The night is getting darker, and the lights in the car are dim.
Yunli turned to Fu Shize and put her left hand on Fu Shize's hand.
For such a long time, she had known that Fu Shize had something on his mind. But he never thought that this matter would be so torturous and accompany him like a shadow.
The campus radio began its evening broadcast, and Yunli realized that they were still in the Western University of Science and Technology - it was hard to imagine how he felt every time he returned to the laboratory building.
When they reunited, she thought he had returned to the altar, but she didn't know that he was responsible for all this.
He never thought about how he returned to school after witnessing such a scene.
Yunli thought of what he said before: "I want to change back to the way I was before and find you again." A terrible idea suddenly appeared in her heart, an idea that would make her tortured by boundless guilt.
He just looks like he did before, but his heart is still riddled with holes.
Yunli's hands relaxed and her tone was a little trembling: "You usually pretend, right?"
After the words were spoken, she felt Fu Shize stiffen for a moment.
There was silence for a moment.
"Yeah." Fu Shize said, "I think you will like it."
My heart felt like it was suddenly pinched.
He was pretending to show it to her.
Yunli took a deep breath for a few seconds, and Fu Shize was about to say something more. When he raised his eyes, he saw her eyes lowered, tears gathering at the edges of her eyes, and falling directly onto the shelf in small drops.
She pursed her lips without saying a word.
Fu Shize paused for a while, silently scraping away her tears with his knuckles.
Yunli lowered her head, still trying to control the stability of her voice: "I really hope you have a good life." She couldn't continue, and her voice choked uncontrollably: "Really, I hope you have a good life. very good."
In this relationship, Yunli was the one who initiated it first, but in the process of getting along, from beginning to end, he did almost everything he could do.
Even if they were separated, she should be more sad, not Fu Chize.
He was already sad and in enough pain.
"Yes." Fu Shize covered Yunli's face with his right hand, gently rubbed her lower eyelids with his thumb, and repeatedly helped her wipe away the newly overflowed tears. His voice was a little hoarse: "Lili, stop crying."
Yunli wiped the tears on her face with the back of her hand and said incoherently: "I said before that I wanted you to go back to school, but I didn't mean that. I just wanted your life to be better." She cried in an extremely embarrassed tone: "Don't force me. Force yourself to do this. If you don’t want to talk to others, don’t talk. Don’t force yourself to be so sunny and motivated... "
Stop forcing yourself for her and make yourself more sad and painful.
"After I'm with you again," Fu Shize stroked her head and whispered, "I'm no longer just pretending. I quite like being able to get along with you in your current state."
It had been a long time since he had felt the sun properly.
It turns out he missed it quite a bit.
Staring into his eyes, Yunli wiped the corners of her eyes and asked blankly: "But you still have nightmares and insomnia."
Fu Shize thought about it seriously: "It won't matter if we live together in the future."
Yunli choked on his words and broke away from her sadness. She thought for a while and said dullly: "Then you have to continue in this state for a long time."
Fu Shize smiled: "Then I can only hope that day will come soon."
When they were in Nanwu, the two of them lived together for a while. After returning to Xifu, the situation changed. She would encounter greater resistance when she moved out. Yunli said seriously: "This time, we should confirm our relationship before living together."
Fu Shi followed her words and said, "That's what I mean too."
“…”
Which one means
Yunli paused and looked at him with determination. His face was calm, but his eyes showed a meaning.
Yes, that's what you think.
Yunli's face turned red instantly, forgetting all the conversations and worries just now, and blurted out: "No."
"?"
"You are too informal." Yunli said angrily.
Fu Shize recalled what he said and reminded her: "What I just said is that I hope that day will come soon."
What he means is that it is not necessary to confirm the relationship and live together today.
Yunli suddenly felt that she was too sentimental, and said awkwardly: "Let's go eat."
Fu Shize didn't finish his words. Remembering that she had almost run away and said the word 'no' just now, he said casually: "On the official day, I won't give you a chance to refuse."
…
After dinner, Fu Shize led Yunli to the playground. To the side was the auditorium. The two found a seat and sat down, looking at the students on the plastic track from a distance.
Fu Shi pointed to the direction, where many students were exercising: "It was almost in this direction at that time."
It has been nine years since the robot football match that year.
It turned out that he had met her nine years ago.
Yunli: "Why were you at the playground at that time?"
Fu Shize: "I was bored at the time. I passed by and saw your robot motionless. You must have forgotten to turn it on the first time you operated it. You tried it for almost half an hour."
"Oh, is that so..." Yunli couldn't believe that she would make such a stupid mistake.
"Then I looked at it for a while. The first time I moved it, the buttons were pressed backwards. Chen Luo didn't tell you. He made the controller himself, and the buttons are different from the regular ones."
Chen Luo was the name of her captain at the time. Yunli was stunned for a moment: "Do you know him?"
Fu Shize said calmly: "Well, I made that handle for him."
Yunli: "..."
Yunli asked in confusion: "How is that possible?"
Fu Shize: "?"
Yunli: "We actually got the ranking in the end."
He told her one after another what happened that day, including many details that Yunli had completely forgotten. He recalled this matter very smoothly, as if he had sorted it out many times beforehand.
"Later, you used a robot to push rocks. The robot in your group didn't write the code to kick the ball, so it could only push it horizontally. But the motor power of the robot you got was too low and it couldn't push it."
Yunli was confused after hearing this, and asked in confusion: "How come you even know the code and power of my robot?"
"Jiang Yuan recognized that your robot was pretended by Chen Luo. I went back and asked him." Fu Shize's tone did not change much when Jiang Yuan was mentioned.
"I also went to watch the day you played."
It always felt like he had had an impression of her a long time ago. Yun Li curled her lips and said with a smile: "You were only 15 years old at the time, and you were peeking at me for so long." She felt that this description was not accurate: "No, you were peeking at girls for that long."
"Then it's you I'm looking at." Fu Shize didn't want to be wronged, so he laughed and said, "But I regret it now."
Yunli: "Huh?"
Fu Shi took her hand and said, "I should have gone to you directly."
Yunli directly ruled out this possibility: "Then I won't fall in love prematurely. I am known as a good student in the class."
Fu Shi raised his eyebrows slightly: "Puppy love does not mean a bad student."
"At that time, I would have thought that puppy love was a bad student." Yunli said this slowly.
Seeing her stubborn look, Fu Shi felt that he might be talking to a stone. He didn't care, he leaned close to her ear and continued: "Then you stay with me as a bad student for two years."
"... Until you graduate from the college entrance examination, it is no longer puppy love."
Yunli realized later, a ball of heat rising up his cheeks. After a while, Fu Shize continued to ask: "Then, should I make up for the missed years for you?"
Those deep eyes had a special meaning. Yunli could clearly feel the other person's arm leaning between her back and the plastic stool, gradually tightening her waist.
She licked her lips and asked, "How to fix it?"
"Can you tell me what we would have done otherwise?" Fu Shize asked her calmly.
Yunli didn't pretend not to understand. She moved closer to his body and asked first, "Is there surveillance here?"
Fu Shize laughed: "No."
"Okay." Yunli approached the corner of his lips: "Then make up for it."
…
It was nearly nine o'clock, after receiving Yunye's message, Yunli remembered to send him back to school.
I can't remember how many times I have forgotten things when I was in love. She hurriedly said goodbye to Fu Shize, and went home to take Yunye to school.
After returning home, she dug out the small football from the pile of debris, with the smiling face painted on it.
Thinking of Fu Shize's pale face when he talked about this incident today, he had also been tortured by this incident day and night in the past few years.
Her nose felt sore.
It's obviously not his fault.
Wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes, Yunli eagerly wanted to see Fu Chize again. She lay down on her bed and made a video call to Fu Shize.
"Lili."
After the call was connected, his voice came directly from the phone. The volume was just right, and it was so tingling and lingering.
Yunli hurriedly looked up at the door, got up, found her headphones and put them on.
Fu Shize was already in the dormitory. He had just finished taking a shower, and the towel was hanging on his hair. A few strands of hair covered his eyes, and there were beads of water running down his hair.
“…”
Yunli looked down and saw that he was not wearing any clothes on his upper body. The camera only captured the clear collarbone, but the shoulders, which were half hidden in the towel, still aroused people's imagination.
Yunli: "I'm hanging up."
Fu Shize was wiping water off his body with his head lowered, then raised his head and glanced at the camera.
He didn't turn on the headlight, and the bright white light focused by the desk lamp hit the corners of his eyes, and his moist black eyes were a little confused.
“…”
Fu Chize: "No more videos?"
This scene made Yunli blush, and she held back a few words: "You are disheveled."
Fu Shi looked down at himself. The white towel occupied most of the picture, and his chin and swaying broken hair could be seen.
Fu Shize laughed in his heart: "Then you wait a moment." Following her tone, he solemnly said: "I'll straighten my clothes."
He didn't hang up the phone and stood up, his phone being knocked down by the towel underneath.
Yunli originally only saw his collarbone, but when he held up the phone, she saw his calm face in front of the camera. At this moment, his entire upper body was naked, and his lower body was wearing a pair of loose black pajamas.
“…”
Fu Shi slowly turned around, took a white T-shirt from the closet, put it on, sat back in front of the camera, wiped his hair and said, "It's done."
“…”
Inexplicably unwilling to admit defeat, Yunli pretended to be calm and said: "Don't you have a bathroom in your dormitory? Do you need to go to the shower room on the floor?"
Fu Shize seemed to be thinking about the purpose of her words, and after a few seconds, he lazily hummed.
Yunli continued: "Then you just walked back from the corridor shirtless?"
“…”
Yunli frowned and said: "Last time you took me there, the doctor's building had mixed dormitories, and some people would bring their girlfriends there." There was dissatisfaction in her words: "Do you think it's okay if they see you?"
"No." Fu Shize paused for a moment, as if he felt that this answer was not accurate enough, and then added: "I didn't."
Yunli groaned and asked slowly: "Then you took off your shirt specifically to video chat with me after you returned to the dormitory?"
“…”
She looked straight at the camera: "Then..." She deliberately prolonged her tone: "Are you going to put it on pretending again?"
Fu Shize's answer at this moment was nothing. He laughed lowly, ignored Yunli, and wiped his hair.
Unexpectedly, she saw through Fu Shize's scheme this time. She suddenly felt light-headed and said with a smile, "You can't defeat me this time."
Fu Shi nodded weakly, paused for a few seconds, and then raised his eyes to look at her.
After wiping his hair, Fu Shi hung the towel on the rack. He put the phone in front of the pillow, half of his face buried in the pillow, his hair was still wet, and his eyes were looking at the book beside him, like a lazy cat.
Yunli stared at the pupils on the screen, truly feeling that she had no reservations about each other.
After a long while, she said uncontrollably, "I love you."
Fu Shi moved his chin on his pillow, straightened his upper body slightly, and said lazily to the camera.
"Love you."
Then, he lay down directly and looked at the book next to him.
Yunli couldn't help but said again: "I love you."
Fu Shize didn't look at the camera: "How many times do you want to say it?"
Yunli: "How many times can I say it?"
Fu Shi raised his lips and said, "Anything is fine." As he said, he responded to what she just said.
-"Love you."
If I love you, you can say it as many times as you want.
You can say it as many times as you want me to.