The girl's thoughts became a secret that could not be told.
But because I was sure of what was on my mind, I could no longer pretend that nothing had happened.
Yin Yunyi began to work hard to control her reaction in front of Yun Ye.
When handing out homework, he passed by Yun Ye's seat. Halfway through the problem, the boy lay down on the table to take a nap, holding a pen in his right hand hanging on the edge of the table.
Yin Yunyi's school uniform pocket caught Yun Ye's pen.
Because of this movement, Yun Ye slowly straightened up. His eyes were dazed. After seeing the person in front of him clearly, he looked at the pen in his hand and said casually: "You want it." He stuffed the pen into her pocket: " for you."
"… Thanks."
Yin Yunyi returned to her seat with her homework book in hand, took out the pen from her pocket and looked at it for a while. She scratched the paper twice and before she knew it, she wrote that sentence.
[I like you.]
[Yun Ye.]
After realizing what she had written, Yin Yunyi hurriedly crossed out these two sentences. A classmate walked by, and she immediately closed the notebook and stuffed it into a drawer.
Xu Yao was in another class and came over to tell her before school: "Yunyi, did you know that many people send love letters to Yunye? The teacher even called the parents, worried about Yunye's premature love."
Yin Yunyi suppressed her emotions and asked, "So many people like Yun Ye?"
"Yes, I also wrote a love letter before." Xu Yao said with a smile, "But he ignored it. Not long after, I fell in love with another person."
She absent-mindedly raised her face while doing the questions, and accidentally looked out the window. A tall girl who was several years older than them was looking around, her eyes were almost the same as Yunye's.
Couldn't that be Yun Ye's 'parent'
Yin Yunyi stood up and walked over to take another look. At the corner of the stairs, she saw the girl and Yun Ye talking. Yunye leaned against the old wooden window behind him.
The girl asked him: "Those love letters were written to you by your desk?"
Yunye: "..."
The girl sounded surprised: "It's really unbelievable that someone would actually like my brother." She started to laugh: "She is still such a good-looking girl."
Yun Ye held it in for a long time and said: "... No."
He couldn't bear it in his tone: "Yunli, you are so noisy."
"Will your head teacher scold me later?" Yunli sighed: "Hey, Yunye, can you not get into trouble?"
"The most you can do is scold me..." Yunye said impatiently. Seeing that Yunli was dejected, he struggled for a while, then comforted him with a sullen face: "Help me get the head teacher, and I'll treat you to dinner tonight."
Yunli glanced at him suspiciously: "Are you paying or am I paying?"
Yun Ye was exposed by her, the corners of his eyes curled up, and he said confidently: "You pay."
Yunli: "..."
After the siblings finished speaking, they walked upstairs. Seeing this, Yin Yunyi shrank back and trotted back to the classroom.
Sitting back, her heart pounded, feeling guilty for eavesdropping on their conversation.
As he started to do his homework, Yin Yunyi suddenly became lost in thought.
The way Yun Ye and Yun Li got along just now seemed natural and intimate, just like her and Yin Yucheng.
She was a little envious.
Not long after, Yun Ye came back to pack his schoolbag. In Yin Yunyi's impression, he should have a bad face or cry after being trained by the teacher. Yun Ye looked a little irritable, looked at her, picked up his bag and planned to leave directly.
Yin Yunyi felt that he was a person who kept his emotions to himself.
She pretended to be serious and wrote the question for a while, not wanting to cause a fuss with her question. After careful consideration, Yin Yunyi wrote a sentence on the small card and placed it on his desk from front to back without turning around.
[I am often criticized by teachers, so don’t be sad.]
Finally, a smiling face [:)] was attached.
Yun Ye glanced at her, and after a while, he picked up the pen from the table and made two random strokes. When he passed by her, he threw the small card back to her and said in the same tone as usual: "Let's go."
There are only two random symbols scrawled—[:)]
In Yin Yunyi's high school life, she began to follow Yun Ye continuously. She would secretly watch Yunye while he was playing, jumping and cheering for his scores. She would look at his ranking first after the results came out. She would feel ups and downs about this. She would go out at about the same time as Yunye after school every day. Meeting each other 'by chance'.
These occasional meetings were the girl's daily dream at that time.
At the school sports day of the first year of high school, all the students moved their chairs to the playground, and it was crowded. The school sports meeting lasted for three days. Afterwards, the students in the class played games on their positions.
The loser gets to play truth or dare.
Yunye had just finished running the relay race and when he came back panting, he was pulled to a chair. He was wearing a sports vest, his body had not yet fully grown, and the muscle lines on his arms were not obvious.
Yin Yunyi took a bottle of water from the side and handed it to him.
Yun Ye took it and said, "Thank you."
When he drank water, his Adam's apple moved up and down, and beads of sweat dripped down his hair. Yin Yunyi looked at it for a while, noticed his diverted gaze, and lowered her head with a feeling of dismay.
The game continues.
Because Yun Ye had just arrived, he lost a few games in a daze, and the question of truth kept coming back and forth.
"Which girl do you think is the prettiest on the scene?"
Yun Ye didn't want to answer this kind of question, so he shied away: "Everyone's aesthetics may be different."
"Which girl on the scene best suits your aesthetic taste?"
Yun Ye raised his eyes and quickly said his name: "Yin Yunyi."
Other boys had answered this question for her, but it didn't have as much of an impact on her as Yunye's answer. Even though she didn't exercise, she felt like she was sweating lightly.
"Do you think Yin Yunyi looks better with her hair tied up or let down?"
Yun Ye groaned, leaning back on the chair and rocking back and forth, arching his eyebrows and smiling brightly: "I've never seen her with her hair down." The others persisted, and for a moment, he casually replied: "With her hair down, Bar."
The girl next to her teased her: "Yunyi, you are blushing!"
Yin Yunyi felt nervous, but on the surface she looked at Yunye calmly: "It's a bit too hot." She made an excuse: "I'm going to the small shop."
In front of the small shop, Yin Yunyi breathed a sigh of relief, glad that he didn't reveal his secret.
She wanted to buy a cone, but the store could only pay in cash or online. Yin Yunyi only had money on her campus card, so she gave up the idea.
Next to it stood a bulletin board showing the winners of the school sports meet. She stopped and searched for Yun Ye's name for a while.
Yun Ye's voice suddenly sounded next to him: "Have you seen my name?"
Yin Yunyi had obviously seen it, but instinctively denied it: "I didn't see it... where is it?"
"Here." The young man stepped forward and pointed at his name. Yin Yunyi looked at his face, paused for a few seconds, and then looked blankly at the word "Yun Ye" on the bulletin board.
"I bought too much, I'll give it to you." Yun Ye handed her the cone in his hand. Yin Yunyi didn't react and reached out to take it. Yun Ye took a bite of the popsicle in his mouth, held the stick in his hand, and raised it to her: "Go back."
“…”
Yin Yunyi's eyes followed the young man's back, and then moved to the cherry blossom-flavored cone in his hand.
She couldn't understand how there could be such a beautiful person in this world.
However, the strict tutoring since childhood made Yin Yunyi bury this love deeply in her heart.
Yin Yunyi thought, maybe like Xu Yao, this kind of love is just a temporary ignorance.
It will disappear soon.
A few days later, her family told Yin Yunyi that Yin Yucheng's job was in Xifu City and she was going to transfer to another school.
After hearing the news, Yin Yunyi immediately thought of the young man who made him fall in love for the first time.
Unable to control her emotions, she cried after hearing the news.
Yin Yunyi's mood is usually gentle and stable, but Yin Yucheng didn't know what happened for a while and hurriedly comforted her.
She calmed down for a while, sobbed and said, "The school over there is not as good as here. I want to do well in college."
Yin Yucheng laughed out loud: "Our Yiyi scores in the high school entrance examination are so good, my brother has already helped you contact the best high school in Nanwu."
"I can't get used to the food there."
"My parents will also come over and ask them to make you Xifu."
"I haven't finished the training class yet."
"Brother will transfer you to the training class in Nanwu."
Yin Yunyi is still working hard: "My friends are all here."
Yin Yucheng comforted her: "Brother, I know you can't let go of your friends here, but we Yiyi will have new friends when we go to the new school."
"B-but..."
Yin Yunyi's voice was choked with sobs.
In all these years, she has only met one young man like Yun Ye.
She kept wiping her tears. Her parents and brother were leaving Xifu City, and she would not stop them willfully because of her vague love.
But she was sad.
She would never see Yun Ye again.
Yin Yunyi told Xu Yao the news that she was going to transfer to another school. The news soon leaked out, and classmates who had been together for more than a year came to say goodbye to her, and many gave her parting gifts.
But there is no Yunye.
For a girl, her budding thoughts have not yet been told to the other person and she intends to seal them away forever.
On the day she left school, taking care of her mood, Yin Yucheng went to school to pick her up. Yin Yunyi walked silently on the road. As she approached the court, she heard footsteps and the sound of a basketball hitting the ground.
Yin Yunyi caught a glimpse of the familiar figure and stopped.
Yin Yucheng asked her: "What's wrong?"
She shook her head, lowered her head and continued walking forward.
"Yin Yunyi—"
Far away, she heard Yun Ye's voice, echoing in the empty playground.
Yin Yunyi immediately turned around. Yunye was on the edge of the basketball court, far away from her. She couldn't see the other person's expression clearly, but she was sure that the other person was looking at her.
Tens of seconds later, the tall and thin figure waved to her.
She whispered: "Let's go."
The soft hair blows gently in the wind.
This was the first time she let her hair down in school. Maybe it was just a young and ignorant joke, but she took it seriously.
She wanted Yunye to see it.
…
At Nanwu Middle School, Yin Yunyi sat in a single row of seats by the window. She had no tablemates and only the sunshine of Nanwu to accompany her.
She would occasionally look out the window in a daze, remembering when she glanced out the window in junior high school and could see Yun Ye running with the ball on the basketball court downstairs.
She didn't have a mobile phone, and her Internet time was strictly limited by her family. When she had a few minutes of Internet time on weekends, she opened her phone and saw Yun Ye's original penguin avatar, but she didn't know what message to send.
She slowly adapted to the new school and her life remained the same.
Until I received a postcard from Xifu Experimental Middle School.
Yin Yunyi saw at a glance that it was Yun Ye's handwriting. There was no information about him in the postcard. She only told her: [The class made a birthday gift for you and asked Yun Ye's sister to help bring it to Nanwu City. Yin Yunyi, happy birthday.]
When Yin Yunyi took the gift from Yunli, she saw the neat words "—For Yin Yunyi" on the box. She recognized it as Yunye's handwriting at a glance.
Her heart was beating like thunder and she took a peek at Yin Yucheng.
After returning home, Yin Yunyi took the box back to his room and opened it carefully.
There are white and light pink cherry blossoms inside the transparent spherical glass.
She noticed the dots of starlight on the petals and turned off the light. It was white fluorescent powder. The eternal flower shines slightly on the desk.
Yin Yunyi looked at this gift and thought of the young man in the distance.
Maybe she is lucky, at least the person she likes is responsible for preparing these things for her.
At first, Yin Yunyi thought it was just a coincidence, until she discovered that each of the frequent postcards was in Yun Ye's handwriting.
Yin Yucheng found out earlier. Seeing that Yin Yunyi never told him the truth, he took the pile of postcards and asked her: "There was someone in your previous class who wrote letters?"
Yin Yunyi also imitated him and smiled gently, but did not answer.
Yin Yucheng was much sharper than she thought and sat next to her.
The pen moved steadily on the exercise book. He looked at Yin Yunyi's calm expression and asked casually: "Does this little boy like you?"
The pencil lead broke suddenly.
Yin Yunyi pressed the pencil pretending to be calm and said, "What?"
"It should be called Yun Ye." Yin Yucheng continued to test, and the hand on the exercise book froze. Yin Yunyi lowered his head in resignation: "Brother, don't tell your parents."
"But this is not good." Yin Yucheng said a little more seriously: "We must take other people's likes seriously. If we don't like the other person, we should clearly reject it, otherwise it will also affect him."
Yin Yunyi remained silent for a while, then said obediently: "I understand."
"Use the computer more that weekend and tell him clearly." Yin Yucheng stopped worrying about this matter and sorted the postcards for her and put them on the bookshelf.
"Yeah." Yin Yunyi said obediently, lowering his head to do his homework.
On weekends, Yin Yucheng extends her online time to half an hour. When shutting down, Yin Yunyi forgot to confirm twice and the computer was in standby mode.
Yin Yucheng placed the fruit plate on her desk and asked gently: "Are you done talking to him?"
Yin Yunyi: "Yeah."
"Is the little boy sad?" Yin Yucheng was bored and sat in her room. Seeing that she didn't reply, after a while, he asked again: "How did he react?"
“…”
Yin Yunyi was working on the college entrance examination exercise book that he had seen many times. She raised her head and glanced at her door: "Brother, I don't have time now."
After being kicked out of the room by his sister, Yin Yucheng returned to the study with nothing to do. When he saw that the host was still on, he turned on the screen and Yin Yunyi's account was still on the computer.
Worried that her wording was uncomfortable, Yin Yucheng opened her chat window and took a look. It was the afternoon conversation.
yyy：[云野]
yy: [?]
Yun Ye replied instantly, and Yin Yunyi thought for a long time before sending the next sentence.
yyy: [What are you doing?]
yy: [Write Wu San. And you?]
yyy: [I am also writing Wu San. Which book are you writing and where are you?]
yy: [Chinese book, classical Chinese test point 4.]
yyy: [Oh, then I’ll write it too.]
Half an hour later.
yy: [Bye.]
Just looking at the nickname Yin Yucheng, it is almost impossible to tell which one is which. One uses the original male penguin avatar, and the other uses the original female penguin avatar with the same inexperience.
Yin Yucheng was speechless, but he immediately realized that the two of them loved each other.
He turned off the computer and did not mention the matter to Yin Yunyi.
This is the first time Yin Yunyi has lied to his family.
She didn't know she could lie so calmly.
Yin Yunyi couldn't tell the specific reason why he did this.
Recalling the scenes he saw when he entered the classroom in the past few years, Yunye lay lazily on the table, stretched out one hand in front of the table, and pressed the ballpoint pen repeatedly in boredom.
I remembered him being so showy on the basketball court, holding his knees and panting slightly after hitting the ball, and occasionally looking up as if he saw her in the crowd.
Thinking of the five years when the two were familiar but unfamiliar, they would fight with each other like peers, and they would also maintain a basic distance between men and women.
Yunye and she have never been close. The closest moment to each other was when they gently rubbed each other's fingers when they took the eraser.
At that time, Yin Yunyi thought that it was just her own beating heart.
I received these postcards from teenagers.
Every word, I try to hide my feelings, but every word, I can't hide my feelings.
It turns out she doesn't have a one-sided crush.
Therefore, she, who has always been well-behaved and honest, chose to lie to her family about this matter.
Use your own way to carefully maintain this budding relationship.
Both of them were facing the college entrance examination, but Yin Yunyi did not reveal his feelings recklessly.
But she also had no intention of giving the other party a one-way overdraft.
She found a reason to borrow ten yuan from Yin Yucheng, but he saw through it and gave her the money anyway.
Yin Yunyi picked out a set of beautiful postcards at the education supermarket of Nanwu Middle School.
After hesitating for a long time, she still wrote at the beginning - [Classmates of Class 15, Grade 2].
Until Yun Ye went to Nanwu during the winter vacation, when Yin Yunyi met the boy, he told him his feelings in the most obscure but also the most sincere way.
She gave a gift to Yun Ye, marking it with her name in exactly the same way - [To Yun Ye].
In the following time, in order to avoid being discovered by her parents, Yin Yunyi sent postcards for a year and a half to Class 15, Grade 2, and Class 15, Grade 3, and borrowed ten yuan from her brother countless times. She can truly sign her name, while Yunye needs to always use class as a pronoun.
Yin Yunyi's grades were worse than Yunye's, and she made an agreement with him to take the Western University of Science and Technology exam together. She would no longer travel with Yin Yucheng during holidays, and would focus all her energy on preparing for the exam.
Fortunately.
She got admitted to the best university as she wished.
I also got my wish and was able to go to the same university as Yun Ye.
After the college entrance examination, Yin Yunyi told Yin Yucheng truthfully that she planned to study the same major in the same school as Yunye.
I was worried that Yin Yucheng would say that she was in love, but he just looked at his sister meaningfully, took a sip of the refreshing soda, and said with a hint of sadness: "I also want campus love."
Yin Yunyi: "...Brother, you are already twenty-eight."
"Isn't a twenty-eight-year-old man worthy of campus love?" Yin Yucheng said quietly: "Can you let your little boyfriend guide your brother?"
"We haven't talked about it yet." Yin Yunyi retorted immediately.
"At that time, we, Yiyi, were sleeping on iron stools in the hospital for our little boyfriend." Yin Yucheng teased her. Yin Yunyi blushed and was not afraid to admit: "I just want to."
She is willing to do many things for Yun Ye, and similarly, she knows very well that Yun Ye will do the same.
After the notice from Western University of Science and Technology came, the family bought Yin Yunyi a mobile phone as a gift.
Yin Yunyi uses this mobile phone to send messages to Yunye every day.
The summer vacation after the college entrance examination was extremely long. Yin Yunyi was preparing for college courses in her room every day. She could not find a reason to apply to Xifu with her parents.
She found that the two words she wrote the most on paper were—
[Yunye]
[I am bored]
I read these two words together inexplicably, and it seems that people in the distance come alive. She looked at the words she had written in a trance and laughed to herself.
Maybe he was bored at home too, maybe he was thinking about her and wanted to meet her.
That day she received a call from Yun Ye—
"I'm coming to Nanwu."