At this moment, I don't want to watch it, I really can't watch it anymore. I didn't expect that she would always like me and didn't forget me, but why didn't she come to see me? By the way, she has never been to our house. I don't want to bring her to our house because my house is too shabby. I always have a sense of inferiority. Even after so many years, I still can't get rid of it. I work as a refiner in the crematorium. Maybe it has something to do with this!
During the meal, no one mentioned Bai Jie's matter again. Her father had already made his decision, and it was useless for others to say anything.
When we were halfway through our meal, Bai Jie came. I was stunned for a moment because I didn’t expect her to come. At this time, she should be at home having dinner with her family.
My second sister-in-law stood up and enthusiastically pulled Bai Jie to eat together.
"No, I have something to ask my master."
Bai Jie and I went to the yard.
"Master, I'm sorry to disturb your meal."
"Don't call me master at home anymore. What's the matter?"
"I dreamed about that girl again. I didn't know her. She was still crying. She said I robbed you."
I started sweating, it seemed like this was going to be a real hassle.
"It's okay, I'll go find Master Yunzheng tomorrow."
I sent Bai Jie back and she held my hand and said.
"I'm scared."
"It's okay. It's okay."
I also know that it is not normal to always have a dream like that. I also know that it is really not normal.
At night I opened Hao Fei's diary. The back part was recorded when we broke up. She was still in love with me until the day before she died. She said she couldn't find me and didn't know where I lived. She also wanted me to carry her on my back and run like the wind. I didn't know she still loved me. If that was the case...
I can't watch it any longer, maybe I'll waver.
The grass slowly turned green, but it was a mess at the moment. The one in Bai Jie's dream should be Hao Fei, there was absolutely no mistake about it. Master Yun Zheng said that if I were not a refiner, if I were not a completely yin person, if I did not hold Hao Fei and send him to the furnace, none of this would have happened. That is a ghost, a person who loves you and cannot let you go, who will haunt you after death, or in other words, a certain person.
This makes me confused. Refiners have to bear so many realistic things. In addition to these, there are so many weird things happening. This is simply unbearable for me. If I knew there would be so many things, would I still come? I don't know.
Bai Jie’s dream made me confused. Is Hao Fei really obsessed with Bai Jie
I had to go find Master Yunzheng.
The master was drinking. He liked drinking. When I went in and sat down, he asked me to drink with him.
"Master, Bai Jie is haunted by a dream. It's about a girl who said I stole her love."
"Hao Fei, one is to find Hao Fei's urn, and the other is to go see Hao Fei's room."
I looked at the master, thought for a while and said.
I will go to Hao Fei's home tomorrow and see what the situation is.
In fact, I was afraid to go to Hao Fei's home, but I still wanted to go and learn about her situation before she died.
I went to Hao Fei's house in the evening and finally decided to go up and knocked on the door. It was Hao Fei's father who opened the door. The old man looked at me for a long time and said.
"It's Ke Zuo. I told you not to come again. Fei Fei is gone."
"I need to understand something."
Hao Fei's father flatly refused and closed the door. No one responded when he knocked again.
I also guessed this result. The other person's daughter is dead, and you go to see her daughter. This is just opening up the scar.
However, at this moment, I must know everything about Hao Fei. Hao Fei's urn was not stored, and his family members took it away directly. So I have to find Hao Fei's urn and everything about Hao Fei's life.
I knocked on the door again. It was already dark. The door opened and Hao Fei's father looked at me and stared at me for several minutes. I was worried and didn't say a word.
"Come in!"
I went in and sat down.
"Have a drink with me. No one has had a drink with me for twenty years. I have walked here alone for twenty years."
Hao Fei's father seemed very tired, very tired.
"I know you want to know about Hao Fei's condition. In fact, he is already dead. There is no need to tell me. If you are well, she will be well too."
"How did Hao Fei die?"
"Suicide, depression."
I was stunned. How could this be possible? Hao Fei was happiest when he was in school. I didn't believe it.
I covered my face. Hao Fei's diary did not write about this.
"Where is Hao Fei's urn?"
Hao Fei's father glanced at me.
"On the west hill of Wulao, under a pine tree, there is a red cloth tied to the pine tree."
I didn't ask any further questions. I could see that Hao Fei's father had a very painful expression on his face.
That day, I accompanied the old man to drink until midnight before going back.
The next day, I went to Wulao, which is a remote place in the city, formerly called Wulaotun.
I borrowed a bicycle from the master and rode there. After an hour and a half, I finally reached the foot of the mountain.
I climbed up the mountain and saw a pine tree halfway up the mountain. It was tied with a cloth strip, but the color had faded and turned white. However, you could tell that it was red.
I walked over slowly, my heart pounding, as if I was meeting Hao Fei again after not seeing him for many years.
It was desolate. The grave was covered with wormwood and was washed away by the rain, becoming very small and scattered. I felt sad.
I piled up the dirt with my hands, tears streaming down my face. In my mind, it was the time when we were together as children. She protected me everywhere, brought me delicious food, clothes, bought me notebooks, pencils...
I didn't expect that the final result would be like this.
When I returned that day, it was dark, and my father had prepared all the food for me at home. When I was drinking with my father, he said that Bai Jie had come, but he didn't say what happened.
That day, I was in a bad mood and went to bed early.
Unexpectedly, I dreamed of Hao Fei. Hao Fei was holding something in her hand, but I couldn’t tell what it was. She held it up for me to see, but my eyes seemed unable to open and I couldn’t see clearly. I woke up in shock, covered in cold sweat, and my clothes were all wet.
When I went to the office in the morning, Bai Jie hadn't come yet. I didn't know what had happened. It was already past working hours. She had never been late before.
Although I am anxious, I can't leave.
I entered the refining room and lit all the furnaces. I didn't need to go to the morgue to know that there would be many deaths today. There were people everywhere outside.
I lit the stove and sat down to smoke. After a cigarette, I went to the morgue, pushed the dead body in, carried him to the rack, and pushed him in.
I was watching over four stoves, and I was worried that something might happen to Bai Jie.
It was past nine o'clock when Bai Jie hurried in.
"Don't worry, drink some water and sit for a while."
"Master, I'm late."
"It's okay. I can do it alone."
Bai Jie sat down and drank the whole glass of water, then picked up the chisel.
"You rest."
"I'm sorry, Master, I overslept. I didn't sleep all night and didn't fall asleep until dawn."
I thought, no need to ask, it's Hao Fei again, I don't want to ask, what can I say? To solve this matter, it seems that the master has to come.
Today was also strange. I was busy until around four in the afternoon and finally finished. I don’t know what day it was, but there were so many deaths.
Bai Jie and I didn’t have lunch, so I took it home after get off work. I knew my father would do a good job.
On the way, I asked Bai Jie, was there anything you wanted to talk to me about yesterday
"It's okay, I just wanted to see you."
Bai Jie blushed after she said this.
Today I went to Hao Fei's house again. Her father did not refuse me. I brought two bottles of good wine and some dishes.
When I was drinking with Hao Fei's father, I learned that Hao Fei's mother had died. A week after her death, Hao Fei's father was now alone.
When I entered Hao Fei's room, I was stunned. I was dumbfounded at that time. I immediately knew what Hao Fei was holding in his hand in the dream. It was amber, it was really amber.
“Hao Fei’s room is full of amber, and the most abundant items are necklaces,” said Hao Fei’s father, standing behind me.
She has been making this since she graduated. There are more than 400 necklaces, all for men. I know she made them for you.
“But why didn’t she look for me?”
"She looked for you but couldn't find you. She said you moved. This city is big but small, and she still couldn't find you."
My family did move. We moved after my father died. My mother took me with her. We moved to a place where no one knew my father was a refiner. But eventually someone found out. We did not tell anyone where we went.
I took off an amber necklace hanging on the wall, it was so delicate.
"They are all polished by hand. She has been doing this all the time, and then she came to you."
I shook my head.
"She said that these necklaces were made for you. She told me before she died that she would give them all to you if she found you. But I miss you so much that I couldn't bear to part with you. You can take them all today!"
When she was in primary school, we would still burn the stove. The coal we brought in contained coal yellow, which we called coal yellow. She would pick it up, and sometimes her little hands and face became very black. I didn’t know why she was obsessed with this, and some classmates laughed at her. That day I threw away a palm-sized piece of coal yellow that she had picked up, and she cried.
I didn't expect her to cry at that time, and I was stupid and ran away.
"Take it away!"
"No, that's yours."
"If Feifei dies, I will have nothing."
When I came out of Hao Fei's house that day, I was so confused that I didn't know what to do.
Until now I still don't understand what Hao Fei was going to do with all the coal yellow.
I went to the crematorium and saw the master. I told him what I knew and he looked at me.
"Wait until I'm done."
"I'll do it."
The master went back to the office. Yihe and I were working, and he asked me.
"Why doesn't Master Yun Zheng accept me as his apprentice?"
"I don't know. Didn't you ask him for help?"
"I knelt down before him, but it didn't work. I went to the director, but it didn't work either. I really don't understand."
I also can’t understand why the master did this.
After finishing the work, the master asked me to take him to the West Mountain of Wulao to visit Hao Fei's grave.
"This grave hasn't been visited for years, and this isn't a good place to be. Hao Fei is blaming you."
"What should we do then?"
"Talk to her father about moving the grave."
"Where to move to?"
"You go and discuss it. I'll ask a Feng Shui master to choose a place."
I went to Hao Fei's home and told her father about the grave relocation. Her father was stunned for a long time.
"Yes, yes, I am not in good health and cannot climb the mountain anymore. I have not visited Feifei for many years. She is too lonely. I am sorry, you can move the grave, but I have to go with her. This means she is moving to a good place. I have to know where Feifei has moved to."
What Hao Fei's father said made me shudder. My master told me that both the cemetery and the house are equally important. If the house is not chosen well, many problems will arise. As for what problems they are, the master did not tell me.
I went to my master's house and my master was at home.
Hao Fei's father agreed, but asked to follow.
Of course, it wouldn't make sense for her relatives not to follow.
"when?"
"Tomorrow, let Yi He and Bai Jie work together."
I nodded. (To be continued)