I felt a sudden pain and woke up with a start.
I saw the monk holding a wooden hammer. I felt pain on my head and when I touched it, there was a bump. It seemed that the monk gave me a wooden hammer. It hurts.
"What are you doing?"
The third uncle came in.
"How did I tell you? That's Hao Fei's soul. You can't get close to it, let alone hold hands."
"So what should I do?"
"Tell her that you don't love her. You love Bai Jie. Do you understand?"
"This, this..."
"Reluctant? Afraid of hurting her? Let me tell you, she is a form of existence in another world. If you can't resist, you will go with her, and you will no longer exist in this world. Your master will burn you himself and make an urn for you."
The third uncle glared at me.
“This is really hard for me to say.”
It was indeed difficult for me to speak. It was such a beautiful thing that I really didn't want to destroy it. What's more, Hao Fei loved only me until his death.
It's really hard for me to do it.
"If you can't do it, then forget it. Bai Jie will be entangled to death, and you will also be yin and yang, and your death will not be much later than Bai Jie."
Monk Le Le seemed very angry.
"Go back and think it over. Think it over clearly. This matter must be ended. No matter what, if you don't have the determination, forget it."
The third uncle and I went down the mountain, and he was very angry.
I still couldn't make a decision. Bai Jie came and I didn't want to talk. How could I tell Bai Jie about this? Should I say I couldn't let go of Hao Fei? That would be asking for trouble. Although Bai Jie looked honest, she could tickle me to death when she got angry.
I have to make a decision on this matter as soon as possible. After Bai Jie left, I tossed and turned in my room, but I couldn't make a decision.
Hao Fei and I were together for several years, until she was fourteen years old.
That year, we went to the grassland, which was our world. No one wanted to go to that place. The weeds were waist-high and no one was there.
It was during the summer vacation of that year that Hao Fei and I made an appointment to go to the grassland. We walked to the middle, pulled out the grass and made a clearing. We lay there, looking at the sky and the clouds slowly passing by. It was a real pleasure.
That day, Hao Fei said to me.
"Xiao Zuo, let's kiss!"
I was stupid at that time. I had never thought about it. I was so stupid that I thought that happiness was just two people holding hands.
Hao Fei rolled on me and kissed me in the mouth. I was stunned and numb. It took me a long time to recover. We kissed, and there was a smell of grass. Only then did I know that Hao Fei had a smell of grass on his body. Many years later, I realized that it was body odor.
That day, in addition to kissing, I also touched Hao Fei's butt. That fleshy buttocks has never been forgotten by me. That was my first youth lesson in my ignorant youth, and it was Hao Fei who taught me that lesson.
I've never told anyone about it, only in my memories.
The next day, I went to Hao Fei's house and Hao Fei's father was drinking.
"Xiao Zuo, you're here. I've been waiting for you. Take the amber necklace made by Hao Fei. All of it."
"this… "
"If she says it's for you, take it."
I finished drinking with Hao Fei's father. I came here just to see how Hao Fei spent his last days here. I didn't know how to make up my mind.
I took away three hundred amber necklaces made by Hao Fei. Each one was exquisite and made with great care. I had no idea how she completed them or when she started.
I put the amber necklace in a wooden box and kept it.
In the evening, Bai Jie's father came.
"Xiao Zuo, Bai Jie fainted again."
I closed my eyes and it seemed I had to make a decision.
The third uncle was drinking and enjoying himself in the house.
After Bai Jie's father left, I told the third uncle.
"I've decided to go to Gol Mountain right away."
"It should have been long overdue."
My third uncle and I went up the mountain. Monk Le Le was very unhappy, but he didn't say anything. I went into the house and sat cross-legged, and Monk Le Le said.
"If you do it again, I can't control you, and your uncle won't control you either."
I really don't like this monk Lele.
I saw Hao Fei again, trying to control my emotions, I was afraid I couldn't control myself. Hao Fei stretched out his hand again, I wanted so much to hold it, to pull it again, even just once, but I didn't.
I stood there and closed my eyes. I didn't want to see Hao Fei's beautiful face, and the face that was familiar to me and yet seemed a little strange.
"Hao Fei, I don't love you. Please let Bai Jie go. She is my favorite."
I didn't hear any sound, and I don't know what Hao Fei's expression was at the moment. It should have been shock, distortion, and resentment.
When I opened my eyes, Hao Fei was no longer in front of me, but there were bloody footprints on the road where she walked, one by one, which was horrifying to see.
I didn't know what happened. I woke up again and was also woken up by a knock.
"Can't you just not use that thing?"
Monk Le Le used the wooden hammer again.
He actually ignored me. I didn't expect that it didn't take that long. From beginning to end, it was just over four hours and it was all over.
They didn't say anything and asked me to go home. I asked them but they didn't say anything. The third uncle just said yes and told me to go home tomorrow.
When I was at work, Master Yunzheng asked me how I was doing. I was stunned. I didn't expect that Master Yunzheng also knew about this.
I asked Zhao Tie to go to the refining room first and light the furnace.
"I came here today to ask you about that."
"Master, it's okay, but they didn't tell me what happened."
"It's good that you're alright. I'll be more careful next time."
I entered the refining room and glanced at Zhao Tie.
"You're going to the morgue today."
I didn't have a heart today. I was extremely confused. Hao Fei just left like that. What happened to the bloody footprints? Why didn't they tell me
The third uncle went back to the county. It seems that I can only look for the monk. Even though I don’t like it, I still want to know, how is Hao Fei
Zhao Tie worked smoothly today and there were no accidents.
After get off work, I went to Bai Jie's place. She was fine. Although she was a little weak, she didn't have any major problems. I was relieved. However, this reminded me of Hao Fei. Was I doing this to Hao Fei? Although she existed in another state, she existed after all. She should be the same as us humans. She has her own life. She also misses me and loves me in another world. I regret that I shouldn't have done that. I should have insisted on holding her hand. As long as there is love, it doesn't matter what state she exists in. But now it may be too late.
When I got home, my father looked at me and didn't ask me too many questions. Maybe he knew that he couldn't solve such a problem and couldn't give me any advice.
I arrived at Gaolu Mountain at around five o'clock and went to look for Monk Le Le. I was worried that I was too late and he might have gone out to beg for alms.
Monk Le Le was sweeping the floor and didn't even look at me. I sat aside and waited until he finished sweeping.
"Master Liao Liao, what's going on with Hao Fei's bloody footprints?"
"That was the blood shed for you, the bloody road I walked for you. After you die, there will be a smooth road. She let go, she let go for love, she really loved you."
What Monk Le Le said made me feel so sad.
"When you have time, take good care of her only old father!"
Indeed, this is the only way. I didn’t expect that Hao Fei did something for me at the last moment.
"Where did she go?"
"Reincarnation."
Monk Le Le entered the room.
I went to Hao Fei's grave in Huiyuan Township and sat there until dark, perhaps this would alleviate the guilt I felt towards her.
When I got home that day, Bai Jie was at home and had already prepared dinner.
"Xiao Zuo, let's eat!"
I didn't ask about Hao Fei, maybe I didn't want to bring it up. Since it's over, it's over.
Bai Jie learned makeup from Master Yi.
When I entered the office, Zhao Tie had already cleaned up the office and brought in a pot of flowers. I frowned, a boy was tidying up the flowers.
"Master, it was sent by Master Liu Xiaojing. She said that the office was uncomfortable without flowers."
Liu Xiaoqing, a makeup artist in the dressing room, arrived here at about the same time as me, but she was a makeup artist, so we basically had no contact. We just nodded when we met, and I knew you were from the crematorium. It seemed that everyone here closed themselves off, as if they were afraid that their inner world would be seen by others.
I don't know anything about Liu Xiaoqing. She sent flowers to me because of me. This is very likely.
That is a pot of Lycoris radiata, I know this kind of flower.
This flower usually grows next to graves and is also called the dead flower. It is another name for Lycoris radiata, which is the blood-red flower of the other shore.
Legend has it that the flower that grows by the Sanzu River is a guiding flower. The fragrance of the flower is said to have magical powers that can evoke the memories of the dead.
Sanzu River, the name of a river in the underworld, is also called the Zangtou River, the Du River, the Sanze River, and the Santu River.
According to legend, the "Sanzu River" is the dividing line between the world of the living and the world of the dead.
Because the water flow can be divided into three types: slow, normal and fast according to the behavior of the deceased during his lifetime, it is called the "Three Paths".
Legend has it that people who have committed heinous crimes will be tortured and reincarnated every 300 years. When passing through the Sanzu River, they will be intoxicated by the fragrance of the slowly blackening Lycoris radiata that has been entangled with them for 300 years, and will have a beautiful dream about "the other side" and "the shore". This dream carries with it the expectations, desolation, anger, helplessness, despair and other intricate feelings of "the other side" and "the shore" buried deep in the heart, so this dream also determines that person's life on earth.
I was a little unhappy about Liu Xiaojing giving me this pot of dead flowers. What did she mean
The blood-red flower of the dead normally blooms in September, but it unexpectedly bloomed in May.
After entering the refining room, I asked Zhao Tie to light the furnace. Then I went into the morgue. As soon as I entered, I saw Liu Xiaojing inside, which scared me.
"Master Liu?"
"Oh, touch up, one of them is my friend's father."
Touching up your makeup is a rare thing, and it usually takes only one go.
Liu Xiaojing walked out from another door. There were two doors in the morgue. You could go out from one end and enter from the other, and you couldn't walk backwards. That would be unlucky and might even cause trouble. But Liu Xiaojing walked the other way, and she didn't seem to be afraid of it. She walked to the door, opened it, looked back at me and said.
"Master Ke, do you like that flower?"
Liu Xiaojing smiled at me, and that smile made me a little nervous. She left without waiting for my answer. The door swayed back and forth several times before it stopped.
I carried the corpse onto the hearse, pushed it into the refining room, sat down, and lit a cigarette.
“Zhao Tie, come here, remember everything I tell you, don’t make mistakes, or you’ll get into trouble.”
Zhao Tie nodded.
After taking a few puffs of my cigarette, I asked Zhao Tie.
"What brings you here?"
"Then why are you here?"
Zhao Tie asked me, and I looked at him and spoke for a long time.
“I like dealing with people who can’t talk.”
"I didn't have any other thoughts because this is a formal job with a lot of work to do."
This guy is very realistic. Actually, I am the same. My father asked me to come here for this job. Otherwise, this job is no different from other jobs, except...
It wasn't a smooth day. One of the bodies exploded. The fire was not controlled well. The speed was too fast. Also, because of the dead body, a lot of gas was produced. This is nothing. It's just that, seeing the explosion everywhere, it's really...
Zhao Tie jumped out high and vomited violently, probably trying to vomit out the meal he had eaten ten years ago.
I also rolled over and over several times and managed to hold on. If Master Yunzheng were here, I would have vomited too. After all, I am the master, and humans are very strange animals.
After we finished, we went back to the office and saw the blood-red dead flower. I felt that today's bad luck was related to it. I vaguely felt that Liu Xiaojing had ulterior motives. (To be continued)