Mao Xiaoli's insistence makes it impossible for me to get rid of it. Now it seems that some things seem to be something that only she can solve, so I will listen to Mao Xiaoli and get the human skin.
That day I asked her which part of the human skin was needed, and Mao Xiaoli told me the tenderest part, but I couldn’t think of it.
"The skin inside the thigh."
Mao Xiaoli smiled strangely, and that smile was a little proud. It seemed that I was being tricked step by step. At this moment, I also realized that I was in trouble. I was curious and wanted to know these things, so I approached Mao Xiaoli little by little. This was a terrible thing.
I actually thought of cutting my skin. When I thought of this, I shuddered. It was a terrible thought. If Yinyan knew, she would beat me. I knew this very well. But at this moment, I already had this idea, which was definitely not a good thing.
A few days after this happened, Mao Xiaoli asked me to go to her house. I struggled, but finally went. It was past nine o'clock in the evening when I got there. When I went in, Mao Xiaoli said,
"I know you haven't eaten yet."
I really didn't eat, and this made me hesitate.
Mao Xiaoli turned off the lights, and I was shocked. Then she lit the candles. It was beautiful, but also weird.
"Please take a seat."
I sat down and she poured me a glass of wine.
"It's okay, just chat casually first, then we'll go upstairs and I'll teach you the method and manner of cutting the skin. There are many details to this. Okay, let's drink."
When I drink, my palms start to sweat from nervousness, so I drink more to make myself braver.
It was not until after eleven o'clock that Mao Xiaoli spoke.
"Come upstairs with me."
The lights upstairs are always dim and the curtains are always drawn. A woman who likes darkness should be a scary woman.
Mao Xiaoli actually pushed open an invisible door, which scared me.
There was still dim light inside the door, which really made people feel a little scary.
I walked in slowly. The decoration in the room was indeed unexpected. There were lamps, paintings and various things made from human bones.
"These are not human bones, you would think yes, I am not that evil, these are animal bones, all kinds of animals."
I thought to myself, aren’t you evil
I sat down on the couch, which was uncomfortable and felt like I was sitting on pins and needles.
"You'll like it here slowly."
I will never like it, no matter what you say.
"Okay, you don't have to say anything. I can see that you are quite nervous. I will directly tell you the requirements for skin circumcision. Female, age 18-, skin must be good, white, without scars, even if the scars have healed. The location of the skin circumcision is on the inner thigh, from the pubic area down 1.5 cm to 3.0 cm, only two centimeters square, it will not be discovered, a small wound..."
Mao Xiaoli told me that it was like doing a high-tech job, it was so delicate.
Finally she brought me a small bottle.
"After you take it, soak it in here and send it to me within three hours. If you miss it, you can dispose of it."
"Anything else you noticed?"
"Of course, this is also very important. These are silver nails, seven in total. When you take the skin, you have to pierce them into the clothes of the deceased, one on the top of the head, into the hair, then two on each side, and finally under the feet, one for each foot. Be sure to firmly pierce them and don't let them fall. When you are done, put them back in this small box and you are done."
"What if you don't want to get a piercing?"
"Then I don't know what will happen, but you don't have to worry. If it's an accident, I will help you."
"What about the breathing shadow and the virtual door?"
"If you wear this, the shadow won't follow you and everything will be normal."
Mao Xiaoli put a necklace on me.
"What's it made of?"
"A coffin, of course it has to be a thousand-year-old coffin. I also have a piece of wood."
“Isn’t this bad?”
I can't describe what it feels like.
"Of course, you don't have to wear it, but I don't know what would happen."
"So, what about the Xumen?"
"When you show up again, call me and I'll go in for you. There must be something you haven't completed. I'll help you complete it, and everything will be solved."
"Is it dangerous?"
"certainly."
I didn't expect that Mao Xiaoli would take the risk and exchange for this matter.
"But I haven't promised you yet."
"Of course, I didn't force you. Take your time to think about it."
Mao Xiaoli was not angry at all.
It was already midnight when I got home. The deserted house made me feel like evil was everywhere and I was always uneasy, but the shadow of that breathing really did not appear again.
Mao Xiaoli is indeed a person with some vision. If that is the case, then those people did not allow me to have any contact with Mao Xiaoli. It seems that they are wrong. Come to think of it, maybe I am wrong.
I decided to have a skin circumcision. After making this decision, I found that I became so strange. I looked in the mirror. It was an old mirror that my father and mother bought when they got married.
The self in the mirror looked so weird that even I was scared.
That night, I slept so soundly, something I had never experienced before.
When I go to work, I have a very small box in my pocket with a small blade in it. It is so small that I feel a little unsteady in my hand. It was given to me by Mao Xiaoli. It is used for cutting skin. She told me that it might be the fastest knife in the world, so be careful not to cut yourself.
My heart was pounding and I was so nervous. Was this even possible? I had no idea.
That day, I met a suitable one. Actually, according to Mao Xiaoli's requirements, it was not easy to meet the right one because there were too many conditions.
The deceased was in the single room. I looked at the information and everything matched. I didn't know if I could seize this opportunity.
I had already carried the deceased onto the hearse. I hesitated, knowing that no one could come into this place, and I would only need five minutes, no more than five minutes.
I suddenly saw the virtual door, just opposite. It was the same situation as last time, with two doors standing there, one real and one fake. I immediately called Mao Xiaoli, and I was stunned when I got through. It might be because of the thousand-year coffin necklace.
Mao Xiaoli came and stood at the door.
"Come out from here, I'm going in."
"Sister Mao, no, we won't play anymore. We can hide."
"Xiao Ke, it's okay. I'm okay."
I pushed the hearse out and Mao Xiaoli went in. I looked out and saw that it was a door. What should I do? I didn't know.
"Just do your work and don't come in again. I'll come find you after I'm done. Maybe in one day, two days, or ten days. If I don't come to work tomorrow, you can ask the manager for leave. Just give any reason. He won't ask."
I finished my work for today and wanted to go and have a look, but Mao Xiaoli said that I was not allowed to watch it, so I couldn't.
I was sitting in the office in a daze, and Yinyan came in. She was actually smiling today, a woman who rarely smiles. It seemed that she was doing well today.
However, her expression changed in an instant, and I was stunned. What's wrong with Yinyan
"Who gave you the necklace?"
I suddenly understood that this was the reason why I hid myself.
"Don't hide it, tell me."
Yinyan actually shouted at me, and I started sweating. If I had said it was Mao Xiaoli, I don’t know what would have happened.
"I bought it myself."
Yinyan turned around and I could see that she was shivering.
"To be honest, it was given to me by Mao Xiaoli. It was made of a thousand-year-old coffin. After I put it on, I couldn't see the shadow of that breath anymore."
Yinyan turned around suddenly.
"If you have any problem, come to me and I'll help you. Why are you looking for her?"
"Yes, I'm in trouble. That shadow, the breathing shadow, makes me uneasy forever. And that door, that virtual door, it might appear at any time, which scares me. I'm afraid to walk into that door, but you are always busy with your own things. I have asked Master Zhou for help, but she can't help me. What do you want me to do?"
I was also anxious, and Yinyan stared at me.
"Okay, I was wrong. I'll handle this matter. Don't contact Mao Xiaoli again. Give me this necklace and I'll send it back to her."
I took off the necklace. I didn’t know if Yinyan could help me.
I went to see my grandma, but actually I wanted to see my mother. No matter what, she is my mother and I miss her.
When I went in, she still had a cold face. She smelled the scent on me and frowned. I only sat there for a while. Since she disliked me so much, I didn't want to make her upset. After all, she had endured it for a lifetime. In the end, I wanted to give her her own space and happiness.
I was walking on the street when Zhang Xiaoxue jumped in front of me, scaring me.
"Brother, are you alone?"
"Yeah, just wandering around."
"Let's go eat."
I was hungry, so I went with them, entered a private restaurant, ordered food and drank.
"Brother, I really like you, just marry me."
Zhang Xiaoxue said directly.
"I have Yinyan, really, you are sisters, you can't do this."
"I don't mind fighting for anything, but I will fight for this."
"You've been fighting with her since you were little, and she always gives in to you. This time you give in to her."
"I will return her everything to her, but this won't work. Grandma said that you can't be with Yinyan either. Look at how many things happened when you were with Yinyan."
"Can we not talk about this?"
"All right!"
Zhang Xiaoxue pouted, but she was fine after a while and smiled. She and Yinyan were completely two different people. Yinyan always had a gloomy face, while Zhang Xiaoxue always smiled.
That day, I sent Zhang Xiaoxue home. She kissed me and ran away. What a damn girl.
I went home and turned on the TV, and the breathing shadow appeared. It sat next to me, watching TV with me. I tried to touch the shadow, but couldn't. Maybe Mao Xiaoli was right. It was my shadow, following me. Maybe one day, it would take me into the world of shadows, and I would become its shadow.
I thought, it is like this anyway, there is no point in being afraid, I can only endure and accept it. If I really become his shadow, maybe it is a good thing. A shadow is just another way of living.
I turned on the light and the shadow was still there. I stood up to boil water, make tea, and pour two cups. Damn it, the shadow actually drank it too. The water was running out, but not as fast as mine.
I actually heard a "chuckle". The shadow is mine, a female, yin, and I am yang, the yin and yang complement each other.
"Shut up."
After I shouted, Shadow actually shut up, and after a long while he actually spoke.
"Don't mess with me. If you mess with me, I will take you to the world of shadows. You will be my shadow and I will be you."
I looked sideways.
"Then give it a try."
The shadow disappeared suddenly. I was really a little scared. I said I didn't care, I said I wasn't scared. If I really existed as a shadow, how could I not be scared? That's impossible, absolutely impossible. What is the world of shadows like? Can I adapt? Will I miss my relatives here? Will I miss my father? My mother? Yinyan? Zhang Xiaoxue? I don't know. If I miss them but can't see them, it will hurt. That kind of pain you can't catch or scratch is really mental torture. (To be continued)