Before coming to Nanwu, Yunli had contacted Jiang Yuan's parents in advance and would visit them this afternoon.
Yunli didn't stay in Jiangnanyuan for too long. She found an excuse to go to Nanjing Polytechnic to meet a female classmate. She borrowed Fu Shize's car and went out.
Since Fu Shize told her about Jiang Yuan last time, the two of them had not communicated on this topic again.
His performance always makes people feel as if nothing is bothering him.
Yunli remembered that he had consumed most of the sleeping pills in his drawer.
When he first arrived at the company, Zhou Yu once told her that Jiang Yuan was an only son, and several members of Unique were like brothers to him. After his death, Zhou Yu and other members of Unique raised money for his parents.
At that time, Jiang Yuan's parents and Zhou Yu repeatedly confirmed that there was no money from Fu Shize in it before they were willing to accept it.
Fu Shize also knew about this matter.
Zhou You also told her that people have been secretly sending money to Jiang Yuan's parents for so many years.
Yunli pursed her lips.
This thing is like Jiang Yuan's parents unable to accept the death of their son and forcibly transferring the responsibility to Fu Shize.
But what did he do wrong to need to bear this guilt and the crime of giving to others for so many years
The address Zhou You gave her was only half an hour's drive from Jiangnanyuan. As she navigated there, she felt uneasy.
The community where Jiang Yuan's family is located was built in the 1990s. The old building is old and rusty on the walls and the old-style convex security windows. The community is located in another old urban area of Nanwu. After the relocation of industries, basically only the elderly remain.
After arriving downstairs, Yunli rang the doorbell, and soon Jiang's mother answered the door.
The house was on the sixth floor and there was no elevator. When Yunli reached the third floor, she saw Jiang's father and Jiang's mother coming downstairs to greet her.
Jiang Yuan is a few years older than Fu Shize. His parents should be around fifty now, but their old appearance makes them look like people in their sixties.
The two warmly welcomed her upstairs and greeted her. Jiang Yuan was studying at Western University of Science and Technology, and Yunli told them that she was from Xifu when she first contacted them. They did not doubt her identity at all.
The house is not big. At first glance, it looks like a small two-bedroom apartment. The interior decoration is simple and plain, and the furniture is of some age. There is a 27-inch LCD TV in the center of the living room.
"It's been a long time since any of Yuan Yuan's classmates have come to our place." Jiang's mother smiled slightly and asked Yun Li to sit down at the coffee table.
Hearing this, Yunli looked at her, the wrinkles on her eyebrows making her inexplicably sad.
There are a lot of fruits on the table.
She turned on the TV and showed it to Yunli: "This TV was given to me by Yuanyuan's classmate two years ago, but his father and I were never at home and we didn't receive a call. I still don't know who gave it to me."
Yunli: "How are you two doing?"
Jiang's father smiled: "It's good. The days have passed like this. When I miss my son, I go to the room and look at his things."
"Can I see the senior's room?" Yunli did not directly state the purpose of her visit. Jiang's mother seemed to take it for granted and got up and took her to the room.
Jiang Yuan's room is not big. There is an old-fashioned window on the south side. Two potted plants are placed on the window sill. The mattress is still spread. Next to it is a wooden student desk, which is filled with various tutoring books for elementary school students and high school students.
The house was furnished as if it were still inhabited.
There are several group photos posted on the wall, all of which are simply covered at the four corners with uneven tape. There is no plastic film on the photo, and it has oxidized, yellowed and faded.
She saw Fu Shize in several of the pictures. It was Jiang Yuan's parents who took them fishing and playing ball.
Seeing Yunli looking at the photo, Jiang's mother said, "The photo is basically me and his father, and a friend of Yuanyuan who grew up together. He is Yuanyuan's classmate. Do you know him?" At this point , she sighed, "Yuanyuan regards him as his brother, and we also regard him as our son. But since Yuanyuan left, we haven't seen him for many years."
“…”
"He's a good kid, too."
Yunli: "Won't he come to see you two?"
The woman in front of him was silent for a while, her eyes dimmed and she said, "He has been here before, we asked him not to come again."
Yunli followed the words and asked tentatively: "Did he do something?"
"That child is innocent. Maybe his behavior hurt Yuanyuan inadvertently, and he wouldn't know." Jiang's mother looked at the photo, "Yuanyuan was sick. He promised us to look after Yuanyuan, but he was busy at the time, so he might not know." Don’t take it too seriously.”
Her tone was calm but firm: "As parents, we are not qualified to accept his compensation for Yuanyuan."
From the perspective of Jiang Yuan's parents, his last diary was undoubtedly saying that he was overwhelmed by Fu Shize's excellence, and they could not accept that Fu Shize clearly said that he swallowed the medicine, and in the end Jiang Yuan There is nothing to eat.
Just like Fu Shize didn't take Jiang Yuan's affairs to heart at all, didn't supervise his taking medicine, didn't pay attention to his emotions, and only pursued his own development.
Before coming, Yunli was more or less angry at Jiang Yuan's parents out of her feelings for Fu Shize and her desire to protect them. She originally thought she would face parents who were stubborn and resentful.
Then she might still have a reason to convince herself to bring up the other person's sad story again.
But the other party is very calm, because from their perspective, this is the fact.
Yunli asked: "Can I read his book?"
"Okay." Jiang's mother quickly broke away from her previous emotions and said gently, "They are basically tutorial books. Here are some diaries from Yuan Yuan's childhood. You can read them if you want."
She took out several books from the bookshelf, most of which had Ultraman covers.
The time for Jiang Yuan to write a diary is not fixed, but about once a week, and he will record the major events that happened that week. Most of the diaries are innocent and carefree, and they contain many interesting stories about his growth, and there are also many figures of Fu Shize.
In these diaries, Yunli only read one piece of information.
—Jiang Yuan regards Fu Shize as his younger brother.
Yunli flipped through it. The diary was discontinued at the end of his freshman year. At that time, there were almost no negative emotions in his diary.
She paused, raised her head and asked them, "Senior, didn't you stop writing diaries after you went to college?"
Jiang Yuan's depression should have appeared during his Ph.D.
"We brought back everything from his dormitory." Jiang's mother also looked a little confused, "His father and I didn't find any other diaries."
Yunli thought for a while and asked them: "Does the senior have a computer?"
"Yes." Jiang's mother immediately opened the drawer. There was a thick notebook inside, and some souvenirs neatly placed next to it. Yunli noticed something with the Unique logo inside.
"This is the team that Yuanyuan joined. Yuanyuan joined this team and won many championships." Speaking of Jiang Yuan's past events, Jiang's mother's eyes flashed with pride when she handed the things to Yunli.
After looking at it for a while, Yunli realized that it was a USB flash drive.
There are very obvious signs of use on the interface.
"Auntie, how about I help you look for it? Maybe you can find the senior's diary from the next few years."
Jiang Yuan's parents didn't seem to be people who often used computers or mobile phones. When Yunli said she helped them find diaries, they thanked her profusely.
It took a long time to turn on the computer. The old-fashioned laptop was lagging badly. Yunli waited patiently for a few minutes. The desktop that appeared was a picture of a drone. She was stunned for a moment. It was the one that Yunye took away. Drones.
Before she had time to delve into it, Yunli directly plugged in the USB flash drive.
There is nothing else in the USB drive, only a word document.
Yunli opened it and found that it contained Jiang Yuan's diary after his sophomore year.
The frequency of his diary dropped to about once a month, and Yunli quickly scanned it. The second half of the diary records his experiences starting from his senior year.
The huge sense of gap and pressure came from his scientific research life, and Jiang Yuan began to become busier and busier. Despite his hard work, his mentor continued to squeeze his personal time and ridiculed and suppressed him several times, whether in life, scientific research or work.
At first Jiang Yuan thought he could reverse the situation through his own abilities, but his mentor deprived him of all his time and achievements. He asked Jiang Yuan to help him take care of his children, buy meals, buy groceries, etc. He used all Jiang Yuan's money to help him. The output was regarded as garbage, but he turned around and took away the authorship rights of the results. If Jiang Yuan disagreed, he threatened to drop out of school.
Jiang Yuan reported to the college and wrote to the principal, but all of them had no effect, and would even lead to further insults from the instructor in public.
The self-confidence and high spirits were gradually eroded and became broken. However, his parents had high expectations for him, and even expected him to become a professor and improve his family's ordinary economic environment and social status.
Every time he raised the phone he wanted to talk, but after hearing his parents' sincere greetings, he had no choice but to hold it back.
"I'm fine with everything."
From the first year onwards, Jiang Yuan found it difficult to accept. He was in extreme pain and wanted to change everything. But everyone else in the laboratory endured it silently, and he was the one who resisted the most fiercely.
He resisted alone, but he was like a clown.
Soon, he began to doubt his own incompetence, his inability to balance everything, and his inability to satisfy his mentor.
He accidentally mentioned dropping out of school to his parents, but they aroused strong opposition. He had some complaints with Fu Shize in the early days, but later he was afraid that Fu Shize would think he was incompetent, so he kept everything in his heart.
In the diaries of the past few years, there are occasional happy moments, including participating in competitions, playing ball, and climbing mountains with my good brothers.
…
[I feel like the two luckiest things in my life are that my parents love me very much, and the other is that I have a good brother, Aze.]
[After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to see a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with depression. It’s even more sad, I’m so sorry for my parents. But thinking that no matter what happens to me, Aze will help me take care of my parents, which is always a lucky thing.]
…
[Taking medicine is still useful. I rarely think about negative things. I am about to participate in the competition. I should be able to win another championship this year.]
…
[I’m feeling a little better recently. My boss seems to have let me go. He told me to write articles well. After taking the medicine, I can’t concentrate very well. I plan to stop taking the medicine for a while and submit my articles first. You can continue taking medicine after completing your PhD. My parents and Aze would definitely not agree. Aze would stand at the door of the office every day and watch me take my medicine, like a doorkeeper. If he found out that I didn't take my medicine, he would immediately fall out. Well, everyone cares about me, so I don’t want to disappoint everyone.]
This is the last entry in Jiang Yuan's diary document.
Yunli looked at the diary, and when she came to her senses, she realized that there were tears on both sides of her cheeks.
Just like what Fu Shize said, Jiang Yuan was gentle to the world and loved the people around him, but he was treated unfairly.
Seeing her crying, Jiang Mu, who came in with fruits, panicked. Yun Li wiped her tears with the back of her hand. The phone just buzzed, and it was a message from Fu Chize: [Lili, when will you be back?]
"I found the senior's diary. I read it just now." Yunli sniffed. Jiang's father immediately ran to the room after hearing the words. For the two of them, after their son died, they could only search frantically for the past and him. related things.
Yunli found six years of diaries for them.
The two people were wearing reading glasses. Their eyes were already bad. After looking at the screen for a while, they felt sore and achy. Seeing this, Yunli informed them of the basic operations, then went downstairs to a nearby print shop to type two copies.
On the way back to the community, Fu Shize called her. There was a bit of noise on the other side of the phone, and his tone was casual: "Take me with you to the supermarket when you come back?"
"Aze." Yunli paused for a long time before saying with difficulty, "I'm not going to Nanjing University of Technology to find my mentor today."
"..." Fu Shize was silent for a moment, "Are you in Heyuan?"
"Yes..." Yunli lowered her eyes, "I found brother Jiang Yuan's diary from the last few years. Do you want me to drive to pick you up?"
"No, I'll take a taxi there."
Fu Shize did not ask her why she was in Heyuan, nor the contents of her diary, but asked: "Is it difficult for you?"
"No… "
"Well, are you outside?" Hearing the noise on her phone, Fu Shize naturally deduced. Yunli hummed and said in a calm tone: "Stay outside and wait for me to come over."
Yunli hung up the phone and was still in a daze.
She thought that at this time, Fu Shize would be more concerned about the contents of the diary rather than her.
But he didn't mention it at all. The purpose of his visit seemed to be that he just didn't want anything to happen to her, so he asked her to stay outside.
Yunli didn't listen to Fu Shize. She returned to the room and handed the two printed diaries to Jiang Yuan's parents.
She patiently read through it with the two old men.
At the end, Jiang's mother's face was covered with tears. She covered her face and cried bitterly: "So many things have happened, why didn't you tell your mother, why didn't you listen to the doctor..."
She suddenly felt numb. Jiang Yuan mentioned to her that he was not suitable for the life of a doctor and wanted to drop out and find a job directly.
Like many parents, they didn't listen. They only focused on their son's bright future.
But…
Jiang Yuan only needs to say one more word to her.
No matter what she does, what she cares about most is that her son can live in peace.
Yun Li stayed by his side silently, and waited until both of them stabilized before saying softly: "Uncle and aunt, don't be sad. The senior loves you so much and doesn't want you to be like this..."
She paused, then plucked up her courage and said, "Actually, the reason why I came here this time is because of Fu Zhize. He has been feeling guilty because of what happened to his senior, and he stopped studying for a long time because of this."
"Uncle and aunt, you really can't blame Aze for what happened that year. He is such an emotional person and almost regards the senior as his own brother. You can see that it is written in the senior's diary that Aze watched him take medicine. Yes, he also hopes that the senior will survive."
Yunli told them about Fu Shize one after another, and her phone vibrated repeatedly. A few minutes later there was a knock on the door.
Jiang's mother went to open it, and was obviously startled when she saw Fu Shize. He entered the room silently, and only relaxed his frown when he saw Yunli sitting safely on the sofa.
Fu Shize hasn't seen Jiang Yuan's parents for more than three years.
This house has not been here for several years.
Life for the two elders seemed to be business as usual.
Out of habit, Fu Shi thought that the other party didn't want to see him.
After so many years, the endless guilt towards Jiang Yuan and the other party made him breathless. When he appeared in front of them again, Fu Shize didn't know what to say for a while.
Yunli looked at him with his head lowered, his hair covering part of his eyes. In this cramped and gloomy space, his thin shoulders were a little stiff.
"You guys go first." Jiang's mother was still standing at the door, with ups and downs in her words.
“…”
Suddenly being ordered to be kicked out, Yunli's voice trembled: "Uncle and aunt, the senior didn't blame Aze, so don't blame him either, okay?"
The two of them looked grave and said again: "You go first."
"Uncle and aunt..." Yunli repeated in confusion, and Fu Shi walked to her side, took her hand and walked outside.
When he reached the door, he stopped, tilted his head and said the only sentence.
"please take care of yourself."