"Xiao Panpan, did I let you work hard alone for a long time?"
Xiao Wanqing was slightly taken aback when she heard the words. While gently taking the girl to sit on her lap, she cared keenly: "Xianxian, what's wrong?"
The girl hooked her neck, sat on her legs, stared at her big eyes with a rare sadness and depression, Xiao Wanqing felt distressed. She kissed the tip of Lin Xian's nose and coaxed her: "No, how can I be lonely with you by my side. Why do you think so suddenly?"
Lin Xian stared at his lover's gentle face, and his gloomy eyes regained some brilliance. She hugged Xiao Wanqing's neck lovingly, leaned on Xiao Wanqing's shoulder and mumbled: "I just suddenly felt that I was so young and naive before, self-righteous, and didn't know how to understand you at all, and let you work so hard alone. For a long time." She didn't plan to tell Xiao Wanqing about the school, Panpan was very thoughtful, she was afraid that she would think too much at once, and take the responsibility and pressure on herself, which would only add to the trouble.
"Xianxian, you are still young now. But in my heart, you have done a good job and can score ninety-nine points." Xiao Wanqing rubbed her head with her cheek.
"Eh? Why not 100 points?" Lin Xian suddenly pulled himself together, sat up straight and asked in surprise.
Xiao Wanqing laughed softly, scratched her nose, and said amusedly: "Just now you thought that you were not good enough before, why do you feel that you are worthy of 100 points now?"
"The point deducted is the reserved point I reserved for fear of revealing that I like you too much." Xiao Wanqing stared at Lin Xian's eyes, and under her unblinking gaze, she leaned close to her ear, smiling Exhaling hot air, he said in a low and gentle manner.
It's not in her character to show it so bluntly, but she really wants Lin Xian to know that she has done a good job. She wants to learn from Lin Xian and learn to express more; imagine what Lin Xian did to her, in Lin Xian
When Xian is sad, coax her to be more happy. As soon as the words came out, a shy blush appeared on Xiao Wanqing's face.
Lin Xian felt her heartbeat start to speed up in an instant following Xiao Wanqing's words. Her throat slid, and she couldn't help but tilt her head, and the passionate kiss slid from Xiao Wanqing's cheek to her red lips.
However, Xiao Wanqing leaned back mischievously when she just licked it lightly. The woman charmingly brushed the hair falling down her cheeks, blinked, and said softly, "So Xianxian, you haven't told me why you suddenly think of yourself so much today?"
Lin Xian couldn't get a kiss, so he had no choice but to lick his lips, and smiled helplessly against Xiao Wanqing's forehead: "Maybe I came to my aunt today, and my mood fluctuated a lot, so I couldn't help being sentimental."
This answer was beyond Xiao Wanqing's expectation. As if thinking of something, she couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"What are you laughing at?"
Xiao Wanqing raised her hand to straighten Lin Xian's fine bangs, with a look of nostalgia in her eyes, she replied softly: "I just remembered the first time we went to the supermarket together. At that time, buying sanitary napkins was very shy Lin Xiaoxian, now, he can talk about this matter so gracefully."
Thinking of himself at that time, Lin Xian couldn't help feeling a little emotional. It's only been a year, but it feels like a lifetime ago. My 17-year-old self and my 18-year-old soon-to-be 19-year-old self have completely changed, and their moods are completely different.
She hooked the corners of her lips, pecked Xiao Wanqing's lips again in a sudden attack, and responded with warmth at the corners of her brows and eyes: "Because, I have you now."
"Xiao Panpan, the real child who used to hide behind you and seek your protection has grown up. In the future, she will slowly grow into a big tree with luxuriant branches and leaves that can protect you from wind and rain. You can understand her , but you have to treat her like an ordinary lover, trust her, rely on her, and even ask her. Don't support yourself and make yourself too hard, okay?" Lin Xian promised with gentle and firm eyes.
Xiao Wanqing's arms around Lin Xian's waist gradually tightened, and there seemed to be a clear spring rippling in her eyes, which was tender and affectionate. After a while, her eye circles were a little red, but there was a little smile at the end of her eyes, and she responded to Lin Xian in a deep voice: "Xianxian, can I give you one hundred and one points?"
"What's an extra point?"
"It's because I like your selfishness too much." Xiao Wanqing replied softly with downcast eyes. Not an ordinary lover, her Lin Xian is not ordinary at all.
It was a little past ten o'clock, Xiao Wanqing was drying her hair after taking a shower, and Lin Xian hadn't come out of the bathroom yet.
On the bedside table, Lin Xian's mobile phone suddenly began to vibrate rapidly, and the screen flashed with the words "Shiman".
Without hesitation, Xiao Wanqing put down the hair dryer, grabbed her cell phone and walked to Lin Xian's bathroom. She gently knocked on the door and told Lin Xian: "Xianxian, are you almost done washing? Manman called you."
"I haven't washed the bubbles in my hair yet, are they still ringing? You can pick them up for me first." The girl's voice came muffled from the room through the door.
"Okay." Xiao Wanqing agreed. She just swiped the screen and clicked to answer, but the incoming call was automatically hung up because the ringing timed out.
There was an automatic SMS reply to the missed call, and Xiao Wanqing was about to help Lin Xian to reply automatically when she said "I'm taking a shower, I'll get back to you later." A WeChat pop-up window jumped out on the screen one step faster than her.
Still full.
The information was not displayed completely, Xiao Wanqing could only see Shi Man and said: "Xian Xian, I know who is the villain behind you."
Xiao Wanqing felt a "thump" in her heart. The information contained in this sentence is shocking.
She frowned slowly, thinking back to Lin Xian's depression when he just came back, it is not difficult to guess that Lin Xian must have something unhappy that happened today that he didn't tell her.
She really wanted to click through the messages that Shiman kept sending to understand the whole story, but she restrained herself rationally. This is Lin Xian's privacy, and she has no right to check it without Lin Xian's knowledge.
She locked the screen, and said to Lin Xian: "The ringer automatically hung up, and Manman changed it to send you a WeChat message. Can you reply to her after you finish washing?"
"Okay, I'll be fine soon." The girl replied briskly. Xiao Wanqing's heart slowly became heavy.
When Lin Xian returned to the bedroom, Xiao Wanqing was sitting on the bed reading a book. When she saw Lin Xian came in, she paused slightly when she turned the pages. The next second, she pursed her lips, closed the book, and clasped her hands unconsciously. She turned her head sideways, watching the girl lift the quilt and climb into the bed with deep eyes.
"Xianxian, when Manman sent you a WeChat message just now, a pop-up window popped up automatically, and I saw something." Xiao Wanqing confessed.
Lin Xian grinned disapprovingly and said, "It's okay. Idiot, you can't see what I have."
Xiao Wanqing narrowed her eyes and continued: "I saw her say that she knows who is behind your back."
Lin Xian's brisk expression suddenly changed.
Xiao Wanqing knew that her guess might be right, and her heart sank even more. She clasped Lin Xian's slender five fingers with five fingers, ten fingers intertwined, and asked sincerely in a low tone: "Xianxian, can you tell me what happened?"
Lin Xian frowned, bit her lip and looked at Xiao Wanqing, hesitating. After a while, she took a deep breath, leaned forward and kissed Xiao Wanqing, and asked softly: "Promise me first, after I tell you, don't think too much, okay?"
Xiao Wanqing blinked her eyes, and seriously agreed: "Okay."
Lin Xian simply narrated to her: "Actually, it's not a big deal. Didn't there be a regularization meeting before the holiday? Today, the counselor suddenly talked to me, saying that some classmates said that my style of work is not correct, and that I should not be recognized by the party organization. , I went to explain it. Then Manman should help me find the person who complained."
"Unhealthy style?" Xiao Wanqing and Lin Xian were equally at a loss when they heard this word. She couldn't imagine how this word could be associated with her Lin Xian.
Lin Xian didn't want to deceive Xiao Wanqing, but she was also afraid that this incident would bring unnecessary harm and pressure to Xiao Wanqing. She frowned, hesitated for a while, and finally said euphemistically: "The other party seems to know that I like girls, but she doesn't know that I like girls. It's your business. She told the counselor that I like girls because I have a bad style."
Xiao Wanqing's face turned pale in an instant, and the blood faded away. The gossip and pointing images of those who didn't understand in the past suddenly flashed in her mind and rang repeatedly in her ears. She thought of the opportunities, honors, and even the value of her classmates, friends, and relatives that she had lost and deprived of.
Xiao Wanqing's voice was visibly trembling, and she asked Lin Xian: "Xianxian, have you... admitted it?" No, Lin Xian, don't be impulsive, don't admit it. Those nightmares must not happen to her Lin Xian. Lin Xian must never walk the road she walked.
"I didn't admit it." Just as Xiao Wanqing breathed a sigh of relief, Lin Xian twitched the corner of her mouth and continued: "But I didn't deny it either."
"Lin Xian..." Xiao Wanqing called her name in a panic.
"Xiao Panpan, I will never deny our feelings." Lin Xian stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around the worry-eyed beautiful woman, and said firmly.
Lin Xian is too naive, too brave, and too much like himself when he was young. Xiao Wanqing pressed against the girl's fiery chest, panic, helplessness, and distress filled her heart, stimulating her tears to fall.
"Xianxian, it's because I didn't protect you well." The woman choked up and blamed herself.
"Xiao Panpan, you promised me that you won't think too much. What does this have to do with you?" Lin Xian gently wiped her tears and said distressedly.
She said: "Panpan, I have to blame myself. I just realized today how naive and taken it for granted I was before, and how much pressure I put on you alone. I kept saying that I wanted to protect you, but I have been hiding under your protection all the time, innocently and with peace of mind."
"Actually, it's good that this happened. At least, it made me understand something, let me know what to do, so that I can love you better and protect you better."
"Lin Xian, I don't need your protection, I just want you to protect yourself." Xiao Wanqing said guiltily as she stroked Lin Xian's still green face. Lin Xian is not yet 20 years old, this is not something she should consider at her age.
Xiao Wanqing was afraid, and she was afraid. Today, this classmate can report Lin Xian to the counselor, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, when will this classmate spread the matter widely. There are naturally enlightened teachers and classmates in Jingnanli, but there are also diehards with narrow prejudices. What should she do to protect Lin Xian and prevent Lin Xian's future from being affected by her and this relationship.
"Xianxian, let's study abroad." She finally said this sentence that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time and was reluctant to say it.
Lin Xian likes girls, so the general environment abroad is better than domestic ones. In the long run, going abroad is the best way no matter for Lin Xian's major or Lin Xian's future emotional life.
Xiao Wanqing choked her throat, and promised: "Xianxian, go and walk the way you should go. I will always wait for you to come back here, or, if you don't come back, I can go to you when the time is right." If, at that time, you still need me. She made up sadly in her heart.
But Lin Xian rubbed her cheek, shook his head and said, "I won't go. Xiao Panpan, there is only one way in my life, and that is to go to you."
"Panpan, if I tell you that I'm not a particularly ambitious person, will you dislike me? Going abroad is the path my parents planned for me, and it's never what I really want to go. Even if one day you want to go abroad, it will be one day you want to go abroad, let us go together. Wherever you are, where home is, I will be there." Xiao Wanqing is not fair at all to go abroad, she doesn't want to, and she can't let Xiao Wanqing gave up everything in China for her, and went abroad to start from scratch.
Wherever you are, where is home, I will be there. In an instant, Xiao Wanqing's tears overflowed violently again, her throat choked with pain.
"But Xianxian, it will be very hard and tiring." Xiao Wanqing bit her lower lip tightly and said tremblingly with red eyes.
"Study is actually very tiring, and work is even more tiring. In life, there will be a certain amount of hard work in pursuit of anything. But when you achieve the results you want, all the tiredness will disappear, leaving only satisfaction and happiness Therefore, we will tirelessly pursue. Xiao Panpan, I am not tired at all. Loving you and being with you is my greatest pursuit. As long as you love me and be with me, my satisfaction and happiness will be Overwhelmed everything."
Xiao Wanqing was moved.
"Panpan, I've made up my mind. I'll resign when they find a classmate to take over from the tutor in the past two weeks. I also thought about what Aunt Wen said last time. I won't go abroad, but I will get a job as an undergraduate. Yes, there will be certain restrictions. So, Panpan, please wait for me for two more years, okay? My current grades are enough, and I will continue to work hard next year and strive for postgraduate education. At that time, I can stay in Jingnan or Nancai. It can be regarded as a two-handed preparation. On the sideline side, I picked up the novels, continued to submit short stories to magazines, and tried to write long stories. If the pen name can be raised, there should be certain prospects. As for my parents’ ideological work, from now on At the beginning, I slowly let go of the signal and started to do it. I will try my best to get rid of the financial constraints of my parents as soon as possible, so that they can see my growth and maturity."
"Panpan, you are my struggle and pursuit. With you, I can become a better version of myself. I am not afraid that there will be hard work along the way. What I am most afraid of is that the pursuit and hard work will have no results. So, Panpan , you don’t want me to work hard, so stop thinking about letting me walk alone. Believe with me, work hard together, and make this journey out of the flowers, okay?” The girl hugged her and looked at her eyes, which were brighter than the stars. But also bright.
Staring at her young and firm face, Xiao Wanqing seemed to have thousands of words in her heart, but in the end, only a clumsy and emotional sentence: "Lin Xian, I love you." She couldn't restrain the rising and falling love in her chest, He circled Lin Xian and kissed her lingeringly.