In fact, I am very calm. I feel that what happened was what should have happened and it is very reasonable.
I am blind and I have also lost my love. Being blind doesn’t hurt, but losing love does hurt, just like in my previous life. But I have already forgotten it, little by little.
Liu Shougui came to me and talked to me about something.
"Let's make a deal. You like it. You have something in your previous life that you hid in a certain place. I need that thing. If I don't tell you, you will forget it, and you will forget it forever."
"Actually, I've forgotten."
"At least you can remember now."
"What?"
"Think carefully about the thing you left in the Bone Village. You only left something in the Bone Village once, and that is this thing. You must remember it, otherwise I will not make this deal with you."
"What deal?"
"So you can see things, have eyes."
I have to make this deal, I must make it. I need to see things. I am blind and have lost love. This is not true love. Is it lucky or unfortunate? I will never know.
Liu Shougui passed away. I sat at home, thinking about all this. My mother must be in pain because I am blind. My mother’s pain is different from mine. She is in pain because of my loss of eyesight, while I am in pain because of my love.
I thought about everything about Bone Village, and it seemed like I only had partial memories. I really wanted to forget everything.
I slept soundly that night. I had a dream that I went to Gu Village and stood beside a well in the village. The well was discovered by me. It was to the west of Gu Village, deep in the wormwood. You couldn't see the well until you walked to the well. Then you realized that it was a well. The water was full to the brim and very clear. You could even feel that the water was as pure as water from heaven.
When I woke up, I thought the well in my dream should be a hint that I should go to Bone Village again, for the last time. Maybe in the future I will be just like an ordinary person and will never be able to go to Bone Village again.
I went to the Bone Village by myself. Liu Shougui took a blind man like me. I seemed to feel unfamiliar with the Bone Village, as if it was my first time there. My memory was indeed disappearing quickly.
At the well, I felt scared. It was the first time I felt this way. The well water was something that scared me. I was afraid of things whose depth I had no idea of.
Well, this well...
I did remember that I put something in the well. It was a knife left over from my previous life. What kind of knife it was or what it was used for, I had no idea.
"There is a knife, down in the well."
"Liu Shougui put down something and used a rope. After a while, the knife was sucked up. It was a magnet."
The knife was not rusty and was still shiny. It was a machete. I couldn't remember what I used it for.
There were words on the knife, but I don’t remember what they were. I don’t recognize that kind of words.
“It’s this knife.”
We left Bone Village and Liu Shougui sent me back home and told me.
"Let me think about it for the last time, what to do with this knife, then I will let you see this world, that black, that white, that red, that green, that blue..."
I was thinking, in a daze, constantly thinking, what are knives used for? To cut vegetables, to chop trees, to kill people...
I shuddered at the thought of killing someone. Is a knife used to kill people? Did I kill someone? Impossible. I didn't kill anyone in my previous life. I will never kill anyone.
I can't remember, and I can't figure out, what I did with this knife in my previous life, where did this knife come from, who gave it to me? Or did I buy it? But the knife is very strange, it's impossible to buy it. I hid this knife in the well of the Bone Village, which means it is very important, and I am afraid that others will find it.
Two days later, I remembered that this might be my last memory. I did kill someone with this knife. This knife was given to me by He Dana. It was a knife picked up from Changbai Mountain. It was a knife from an ancient nation. I really couldn't remember why He Dana gave me this knife.
I did kill someone, in my last life.
The person I killed is in the Bone Village, and no one knows about it. I put the body in the refining furnace, and that furnace is now on fire, and the bones are still inside.
The person I killed was a man. I lured him to the Bone Village and killed him because he seduced someone who loved me and made her leave me. I killed him.
Liu Shougui came and I told him.
"Do you know who the man you killed was?"
I shook my head. All I knew was that he seduced the person I loved and made me lose her.
"I never thought that you, Ke Zuo, would kill someone. This is something I never expected. The person you killed was Boss Fu's son."
"He has no son."
"He has a son, but none of you know about it. This is the revenge of reincarnation. Are you happy?"
"I'm not happy. What's the joy in killing someone? You knew about this, so why are you asking me?"
"I like this knife. It doesn't matter who you kill. It will be fun to kill thirteen people with this knife..."
Liu Shougui was evil throughout his life.
That day, he told me that I would be able to see it the next day. He left and didn’t do anything to me. I didn’t believe it, but I would be able to see it the next day.
When I woke up the next morning, I really saw it. Not only did I see my mother, but there was something else as well, a little kid squatting in the corner, crying.
I know that this is because I have pulled the ghost eyes. I pulled the ghost eyes and saw the light and everything. This is the useful thing in Yin science.
I started working. The director surnamed Ke was transferred to the bureau as a section chief, and I became the director. I only remember things from this life.
That day, Song Meili came to see me. She cried in front of me and said that she was wrong and that she was not right...
"I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore, please don't close your hand again after letting it go."
Song Meili left the crematorium three days later. She left the city. Some people leave the city because of love, some leave because of life, and some leave because of love...
I stood in front of the window, looking outside, the refining furnace, the big red coffin on the roof, everything here seemed new to me.
Refiner Yu Li came in and stayed here with me for a day.
"Hello, Director Zhang, I would like to invite you to dinner tonight."
"Is there a reason?"
I smiled, but I don’t know how I smiled.
"Well, of course. You were transferred here from the province, and I want to ask you something."
"Okay then."
When I had dinner with Yu Li in the evening, she asked a lot of random questions, and I realized that she had other intentions.
"I like you."
Yu Li said something bold and I was shocked.
This is a very ordinary girl, who looks ordinary.
"Then let's try it."
In fact, I prefer ordinary and normal life now. Maybe this is my destiny in this life.
Director Ke came and his mother died.
I have forgotten Yunbai and my son from my previous life.
I was busy running around. He is my director now, and I have to perform well. Maybe in the future I can also become a director or something.
Director Ke cried sadly, tears kept falling. Yes, who wouldn’t be sad when their mother died
I brought Yu Li home that day and my mother was very happy. She liked this girl. Even though she was not very good at cooking and was a little willful, my mother still liked her. Whatever I liked, she liked too. That's what a mother is like.
When the accident happened at the crematorium, it was a worker who jumped into the refining room. It was the one placed outside, the one that was brought back from the Bone Village.
Many employees here have psychological problems. Although we provide psychological counseling many times every year, some problems always arise.
When I ran over, Director Ke was there, as well as Liu Shougui. Director Ke scolded me, but I didn't think much of it. He was more than 20 years older than me and was also my leader.
The employee's body was taken out. There were no injuries on his body, but he was dead. Liu Shougui said that it was the soul that died and so the person died.
I don’t know what the human soul is like, but I do remember some things in this world that are weird, unclear, and incomprehensible. This is what makes me nervous.
This was an accident and I was punished. I accept it since it involved a death.
Gradually, I learned more about the weirdness of the crematorium. The first time I saw a ghost was in my office. Yu Li told me. She said we can see ghosts, but I didn't believe it.
I did see it, a gray mass, leaning against the glass of my office, and it was moving outside.
"That is the soul, gray, soft, invisible, but it can fly."
Yu Li learned all these from her master, who is an experienced makeup artist.
Yu Li took me to the morgue in the middle of the night, the morgue where the ownerless bodies were kept. There were more than a hundred bodies, some of which were more than ten years old and had been there all the time. This morgue was very big, very big, it was a single room, unlike the ones above, which were all single rooms. They were all covered with white cloth, and there were a few special ones, with flowery cloths, which were bodies that were more than ten years old. There were also bodies covered with black cloth. Yu Li told me that the bodies covered with black cloth were the same. I saw a ghost that day, standing in the corner, and I was so scared that I screamed and jumped up. The ghost was a woman with long hair, a blue face, and a gloomy look. It was exactly the same ghost that someone else described to me when I was a child.
I came out, scared to death in a cold sweat, and Yu Li covered her mouth and laughed.
In fact, I am really scared. Maybe I have to experience all this again.
There are several diaries in my drawer. I wrote them down because I was afraid of forgetting my previous life, so I wrote everything down. Now when I read them again, it seems like I am reading a ghost story written by another person. It was not written by me. I even feel it is ridiculous, but it is indeed my handwriting.
I was trapped in a place, which was Makeup Room No. 13. Makeup Room No. 13 was empty because the original makeup artist Li Xiaohuan quit her job. She married Director Ke. I went there on the day of their wedding, and it seemed that Li Xiaohuan had changed a lot.
Dressing room number 13 is the strangest one, because there cannot be a dressing room number 13 in a crematorium, but there is number 13, and 13 is a ghost number. This was told to me by Yu Li. Number 13 was sealed, and that day I went in as if possessed by a ghost, and then I couldn't get out, as if there was something blocking me on all sides.
An hour later, Liu Shougui came to take me out. They found out something was wrong with me through the surveillance.
"Director Zhang, it's meaningless if you play like this?"
I know this ugly ghost. He is a very powerful person. It is said that he used to work at the Chixian Crematorium and later guarded the columbarium.
I invited Liu Shougui to dinner, and he called me Zuolu. I didn't understand why he called me Zuolu because I thought he looked like a donkey.
"You really don't remember anything. Okay, okay!"
Liu Shougui is like a mental patient, saying some incomprehensible things. (To be continued)