"Did Zhijin give you candy?" Xiao Wanqing stroked Lin Xian's cheek, teasing her with a smile.
It's raining heavily, so it's not good to waste more time here. Lin Xian let go of Xiao Wanqing, turned around and stood shoulder to shoulder with her. She pouted and retorted: "Then you mean that my mouth is not sweet enough?"
Xiao Wanqing hooked Lin Xian's arm and leaned close to her, and the two walked towards the community in unison. Xiao Wanqing responded to Lin Xian slyly: "I didn't say it, you said it yourself."
"That's what you mean." Lin Xian pretended to be unreasonable.
She caught a glimpse of Xiao Wanqing tilting the umbrella, her shoulders were a little wet from the rain, and she couldn't help but sink her eyes. She raised the arm that was hooked by Xiao Wanqing, walked around behind Xiao Wanqing, put it on Xiao Wanqing's thin shoulders, and tightly brought Xiao Wanqing into her arms, tightly fitting them.
Xiao Wanqing noticed Lin Xian's movements, just about to say something, Lin Xian stretched out his other hand, and together with Xiao Wanqing, grasped the handle of the umbrella. Facing Xiao Wanqing's hesitant gaze, she raised her eyebrows and said with a low smile, "Since you have complained, Xiao Xiaowan, then you should give me a little more chance to show off and let me be your sugar girl." Lin Xian bit the word sugar. The tone was tactful and low, as if with a little provocative meaning, Xiao Wanqing looked at Lin Xian's starry eyes, and her face was inexplicably enthusiastic.
Looking at each other, Xiao Wanqing let go of the handle of the umbrella as Lin Xian wished, turned her eyes away, and her eyes fell on her and Lin Xian's shoulders. Seemingly aware of something by accident, Xiao Wanqing was slightly pleasantly surprised and said: "Xianxian, have you grown taller?"
Lin Xian was shorter than her before, but now they were walking side by side, Xiao Wanqing found that Lin Xian's shoulders were even higher than hers. She slowed down her pace, turned her head to look at Lin Xian carefully, and Lin Xian really seemed to be at least as tall as her.
Lin Xian didn't care. She tilted her head and lightly bumped Xiao Wanqing's head with her small head, and said as a matter of course: "Of course I have to grow taller, so that I can better protect my Xiao Xiaowan from wind and rain."
Xiao Wanqing's heart couldn't help but warm up. She subconsciously followed the slanted umbrella handle in Lin Xian's hand, and seeing Lin Xian's wet shoulders, her heart suddenly felt wet like a light rain.
After she and Lin Xian confided their feelings last night, although she didn't give Lin Xian a chance to explain her love, but after they understood each other's concerns, she faintly felt that something was different in her heart. The boulder that had been weighing on her heart seemed to be a little lighter.
She had to admit badly that Lin Xian's care for her subconsciously seemed to give her a great sense of security.
No matter in the past or at this moment, Lin Xian has been proving to her with actions that what she said to her was never just words.
Lin Xian also noticed Xiao Wanqing's gaze, and the smile on her lips became more gentle. She deliberately touched Xiao Wanqing's head again to attract her attention, pretending to be dissatisfied and reversing the old score: "Actually, I'm also fighting for myself. Hmph! When I was shorter than you before, you didn't let me give you Holding an umbrella, I hate that I am not tall enough to compress your breathing space. In the future, I will not give you the opportunity to let you compress my space!"
Xiao Wanqing was in the midst of being moved, and being teased by Lin Xian, she couldn't help returning to her senses and laughing softly. She didn't think Lin Xian was short, she was just afraid that she would get tired holding the umbrella.
She also knew that Lin Xian was deliberately teasing her, but she still followed Lin Xian's words, glanced at Lin Xian, and said threateningly: "Xian Xian, you seem to have a lot of dissatisfaction with me?"
Lin Xian blinked his eyes, and in an instant, he was clever enough to know the current affairs and act obediently: "I don't have it. I don't know when I was lucky enough to fall in love with the best Xiao Xiaowan in the world. I can still have it." What dissatisfaction. Let me tell you, since I was with you, Xiao Xiaowan, I feel that my world has become different. With love, I see that the sky is bluer and the flowers are more fragrant. Even tonight The violent rain, all because of you by my side, has become extraordinarily poetic and touching... Oh, no, the rain has become smaller again, and now it is gentle and light rain... "
The corners of Xiao Wanqing's lips deepened, and she felt a little embarrassed and couldn't listen anymore. She couldn't help but raised her hand to cover Lin Xian's small mouth with a lotus tongue, and Lin Xian was dissatisfied and protested that he could not utter a word "wuwuwu". There was tenderness in her eyes.
While playing around, they turned a corner and walked into a path between two floors with a broken street light.
Xiao Wanqing stared fixedly at Lin Xian, who was covering her mouth with her mouth covered, and looked at her innocently with big eyes shining. Feeling the seductive movement of the girl licking her palm in a malicious way, her heart was soft and hot.
Suddenly, with her back to the wall, she stretched out her hand to press down the handle of the umbrella that Lin Xian was holding, and then pulled it closer, tightly covering their faces with the umbrella.
The light rain was like silk, hitting Lin Xian's head coolly, sending bursts of pleasant coolness. The next moment when the darkness shrouded in darkness, before Lin Xian realized what had happened, he felt a soft object touch his cheek lightly, and his heart suddenly rushed under the warm breath.
However, Lin Xian's throat slipped, and just as he felt the desire to start a prairie fire in his heart, and wanted to turn his head to look for Xiao Wanqing's red lips, the woman's lips quickly left.
In less than three seconds, the umbrella was raised again. The woman bit her lower lip lightly, and stared at Lin Xian with moist eyes for a second, as if she was a little surprised and ashamed by her actions.
The next second, she turned around and turned her back to Lin Xian, as if nothing had happened, she said very naturally: "Let's go, let's go home quickly." But her steps were inexplicably revealing panic. She didn't even realize that Lin Xian didn't follow up immediately, and walked straight into the drizzle by herself.
This kind of thing she was embarrassed to do when she was young and passionately in love, but now she does it on her own initiative...
Although she was sure that it was very remote in the middle of the night, and there was no one around, and she was sure no one would see their movements, so she kissed. But for Xiao Wanqing, who has always adhered to the principles of "cautious independence" and "politeness", it makes no difference whether it is an outdoor occasion.
At that second, she really wanted to kiss Lin Xian, and then she did it involuntarily. Xiao Wanqing came back rationally after finishing, feeling extremely surprised and ashamed of her behavior.
Lin Xian stared blankly at Xiao Wanqing's tall and beautiful back, first sweet, then stunned, and finally overjoyed. Xiao Panpan What is this? Can't help but flirt with her, then run away shyly
The hearty and clear laughter of the girl came from behind, from far to near, Xiao Wanqing's messy steps staggered slightly. She stabilized her figure, paused, closed her eyes, suddenly slowed down, and slowly raised the corners of her lips.
never mind.
She stood at the end of the path, standing in the light, turned around, and stared at Lin Xian with eyes like water.
When the rain stopped, Lin Xian put away his umbrella. With crooked eyebrows, she trotted happily towards Xiao Wanqing, and slammed into her arms.
"I caught you, flower picker." The girl said with a smile.
At least at this moment, Lin Xian must be happy because of her.
After getting home to take a bath, Lin Xian and Xiao Wanqing said goodnight and went back to their room. Sitting at the desk in the bedroom with the lights off, they began to search carefully for the answers to the questions Xia Zhijin had left for her.
The night was quiet, the more she looked, the more active her thoughts became. The more she thought about it, the closer she felt that she seemed to be closer to Xiao Panpan's hidden thoughts, and she began to vaguely feel that she could touch the edge of the glass in Xiao Panpan's heart facing her. But hazy, like looking at flowers through fog, she still couldn't see clearly.
At three o'clock in the morning, she couldn't hold on, so she turned off the computer and went back to bed to rest.
Before falling into unconsciousness, Lin Xian reflected on herself: Sister Zhijin was right. All along, she just thought too little, so Xiao Panpan had to think too much for her, didn't she
On Tuesday night, Lin Xian came home from the regular meeting of the debate team. After taking a shower, she hugged the pillow and was going to go to Xiao Wanqing's room to sleep on the bed again.
However, this time she came with a mission.
As soon as she stepped into the room, she saw Xiao Wanqing sitting by the bed, closing her eyes, rubbing her neck and shoulders with tiredness and pain.
Lin Xian's heart tightened, and he walked forward quickly, put the pillow on Xiao Wanqing's bed, and asked with concern: "Did you twist your neck?"
Xiao Wanqing opened her eyes, smiled at Lin Xian, and said in embarrassment: "Well, something slipped on the ground just now, I bent down to pick it up, and suddenly it twisted." Is it because people are getting old and their muscles and bones are starting to stiffen?
Lin Xian frowned, climbed onto the bed nimbly, half-kneeled beside Xiao Wanqing, and said earnestly, "Get down on the ground, and I'll rub it for you."
In Xiao Wanqing's heart, she did not reject Lin Xian's desire to sleep with her. She even enjoyed sleeping with Lin Xian very much. She just, occasionally thinks of Wen Tong's interrogation, and feels embarrassed.
But this time, she didn't ask Lin Xian why he came with the pillow, but helped Lin Xian put the pillow next to her own pillow, which was a tacit understanding and acquiescence to Lin Xian's arrival.
She looked at Lin Xian's concerned and serious face, raised the corners of her lips slightly, turned around obediently and lay down on the pillow, and joked in a warm voice: "That's troublesome, Master Lin."
Lin Xian paused for a moment with his hands on Xiao Wanqing's shoulders, and in the next second, squeezed them a little harder, Xiao Wanqing couldn't help taking a soft breath.
Lin Xian felt distressed again, and immediately regretted teasing her. She softened her movements, but she still didn't let go of her mouth, and joked: "Call Master Lin again?"
Xiao Wanqing was lying on the pillow, and her voice was soft and muffled: "Don't dare, don't dare."
Lin Xian's subordinates controlled the strength very well, and the severity was moderate, which relieved Xiao Wanqing's pain very well. While rubbing and rubbing, she babbled and told Xiao Wanqing: "I see that you usually use the computer when you are working at home, and you only sit for an hour or two when you sit down. I don't know what's going on in the company. I can bear it, from now on, every half an hour at most, you have to get up and move around, and move around."
Xiao Wanqing was kind, and obediently agreed to her little lover one by one. She was afraid that Lin Xian's hands would be sore, Lin Xian rubbed for a while, and then she turned over, expressing that she was much better and there was no need to continue.
Lin Xian continued to knead for a while uneasy, and was relieved when Xiao Wanqing insisted that she didn't need it anymore.
She took advantage of the situation and lay down beside Xiao Wanqing, Xiao Wanqing naturally pulled up the air conditioner and covered her body. Lin Xian felt sweet in his heart, and there was a bright smile in his eyes.
She looked sideways at Xiao Wanqing, as if she was not paying attention, and asked Xiao Wanqing: "Guess what the team practice debate topic we discussed tonight is?"
Xiao Wanqing turned off the light, lay down too, turned her head and asked Lin Xian cooperatively: "What is it?"
"Yes, is homosexuality born or acquired?" Actually, they didn't discuss this topic, Lin Xian just wanted to use this to express his feelings for Xiao Wanqing.
Xiao Wanqing was stunned for a moment and didn't speak for a while.
Lin Xian continued: "Actually, I think there is a problem with this point of debate. If you agree that homosexuality is as normal as heterosexuality, then there is no need to raise and discuss this issue, because people will not discuss it. Heterosexuality is It is just a matter of course whether it is born or acquired. But in our general environment and public opinion, the answer to this question still has a certain meaning. Especially, for some people who are completely ignorant of this aspect.”
"Xiao Xiaowan, if you were a member of the debate team, which side would you choose?" Lin Xian asked softly.
Once, Lin Xian asked her if she thought homosexuality was normal. At that time, they were not together, so Xiao Wanqing couldn't say much. Now that they are together, although Xiao Wanqing is still not sure whether it is right to let Lin Xian go on this path, at least they can talk about some opinions frankly.
"Xianxian, I agree that this is innate. Although temporary homosexuality will occur in a certain environment the day after tomorrow, once you leave that environment, this temporaryity will disappear." In the dark, Xiao Wanqing narrowed her eyes , answered rigorously.
In fact, when she was a graduate student many years ago, on the 5.17 International Homophobia Day, she led a related special science popularization through her literary club, and she had a relatively thorough theoretical understanding of this aspect. Occasionally, when Xiao Wanqing thinks back, she will be amazed and envious of herself in her student days. After working for many years, in their magazine with relatively more conservatives, in order to avoid more gossip, she no longer dared to take the lead in planning related topics frankly.
When Lin Xian heard the answer, she grinned so much that her white teeth were showing, and said happily, "I have the same opinion as you." She went on self-consciously: "So, during the discussion, I kept thinking about a question. , I was thinking, fortunately, I met you."
Xiao Wanqing didn't know why, and quietly waited for Lin Xian's next words.
"Do you agree that the person who changes from straight to curved actually has a tendency or possibility of bending, but she didn't realize it before she actually bent?"
Xiao Wanqing frowned and thought for a while, then nodded cautiously, and said "En".
Just like, two years before breaking up with Yan Jia, she hated Yan Jia's deceit and selfishness in the relationship, hated the many unsatisfactory things that happened to her after being with Yan Jia, but she didn't put herself on the right path. The responsibility for this road rests with Yan Jia.
Yan Jia didn't force her, she just let her discover herself, she has a choice, she can also deceive herself not to accept or not to accept. But she accepted herself.
Facts also proved that before Yan Jia and after Yan Jia, she had never been attracted to men. Years later, she was tempted again, and Lin Xian was still a girl. This is her own orientation, without Yan Jia, sooner or later, she will probably find out.
Lin Xian smiled and said, "So, I'm glad, glad that I met you at this age, fell in love with you, and discovered my true self."
If the authorities are obsessed, care will lead to chaos. The responsibility and burden of Lin Xian's elder has been tormenting Xiao Wanqing from the beginning, so that she has never withdrawn from this objective point of view to think about Lin Xian's liking for girls.
For a moment, Xiao Wanqing felt as if she could hear her heartbeat as she struggled to get rid of the chains and shackles.
But maybe, Lin Xian has never discovered this true self, so how can he live better
But Lin Xian put his arms around Xiao Wanqing's shoulders, buried her in the crook of her neck, and continued: "When I checked the information, I saw many examples, and I also saw a lot of people who got married and had children in a daze. People, they are swaying between responsibility and self. I was thinking, if I didn’t meet you now, but after many years, I got married and had children like them, only to realize that I don’t like it The truth about boys, how painful it must be for me. You know, I am not a person who likes to hide and deceive himself."
Xiao Wanqing heard the sound of shackles falling from her heart...
Maybe, is she really that sinful and unforgivable
Lin Xian's soft and soft voice continued to comfort her. She sat up halfway, leaned over and kissed Xiao Wanqing's chin, touched it lightly, and then moved up to her red lips: "Thank you, Xiao Xiaowan .Thank you for your appearance, which saved me from many possible detours in my life. Thank you for coming to me before all the terrible things should have started, and allowing me to find the path I should take in my life .”
Lin Xian seemed to be no longer as ignorant as before, which made her feel flustered with optimism. After she learned about this matter seriously, she chose not to blame her, but to thank her.
Xiao Wanqing stared at Lin Xian's young and solemn face without blinking, and her heart began to feel sour. She opened her lips with difficulty, and only when she opened her mouth did she realize how trembling and hoarse her voice was. She said, "Lin Xian, you look at things from a very different angle."
"Then is my angle wrong?" Lin Xian kissed her brows and eyes, and seduced her tenderly: "Xiao Xiaowan, do you want to try to look at the world from the same angle as me?"
Xiao Wanqing stared at her, and after a while, a smile gradually bloomed on her lips.