"I want to see Lin Xian." Wen Tong frowned, unable to tell how much bitterness he was suppressing to say this rationally. If she has no way to persuade Xiao Wanqing to choose a more magnanimous path, then what she can do is to make her already difficult path less tribulation as much as possible
Lin Xian is too young, too young. She knew Xiao Wanqing's restraint and gentleness too well. There are some things and some words, as Xiao Wanqing's close friend, or Xiao Wanqing's family, she has the responsibility to explain it to Lin Xian for Xiao Wanqing.
How could she feel at ease and hand over the person she had carefully cared for for so many years so easily
But Xiao Wanqing heard the words, raised her lovely eyes, and begged her nervously: "Wen Tong..." The rejection and protection were beyond words.
Wen Tong froze for a moment, and withdrew his hand to wipe Xiao Wanqing's tears. There was a stabbing pain in her heart, and hurt and disappointment flashed in her deep eyes: "You don't believe me? I won't make it difficult for her." Even though she was unwilling in every possible way, knowing that Xiao Wanqing liked her so much, she could do nothing but Respect and support her, what else can she do
After so many years, doesn't Xiao Wanqing even have this understanding and trust in her? Wen Tong's heart was a little cold.
Xiao Wanqing noticed the change in Wen Tong's tone. She subconsciously grabbed Wen Tong's retracting arm nervously, shook her head, and explained sincerely: "I don't. Wen Tong, I believe you. I know you must have no malice if you want to see Xianxian, and I can even be sure that you are For my own good, you want to help me. Wen Tong, you want to help me say something that I might not be able to say, don't you?" They have been friends for so many years, and they have a thorough understanding of each other's nature.
Wen Tong stared at her quietly, his eyes softened a bit.
"Wen Tong, don't look for her, don't tell her, okay?" The always gentle but stubborn woman begged her softly.
Wen Tong turned away from looking at her, and answered her stubbornly and calmly: "Xiao Wanqing, although Lin Xian is young, she is also an adult. Since she chooses to be with you, as an adult, as your Object, some things, she has the responsibility and obligation to share with you. You want me to believe in your choice, believe in Lin Xian, and not treat her as an unreliable child, then you can’t always treat her as a child who wants you Protective child. Aren’t you in a relationship that relies on each other?”
"But, Wen Tong..." Xiao Wanqing smiled bitterly: "I told Lin Xian about some things, so what?"
"Wen Tong, compare your heart with your heart. What were we doing when we were 19 years old? In the fantasy of love, besides romance, how many responsibilities and commitments can we think of? Lin Xian has worked very hard because of me, and I see it all .She has forced herself to grow up faster than her peers, I feel sorry for her, and I don't want her to be so tired. This is not the youth she should have. "
She paused, closed her eyes and said bitterly: "What's more, no matter how hard Lin Xian works, she is still a child in the eyes of sister Zhou Qin and everyone else."
Thinking of this, Xiao Wanqing suddenly choked up uncontrollably. "The gap between me and her exists objectively. The current relationship between me and their family cannot be solved by Lin Xian's efforts. Lin Xian understands too well that he can only follow me It’s just to be distressed together. Wen Tong, this is meaningless.” Lin Xian is still young, thinking about things naively and optimistic, Xiao Wanqing sometimes envies her optimism.
Passing on the pressure, telling Lin Xian how much her psychological pressure is, what she might face, and how difficult their road ahead is, except for letting Lin Xian be unhappy and troubled with her, it will not help to solve the matter at all.
No matter how hard Lin Xian works, at her current age, her abilities are limited after all. To Zhou Qin, and even to the outside world, how convincing is her words? She is so brave, so sincere, and so like herself, Xiao Wanqing was afraid that Lin Xian would do irrational things because of this.
Perhaps, the way to help her ease the relationship with Zhou Qin and reduce the possibility of her being blamed in the future is for Lin Xian to come out to Zhou Qin first and get rid of her when the relationship has not been discovered at this moment. But how could she hide behind Lin Xian, watching Lin Xian single-handedly come out with her family and endure the things she had experienced; how could she have the heart to let Lin Xian endure that at such an uncertain age? Tragic consequences of unknown possible regret.
She can't be that selfish. She can't be that shameless either.
She is so much older than Lin Xian, she should take more responsibility; she is Lin Xian's lover, and she should protect Lin Xian well before Lin Xian really grows up and matures.
Wen Tong was rendered speechless by Xiao Wanqing's words. She likes Xiao Wanqing, so she naturally thinks more from Xiao Wanqing's point of view. She couldn't be as worried about Lin Xian as Xiao Wanqing was for the first time, worried about what Lin Xian had endured, or what she was about to endure. She just wanted Xiao Wanqing to be one more person to share her pressure, to understand her pain, to comfort her and protect her in time when she needed it. Maybe it won't help, but at least, you can have one more shoulder to rely on.
But Xiao Wanqing thought about Lin Xian, every word poked her heart, and every knife hit the vital point. What can Lin Xian do if he knows? Apart from verbal comfort, what can you expect from a half-grown child who is still dependent on his parents, has no social resources, has no financial resources, and is unstable
Xiao Wanqing herself has clearly seen it so clearly, why is she still so stubborn, knowing that there are tigers in the mountains, and prefers to go to the mountain with tigers
Lin Xian, is that all right
"Then what do you want?" Wen Tong's throat choked, and he asked her with difficulty.
So, are you going to be like this, fighting on your own
"Wen Tong, I want to wait for her to grow up, wait for her, and grow up at her own pace."
Although I don't know if I can wait until she grows up. I don't know, if she grows up, it's still not me.
The woman stood gracefully under the street lamp, the lamp cast a soft golden light around her, she smiled tenderly and bitterly, and Wen Tong's nose was sore when she smiled.
"Why..." Why can't it be me. Wen Tong struggled to stop the secret that had been lingering in her heart for a long time, and she almost couldn't suppress it and wanted to reveal it.
She turned away quickly, and a tear fell from the corner of her eye.
I didn't have this life.
I can only wish you happiness.
She blinked, wiped away her tears, turned her head, stared at Xiao Wanqing, and told Xiao Wanqing seriously and solemnly like an elder: "Xiao Wanqing, you choose the road yourself, and I respect you, so you have to walk well , you have to prove to all of us that your choice is not wrong." I don't want to see you get hurt again.
Xiao Wan looked at her with bright eyes.
Wen Tong turned around, hiding all his deep affection and nostalgia, and while walking forward, he dropped a sentence: "I'm tired and ask me to drink, I will reluctantly listen to your complaints."
The bitterness and heaviness in Xiao Wanqing's heart slowly dissipated, and a smile gradually bloomed on the corners of her lips. She caught up with Wen Tong in three steps at a time, and said solemnly in a low voice: "Thank you, Wen Tong, really."
"Thank you so much, don't let me worry about it." Wen Tong grumbled and complained.
Xiao Wanqing sneered.
Under the light and shadow, the long shadows cast by the two walked side by side, an appropriate distance that was neither too far nor too close, neither too close nor too distant.
On the drive back, Lin Xian called as usual. This time, her tone was slightly different from usual, and she tentatively asked Xiao Wanqing how she was going to have dinner with her mother at night with some caution.
When Xiao Wanqing heard the girl's Qingyue voice, there was a soft smile on her lips. Her voice was warm and smooth as usual, and she briefly explained to Lin Xian the process of dinner at night, her words were always lively and lively, and Lin Xian breathed a sigh of relief.
Sometimes, Lin Xian wished that she could grow up overnight, grow old overnight, and become a person who could stand in front of Xiao Panpan and protect her, be able to break away from her parents, and convince her parents of her decision.
But she can work hard on many things, but she can't work hard on the matter of time. In addition to waiting anxiously for the passage of time, in addition to treating her well while waiting, trying to grow a better person for her, so that Xiao Panpan will not leave because of disappointment and sadness while waiting for her to grow up. There is no other way.
Because Xiao Wanqing was still driving, although Lin Xian was reluctant to part with her, she didn't say a few words, and sensiblely asked Xiao Wanqing to hang up the phone and concentrate on driving. Before hanging up, she announced excitedly that there were still five days before the countdown to her return home.
"I'll wait for you." Xiao Wanqing's soft and indifferent words were the greatest reassurance Lin Xian heard.
She hung up the phone contentedly, turned on the lamp on the desk, and began to prepare lessons for the tutoring job she had found after school started.
She had promised to take Aunt Xiao to see the snow, and she wanted to fulfill it sooner. Everything that she promised her, she wanted to take her step by step to achieve it.
Xiao Wanqing returned to the empty home, looking at the darkness of the room, her heart gradually became heavy again, with mixed feelings. She thought of what Lin Xian said in her ear just now, I can return to you soon, she couldn't help but lowered her eyebrows and smiled slightly. But then she thought of Zhou Qin's beaming face when he talked about Lin Xian's future, his smile turned into a sour wry smile.
Since that nightmare, she began to suffer from insomnia, and occasionally fell asleep, and would wake up suddenly soon. Two days ago, because she needed to work during the day, she was afraid that she would lose energy, so she took sleeping pills. Tomorrow is Sunday, and she controls herself, trying not to take her medicine.
However, in the early morning, she finally fell asleep. After an unknown period of time, she had another nightmare and woke up in a panic.
Xiao Wanqing struggled to wake up from the dream, covered in cold sweat, like a dying person who had been drowning in the water for a long time and finally got ashore, breathing heavily, and her heartbeat was disordered.
She recalled the warm and reassuring embrace that the girl had given her, allowing her to close her eyes and sleep until dawn again. She turned her head to look beside the bed, Lin Xian was not by her side.
In the dimness, instead of the girl, the brown Teddy quietly accompanied her beside her bed.
Xiao Wanqing remembered the text message the girl sent her when she came home: If you miss me at night, or can't sleep, just hug Little Teddy, just like hugging me.
She turned around, and in the dark night of waking up from a nightmare, she finally couldn't hide her fragility anymore, and helplessly stretched out her arms to hug the soft and fluffy body of Little Teddy tightly, just like hugging her beloved girl.
"Shushasha..." Suddenly a strange voice sounded in the silence.
Xiao Wanqing's body holding the little Teddy froze suddenly, her fear overwhelmed everything, making her forget the heart-piercing pain that the nightmare had brought her. The hairs all over her body stood on end in shock from the sudden sound.
Is she still awake from the nightmare? ! !
He listened with bated breath, trembling with fear.
The next second, it was the Qingyue voice of the girl she was dreaming of that unexpectedly sounded, low and soft, like a heart-warming smile: "My baby, baby, give you a little sweetness, let you Sleep well tonight...”
"My little ghost, kid, tease your eyebrows and eyes, make you like this world..." The words are tender and gentle, resounding in this lonely night, falling in Xiao Wanqing's dry heart.
The singing seemed to come from the belly of the little Teddy she was holding.
Xiao Wanqing was shocked at first and then overjoyed. In an instant, she wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. envy this idiot...
She put her ears on Little Teddy's soft belly, listening to the girl's heart-pounding voice, which passed into her ears close to the cochlea, just like Lin Xian coaxing her by her ear at the moment, singing softly Moan.
My heart gradually settled down...
Tears wet little Teddy's long down.
How can people like it so much
Lin Xian, why am I willing to let you go like this
Xiao Wanqing wondered if she was becoming more and more hopeless. When she heard Zhou Qin say that Lin Xian would not leave, apart from her guilt and shame, she actually felt a little relieved.