterly and said: "I feel so much pressure. Ze, I feel like this high pressure is almost crushing me."
“…”
"What's wrong?" Fu Shize asked him with a frown, "Didn't you say it was fine last time?"
At that time, Jiang Yuan's expression was calm, except for the extreme tiredness in the corners of his eyes. After a moment, he slowly said "hmm".
"It's good, but I want to be better." Jiang Yuan's tone was correct, just like before: "I sometimes wonder if life would be better now if I didn't know you."
“…”
Fu Shize didn't take such hurtful words to heart and just remained silent.
"I'm quite jealous of you sometimes. You have everything." Jiang Yuan smiled, but there was nothing in his tone that made him uncomfortable.
Fu Shi operated the handle, and the robot moved. He handed the handle to Jiang Yuan, wanting to break the sullen atmosphere.
Jiang Yuan shook his head: "No, I shouldn't touch these things."
His smile was sour: "You can accept your mediocrity until you fly too high."
Jiang Yuan was his best brother, and Fu Shize never had any complaints or emotions because of his output of negative energy. He said calmly: "Don't think about that. Most of the awards I won were with you."
Fu Shize pointed to the trophy in the cabinet, "We win the prize as a whole team, not Fu Shize alone, nor Jiang Yuan alone."
Jiang Yuan stared at the drone in his hand, and after dozens of seconds, he hummed.
"You put the drone away, just one." Fu Shize eased their heavy atmosphere and looked at Jiang Yuan: "Are you going to play ball tomorrow?"
Jiang Yuan smiled: "Forget it, I'm a little tired."
Fu Shize: "Okay, if you want to fight, tell me."
"Then I'm leaving." Jiang Yuan greeted him, lowered his head and played with the drone before walking out.
Fu Shi looked at the tall and thin figure, immersed in the lightless corridor, and shouted: "Jiang Yuan."
The other party looked back at him.
"My experiment will be late today. When will you go back?" Fu Shize paused for a few seconds and continued: "Go back together."
"I don't know." Jiang Yuan shook his head.
This is not the first time this conversation has occurred between the two.
Fu Shize also thought it was just an ordinary conversation.
Fu Shize lost track of time in the laboratory. When he heard the sound of rain, he looked out the window. Dark clouds blocked the moon, and the night was noisy.
He adjusted the robot's algorithm, and after using the handle again, the robot moved smoothly and smoothly.
Suddenly there was a very heavy "bang" sound.
Fu Shi glanced at the door, not paying attention, and continued to operate the robot, thinking about how he and Jiang Yuan would operate it tomorrow to test the effect of confrontation. After all, it was the research idea of the two a long time ago.
The sound insulation of the experimental building is not good.
He heard screams.
He heard panicked footsteps in the corridor.
He heard someone calling the police for an ambulance.
Finally, he heard someone calling Jiang Yuan's name.
Fu Shize's hands were frozen on the operating table. He ran out unsteadily, the whole world was shaking, and the rain pouring in diagonally wet the corridor.
He remembered that time Jiang Yuan cut his wrists long ago, and how lucky he was at that time.
He felt that Jiang Yuan was unwilling to leave this world.
This world has his family.
He won't leave.
After arriving on the first floor, Fu Shi walked into the rain curtain and approached the shadow on the ground. Until that moment, he was thinking that it couldn't be Jiang Yuan.
He only had to look at the other person's face to know that it wasn't Jiang Yuan.
He couldn't accept it.
This became Fu Shize's most painful memory.
It was a night like any other, with a thunderstorm, leaves rustling, and rain washing the earth. He felt the rain hitting his body and remembered the rain and scolding the two of them had received together before.
That is my brother, my best friend.
Just like that, in front of him.
"elder brother."
The rain swallowed up Fu Shize's voice.
"Jiang Yuan."
The cold rain hit him and Jiang Yuan.
The blood was diluted.
Fu Shi took off his thin coat like a zombie and covered Jiang Yuan's body.
His body will also tremble slightly.
His body is still warm.
Fu Shize told him over and over again.
"Jiang Yuan."
"Awake."
"Don't close your eyes."
There are umbrellas of different colors all around, like flowers blooming in the rain, receiving watering silently.
So does he.
Jiang Yuan was lying on the cement floor, his smiling eyes no longer the same as before.
Rather, it is cold and emotionless.
…
Fu Dongsheng and Chen Jinping rushed to the hospital immediately after receiving the news.
In the hospital corridor, Fu Shi was sitting on a chair.
He was soaked all over, with water stains all around him, and the cold light reflected his extremely pale face.
Fu Dongsheng quickly took off his coat, took off Fu Shize's clothes on the spot, and put them on for him.
He is like a puppet, being manipulated by others.
The emergency light went out, and the doctor came out and shook his head regretfully.
Fu Shize didn't seem to understand. He grabbed Fu Dongsheng's arm and spoke irrationally: "Can you save him?"
His words were trembling: "Don't you know many professors from medical schools?"
"Dad, Mom, can you save him?"
Even if he is a vegetative state, even if his limbs are disabled.
No matter what the outcome is, don't let him die.
He is my only brother.
Don't let him die.
He knew this was impossible.
He has a good scientific education, and he knows that all his questions at this moment are just a feeble struggle.
But he asked them again and again.
…
The police found the spitted pills in Jiang Yuan's work desk drawer and he kept them in a jar.
It turned out that Jiang Yuan himself did not swallow the medicine.
There was a note on the drone on the table, which was written by Jiang Yuan.
[Personal behavior has nothing to do with others.]
Jiang Yuan's parents did not see him for the last time.
When the two got off the plane and rushed to the hospital, Jiang Yuan had already been pushed to the morgue.