After Lin Xian left, this once warm and joyful paradise became her calm and lonely world again.
Xiao Wanqing suppressed her crying, and leaned against the closed security door in embarrassment, her eyes were red. Her hair was messy and sticking to her tear-wet red and swollen cheeks. She hugged her knees with her arms and buried her head in them, feeling aggrieved and helpless like a child.
After a long time, she finally forced herself to suppress the fragile crying that she shouldn't have at this age. Her body was still trembling from the crying just now, and her brain had slowly regained its rationality under the deliberate suppression.
Zhou Qin's physical condition was not right just now, Xiao Wanqing was very uneasy and worried.
She leaned on the wall and stood up staggeringly, suddenly felt nauseous, and retched uncomfortably until tears oozed from the corners of her eyes. After finally calming down, she struggled to go back to the bedroom, call Lin Xian, or send a text message to ask about the situation. The next moment, she belatedly remembered that Lin Xian had left too hastily just now, and didn't bring her mobile phone with her at all.
She was going to be unable to contact Lin Xian... This kind of cognition made Xiao Wanqing's whole heart feel as if it had been hollowed out in an instant, and her whole body trembled in panic and emptiness. The roar in her ears seemed to be getting more and more frenzied, and she felt like vomiting again.
Will not. She continued to walk towards the bedroom with heavy steps, whispering softly to comfort herself.
In the bedroom, in the group photo on the bedside, she and Lin Xian smiled brightly. Xiao Wanqing leaned on the bed and half fell down, holding the pillow that Lin Xian had slept on with both hands, resting her chin on it, breathing in the breath left by Lin Xian with nostalgia, and looking at the pillow rubbed by her fingertips with moist eyes. Taking a photo together, my throat is choked and hurts.
She was wrong, she failed Zhou Qin's trust, I'm sorry Zhou Qin. It is understandable for Zhou Qin to blame her and accuse her. The scene that had appeared countless times in the nightmare finally came true, like self-torture, Xiao Wanqing couldn't help replaying Zhou Qin's disappointed and disgusted eyes and words just now in her mind, the sense of guilt and self-loathing made her seem like a whole person. Being roasted on the fire, life is worse than death.
It was already a mistake for her to be with Lin Xian, and it was even more wrong for her not to keep the boundary line and to have a momentary pleasure with Lin Xian. The look in Zhou Qin's eyes even made her feel that she was so dirty that she defiled the clean Lin Xian.
However, like a moth to a flame, even though he died, he did not regret it. Knowing that there are thousands of mistakes, and knowing that there are thousands of things that should not be done, she still has no choice but to love Lin Xian.
Giving up is harder than holding on. She just thought of Lin Xian's determined face, and thought of giving up the idea of escaping, and she felt heart-piercing pain.
Obviously, like all other couples in this world, they are sincerely in love, living hard, and earnestly looking forward to why they should die in the cold night before dawn.
Maybe she is not the most suitable person for Lin Xian, but apart from her parents and relatives, she swears that she will be the person who loves Lin Xian the most in this world.
I'm not reconciled... Xiao Wanqing couldn't hold back, and once again cried out of grievance and was out of breath.
She closed her eyes tiredly, and the scenes with Lin Xian played back in her mind, happy and sad, crying or laughing, these are the most precious and inseparable treasures she has harvested in her life.
Just treat her as shameless, making mistakes again and again. Xiao Wanqing's lower lip was bitten too hard, and a little bit of blood oozes out, but she doesn't notice it. After a while, she sniffled, with a calm face and firm eyes, she helped the bedside table to get out of bed, slowly took the clothes from the closet, and went to the bathroom to comb herself.
The redness and swelling on the face could not be covered even with heavy makeup. Xiao Wanqing pursed her lips, smiled wryly, and gave up.
She changed her clothes, tidied her hair, and then took a mask from the top of the cabinet. Regardless of the pain caused by the mask rubbing against her skin, she blocked most of her face, only a pair of which were wet and red bright eyes.
She took the bag, took the car keys, held the doorknob tightly with her slender hands, hesitated for a moment at the door, and finally, she turned the handle hard, opened the door, and faced Lin Xian and their fragility without hesitation. And strong love advances.
She didn't know what Lin Xian would bear when she returned home, but she couldn't let Lin Xian bear it alone.
This time, Xiao Wanqing could only walk alone on this long avenue from the South District to the North District. In the first half of the road, I took Lin Xian along once on her birthday last time. In the back, Xiao Wanqing hadn't set foot on the road leading to Lin's house and passing by her house for many years.
The roads have been diverted and widened several times, and the houses have been demolished and rebuilt several times. Everything is completely different from what she remembers deeply. After walking the road she once walked with Lin Xian, Xiao Wanqing stopped at the road fork, looked at the endless traffic coming from all directions, and the hurrying people on both sides of the road, suddenly she was at a loss.
After all, she didn't know the way home and was a homeless person. In an instant, Xiao Wanqing's heart seemed to be completely broken, and she burst into tears silently.
She was so frightened and panicked that she even wanted to escape again, escape from this terrible reality, escape from this nightmare that had haunted her for many years. But this time, she can't, her girl is still waiting for her.
Holding her breath and holding back her sobs, she turned on the navigation with trembling hands, and awkwardly entered the name of the place that she should be most familiar with, but now it was so strange that she couldn't find it. She looked at the zigzag lines on the navigation, then at the empty passenger seat beside her, wiped away her tears, and set off again.
When the car passed by the avenue leading to her house that she had walked countless times when she was young, and dreamed countless times when the pillow was wet with tears at midnight, she raised her head and looked at the innermost house in the community from a distance, with a sharp heart. Trembling.
At this moment, with this feeling, she couldn't help but think back to the scene when she left home that year, the desperate and angry faces of her parents and Zhou Qin that year, and herself who was as firm and persistent as Lin Xian at that time . She clenched the steering wheel tightly, her nose was sore, and suddenly she didn't know whether she was right or wrong in going here.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry to make her selfish again, let her fight for it again.
Relying on her memory, she drove into the community where the Lin family was located and parked the car. Sitting in the car, she rubbed her palms together for a long time before making up her mind and walking to Lin Xian's house.
As the elevator floor went up, Xiao Wanqing's exposed eyes became more and more uneasy, but also more and more determined. Standing in front of the closed door of Lin's house, she unconsciously clenched one hand into a fist, and slowly raised the other hand to ring the doorbell.
The crisp doorbell rang in the quiet and deserted corridor, which was inexplicably intrusive. Xiao Wanqing's lips were tightly pressed under the mask, and her waist was straight.
She was prepared to face the anger and blame after opening the door, and was even prepared to enter with a stern face no matter what.
However, a few disturbing seconds passed, and the door remained motionless, knocking around, silently.
Xiao Wanqing frowned, raised her hand again hesitantly, and rang the doorbell. With her uninjured and tinnitus ear upright, she focused on the movement in the room.
After a few seconds, there was no sound of footsteps in the room, and there was still no one responding.
Xiao Wanqing's finger clasped on the doorbell button gradually shrank into a fist.
There were no footsteps, and it looked like no one was home at all. However, it's been so long, it's impossible that they haven't arrived home yet.
She thought of Zhou Qin's state when she left, and a terrifying thought flashed through her mind, making her eyes widen for a moment.
She didn't care about other things, she hurriedly took out the phone from her bag, swiped the lock screen with her fingertips in a panic, and dialed Zhou Qin's phone.
The moment she dialed, she heard the rhythmic mechanical beep at the other end, and then she remembered who she had dialed. But everything is no match for her worry about Zhou Qin and Lin Xian at the moment. She suppressed her fear and shame, looking forward to the call being connected, and Zhou Qin's angry scolding voice ringing in her ears.
The ringing continued, the phone was not cut off, but it was not picked up either. Xiao Wanqing's heart was hanging high, up and down
Just a few seconds before the ringing was about to hang up automatically, the call was finally connected.
Xiao Wanqing's heart fell to the ground in an instant, and there was a slight comforting smile on the corners of her lips. When she opened her mouth, she realized that her voice was choked and hoarse: "Sister..."
"It's me, Lin Zhan." The deep male voice she didn't expect rang from the other end of the phone.
Xiao Wanqing's heart skipped a beat, and she seemed to be frozen. An ominous premonition rose in her heart, and she murmured in a trembling voice: "Sister..."
"She was fainted by Lin Xian on the way back, and she just came to the rescue, and she will be checked when she stabilizes." Lin Zhan replied in a low voice.
His heart was still pounding at the moment, and he couldn't describe the fear and panic he felt when he received the crying call from Lin Xian. Fortunately, the person collapsed at the door of the hospital, and was rescued in time. He woke up soon, with normal consciousness and articulate speech, but after all, he was too tired and fell asleep again.
The thing Xiao Wanqing feared the most finally happened. She waited for Lin Zhan's answer without daring to blink. When she heard Lin Zhan's words, she seemed to lose her strength, and her body collapsed uncontrollably. Her shoulder hit the door frame hard before she stabilized her body.
Severe pain hit her, but she didn't even have the instinct to cry out for pain. Fear, worry, self-blame, and shame overwhelmed her heart. She pinched her painful shoulders like self-punishment, and choked up with self-blame: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault. Lin Brother Zhan, how is sister? Where are you?"
The doctor preliminarily concluded that Zhou Qin should have fainted due to hypoglycemia and myocardial ischemia, and asked Zhou Qin if he had a history of coronary heart disease, but to be more specific, he still had to wait for further systemic examinations. At this moment, what Zhou Qin needs is rest, to maintain a peaceful mind and a stable mood.
After listening to Lin Xian's intermittent briefing, Lin Zhan was stunned. For a moment, his heart was filled with the same anger and disappointment as Zhou Qin's. His veins burst out of anger, and he raised his hand to the wall fiercely. punch. He was angry with Lin Xian and Xiao Wanqing for disregarding ethics, and even more angry that Lin Xian didn't feel sorry for Zhou Qin and made Zhou Qin like this. But after the pain passed, he looked at his daughter who was worried about Zhou Qin just like him, and his heart gradually softened again.
He has no prejudice against gays. He doesn't want Lin Xian to like the same sex, but if Lin Xian really has to be a girl, he can't accept it. But he couldn't accept it, couldn't accept Lin Xian making Zhou Qin angry for himself, couldn't accept Lin Xian being so impulsive and selfish.
Besides, Lin Xian is only so old now, does she really know what liking is and love is? Is she really sure that if she is gay, she won't like boys anymore
After all, it was his daughter, and Xiao Wanqing was also the sister he grew up with. He was still facing them all the time, unable to say anything too harsh.
Lin Zhan twisted his sword eyebrows, and said in a tired and low voice: "Qinqin needs to maintain a stable mood, you are not suitable to come here now." He paused for a while, but he still had resentment, and said in a low tone and coldly: "Xiao Wan, I'm serious I didn't expect you to be like this. I am very disappointed in you."
Lin Zhan has always been kind and gentle. When he was young, he was much older than Xiao Wanqing. He teased and played with her when she was young, and loved him like his own sister. After growing up, men and women are different and alienated a little, but he has always been like a gentle and reliable brother, whenever there is a need, he is obliged to stand up and help her.
His calm and restrained words pierced through the air like sharp arrows, piercing into Xiao Wanqing's heart fiercely and precisely, bringing heart-wrenching pain.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm the one who's sorry for you..." Xiao Wanqing let go of her already bruised shoulders, knelt down weakly, and burst into sobs.
"Dad..." Lin Xian stood up from the seat in the aisle upon hearing this, looked at him with red eyes, pulled his forearm and begged him sobbingly: "Dad, don't talk about it, she is also very sad, which of us None of us want this, we all don't want to..." At the end of the words, his voice was already choked up.
Lin Zhan felt pain in his heart, he turned his eyes away, and sighed a long time, after all, he didn't say anything, left a sentence of "Come back in a few days", and then hung up the phone.