On the way to the counselor's office, Lin Xian guessed many possibilities idly, but she never expected that the final counselor would ask her: "Lin Xian, regarding your application for regularization, before the results are announced, Some students made a strong protest and wanted to cancel it, so I specially brought you here to understand the situation."
Lin Xian stood in front of the man, and when he heard this, his heart skipped a beat. She frowned, and politely replied: "Teacher, ask." Who did she offend? It's not enough to vote against her as a thorn in her side, and she has to protest to the teacher.
"That classmate reported that you have a bad style of work and don't meet the requirements of party members." The counselor stared at Lin Xian and narrated seriously.
"Teacher, what exactly do you mean by having a bad style of work?"
The man suddenly became a little unspeakable. He stared at the slightly displeased but always calm Lin Xian for a while, as if he was saying something extremely shameful, deliberately lowered his voice and said, "He said that you like girls and are gay, not only can't set an example for the public, but also It will bring down the classmates, bring down the atmosphere, and ruin the style of study." When the word "homosexuality" was said, there was a flash of contempt in the man's eyes, and Lin Xian could see it clearly.
Lin Xian felt his brain explode for a moment because of the unspoken but visible prejudice and malicious slander in the counselor's attitude. This is the first time she has received such disgusting eyes from others. For a moment, she felt that her gay self was like a virus and garbage in the eyes of this teacher she once respected.
However, in the next moment, she gritted her back molars calmly and stood upright in front of the counselor.
She met the counselor's eyes openly, calmly and calmly, and asked the counselor in a calm and cold voice: "Teacher, let alone what this classmate said, it is not true that I am gay. Just say, our party chapter 1 Which article says that homosexuality is against the norm? Which article in our college’s rules and regulations says that homosexuality is corrupt and destroys the style of study? Is there any article in the laws of our country that says that homosexuality is illegal and criminal? Homosexuality, How does that mean you have a bad style of work?"
Lin Xian's eyes were burning like a torch, and his words were sonorous and forceful. The counselor was a little overwhelmed by her questioning for a while. He frowned, trying to suppress Lin Xian's momentum, and said in a deep voice, "Lin Xian, pay attention to your attitude."
Lin Xian gritted his teeth tightly, took a deep breath, suppressed the resentment in his chest, and swallowed: "I'm sorry, teacher, I'm a little excited. I believe the teacher can understand my anger at being slandered."
She spoke vaguely. The slander in her meaning means that homosexuality is equal to bad style. But the slander understood by the counselor was that others said she was gay.
"Lin Xian, I didn't call you here today to argue with you, just tell me whether his accusation is true?" The counselor calmed down a little and took a breath.
He is still very optimistic about this student. Frankly speaking, the students of Jingnan University are all outstanding figures, not to mention Lin Xian's family background. If possible, he would prefer to be that Bole and maintain a good relationship with such a student who obviously has a bright future. In today's society, connections are more important than many things.
As long as Lin Xian says "I'm not gay", he can pretend that this has never happened. In the academic and educational circles of Anjiang City, Lin Xian and his family are well-known, and he doesn't want to offend them.
But Lin Xian stiffened his neck, and emphasized to him stubbornly and solemnly: "Teacher, in fact, who I like is my own privacy, isn't it? You will ask other students 'others say you like so-and-so 'Is this really the case? I feel like I've been disrespected. If possible, can you get the person who protested to come and confront me? If not, I can only answer you, I'm not bad. I ask myself whether I behave properly in the world, and I do not admit the accusation of improper behavior. If you insist on withholding my application for regularization because of this, I accept your decision, but I refuse to accept it."
"You don't agree with me, what do you want?" The counselor started to get a little annoyed by her words of privacy and disrespect. Whether to develop her is actually just a matter of his words. If he really wants to block her, not only because of her bad style, he can also find thousands of high-sounding reasons.
People under the eaves had to bow their heads. Lin Xian pursed his lips, water vapor gradually rose in his eyes, and his eye sockets were obviously a little red. She took a breath, lowered her head and said in a hoarse voice: "I can't do anything, I can only work harder to be myself, so that the teacher can see that your decision is wrong." She didn't dare to confront him, I'm afraid it will be troublesome for him to contact Zhou Qin if he gets angry.
"Teacher, if there is nothing else, I want to go back first." The girl seemed a little disheartened.
Seeing that Lin Xian had softened, the counselor softened again. Obviously, there was nothing to be asked from Lin Xian's mouth. He frowned, and waved at Lin Xian displeasedly, agreeing her to leave.
No matter how much homosexuality dances, it is against common sense. He does not object, but he definitely does not support it. Lin Xian's answer was very ambiguous, he neither admitted nor denied, he was a little uncertain. In his heart, he didn't want to believe it. After all, Lin Xian's performance in school was always normal. He called Lin Xian, not just because of this one quota of regularization, but because he cherishes his talents. He didn't want such a promising student to ruin his future because of his sexual orientation.
He believes that there are no real homosexuals, but more unconventional people who are unconventional and chasing trends for a while. At Lin Xian's age, he is an adult if he says he is an adult, but he is still a child if he says he is a child. As a child, it is easy to make friends and be taken astray. As a teacher, I have the responsibility and obligation to bring her back on track.
The moment Lin Xian walked out of the counselor's office, a tear fell from the corner of his eye in embarrassment uncontrollably. She turned her back and walked quickly towards the corner where no one was there, then raised her hand and quickly wiped away the tears that gushed out. The fists she kept tightly in her pockets were clenched.
What a bad style of work. It turned out that all her hard work and achievements were no match for a prejudice, and they could all be burned in such a few words. Just because of their different sexual orientations, can these majority people condescendingly accuse her of unwarranted crimes? Why are there such narrow-minded people in this world
She wanted to blow that self-righteous man with her fist just now, but she still had to endure it rationally. The situation is stronger than people, he is a teacher, she is a student, and she needs to be under him for two years. When things get serious, for her, there are only disadvantages but no advantages.
However, her whole heart ached with anger and unwillingness to burn.
Why
It's just that you love someone, why do others have the right to point fingers like this? They have been very tolerant, and have been forced to love in secret. They have already tolerated so much, why are these people still aggressive
Lin Xian is not only wronged for herself, she is also wronged for her Xiao Panpan. It was just the first time she had suffered such scorn and unfair treatment because of her sexual orientation, and she was already outraged. Where is her Xiao Panpan? Her Xiao Panpan walked all the way, how much wronged should she have suffered
Before the stinging eyes like poisonous needles fell on her, Lin Xian thought she was someone who didn't care about other people's eyes. Only when she experienced it did she realize that malicious gazes can be more painful than imagined if they have substance. It makes people so sad, embarrassed, angry, but powerless.
She thought of the difference between Xiao Panpan and her, not only the same gender, but also the age gap and the confusion of generations. No matter which one is singled out, it will probably be able to set off a hurricane in the hearts of these narrow-minded people. Her Xiao Panpan must have realized this earlier and more deeply than she did, and also realized earlier and more deeply how hard it would be to be with herself.
She began to truly understand what Xiao Panpan said when she pushed her away every time at the first time, and began to truly understand Xiao Panpan's worries and pressures all the time, and she also understood more and more how much Xiao Panpan loved her.
It doesn't matter how she is, it's just a little bit sad, just a little bit angry. She doesn't bother to associate with narrow-minded people, and she doesn't bother to join narrow-minded organizations. Except for Xiao Panpan, there is nothing that is necessary for her.
But her Xiao Panpan is not, Xiao Panpan does not have such a strong and tough heart as her. What should she do? When the storm really came, what should she do to better protect her Xiao Panpan and prevent her from being hurt
For the first time, Lin Xian realized how weak and powerless he was.
When she returned to the classroom, she had already been in class for a while, and as soon as she sat down, Shi Man noticed that her face was unusually pale, frighteningly pale.
"What's wrong with you? What did the counselor tell you to say?" Shi Man asked in a low voice, suppressing his voice.
Lin Xian sighed for a long time, took out his phone, opened the notepad page, and briefly outlined the whole story.
"Which despicable villain is such a shady person behind his back." Shi Man couldn't help but cursed out of righteous indignation. She frowned, and typed on the keyboard: "Do you have a general idea to guess who it is?" A fierce color flashed in her eyes.
Lin Xian shook her head: "It should be the same person who voted against." In fact, she had guessed before that who might vote against it. But now, she was a little uncertain again. After all, the only people who know that she likes Xiao Wanqing are the few people who are close to her. From the perspective of outsiders who don't know, it is impossible to guess her relationship with Xiao Panpan to this level. Fortunately, from the counselor's words, it seems that the other party did not disclose her relationship with Xiao Wanqing. In a high probability, the other party should not know her relationship with Xiao Wanqing. But she was able to identify her as gay so accurately, she couldn't think of anyone.
But maybe that's not the most important thing. This is more like a wake-up call for Lin Xian, making her realize the arduous road ahead for her and Xiao Panpan from the excessive optimism in the past.
It turns out that there is really another part of such narrow-minded and prejudiced people in this world. They can be stronger and ignore the narrowness of others, but what if it is the narrowness of someone close to them? What if her parents, like Xiao Panpan's parents, couldn't accept it for a while
For the whole class, Lin Xian didn't pay attention to the lecture. Because the people around her have accepted her orientation and her relationship with Xiao Panpan well, she used to have the idea that the boat will be straight and smooth, and she always feels that everything will not be too much. Oops. But now, her mind is full of things that she has never seriously thought about before, so she should have made plans earlier. How she should plan her future path is the best for Xiao Panpan and their love.
No matter how upset you are, life still has to be lived. In the evening, Lin Xian had a tutor, so she put away her heavy thoughts and did what she was supposed to do.
At 9:30 in the night, when she returned home exhausted physically and mentally, and saw the gentle woman waiting for her with a smile under the lamplight in the living room, Lin Xian's eyes were moist for a moment.
Like a small boat, after going through a storm outside, it finally sailed into a harbor that made her feel at ease. It doesn't matter how stormy it is outside, as long as she can come back here, she won't be afraid of anything.
She took a sniff, and threw herself on Xiao Wanqing's body in three steps at a time, hugging her slender body tightly, like hugging her whole world.
Xiao Wanqing keenly sensed that Lin Xian's mood was not right, she gently hugged the girl back, carefully kissed her cheek to comfort her, and asked her softly: "Xianxian, what's wrong?"
Lin Xian said distressedly: "Xiao Panpan, did I let you work hard alone for a long time?"